It's been about two weeks since the wedding, and my lip has returned to its normal state. I can't say I'm not pleased.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAtOdCdc0G
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I haven't seen David since the morning after the wedding; I've had at least one photo shoot each day, which is a 180 from the level of struggles that I was facing not even four months ago.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfP9MJbj309
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As I walk to the kitchen in my small apartment, I begin to wonder... what does David do? He's never told me. He must have a pretty good job to own two houses, but somehow, I've been fuckíng the man for weeks now and I still don't know.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9dqnL6EnX
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I shrug off the thought, and reach up to open the cabinet and pull down the jar of Jablum Instant Coffee, I feel a sharp pain in the left side of my pelvis.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS2LNh6lls
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"Fuck," I hiss, bending over.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7n8XwP8GAD
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This is what you get for not eating dinner last night. Gas pains.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8UeSaNAyz
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I straighten up and reach for the coffee again, this time retrieving it, and make myself a cup of steaming black coffee with scrambled eggs and bread along with it (I'm too lazy to do anything else).484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVfSG40Gm6
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So, back to David. What does he do? For some reason, I wouldn't be surprised if he was into some shady shit. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpDTSBjhvj
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Oh, well. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE4MHVEL3p
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I guess I'll just have to ask the next time I see him. I make a mental note to do so, and even though I'm extremely forgetful, I'm pretty sure that I'll remember this.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOA5TOzTMa
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After resolving to ask David about his occupation the next time we speak, I continue to eat, not really for the taste of the food, but rather out of necessity. It's something that happens to me sometimes — I don't feel the urge to eat, but I know that I have to do I force myself to.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pqEsRUgki
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On other occasions, I'm like a pig, consuming everything in sight until I feel as if I'm about to burst like that poor man at the end of 'Monty Python's The Meaning of Life'. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb8qeKG46h
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I have no idea why my eating patterns are so random — they aren't affected by my mood or period, they just seem inconsistent.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreWvPUwDxD
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After I finish and wash up the plates, I go back to my room and check my phone.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWhwQBWfFV
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I have two missed calls from none other than Marcus.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiX6erflFH
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"Answer your goddamn phone," he growls when I call him back.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOlF50B1lR
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"Whatever. Why are you calling me?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFU1BrIcDN3
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"You have a new job offering. It's an event. But—"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStGQoiZGKX
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"I—"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGjeQlvq8H
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"But—"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ530vp9EdCu
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"You—"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXhd2q1f3O
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"But," he says, drawing out the word so that I will let him continue.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlE7LFXPjQq
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I shut up.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiPjwV3Fjr
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"It's a free speaking/poetry open mic event. They're offering thirty thousand, because they're a little low on funding, but—"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0KOZtoElz
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"I'll go," I say before he can finish his sentence. I love poetry — and he knows it. I love reading it, I love writing it, I love hearing it. There's no way I'm passing up this opportunity.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6HuiQTAeg
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"Great. It's on Thursday coming at nine p.m. I'll text you the address and remember to get there early."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsiETodaWN
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"Yes, sir!" I say in mock salute.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJ8sVrsTHv
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I hear him laugh through the phone.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MedEZDuVT
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"By, Leah."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEL9APnyub
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"Bye."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR5wivnWIU
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I sigh as I hang up the phone. Today is Monday. What is it with all of the late bookings? 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnPk2AJKrG
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Well, at least you aren't broke anymore.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NoLNb1VuV
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With that optimistic thought in mind, I go back to the kitchen for another cup of coffee.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvXVZ6Y6JP
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Poetic Justice is a small, intimate setting. It is located outdoors, and has a small stage area with a few small tables and a bar located at the back.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGz8kQxzD4
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"Hello, you must be Leah," says a young woman who has just approached me, dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey blouse.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzqPysve6S
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"Good evening. Andrea, right?" I ask. That's the name Marcus gave me.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUtwMthcbx
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"Yes," she replies, and begins to walk, so naturally, I walk with her.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbAkDRQ40W
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"The bar is straight to the back. Have whatever you want; I've already told the bartender that your drinks are on the house. And feel free to come up and do a little poem; putting down the camera for five minutes won't hurt," she says with a smile, then turns and walks away.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZFEIgRDBk
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Well that's an odd offer. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOoCMogXke
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I sigh and place my camera bag on a table near to me and start to set up my camera.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OTNtqAkfy
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"Leah," I hear in a voice that is all to familiar.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjnxht3pyJ
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"David?" I reply, spinning to face him. "What are you doing here?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJdKPo6Qow
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"I come here all the time," he replies, his eyebrows knitted together, "and I love poetry."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZNwMlb06Y
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"So do I."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uXG8ZIO7H
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I now have my camera in my hand, and I remember the pressing question that I had for him.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqL7jiAQQH
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"What do you do for a living?" I blurt out.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfTkK5KMW6
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To be honest, I'm prepared to hear anything; from a drug dealer, to a pimp. I wouldn't judge him, though.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT3ZFD6ZvB
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"I'm a graphic designer."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j403i5XHv
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Well I wasn't expecting that.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyLFH3gvgO
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"I also sell ganja on the side. I have links with a ganja farmer."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRIY0cr7Jn
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That's more like it.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZX2X7szFr
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We stand there in silence for a few seconds, and then he clears his throat.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoe0IuMt48C
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"I have to, use the bathroom. See you later."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1sFsCq29O
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"Okay. Bye."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVKeGjwUqS
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He walks off and I go to the bar and get myself a glass of ginger ale. I stand idly by the bar for a few moments, and before I know it, Andrea is on the stage.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpEFHcTg8P
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"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Andrea, and tonight, I'll be your hostess. So as you are all probably aware, we are having a poetry/free speaking open mic event tonight. Who would like to go first?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUTaLT3tNf
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A young girl around my age walks awkwardly up to the stage, and performs a dramatic rendition of Dry Foot Bwoy by Louise Bennett.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iIeO87Epy
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As the night continues, I find myself being more and more entertained. One man performs a ballad inspired by his daughter; a young boy performs a free verse dedicated to his mother in the audience. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVIe0zlLEt
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Then, a tall gentleman steps onto the stage.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOjnD68d6e
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"Hello. My name is Henry."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlhEywAcdc
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People in the crowd say their greetings.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sZgOzE3zJ
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"Tonight, I will be performing a free verse poem I wrote."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7Muu50G49
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He clears his voice, then begins.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPhajMqCPv
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"Have you ever been in love?484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmz8eDEgI7
Had your soul so deeply entwined484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaNTw1qeTU
With another's484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fFcphszDE
That you cannot figure where yours ends484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYNmdpexxJ
And theirs begins?484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡes2QJkMm5k
So madly and deeply in love484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowJYkKCwZd
That that person's heart beats with yours;484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2TpreNEk5
Just looking at them is blinding; 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwMLDxdsmt
It's like staring at a supernova 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdd1IVwGwch
But you do it anyway484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKMjK1Vor3
Because when she's there484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA45ZpvlYS
Logic and Reason die."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvg7fA1yNE
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I feel my stomach curl with unease, tension filling my body, because I know that it's going to go downhill — I can feel it.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwPrThhIuA
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"Now imagine what it feels like 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDmtbY4zDM
To have that person484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNa5I8TeFiG
Ripped 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA1ypxay0F
From your life;484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8njOFXHOjc
Torn away from you.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JJZVhDwgZ
You can't breathe. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkqjEQEmlT
You're dead, yet you aren't,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcuo18hjZY
You still 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFiocDWf8S
Walk484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkThsZqtZVP
Talk484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRJM6sLrAZ
Interact 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJCCuY9ucG
With the people around you,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWxS2AQP8J
But on the on the inside, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76CAm5lspt
You're hollow;484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1V8WGKMktB
Dead."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMTOIwoOzC
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This is not how my night was supposed to go.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbmHURaHCO
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"It's been ten years,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwPlhp83y7
My love, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oqPaOGSKa
And every day, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklqE6aIb9L
Every hour, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jVt6WMREY
Every second without you 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQQaWzRxO5
Feels like 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIg5F0RbL49
Torture."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePfA8bj2mk
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By now, I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to leave, but as I look through the viewfinder of my camera, I know more than anything that I can't.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKqroftcvC
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"I would ask for 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1DyjhS7n3
Forgiveness,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJPJM5MrJ5
But I can see that you've... 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSS4deSfPIA
Moved on, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxhCSsnwa0
And found happiness elsewhere. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvevbeWu3mN
And I have to live484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6MepRSr7d
With the consequences 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilYm7hDw6S
Of my stupid actions 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8OhH3LmXc
For the rest of my life. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeImnOetb1
I have to live with this 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsaE1iI1GE
Torture, 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRXKFNFuOh
This 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XuLXfHJih
Pain,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIj3ApT58jf
Because I have never stopped,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCRVwics2n
Loving 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGUf4jgNLk
You,484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYoe7hM4ul
And I don't think I ever will."484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRMG4X5Qb0
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By the end of the poem, I feel like I might drop my camera.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURitMqqlA1
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All of the emotions that I have been trying to surprises come rushing forward as Henry says his poem, because I know exactly what that feels like. I don't want to remember it, but I do.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjCbSU9Unt
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Tears fill and spill over my eyes as the audience applaud Henry; I can no longer see Henry through the viewfinder of my camera.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8nIVYqahb
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This pain, this ache in my chest, this is what happens when you suppress your emotions, and pretend that your past is nonexistent, when you refuse to acknowledge what was once there.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GGtvFvIf1
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Pressing the ignore button on the past — repeatedly, in my case — is not only disrespectful to the highest degree, but also stupid, because the past won't change.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i3VU0fJFs
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The fact that I'm in a place called Poetic Justice and my stupidity has finally caught up to me isn't lost on me. How ironic.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBABfxbgN4W
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Suddenly, a strong arm is wrapped around me, and the camera is being taken out of my hand. I let out a broken sob into his chest as he rubs my back soothingly. I don't even know how long we stand there like this.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXn2vR4ZDQL
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In the back of my mind I know that I'm crossing a line, breaking my own rule letting him comfort me like this, but in this moment, I feel too broken to care.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BZiIqJYXG
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We finally pull apart, and he looks at me cautiously, as if I'll break.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwgLn9p4ZP
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"I'm okay," I say to reassure him.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wCJMH3C8c
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He doesn't look convinced.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQnsI26f3Z
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I look down at the ground and sigh, then look back at him. 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowk44TB8vg
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Then I realise he isn't holding my camera.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32WG5t1Q99
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"Where's my camera?" I ask frantically.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsXBjDAgFI
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He nods behind me, and I see my camera bag sitting on a table behind us. I sigh loudly in relief.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaFBJxe3Xa
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I look up at him, and maybe it's because of how vulnerable but safe I'm feeling with him right now, but what I say next just feels right.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDbd2D9bFj
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"I've been in love before; madly, madly, deeply in love," I say, my voice cracking all over the place. I take a shaky breath. "It hurts to think about what could have been; what will never be. I wanted to be a mother, to be the mother of his children." 484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPErRceLxU
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I'm hyperventilating.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQifMr6CxGy
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"Breathe, Leah. Take deep, steady breaths," he says to me while rubbing circles into my back.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRH0UbJ9iq
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When I finally calm down he speaks again.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuiDELCGX5
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"If you don't mind telling me... what happened?"484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHSEcg3sLh
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My chest starts to hurt, my eyes are burning, but I owe him an answer. I brought this up.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSOAbbX8tC
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I look him dead in the face as my eyes fill with tears once more.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlZkXLm4il
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"He died."
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