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February 14, 2005
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Same day
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I see her across the room. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKug78iQxU
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Of course I see her.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29pU1682Ze
I always see her.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMakOicPqcs
And she's just as fucking beautiful as always. Maybe even more so.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsK080NQpC
Damn it.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcn1o0xWbE
I need to stop looking at her. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhsc1kHYSf
This is fucking Valentine's Day. The Holiday for desperate chicks, so why the fuck am I sitting here alone?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCSILv3LWi
You already know the answer to that, you fucking idiot. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeriWKD9fQ3
Damn it.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eIk4ehOMC
I scan the room for the thousandth time. My gaze lands on her, like it always does. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIdUGtsr62
I want her so much, it physically hurts. I couldn't think about anyone else, even if I wanted to.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLXARdDwCx
I don't want to. I want her, only her. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb39VdhkFWy
But I fucked it up. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWNxLXEN4x
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Of course I fucked it up.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5K1JWPxtn
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Because I'm a fucking idiot.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4AMI9NQh1
And now she really hates me. She's been avoiding me this whole time. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡug3gsVdC3i
It feels like a fucking knife in my chest every time I see her and she's not near me.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFl7cpK3auq
I need to touch her soft skin. I want to kiss her sexy lips. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPf6iDUSCa
Can lips be sexy?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK06f9CJy4C
I don't know, but hers are. Everything about her is perfect. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1amsWfsDz0
I need her. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJx0B66yZhj
A blonde approaches me, Karen, I think. Fuck, I don't know. Who cares. She pushes her arms up in an attempt to display more of her tits and any other time, I would have been interested.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FAYA5NRdN
It's feels like that was another life. Everything feels so different now.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFZDCo5oRZ
"Hey Ben." She says my name like it's supposed to mean something, but I couldn't care less about what she wants.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThs26O5eFy
Oh shit, I think I may have fooled around with her before. Maybe?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7A1xPJDJKh
"Hey, sorry, I gotta go. See you around." I stand quickly without a plan of where to go, but I figure I can hide from everyone in my room. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmg2RRIFPN
Even her.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfYjGlGS2e
I close the door, locking everyone out and stumble to my bed in the dark. Shit, I drank too much trying to ignore the girl across the room. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f4MDNKnUl
I feel something strange as I lay down...778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17zIspTmEV
I'm not alone. Fuck! Who the hell is in my bed?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFHhgmxwjk
"Ben?" I hear her groggy voice and instantly relax. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGiiECnQhS
"Kat? What the fuck? You scared the hell out of me!" Why is she in my bed? Was she sleeping?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzgh8cFkVS
"What are you doing here?" Her confusion coming through her scratchy voice.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdzLGYxUKQ
"What do you mean? In case you forgot, this is my room." I'm too amused to be irritated. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy62GMDGew
"Oh." She seems to realize where she's at. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABMVczWL6T
"Oh." I chuckle. God, she's so fucking adorable.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHIs0Jayg1
"Sorry." I can hear the embarrassment in her voice and even though I can't see her in the dark, I know she's blushing. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwcTITdxwR
She moves, in a hurry to get up and probably run away from the asshole that I am. I need to make her stop. I don't want her to leave.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQASUMXwb3
"What are you doing in here, Kat?" I hope my question will be enough of a reason to stay at least a few minutes longer. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuJOAW7d2L
It's not. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWY6lEMIS4L
She stands up quickly, just as a crash sounds through the room. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmL5lXk8Jsx
"Oh shit! Ben, I think I knocked something over." I can hear her scurry around, feeling for whatever it was.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgd1Y6jJv6
I laugh. Nothing in my room is that important. "Don't worry about it, Kat."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVI7wG4fWwy
"Don't worry about it?!? I'm pretty sure there's broken glass down here!" She's frantically feeling around. She's going to get herself hurt.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfbIPkgaGv
"That's all the more reason to not feel around in the dark. Seriously, Kat. It's fine. Stop before you hurt yourself." I hear her sigh, but she stops her movement. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34wyylRtN9
"Now, tell me. What were you doing laying in my bed? Not that I'm complaining." Shit, that last part wasn't supposed to come out.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZck4YgB0fS
I feel the bed sink next to me as she sits down. "I just needed to... get away."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqomNK14sqJ
"I know the feeling." I sigh. What I don't say is I was mostly trying to get away from her.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwn9Fwuf2Y
"You do? You know what it feels like for all you friends to be in happy relationships and worried about you and your sad pathetic life?" She lets out a huff. Damn. I was not expecting that.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShOVpuNCIs
"Uh... Yes?" She gives a humorless chuckle and I can just see her eyes rolling. "Well, I mean, I kinda do. Actually. I guess I just never thought about it like that before."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMnKLfyAsT
"Oh." Well, that shut her up, which would usually be a good thing, but I'm not sure what the fuck to say.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gzZMMqUlv
I decide to use this moment to beg for her forgiveness. "Listen, I just want to say, I am really sorry. For everything. I know you're not a fan of starting over, but do you think maybe you could forgive me?"778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzjRG1hAy0
She scoffs. "Oh please, like its that easy. You don't even mean that."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OxvbUHcKr
"I do too. More than anything. What can I do to make it up to you?" I would do just about anything she asks, I just hope she does forgive me.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVry1YhJGA
"Nothing. There's nothing... at... all... Wait! I have an idea." I can hear the smile in her voice. Oh shit, why do I feel so nervous?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9Xes2LBig
She keeps talking, not waiting for my response. "Okay! Just hear me out before you say anything. Okay?"778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsEFzqYhR8
Again, I couldn't get a word in before she barrels on. "Okay. So, I think we should date."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlEFpfs7P2
I can't stop the sound that erupts from my chest. It's somewhere between a laugh and a choking sound. I'm so in shock that my body has broken.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7J40O3SHZ
"I-uh... You-what?" Words. What are words? 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDdjupux2q
"Okay, before you shut me down." I wasn't going to. "It's not real. We can just pretend to date."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDJlIMuYhH
"Why the fuck would we do that?" Okay, now I'm really confused.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98naykhvNy
"Because I really need this. And you said anything!" She throws my words back in my face.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYosRI8o6J
I groan and rub my hands down my face. What the fuck did I just get myself in to? 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AbULOf6sX
"Okay, okay. Just give me a minute... to... to..." To what? What the fuck is there to think about? I can't say no. "Just give me a minute to process... all of this."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstOStG3z7g
"Sure, take your time." I feel her shift on the bed as she lays down. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDEhJ64Yqm
"Make yourself at home." I half joke, because I honestly don't mind her laying in my bed.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoEgEXRHaa
She just giggles, stretching out to get comfortable. Damn. I really missed that sound. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdg6ulp1qe7
I missed everything about her.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXQshBjzf6
I'm going to have to do this. Pretend to be with the girl that I can't stop thinking about. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgCWasn4vP
Shouldn't be too hard to fake feelings, it's the keeping them fake part that's going to be a struggle. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKSiiK10aO
"Why exactly do you need this?" I have a right to know why we are doing this, don't l?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFV6xNvmu77
She sighs. "Does it really matter?" 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNIfIMy371
"Before I agree to your crazy scheme, I need to know why we are doing it in the first place." Why can't it just be real? Of course, I don't say that out loud because I'm a huge pussy.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9l3CiQOmu
"Okay, fair enough. Everyone has been treating me like I'm fragile since the whole... you know... happened." I lay down next to her on my back.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGC9YqCmBBD
"The whole you know?" I'm completely confused. What the fuck is she talking about? 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdO2iuCjEd
"You know... New Year's Eve?" She sounds embarrassed, but I still don't understand.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwEu2jmtFs
"Why would they treat you differently because of that?" Maybe I'm missing something?778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcN1QGTyqeR
"Uh... because of... what happened... with you." Shit. This is all because of me? 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sTqFDD0R3
"Oh... I didn't... I didn't know." I can't believe she has been struggling and it's all my fault.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2D2lz2BfNe
"So uhm... Yeah... They act like I'm going to break, so I'm sick of being pitied and worried about and I just want to be normal... And you can help with that. Two birds, one stone. You know?"778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYf26N0xmMM
"Uh, am I the birds or the stones here?" I chuckle. She's so weird sometimes. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46zQYqkW7Y
She laughs. "Well, I guess the stone."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElsG2j0osz
"Okay, so what are the birds?" I'm barely able to hold my laughter in to get the sentence out.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIFVpmbGMM
"Wait. No. That's wrong. You're a bird!" She sounds excited, like she's made a huge discovery or something.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcI63fyZ5mM
"So... I'm a bird now?" Seriously... She is the most adorable person I know.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91Tfp2uA8g
"Okay, everyone is worried about me because they think you broke my heart or whatever. So, bird one is you. And everyone pities me because I'm single. So, being a pathetic loser is bird two."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeI8FHcVcwk
I turn on my side to face her. "You are not a pathetic loser." Completely ignoring the fact she said I broke her heart.778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vsDcqYfmU
"I most certainly am. That's why I need this. If I can just throw the stone of our fake relationship at the birds, everything will be okay." Exhaustion fills her voice as she turns to face me. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOgOnq5URy
I can't help but notice we are only inches apart. I can feel her breath on my face. If I leaned forward a fraction of an inch, our noses would be touching. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQvwrgE6al
Shit. This is bad. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0D2GM5K1W
Faking it is going to be so hard. 778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UHZlYFpDq
"So... What do you say, Little Birdie? You in?" Her laugh echoing into the core of my being, reverberating and filling my chest.
I find her hand and pull it to my face, placing a kiss on it. "Let's throw that rock."778Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnr8KWtMzA8
I am so fucked.
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