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February 14, 2005756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95M4y5N8hR
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She doesn't believe me.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E8GVrckoW
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Of course she doesn't. Why would she? She sees me as a womanizing man-whore, which isn't completely untrue. But she doesn't know the truth.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVKjw0VOy6
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No one does. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZucWyO5Zy
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I plan to keep it that way. It's not like the truth would make anything better. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwVMXIuuci
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Well, not until now. Not until her.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCujag95iW
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But this is a fake relationship, so there's no need to come clean.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJYSlgRLTB
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She's not with me because she wants to be, she's with me because I'm an end to a means. Shit, that isn't right. I'm a means to an end. There we go.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUpeviIgGp
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Thank god I didn't say that out loud. She would have had my balls for that slip up.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjF2yeVwRlT
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I will have to make her see that I am not the guy she thinks I am. I can show her, just to prove a point, of course. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM3fT2ULuM
She obviously doesn't want to be with me for real. She's made it very clear that this is fake. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsRUYjA2zB
"Okay, we got off track a bit. Let's see, one was me not dating. Two was us not liking each other. And three was what again?" We blew through the first two pretty easily, I'm fairly confident the last one won't be that hard either.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7rtGfOiOb
"We have barely even looked at each other in the past month, so why would we suddenly start dating now?" Since I met her, I could barely stop myself from staring at her. Guess she wasn't looking at me, though. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YMxw1whrz
"Okay, well... for starters, that's completely untrue." At least on my part. "Besides, plenty of people start dating while barely knowing each other." 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9BrL0N3xy
"What's untrue, exactly?" All of your little reasons.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Z3XnSTAJV
"I definitely looked at you." Every second I was near you.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao4Mc7LIVD
"Okay, I didn't mean literally. I just mean, we haven't talked. We could barely stand to be in the same room together. So what changed?" She sounds annoyed. Shit. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzgg4qzBkv
"Well... You know... maybe the reason we couldn't stand to be in the same room together is because of our strong desire to be together, but we thought we couldn't be, so we avoided each other." Oh shoot. I didn't mean to be quite that honest.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bDGWplUo2
"Okay, maybe for me, but no one is going to believe that for you." If only she knew...756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwW2hgjsafY
"Sure they will. The guys teased me constantly for staring at you, so they will totally believe I was just pining after you." I immediately regret the words as soon as I say them. She's not going to believe me anyway and I sound like a total pussy.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lVkKXXfhU
I wait for her retort, but I hear nothing but a sharp intake of breath. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BqB96E4wi
I feel her nose brush against mine. She must have leaned forward accidentally... 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiksf5IkqMQ
But then her lips meet mine. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaYi5vl6Ui
The kiss is soft and delicate, just like her. It's sweet and completely her. It causes something to stir within my chest. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgGlHP6r6F
It makes me want more. And not just sex. I want more of everything. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAUv5GyjHg
Oh, so much more.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSToQiYYyT
Too bad this isn't real. She doesn't really want to be with me.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtBybFedfa
Fuck, I can't want more. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TYIIsbDij
She breaks off the kiss. "Oh god, that was dumb. I'm so sorry."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozkLIWE3M0
Why is she apologizing? 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV60lQUmVs7
"That was a good practice kiss." I try to reassure her, even though it's we killing me that this isn't real. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLm1wWvGUh
She releases a breath. She must be embarrassed. Shit, she's probably over thinking again. I need to stop her before she dumps my fake ass. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5d14S1cqW
As much as I hate pretending, not being around her would be so much worse. This past month has been hell. I tried to keep up appearances, flirting around, but my heart wasn't in it. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9uavq4SV1
A part of me kinda hoped it would make her jealous. Yeah, like that would ever happen. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjJ2Bim8O5
Just look at her. What does she have to be jealous of? She's fucking perfect.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhNS5WYZMv
Okay, time to distract her. "You know, we are going to have to be convincing, so we need to get used to doing coupley things."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPtv6g7TKx
"True..." She doesn't sound very convinced.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrrfKEr0PZ
"Okay, I think I know what will help." I try to sound less exhausted than I am. She needs reassurance more than I need sleep. "Let's play a game. We need to get to know each other."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufoA5dHr0U
"It's easy, just tell me something about you and I will tell you something about me." I know it's lame, but I couldn't come up with anything better. My brain is turning to mush from the alcohol and lack of sleep. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUJ5Kh5Gs7
"I think you misused the word 'game'." She giggles. Thank god, crisis averted.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCptXKFGBm
"Maybe." I laugh with her. "Just tell me something about you."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMH0oigYNo
"No way, your game. You go first." She slaps my arm with the hand I'm not holding. I don't even know why I grabbed it in the first place, it just felt natural, and now I don't want to let go. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcnyVgsOHQ
"Okay, give me a second to think." I hope something comes to me because my mind is completely blank.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pR4lM3UXb
"While you think, can I have my hand back?" She tugs her hand, but mine doesn't budge. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvn5FJ0eSc
"No way, this hand is mine now." I squeeze it tighter. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebswYbH1Ij
"I am actually going to need it though." I bring our clutched hands to my face to place a kiss on hers.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwxj2qkWna
"Nope. It's mine. You can't have it." She pulls a little harder, but I'm much stronger than she is. She's not getting it back unless I let it go.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeruZ0qZvt
"Ow. You're hurting me." I immediately release her hand, just before she begins to laugh.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ690Rva0U1K
"You little liar!" I hop up on my knees, to pin her down with one arm as my other hand tickles her side.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeOTjoHww6
She's squealing and begging me to stop. "Who knew you were so ticklish!" I move up to her armpit, continuing my assault.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b1jnmhNYj
"Stop! Stop! Okay, okay! Let's play your stupid game." Her breathing is heavy as she punches my chest with her little fists. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyJC5mFE8U
"Okay, Beautiful. Let's play, but..." I grab her hand again, locking our fingers together. "...this is still mine. I let it go under false pretenses."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3p4lEEwltc
She groans, but doesn't say anything. Oh right, I'm supposed to go first. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKh2YhsGZN2
Dammit. I really didn't think this through.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrRP0RnK1b
"Uhmm... I think we should change the game slightly. Ask me any question and I will answer honestly. Then you have to answer it too. We can take turns coming up with questions." Oh god, what a huge mistake. What if she asks something I can't answer.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRiOELTUf4h
Shit. Shit. Shit.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQ4x6XWN7k
"Okay... Let's start out easy. Tell me about your parents." This could be very bad. Why didn't I think of this?756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKEiSWIEJd
"They are pretty typical, you know, just parents." I didn't think she would start off here. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52wZGzjA5e
"That's it? Seriously?" She sounds disappointed, but I can't get into the truth.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYQldGI46w
"There's really not much to say. My dad runs Alexander-Murphy Enterprises, so he works all the time. My mom is great, but she wants me to get married and it's all she talks about when I see her." There, maybe that will be enough to switch topics. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0YA26XtON
"No way! Your dad runs AME? So, you're what like, super rich?" I was used to people referring to it by its acronym, but I didn't expect Kat to be that familiar with the company.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMACtvGu2mV
"I guess. He owns it, well him and Uncle Declan." I've already said way too much, but for some reason I want to be honest with her.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxRIdezmdm
"Wait... So is Joseph your brother? And Cole?" Shit. I was hoping she didn't know about my family.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWz1Jw2vzD
"No." I blow out a breath. I really didn't want to get into this tonight. "I am Joseph Alexander."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiE7dpovDP1
"But you go by Ben?" I can't tell if she's more in shock or curious.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEt1s6Rmsx
"Nate and I both decided to use our middle names so we wouldn't be as recognizable." I've always hated my first name anyway. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EfIBzpkWv
"Wait... So... Nate is Declan Murphy Jr.?" Shit, Nate is going to kill me. "You two are New York's most eligible bachelor's? Well, according to People magazine anyway."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDBuqomeCZ
"Yeah, but please don't say anything to anyone. The reporters will swarm this place if they find out." I can't believe I told her all this. This could really mess everything up. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DPgWpmyUH
"Ben, I would never. I just can't believe you're little Joey. Wow. You really grew up. You were just a little scrawny kid, what happened?" I feel a small victory since I worked so hard for this body, but the memory of the lying, backstabbing bitch is enough to put a pretty big damper on it.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhP75mx1wr9
"Samantha." I mutter, half to myself. Shit. It slipped out before I could think. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy785rzFaBr
"Who's Samantha?" She sounds so curious, but I definitely didn't want to get into this tonight.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEGekacL0w
"No way. You've already asked your question. And you got a ton of information. It's my turn. Tell me about your parents." I just want to talk about something other than me.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSblXjJ0UI
"Well, they are pretty typical, you know, just parents." She throws my words back in my face.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC4XX1ujn6
"Ha ha ha." She's so fucking adorable.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAMdrMI6hr
"Okay, well my dad is a little different and my mom, well, she died last year. Brain tumor. My dad prayed and prayed, but it just wasn't enough." Woah. I can honestly say, I did not expect that. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTom5HrtB5N
"I'm so sorry, Kat. That has to be hard. As annoying as my mom can be, I can't imagine losing her." I hear her sniff and I know she is crying. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SkGkZBdB5
"You know, this game kinda sucks." I try to lighten the mood.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0NBw8nOOJ
She let's out a little laugh. "Yeah, but it kinda worked. We know more about each other, right?" 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyf3V6vWud
"Yeah, I guess. Let's get some sleep. I'm afraid to know what time it is."756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT2K1Ga2zd
"Okay, I'll go. Thanks for doing this." She pushes up off the bed. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uXB4tSkjC
"No, stay. Please." I hang onto her hand for dear life. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvJ5YwIfJM
"I really shouldn't." She can't leave. I need her.756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cOki6I5pM
"You're upset and I would feel better if I could just hold you for a bit. Please." I don't want her to be alone right now and if I'm being honest, I don't want to be alone either. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBEcshePyJ
"If you insist." I really do. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqfIMqksAP
She lays her head on my chest as I wrap her up in a hug. 756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7fQP3tfZ4
Everything is right in the world.
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