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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGW93s2RA0
This is not me.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpN5LcMqFw
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I am not impulsive. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZuAfyLUaS
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I do not lose control.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHM7TndP1DV
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I do not kiss random guys.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7BSQ2lN2d
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sh8s1uiBw
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qUkm0Yt0y
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBgPc1dOVi
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With big bulging muscles. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNInEg022Ls
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xJGs8U26Z
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And dimples... 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy14imxfwYb
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhe77GnqVr
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnlCOTvDzD
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpbCcnN5Ku
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztECWLYAag
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlrRJIpsS2
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShqBVLizoR
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c95vACtQQ
The flow... 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcRS6Yy0ms
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlE6mrFVTjs
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyo8MRrumH7
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPv5H1xj0N
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡva2AB5Idan
I am not this girl. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KBT0N1Ohg
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I am independent. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSSeupVqXI
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I am intelligent. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhJYS66sjf
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I do not crave any guy. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SV1a4yG7h
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I have my head on straight. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLG2h6RRxd0
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfLmbA0qqj
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Xmu59A0ON
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9Tu1ghTvL
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhqzJWmkfn
Hey, a girl can hope, right?761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QofJ5Uoog
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4TWTml8yV
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgrXw5Si6b
Or am I just totally crazy?761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqW00isA7sP
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdSQK4mTEU
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtx8a669QRy
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl21unCsZXs
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0TdluKPiT
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREkY6CF4ic
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wIQQGSBOn
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwOArva2aC
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQavYRYIadN
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNm0PHHxV3
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkeFrJ0AM0
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXSHvbr4ju
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu251QTBa2f
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2Uqve6Re0
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkB02fTf3hY
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUWLSkLA9F
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3cMLhldAx
I am so screwed. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jjEKgUSpb
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNNKPc1Ixc
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79qeliFrTE
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5yUxy2KTT
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHxS6AlaHq
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhV8jVQmYj
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91Lhf2tY2D
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMhbqKrZIw
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIgzS9T7oj
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoLjzzyoUt
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg84qPXJgoI
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqMWbfR1Lw
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVE4bEgZzRP
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 761Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPKgUef2l8
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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