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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTwF5liJuc
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzZ0NGWt7g
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRP5yD4KVy
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOijGdeeGk
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQy0lNqzvs6
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NlTHe4N4o
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡms1D0AWT42
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlP5oBkNvnm
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWI384cxIf
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tKw37ADqt
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70vd96BSDG
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1B0oTICx0l
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbUrUfRGJE
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVv5kXggDj
Shoot, was I saying something? 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWib7yTA7O4
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRhNqKyiq5
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFM4IlVJXw
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3xKDT7UR2
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKSQorf05c
"Nine." He licks his lips. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9rmXX3LSG
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqA2tKE1Rn
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERGlIhBFyk
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0crX9T4iXf
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIY1DKpTli3
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfsjUGgmPu
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Lqb8cZtli
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNQ08zjzoS
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNexBFLgHmM
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKXvtMj956
I could get lost in his eyes.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO82UZK8su
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpcuRTFS41
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLFxRfaxmO
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQGc3s6tBI
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeRO0BRuCD
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvB0KhrWxRN
All too soon, he pulls back.752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfqIWcFQjp
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqWbmvYbq0
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XtXA6cHwB
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuZQCma6kL
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvvzS7ymsP
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezmwIfKpD1
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 752Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpx1mS6uQq
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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