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January 1, 2005
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As he leans forward, I know my world is about to change. This guy has way too much power over me. What am I even doing? 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Yez9PGnNN
This is not me.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ09kU15zzR
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I am not impulsive. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyQRlaKcHM
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I do not lose control.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiXzBACyVj
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I do not kiss random guys.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuWDDRdf6l
Okay, so he isn't completely random since his friend is kinda dating my friend, but still... I don't know him. At all. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfwcCmbFRU
From want Ness has told me, he is a total player. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqa2ylIVKk
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I run my eyes down his body. A very hot player. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiurkQfumFv
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With big bulging muscles. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhq6stYC9U2
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And hair a girl could sink her fingers into...743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GFocmuRkM
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And dimples... 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCw4YWz6qaM
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Encasing a heart stopping smile.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdrtvfWaPD
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And deep green eyes... That just so happen to be staring at me. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPyzUV6f2G
Crap. He's really close. Is that desire in his eyes? Or maybe he is completely repulsed by the kiss we shared. Oh no, is he going to vomit on me? I really like this dress.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7GPtHdrgx
What is he doing? What is he thinking? Would it be weird to ask him? Duh... Of course it would be weird!743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuPKT4L8dz
Is he waiting for me to make a move? What should I do?743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcESRRRxfqp
Crap, he has me over thinking everything. I need to stop. What does 'Ness always say? I sneak a glance in her direction, but she's stuck to Nate like a sucker fish. She is definitely not going to be any help.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKigFMMUVF
"Just go with the flow." I hear her voice replay in my head. Right... I can totally do that. Easy enough. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJlTOnXyMp
The flow... 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgNb5ffwGx
But what is the flow here? Is the flow kissing or not kissing? Does the flow involve talking or not talking? 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCDxnB9K9i
Gah! I need to know what he's thinking. Would I totally ruin everything if I said something? I have to say something. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuDlpk1ffB
He pulls back slightly, giving me room to breathe. I immediately miss his closeness. I miss the warmth of his body near mine. My body notices the loss and begins the pull towards him again.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKStstqDdhG
Good god, I have been single for less than a day and I am already craving someone else. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGagTXhNSI8
I am not this girl. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuExNgPdo5
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I am independent. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZkNIlyhVe
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I am intelligent. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRDlrhXW6r
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I do not crave any guy. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDt4dQH1mMC
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I have my head on straight. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUODo2qq2pW
I will NOT fall for him. Or his tricks.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdJ1Uui3vr
"Kat?" His eyebrows draw together, giving him a look of concern. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmvk3BTrF0
Shoot. How long have I been sitting here staring off into space? 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFw24dadUF
"Uh... Yeah?" My voice comes out strained. What the heck is wrong with me? I bring my hand up to hide my face. Maybe if he can't see me, he will forget I'm the idiot sitting here. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVlJflCZyR
Hey, a girl can hope, right?743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkAJ8EAlsL
No such luck. He pulls my hand away to gently lay it on the table, but he doesn't release it. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAXPygH6d9
"You okay?" He quirks a brow. I wonder if he feels the flow of electricity between our hands like I do. Does he feel the pull between our bodies, as though they long to be united?743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI01zczzR2
Or am I just totally crazy?743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEsBa00Jiy
I glance down at our entwined hands ignoring my brain's plea to pull away. This connection with him is oddly comforting.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3ZmN9ah89
My eyes slide up to meet his. "I'm fine." I manage to get the words out, but even I'm not convinced. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIf6ajzFvIm
He lets out a soft chuckle before leaning forward to whisper in my ear. "I can literally see the wheels turning in your brain."743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7xqrTTmpm
I pull back, my mouth dropping open. God, could I be any more awkward? 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6w8we09MSm
I'm not sure what to say, but he continues without prompting. "I didn't realize anyone actually thought that hard." His cocky smirk returns. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYsof8xIbF
I scoff, yanking my hand from his. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but not every girl is an air brained bimbo." I cross my arms while leaning back to glare at him. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzcxpfouJ0
His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, his hands raised in surrender. "I never said that."743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZkJhDMBHO
"Yeah, well... I have thoughts." Crap. That was really lame. "Deep thoughts." Yeah, that didn't make it better. How much did I drink?743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwrv39VY2F
"I bet you do. I didn't mean to imply anything about you... or the entire female gender." He seems genuine, but maybe he's being condescending.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVKESgHcFH
I can't decide if I want to believe him or not. Being offended is easier than being vulnerable.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4y9xRgm6c
"Well, maybe you don't know everything." I try to hold onto the indignation, but I feel it slipping away as the confusion fills his eyes. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdDiJZqqQP
I can tell he's trying to figure out where my hostility is coming from and where he went wrong, but I just want to be angry. And it has nothing to do with him.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63pakROYZt
"Never said I did." Insecurity flashed across his face amplifying my need to comfort him. Opening up could be a terrible idea. I'm going to blame the alcohol in my system. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUYHMCHbjI
"I..." I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding. "I... uh... tend to over think things. Pretty much everything. And today... actually yesterday, at this point, was not the best day." 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXBe4yYslg
"I didn't know..." His eyebrows draw together, the concerned look returning to his beautiful face. "You really can talk to me you know."743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQtNAwpm5p
He gently pulls my hand back to his and begins to rub his thumb along my palm. An involuntary shiver runs through my body.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9fLGRBdlB
I am so screwed. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSKtkB7udT
He's not only incredibly good looking with the body of a Greek god, but he seems to be a pretty good guy... 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFms4OMMDfv
Dang it. I will not fall for him. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttSrPxFf1j
I feel drowsy, like I'm floating. "But can I trust you?" I whisper. In the back of my brain somewhere, I know that was lame... but I can't filter anymore. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JXiZRKHrn
"Of course." He looks deep into my eyes, like he's trying to convince me, but I'm already convinced. My eyes burn from the need to close them.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0p6BrBtnZP
I open my mouth, unsure what's going to come out. "The douche bag knew I would catch him, didn't he?"743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjLbYjxM0e
"What are you talking about?" I hear his voice through the haze. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphABffAx4g
I'm not sure how to explain. "He had... she was... he had her... doing that... in our bed. He probably just wanted an excuse to get rid of me. I was too boring. I could never do... that... what she was doing... I couldn't. I wouldn't."743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbMDOfnLdJ
I hear male voices mumbling. It feels like there's water in my ears. I think 'Ness is talking, but I can't understand her. But she will understand what I'm trying to say. She always understands me.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1c4Gt4kgri
I can't stop myself now that I've started. "I really thought he loved me... God, I loved him... Didn't help though. I'm not what he wanted." Spots dance in front of my eyes. And my lungs burn.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinyPw5kOmm
"Why am I such a prude? Why wasn't I enough?" It's hard to breathe... and my face feels wet. Am I crying? I really need air. Everything hurts.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX6zOQS4qo
I can feel my body giving into the darkness, as my mind drifts to my soft bed. I just want to sleep. I just want this night to end. I feel my eyelids growing heavy. I'm unable to stop them from closing, not that I would want to. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9js69VoAor
"Kat?" I hear Ben's anxious voice in the distance, but all I can feel is my body giving into sweet sleep. My body just wants to shut down and I want to let it even though I know this isn't a good idea.743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TE104vali
As he catches me in his strong arms and his scent surrounds me, he is my last thought before the darkness pulls me under. 743Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcpcv2vAR7
I will not fall... any more... for him.
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