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December 31, 2004
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Same day
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I know it's dumb, because I really want to kiss him but I know better. My mind is so disappointed with my body right now. I can't believe I asked him, god he probably thinks I'm desperate... or a total whore. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85TTQWt3FR
I take him in with a sideways glance. His muscles are bulging out of his tight T-shirt. His curly brown hair is just messy enough to look effortless, but he probably spent a lot of time on it. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uWIcgbEQo
He is obviously a womanizer, he literally oozes sex appeal. I cannot let myself fall for a guy like this. I will only get hurt, like with the jerk who will not be named. I will not fall for him. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmynOWdT3T
Ben leans in close to me. I can feel his breath on my neck, but I'm afraid to turn towards him. I might not be able to wait until midnight to kiss him. I will not fall for him.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbnG6BtNyt
"Hey, what's going on?" I hear his voice faintly in my ear. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKepeCCJCGk
I turn, surprised by the question. "What?" I can't remove the look of shock on my face. Why does he even care? What should I tell him? I'm not good at lying, but I can't tell him the truth. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfnoHkb7GE
Crap, I just realized how close our faces are. His eyes are intense and his lips are so... tempting. I will not fall for him.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgs6FSaGy2Q
The sincere look on his face is almost convincing, but there's no way he really wants to know. I know guys like him and they don't care. Guys like him only care whether they can get in your pants or not. Asking him to kiss me wasn't a great step in the plan to not fall for him, but like usual Vanessa bullied me. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSjaVXORxG
"I don't know what you are talking about." I decide to pretend... Okay, I know it is technically a lie. I already know it's going to fail because nobody ever believes me when I lie, apparently my face gives away too much or something. They make it sound like it's something I need to change, but it's my face, what can I do about it?732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8EOJLkNQv
He looks at me hard and with his stature, it is almost intimidating. "No really, Kat."732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWGV7XExl2
"I... uh..." Oh no, this isn't good. I want to tell him all my secrets. I need to stop drinking, I'm not thinking clearly. I need to make rational decisions. I will not fall for him.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvP6mRJVjPY
"Yes?" He asks me, with a cocky raised brow. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCzSnqurhm
"I... uh... uhm... you see..." I lick my lips and his eyes dart down to my mouth. His gaze returns to my eyes as he prompts me to continue. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvFUemlh8p
His body is calling to mine. I lean forward, needing to be closer to him, longing to breathe him in and taste him. I've never been so ready for a kiss, especially with a complete stranger... not that I kiss a lot of strangers. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFI6YKujBF
Shoot, was I saying something? 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6foc2Ofbbt
"I think you might be bad news." Crap. I inwardly cringe. I didn't mean to say that out loud. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1raT1APWo
He smirks, showing his adorable dimples. "Bad news, huh?" God, he is so sexy. I am so screwed. I will not fall for him.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdGl1ysDbO
"Mmhmm..." is all I get out before the countdown to midnight begins. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO7G7P5jyn
"Ten." His eyes make their way to my mouth. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0NyHDD2IP
"Nine." He licks his lips. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtETd5IkOoF
"Eight." He leans in until we are touching.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWi9RHg4Wi
He slides his hand to caress my neck. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡli9YC1zy7H
"Seven." His eyes burn with desire as they meet mine. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLAlidcBOh
"Six." My body screams at me to kiss him, while my brain yells at me to stop. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVNAdkxZql
"Five." It's just a kiss. I will not fall for him. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflfKXaCBGO
"Four." He leans in until I can feel his breath on my lips. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4R8oWOdoo
"Three." I'm breathing him in. It's intoxicating. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmaOVHsW03
"Ready?" He asks into my mouth. I manage to whimper, but the 'no' refuses to leave my mouth.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRk0bD0CzdD
"Two." I will not... I will not... do something.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdd99K5HVLp
I could get lost in his eyes.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaxRffS8gj
"One." Shoot... what was I doing again? 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9crGRptv8
"Happy New Year," he whispers as his lips gently brush mine. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlt9rysxHK
The room erupts around us, but it all fades away when his soft lips meets mine. When his mouth begins to move against mine, it feels so right. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GMxWwj8gB
It feels like this kiss is waking me up from a deep sleep that I didn't even realize I was in. I feel alive and powerful, but nervous and scared at the same time. This is so good and so very bad. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTHr0W02bq
I never want this kiss to end, I want him to deepen it and take it further, but he doesn't. He keeps it gentle and slow. Forget his eyes, I could get lost in his mouth. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9gmmDzTee
All too soon, he pulls back.732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoggMF4rTDt
Immediately I feel lost and confused. I wanted so much more of that. So why did he stop? Maybe it's me. I'm probably a terrible kisser. Oh god, what if I am a terrible kisser? How do you know? Can I ask him that? No way, that would be too awkward. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxd0VSgiv6Z
What was I thinking? This kiss was a terrible idea. Why did I ask him? Why? This was so stupid. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbM3FyPLcQm
I cover my mouth with my hands, as embarrassment seeps into me. I need to know what I did wrong. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnsATrFrmD
"Was it bad?" I try to hide the hurt from my face, but I can feel the sting of tears in the back of my eyes. I blink to remove them, but they threaten to spill over. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7XWnkcLpq
He just stares at me with a stunned look on his face. Oh no, it was even worse than I thought. He hates me and he's probably trying to wipe the kiss from his brain. Or maybe he's trying to plan his escape. 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWM6QqwScw2
"Ben?" I try to shout over the sound, but everyone is celebrating around us. He looks frozen. Did I break him? 732Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXrC1MI7f7
Crap, is it possible to break someone with a bad kiss? Do they send an ambulance for that?
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