『原來我從來…都不曾瞭解妳……』25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTBej1NWmS
某個夜晚，研究所內25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfP7FPrqcKN
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許墨坐在辦公桌前，筆電的螢幕映出冷色的光，映照著他略顯疲憊的側臉。這幾天，他不止一次地伸手撥通微瀾曾經的號碼，但每一次，都是冰冷的「此號碼已被註銷」。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbW7QmNAKx
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他合上筆電，低頭揉了揉眉心。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqd5vXUD23
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她走了，走得乾乾淨淨。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeaPopNeCc
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他不是沒試過找她。他去了她的公寓，但那裡早已換了新房客。他聯絡了她曾經的同事，但沒有人知道她的下落。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAkx50VmWV
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在試圖撥通微瀾的電話幾個月後，許墨停止尋找。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQd0NHzKSk
他想，她不回來，對她也是好事。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QhoyCPZXr
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──可笑的是，這句話，他連自己都說服不了。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4AOJM7f2r
某日，研究所25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRGsdolLJa
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「許教授，這是最新的報告。」助理將文件遞給他，目光閃爍了一下，「還有……悠然小姐今天有約嗎？」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeE9zeT38H7
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許墨翻閱著文件，淡淡地回應：「她和李澤言約了下午茶。」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXtC9ooJs1
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「……」助理沒再多說什麼，只是離開前忍不住看了他一眼。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5zvzdl0NA
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這陣子，許教授的情緒變化雖然細微，但仍舊讓熟悉他的人察覺了些端倪。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCfntQxHVm
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他依然準時進出研究所，依然做著嚴謹的實驗，依然是所有學生與研究員口中的「許教授」，可他似乎變得更加沉默，也變得……不再那麼專注了。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH15mN2Qm1
那天，他與悠然約在咖啡廳見面。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumbhjrETJs
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悠然是個細心的人，即使他沒有特別說什麼，她仍然察覺到了異樣。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXbZXLLp2L
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「許墨，你最近……心情不太好？」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqesdfIibT2
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他聞言，抬起眼看她，語氣淡淡：「沒有。」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHAQXcXPWm
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悠然沒有說話，只是飲了一口面前的果汁，然後才像是隨口提起似的：「我之前聽說，微瀾離開了？」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgM3GFZ6BB
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許墨的手微不可察地頓了一下，但很快恢復正常：「嗯。」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUKIIzfgZD
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「……你沒有試著去找她嗎？」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonNN1VfVKz
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「她會回來的。」他的語氣仍然淡漠，仿佛這是一件再自然不過的事。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonwahwrrnA
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悠然看著許墨，沉默了一會，像是在思索著什麼。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwJtZAlPpq
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「許墨，微瀾很好，不是嗎？」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstnqmk7g05
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許墨抬眼看她，沒有否認。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQHDlXLHit
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「我一直以為，你們很穩定、很幸福。」悠然語氣很輕，像是在陳述一個簡單的事實，「但你現在的樣子，並不像是一個剛分手的人，反倒像是……」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLH3rjujUR
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她頓了一下，微微傾身，低聲道：「你像是一個失去習慣的人。」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWztiXvIC8u
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許墨的指尖不自覺地蜷了一下。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIAGjTso5p
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「所以，許墨——你是真的愛她，還是只是習慣有她的存在？」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUH50ILGI1
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這句話，讓許墨的呼吸頓了一拍。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMrq8ebyfs
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「愛，應該不會是這種狀態的吧？」悠然輕輕笑了一聲，語氣帶著一點憐惜，「如果你真的愛她，怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回？」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Si0NRrrCc
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許墨沒有回答，只是低頭輕啜了一口咖啡。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhi2oGrlZHS
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悠然看著他的沉默，最後只是搖搖頭，語氣淡然：「算了，這是你的事，我只是提醒你，確保你想清楚自己在做什麼。」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0zQ4EdsmJ
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他放下杯子，緩緩開口：「悠然，妳跟李澤言約得時間快到了。」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rdLEDGhJj
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這句話等於是間接終止了這場對話。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OSEfkSACv
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悠然低低地笑了一聲，搖搖頭，她明白許墨大約是不想跟她談了。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5abTgPdSuM
只是看著許墨的目光中，多了一絲可惜的情緒。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA96DLvy1s
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「許墨，」她最後說道，「希望你是真的確定自己想要什麼，而不是等到失去了，才發現原來你根本不曾擁有過。」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08QQ7ND4DH
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那一刻，許墨心底像是被一隻無形的手緊緊抓住了。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSbLJpL42I
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悠然起身離開了。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEaAu8L5Zu
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許墨靜靜坐在咖啡廳裡，久久沒有動作。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog7lVdsdhQ
杯中的咖啡早已涼透，他卻沒有察覺。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArWuBvF6dA
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悠然的話在腦海中盤旋不去。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa24IFsIUl
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——你是真的愛她，還是只是習慣有她的存在？25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQS7hw5FkKB
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他指尖微微收緊，低頭看著桌面，嘴角彷彿要笑，卻又沒能笑出來。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSmoA70Snv
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——如果你真的愛她，怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回？25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssnLPrTGVQ
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許墨閉了閉眼，指腹輕輕揉了揉眉心。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6efQ0LnAs
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原來，他一直在等她回來。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj6UuPD1ic
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可是——25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MwipCI6JT
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她真的還會回來嗎？25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAG2g8FrJm
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還是，她這次，不要他了？25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGWzo9yrJ2
幾個月後，當他以為一切會恢復正常的時候……25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrxDS223xv
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那天，他通宵了幾日的實驗，回到家中，準備稍作梳洗再回研究所。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKekozlacDq
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當他踏入公寓，房間的燈亮了，他一楞。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATePoPE93s
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快步走進房裡，卻發現──25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJSSQc575i
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──只是被一隻闖入的野貓無意開啟的燈。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVtb1TA2Xg
……還踢倒了他的盆栽。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYd6k4AkIw
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許墨沉默地收拾著散落的書頁，正要將它們重新放回書架時，一張夾在書中的書籤飄落在地。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7vR0BikyM
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他彎腰撿起，目光落在上面的字跡。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdusS48yy9e
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許墨指尖微顫，心底像是有什麼被狠狠刺了一下。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWeotjw1LY
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那時的她，到底是抱著怎樣的心情，寫下這句話的？25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7G1wSDdtrj
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……而他，又曾如何回應？25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5jjGzWHWs
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那晚，他睡不著了。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mLLSwPM4A
「……」25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLOeg9DSG6
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第二天清晨，許墨站在窗邊，望著城市的天色慢慢變亮。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsOj9WJvLl
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他終於意識到，這種空蕩蕩的日子，已經讓他無法忽視內心的缺口。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcOHR1pCgK
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他想，他還是得知道微瀾究竟在哪。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeFcafY8xp
如果她能回來，他還能照顧她。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB96mGDF89f
但這一次，他不能再等著她回來了。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxttj3Akg2p
他得自己去找。25Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieuhocVzk1
