『原來我從來…都不曾瞭解妳……』28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡej9sLlvT3p
某個夜晚，研究所內28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodPqFaDaMp
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許墨坐在辦公桌前，筆電的螢幕映出冷色的光，映照著他略顯疲憊的側臉。這幾天，他不止一次地伸手撥通微瀾曾經的號碼，但每一次，都是冰冷的「此號碼已被註銷」。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2nCKHk0ia
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他合上筆電，低頭揉了揉眉心。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoI0zz6oqd
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她走了，走得乾乾淨淨。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMYftdmCnI
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他不是沒試過找她。他去了她的公寓，但那裡早已換了新房客。他聯絡了她曾經的同事，但沒有人知道她的下落。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGKyW2UHmF
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在試圖撥通微瀾的電話幾個月後，許墨停止尋找。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnLVmk0t8F
他想，她不回來，對她也是好事。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sZ39O0h93
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──可笑的是，這句話，他連自己都說服不了。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERYEaMcHQ0
某日，研究所28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8NY12wqRl
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「許教授，這是最新的報告。」助理將文件遞給他，目光閃爍了一下，「還有……悠然小姐今天有約嗎？」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYPtV0sRIS
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許墨翻閱著文件，淡淡地回應：「她和李澤言約了下午茶。」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBp4Dk642RO
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「……」助理沒再多說什麼，只是離開前忍不住看了他一眼。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb0OtqT94Z
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這陣子，許教授的情緒變化雖然細微，但仍舊讓熟悉他的人察覺了些端倪。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcn9pgfN5g
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他依然準時進出研究所，依然做著嚴謹的實驗，依然是所有學生與研究員口中的「許教授」，可他似乎變得更加沉默，也變得……不再那麼專注了。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqe0IzFXS1
那天，他與悠然約在咖啡廳見面。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dcXPQf7sz
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悠然是個細心的人，即使他沒有特別說什麼，她仍然察覺到了異樣。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZyGoc9HK2
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「許墨，你最近……心情不太好？」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46sdKtKgQo
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他聞言，抬起眼看她，語氣淡淡：「沒有。」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rZkIfzCYe
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悠然沒有說話，只是飲了一口面前的果汁，然後才像是隨口提起似的：「我之前聽說，微瀾離開了？」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtY0kAanLlb
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許墨的手微不可察地頓了一下，但很快恢復正常：「嗯。」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaHlvVt1ur
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「……你沒有試著去找她嗎？」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡownDnXt15T
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「她會回來的。」他的語氣仍然淡漠，仿佛這是一件再自然不過的事。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxEKCqF2Tp
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悠然看著許墨，沉默了一會，像是在思索著什麼。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFD19WnlUH
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「許墨，微瀾很好，不是嗎？」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9WSEX4X6m
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許墨抬眼看她，沒有否認。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aqWetRmmM
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「我一直以為，你們很穩定、很幸福。」悠然語氣很輕，像是在陳述一個簡單的事實，「但你現在的樣子，並不像是一個剛分手的人，反倒像是……」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡya7M1Zf9x7
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她頓了一下，微微傾身，低聲道：「你像是一個失去習慣的人。」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujNkYeJ494
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許墨的指尖不自覺地蜷了一下。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTwr3qaGY0
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「所以，許墨——你是真的愛她，還是只是習慣有她的存在？」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCnazFhuaX
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這句話，讓許墨的呼吸頓了一拍。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK6IYu25o5
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「愛，應該不會是這種狀態的吧？」悠然輕輕笑了一聲，語氣帶著一點憐惜，「如果你真的愛她，怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回？」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXA4Im7GSDX
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許墨沒有回答，只是低頭輕啜了一口咖啡。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjtI1XYxBU
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悠然看著他的沉默，最後只是搖搖頭，語氣淡然：「算了，這是你的事，我只是提醒你，確保你想清楚自己在做什麼。」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDIXvCFDbs
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他放下杯子，緩緩開口：「悠然，妳跟李澤言約得時間快到了。」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡum45WSOAwG
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這句話等於是間接終止了這場對話。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfysV195yd
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悠然低低地笑了一聲，搖搖頭，她明白許墨大約是不想跟她談了。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ286BReXPQP
只是看著許墨的目光中，多了一絲可惜的情緒。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwBjkrpgNo
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「許墨，」她最後說道，「希望你是真的確定自己想要什麼，而不是等到失去了，才發現原來你根本不曾擁有過。」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpZSj0vkUc
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那一刻，許墨心底像是被一隻無形的手緊緊抓住了。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1kSP2dvXi
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悠然起身離開了。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwFEAjnY6e
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許墨靜靜坐在咖啡廳裡，久久沒有動作。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLn1gdJbSKD
杯中的咖啡早已涼透，他卻沒有察覺。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWjYnaJ0ZE
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悠然的話在腦海中盤旋不去。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiC3hGbiiqh
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——你是真的愛她，還是只是習慣有她的存在？28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI710rfu43z
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他指尖微微收緊，低頭看著桌面，嘴角彷彿要笑，卻又沒能笑出來。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDCL17CO5F
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——如果你真的愛她，怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回？28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdLpn52b1H
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許墨閉了閉眼，指腹輕輕揉了揉眉心。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMWJycWryV
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原來，他一直在等她回來。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbQwwqmtQd
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可是——28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d4XH2QuOF
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她真的還會回來嗎？28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1bKTZIVF8
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還是，她這次，不要他了？28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cZQia02hX
幾個月後，當他以為一切會恢復正常的時候……28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWP0GJkLqN
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那天，他通宵了幾日的實驗，回到家中，準備稍作梳洗再回研究所。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1lRMeJ1Ud
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當他踏入公寓，房間的燈亮了，他一楞。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPqP00foLp
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快步走進房裡，卻發現──28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuqtLELDN4
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──只是被一隻闖入的野貓無意開啟的燈。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7r9hPm6uUU
……還踢倒了他的盆栽。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKfbNtfd0D
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許墨沉默地收拾著散落的書頁，正要將它們重新放回書架時，一張夾在書中的書籤飄落在地。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJIEfmD4NZ
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他彎腰撿起，目光落在上面的字跡。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsolpBd9SIY
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許墨指尖微顫，心底像是有什麼被狠狠刺了一下。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBWEcHu9ZT
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那時的她，到底是抱著怎樣的心情，寫下這句話的？28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdk8MC8J0vU
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……而他，又曾如何回應？28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgh170faUjz
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那晚，他睡不著了。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb65tXEHvp
「……」28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk89XIpbz9W
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第二天清晨，許墨站在窗邊，望著城市的天色慢慢變亮。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm72BdmkTSR
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他終於意識到，這種空蕩蕩的日子，已經讓他無法忽視內心的缺口。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAI8zZFq9S
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他想，他還是得知道微瀾究竟在哪。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4FviJMNoO
如果她能回來，他還能照顧她。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGWxYvYG4S
但這一次，他不能再等著她回來了。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KIGkm3l9g
他得自己去找。28Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EFfMBvNnb
