其實block大隻仔呢個諗法都嚟得幾突然,只係因為我碌碌下連登睇到個出軌post,入面有好多人分享自己發現伴侶出軌嘅經歷同埋心情。284Please respect copyright.PENANAhmQTwcNXAk
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個post都有幾多頁,我用咗成個鐘睇晒每一個comment。284Please respect copyright.PENANA7FF8r00Kdg
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我內心稱唔上話好有罪惡感,但睇完個post,我開始不停喺度諗自己而家究竟喺度做緊乜。284Please respect copyright.PENANAy4xleOr3Cc
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一開始我係好理直氣壯,覺得出軌嗰個人係大隻仔,就算佢唔搵我都會搵其他人,但而家我又開始有啲迷惘。284Please respect copyright.PENANAg1hLYFnqQY
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再加上約咗幾次,我發現自己對大隻仔嘅感覺有啲奇怪。可能係因為相處嘅時候幾啱feel,所以搞到我開始對佢有啲上心。不過我都係堅持將呢種感覺歸類為錯覺。284Please respect copyright.PENANAmbbr4irXbA
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始終我對佢嘅了解真係好表面,就算沉船,都只係鍾意緊我幻想中嘅佢,而唔係真係鍾意佢。284Please respect copyright.PENANARNdeki2ICZ
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不過為免自己之後越踩越深,我都係決定block大隻仔。284Please respect copyright.PENANA6L5avzmHt5
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我驚佢會好似之前咁挽留我,所以今次我冇再同佢講話想斷,而係直接block。284Please respect copyright.PENANACCJzjjEc9e
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呢個時候我先至有啲後悔當初話咗俾佢聽連登嗰個SM故係我寫嘅。咁樣感覺就算我block咗佢,我哋都好似仲會有種微妙嘅連繫咁。284Please respect copyright.PENANAKYmPt029vL
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喺Block完大隻仔之後,我成個人突然之間變得好空虛,然後就不由自主咁陷入咗一個好emo嘅狀態。有時就算只係喺街聞到其他人身上有大隻仔嗰陣香水味,我個心都會即刻離一離。284Please respect copyright.PENANAexlDqWNwXB
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我覺得可能係因為我個人太得閒,所以當我嘅生活有一個人消失咗,就會好明顯空咗一忽咁。284Please respect copyright.PENANAuYD2NpT7ig
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為咗填補呢種空虛,我決定再搵啲嘢做下。284Please respect copyright.PENANAhA3qf7V2zy
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我打算將同大隻仔之間發生嘅嘢寫低。一嚟係為咗打發時間,二嚟都係希望藉住寫低所有嘢整理一下自己嘅心情。284Please respect copyright.PENANAhMawVqGkLK
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寫SM故嗰個連登ac係我新開嘅,我本身仲有另一個舊嘅連登ac,都係寫故嘅。我打算將我寫嘅關於大隻仔嘅嘢post喺嗰度。284Please respect copyright.PENANAzSnaXszzFc
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之後嘅日子,我交替咁寫SM故同埋關於大隻仔嘅新故。284Please respect copyright.PENANAY7LP6NBUO9
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因為SM故有啲甜位都參考咗同大隻仔之間發生嘅事,兩個故變到有啲似,有時寫到我自己都有少少精神錯亂。284Please respect copyright.PENANAt8uOS2aXIa
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同時我仲有嘗試再喺hmd match其他人,但最後都係發現同佢哋唔啱feel。284Please respect copyright.PENANABthGeooPkx
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無論點都好,我嘅生活自此總算回復返平靜。除咗一開頭block完大隻仔嗰幾日同埋寫故嘅時候,我已經好少再諗起佢。284Please respect copyright.PENANA2zVkpR5KN9
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只不過呢種生活並唔係維持咗好耐。284Please respect copyright.PENANAUZLECh7ovX
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事關除咗連登之外,我之前仲開咗個ig俾讀者follow,我都有喺連登宣傳過個ig。284Please respect copyright.PENANAolFupwRgQy
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於是某一晚,我個ig收到一個dm。284Please respect copyright.PENANAG8bx3uCu7K
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係大隻仔。284Please respect copyright.PENANA0vEAIoY7uY
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佢話佢見到我寫嘅新故,估到個連登ac係我,再睇埋我呢個ig po啲嘢就confirm係我。284Please respect copyright.PENANAkNYpSPrjdm
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佢話自己好怕啲人乜都唔講就走咗去。284Please respect copyright.PENANA2ItdNNJb0w
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睇到佢dm我嗰陣,我唔知應該點覆好,唔通真係同佢剖白我嘅心路歷程咩。284Please respect copyright.PENANAvX3mHDeE3F
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於是我唯有作個理由。284Please respect copyright.PENANAEDbLGNuEMi
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「好啦」284Please respect copyright.PENANA7JrVQnIOzh
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