我牽著童桐的手，然後舉到胸前：「我同童桐…開始拍拖。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQO5EdOI82B
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要交代的，就只有這件事。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdimIjV9THV
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在旁人眼中大概很普通，很平常吧。從小到大玩在一起，待在一塊的我們成為情侶，可能在眾人眼中成為情侶是何等的理所當然。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzyvcZ82pQ
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天曉得我們經歷了甚麼。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8EEAQNW7k
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「終於呀。」我媽平淡地說，一臉不出所料的樣子。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygVtp4UnO1
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我爸點點頭，舉起姆指，然後出門上班去。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2zNKjzXzp
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7Z0885PJq
就這樣簡單地向我父母和童桐爺爺嫲嫲交代了後，我們的生活其實沒甚麼變化。真的，我以為我與童桐會有甚麼改變，但我們之間的日常只是回到原點。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvlQ9FUBOS
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「呀遊，幫我吹頭髮～」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Bj6HSxNla
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrNawZkRlM
「嗯～」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sQEknqFSO
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一如以往地幫懶惰成性的童桐吹乾頭髮。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcqhBMv4yv
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EyPxatW27
「呀遊，今晚我煮飯俾你食呀！」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMOCrEqJCZ
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOx1jPF94g
「咁我去買野飲？」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgjIlnqcPN
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一如以往地互相去對方的家中晚飯。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCJ9Y2xIeM
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKgIzCZDc0
「亞基里斯你又痾？！」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2pmj7gO98
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「咪又係你餵太多搞到咁…」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVlG1Crm5O
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一如以往地帶亞基散步。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAdnYdjoy5
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因為我們真的太過親近，即使確立了情侶關係後我們也沒甚麼改變，身體接觸是多了，確立正式關係後會做的也做過了，但其他一切如常。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXNAfR1HS0
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這使我有種…奇怪的感覺。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhZwgmTZAZ
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不過也就是「這樣子」嗎，我有這種感覺。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VvXpmjrwX
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ540wOuQtY1
我看過一套動畫叫靈魂奇異記，當中有個比喻是這樣的：有一條小魚問鯨魚，「大海怎樣去？我要去大海。」，鯨魚傻眼：「這兒就是大海呀？」，小魚不信：「不不不，這只是水裡，我要找的是大海。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nEOnUVwLb
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6hTtzToyJ
準確對白我不記得，但我現在感覺自己就是那尾小魚。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9Rwr2XmyU
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIY47YKSkW
差別在於我知道自己已經到了終點，到了大海，我終於成為了童桐的男朋友。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdq9QOdSBrV
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZFyHes6hj
但……也就是這樣罷了，大海就和水裡一樣。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUdUbfNpGa
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfzbCh11c8
說得我都好像是個渣男了，但一向視童桐為終極目標，窮一生追逐，犧牲一切也要得到的我，真的得到她了。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0JufcS9ZZ
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BsCvNkHlE
之後呢？1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJBYFHwXeN
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHp6SNcxacr
沒有想像中興奮，沒有想像中狂喜，我以為自己成功得米之時，會好像中了六合彩一樣大喜大笑，會好像手機抽蛋單抽SSR，會如那天婚禮童桐主動吻我那樣吧。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEuB6tRjyz
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZNB6qhbrw
但沒有，完全沒有，我心情平淡得我以為自己精神或心臟有問題。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QeVJtUiey
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIAN9O811e
我怎麼了？——在好幾次和童桐聊完電話睡覺後，我都質問自己。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB4VLn4lte
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA6EGI8qfK
現在的我幸福嗎？幸福。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwULBSBKGw
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFR7b98ewy
現在的我快樂嗎？快樂。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdO8vLWpXic
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlC5AQ2p3h
現在我的滿足嗎？滿足。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIULBs8t2U
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2OMz7c8L1
那麼我現在是怎麼？為甚麼在茫然？1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4M9UEVbLvb
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuACESI3Iur
我有時甚至會看著我爸釣回來的鮮魚，本已在大海的牠氣絕於我爸的小冰盒之中，溶化的冰水中也是水裡，牠還會想找大海嗎？我會苦苦思索著這問題直到出神，直到我媽拿菜刀一刀拍昏那尾魚的「砰」一聲才回過神來。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRmiV0tUtv
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPeoWXXkTX
至於童桐的話，她比我正常多了。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2G3tF0ya7A
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ54G8HhJp
雖然我和她之間直接跳過了熱戀期，但童桐卻愈來愈黏我。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3suP4EMMU
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSYxdo2KPy
「呀遊，早晨～」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiU5HU83UW
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3GPfwUu0w
「What！the！Fu…」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qvzHJbSVC
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIR0hwBjqM4
試過幾次早上瞪開眼，童桐現在不只是坐在床尾或站在我旁邊，而是鑽到我的被窩中輕擁著我。是很甜蜜沒錯，但早上醒來一張人臉貼著自己，即使童桐多可愛也有點不對勁吧。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5560tBqC2
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyorsGgGhCR
「嚇親你？」童桐在被窩中抱住我問。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGPwuLdYsK
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjxkKpJ3Zn
「童桐，我…未刷牙，驚把口臭到你啫嗚嗚嗚？！」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ziAbOxNhJ
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K03hgUaJE
童桐閉上眼深深吻到我嘴上，然後用舌頭舔舔自己嘴唇笑著說：「嘻，點會。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohIRyTczGC
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIs8THZJaN9
如果我媽不是在家我真的會就地把她…！！1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl57Q2lwQuC
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LJg6aoXNE
總之，童桐和我都彼此壓抑了自己十幾年，她這樣子才是正常吧，即使顯得有點太用力。有問題的人是我，明明跟自己說過無論童桐的好壞也會接受…但感覺也不是因為那些往事作崇。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7flH0340s
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIzfWjkvfT
我是連幸福也害怕的那種膽小鬼嗎？1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEbEAWCV7Y
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPgS5ZRwn3
再舉一個例。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMBj16xBgU
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「好，抆箭。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUmHKHztSq
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwLPeQAPlA
魚腩盃決賽定了在八月最後的一個周末，英姐和贊助比賽的發叔都說這樣子人們才難忘，選手們多點時間練習比賽也更刺激。所以已經失去了不少練習時間的正趕緊追上其他決賽的高手。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwJt3xUrO8
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmx6yumXruq
左手抵住箭靶，右手握住箭柄，發力拔箭…慢著！1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAn5813UD58
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm7LJbCJSs
「呀遊～」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUjWIdMemb
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTr8ZkB4ana
童桐從後抱住我。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtF9zRIWppf
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAr1CG1Mso
「童…童桐？！」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NAis8JSZ3
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwhxgUAehU
射箭運動中，其實很少人是被發射的箭矢射中而受傷，因為我們都特別注意有沒有笨蛋在射箭時越過發射線進入危險的射擊區。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bPci5w5th
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfL27vVV5D
相反，最危險的是拔箭的時候。常有學生沒注意身後，把箭矢從靶上拔出時用箭尾插傷身後其他來拔箭的人。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hVoqV9QOx
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「危險呀！做咩黎左既？」被童桐抱住我沒法從箭靶上拔箭。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BD5zjPZk3
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iKjMK6ZCv
「掛住你囉。」童桐用頭輕蹭向我撒嬌。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6vKkNeC4y
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7Sf64tinr
「嗄？我地一個鐘前先食完下午茶…」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UipBewn2s
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38l95eyIhR
「成一個鐘無見過你喇…」童桐扁著嘴說。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDZxjiPA4m
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhITgy57vYy
因為我這樣被她定身在射擊區內，後方其他師兄師姐都沒法射擊。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsiTvdzr2Q
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hDsdEGAVb
「師兄，你…抆箭先呀不如？」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkZ82xg2w6
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlc7ph44iIi
「喂要攬唔好係度攬啦？！」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRYj8PlK1b
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡew816oTbRC
惹眾怒了…1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGxHl5mV3V
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrp2zTXRRcH
好不容易說服童桐回沙發區等我，我連忙高速拔出箭矢收回箭袋，跑去沙發安撫被罵而扁著嘴的童桐，結果練習次數比計畫中少了一截。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj81mZjsBIR
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRd4Fdoi8op
又例如有一天晚上我和情聖在聊Facetime.1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSMif7UdZL
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRUkGrXj8I
「個邊零下四十度既話，普通雪櫃算唔算係熱櫃既一種？」我問。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4rLiUsyG5
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibeAPCpxWV
「呃…不過其實又無想像中凍，同埋難得黎加拿大渡蜜月無理由唔北上睇極光，我地之後會去個香港人開既牧場度玩…呀遊。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlu56mHynIQ
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QAsyhAE6y
情聖突然面色發青，明明他那邊是中午，他還在吃午飯。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSjWL4TXhu
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMMx0V4w1j
「做咩？」但我這邊是半夜，農曆七月那種。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZYH7svW1b
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XjHcswFCu
「你後面有個人影郁緊。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ70RMgahEj
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lr8E22pGW
「嘩我屌呀？！…童桐？」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPm5AqgsEX
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSYfIyWCoy
那人影一晃後突然從黑暗中高速欺近，把我嚇得差點尿褲子的人正是童桐。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9UGROukRO
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hCehybVqX
「你唔係話訓覺啦咩？」我問。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGT7CouCXSF
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkD1PBWQmK
「我見到你呢邊有光。」童桐一雙眼死瞪著屏幕說，「你明明仲同我講左早抖…你呃我？」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDNs7BWjnh
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjymJAPUVT
她一直在那邊監視著我的窗戶？1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2vXA28aJS
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAuRLA2mXH
「就…我同情聖傾緊計呀。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBS8L9thd5
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwZgV5coxL
畫面中的情聖不安地吞吞口水：「Hi, 童桐～」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8miKzEqXgg
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaxE64nHwt
「好耐無見，情聖～」童桐馬上笑盈盈地揮揮手，和剛剛判若兩人。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRw3w40uW9
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNZb4QwHtZ
我和情聖隔著屏幕不安地交換一個眼神。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjHXzaRFsa
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeYN7N3VVs
童桐這樣黏我我其實很高興，我也想像過各種和童桐糖痴豆一樣的畫面，各種摸頭，牽手，擁抱以至更親密，但是現在這也太過…1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cXferJSY7
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedOQK04GMx
「喂你個邊咁夜，唔阻你訓啦。」情聖察言觀色，「之後再傾，明信片等陣返酒店寄，拜拜。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2O8pkO6Uke
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkYp3bd991
「拜拜～」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6D6ukdEXiD
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnIXfq7hzE
情聖消失在畫面上，黑掉的屏幕倒映著我與童桐。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9fb8KuACc
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7nz4fL4mN
…半夜自己開門進來，真的好嗎？我們始終沒有同居吧，白天也算了。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKw4wU90a1
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1MhV6mOW4
「今次真係訓？」童桐問。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgjjKM14vQ
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7mctI0L11
「嗯。」我笑著說，「攰啦都。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroKIiD3Tcy
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfz0LIM47Yh
但看到她這表情，我也不能說甚麼。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlQxzV2kYc
1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQlNv0cSYO
「咁我睇住你訓。」童桐在床邊坐下，「使唔使我摀耳？膝枕？」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkBdSiNgOa
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「唔…唔使，咁，真係早抖啦。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD5elT9WIQ
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結果還是被童桐摀著耳朵，輕輕按摩頭皮直至我失去意識睡著。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRI4b1HwBm
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童桐愛我，我感受到了，應該說感受不了才怪，有時連亞基都為之側目。但是這樣是正常的嗎？即使我沒有經驗，我也有看過小說漫畫電影之類，情侶即使是熱戀期也不會這樣子吧。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApdjXnUwOD
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童桐…沒事吧？她好像又瘦了？1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMejEyzo5Yt
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更何況我們早就相處了不多年，童桐這樣黏著我反而有點一反常態。她時不時要擁抱要親吻要摸頭要撒嬌，每天都和我如膠似漆，更加顯得有點…突兀嗎？1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tZifPN8wc
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然後。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrUDT2CLJV
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「妍妍今晚上黎食飯，執好間屋。」我媽拿著買回來的一袋二袋說。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyupu9FbCw
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「咁…突然？！」我看看身邊臉色沉了下來的童桐，又看看我媽手足無措。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclz7iDOfuj
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「嗯，佢搵工個度有野問我…Ｄ後生女真係，仲有幾個月就畢業，連自己想點都唔知，ＣＶ都未寫過。」我媽扶著額搖頭。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDff1pc7xN
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「呀遊，我幫你執屋。」童桐站起來說。1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN03fARM64
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「唔使啦，係我同亞基整到咁亂…」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCYJ5c5fw0
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「你同我坐低！！間屋我會執，只可以…」童桐回眸的雙眼放出殺氣，「…由我執。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoijAFu8IjS
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「係。」1146Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEzItbWgmx
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我和正跳來跳去耍蠢的亞基連忙坐回沙發上正襟危坐。
