童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHS21trK2e
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9hHv90lhu
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xTaP7tU4q
「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwbyxVJ82u
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSf7TDiS19
我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uCfQzA7sC
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWEIDDwOMR
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好可愛…1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9UQF0lQxc
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDbdpElhXC
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvSNdrSdaF
參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kjTvgCPjb
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19T83cK1dq
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjWVAevO13
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTshrLUFJnd
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uCXZqGJhU
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3yTP5OjD2
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErrNiTVGzs
我就不去想像了。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm01sEYsTaO
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUJ6uuiB4L
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zhYFBOuKL
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9Mt1oYgeO
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbIpxINKfR
「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbEhFXe9dS
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36QDqBc3LH
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil3kfQ4nXD
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9mb46eb7q
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMSTFFKTgK
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK28CLm4BwX
「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoifvRYaD2e
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYORhKW3DV9
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaBhyvLaZ2
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsWPTjQWa3
「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEO3dS8Rlr
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLWd9ltR1X
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmrbbwpAdd
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUAuQ88mBo
「嗯…我知道。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLLIjckohC
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOus0l3Mew9
「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSWV6BQzrD
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEfNnmNxTm
接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb7zLilCft
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2S3AswyGP
PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLyrCaMvi3
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlojL2YMTlJ
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0i7wvPDZf
至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDzlliu2XR
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHmiffMRyr
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFnL1Ixt5E
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFJ8cHcYQ7
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIcdCxDxSR
「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJumBOOA7p9
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuI5FRVIbQh
「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDXCWPsoGs
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr30bcXL8u
我愛我媽。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ5ya997rU
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDma1axaxl9
「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjKEeoJBii
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJO5rsZmn9R
我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡid77FIozsg
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtPjJhdA8B
「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsJeFisY0f
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGHMR7ajlO
無需任何思考。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCZnf5EjGe
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZs3LkVLwq7
「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FV0mJeiv6
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWcASLbBGx
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mAxuQsojS
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBLBBp9ggD
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPkaTTksH1
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYtQ04rdFi
已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7kLa1LCqq
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPr3mnGEjqZ
也必須要由我背負。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ojq9gEpLu
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuukQ7K701
即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbO0itDsff0
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEAxZv6ZNL
「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4z8UmEFsz2
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpX6I7Bn6t
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1ENWF024l
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYqm1WOssi
「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkS0h2Lqn2
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHinvCqcrRo
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDx7NJBX0S
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6H3pdp7HT
「……佢真係好可愛。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqOjSLZYIl
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FdggnrjQ1
「佢好唔開心。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWmwrb3PrL
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RmeB3vlDn
「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9UpP2o1C9
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvyxg6UakX
她深深地在自責。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9rLXiqKua
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvqkrLlbDY
別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4IEkjAhqj
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bg3CuVESl
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOXcOQlh7s
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNQ3Ims1gN
「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktkbEGUoVT
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1OYv81zqn
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUruJuRw7Pk
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiZGKLp6hU
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTT4PnXY7E
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe713fG45Jw
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01YKOsMyGR
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoH21MGSP1k
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ40trx6YBM
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmpnipQJac
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGKntp6G13
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjY5gznT3A
「梗係可以。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaWQpY2KIL
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNg94JqbEWv
「講個秘密你知。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJQKvwEQY1
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfkJX4HZSY
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8IbEsB8tr
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNSEyVStFz
「其實我驚狗。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLKx6Wyhv7
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1WYsRs4et
「下？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5Pz8Y5PS6
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BVb5NAe9z
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFpLTJ00RK
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzfmIf6PIx
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsjfst2uy0
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99dGLhAO1p
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnA8aBEH6T
「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYvhq8Essn
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0RHa1rUXN
不過原理應該不一樣。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlG2oD0m72
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XTvMTi94e
「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S4nuioNeO
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKC6Y4CO1K
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgLb1aeS3e
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMv9tIEhO1z
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJi4npjbDV
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfw5XicDul1
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rB4ToNejJ
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAAOa4ZLkz
「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMCgIz4UFo
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqlDyEGzWW
看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCA2cHP1nGk
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jiQ9i8VYI
童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7FNIpmChw
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1kKn5NO5Y
我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTv6usoOc8i
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmv23YdcLLc
我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM77t2kpHrE
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa6NoxMo3q
「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1r3ycseCt
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4KRQjnT6x
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoyeHc96za
只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeMPt3J8oI
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuadRVE260G
這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlU0yKPpv1t
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只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ab4QyxJ7J
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5a47bJjgBv
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRAZTDDG72
只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEgEpy88m3
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「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPK8VMaO4o
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「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyjedgB7hA
1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXTqOP1F8S
「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNW1SLasMSS
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「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhbyi8HoIi
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眼角泛淚。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67dzUnWRNO
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「呀遊？」童桐問。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmOLPPAjuB
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「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggZUM4V0DF
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在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWO0JnLP5z
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／／還能互安慰1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYZM6xGnaq
不必天氣多清朗1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3of52jOTiI
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCe84S39bx
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1178Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE2pEMdVt6
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床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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