我牽著童桐的手，然後舉到胸前：「我同童桐…開始拍拖。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvxdxSqS8J
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要交代的，就只有這件事。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP2Oy5dJ3n
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在旁人眼中大概很普通，很平常吧。從小到大玩在一起，待在一塊的我們成為情侶，可能在眾人眼中成為情侶是何等的理所當然。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdrW6qesuN
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天曉得我們經歷了甚麼。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNNH9B9nFP
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「終於呀。」我媽平淡地說，一臉不出所料的樣子。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEzj32QZie
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我爸點點頭，舉起姆指，然後出門上班去。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDgglOqmUF
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就這樣簡單地向我父母和童桐爺爺嫲嫲交代了後，我們的生活其實沒甚麼變化。真的，我以為我與童桐會有甚麼改變，但我們之間的日常只是回到原點。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5XXknUqN9
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「呀遊，幫我吹頭髮～」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEX0aHqBSe
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「嗯～」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CkozDDa4k
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一如以往地幫懶惰成性的童桐吹乾頭髮。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmTqWqqq6f
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「呀遊，今晚我煮飯俾你食呀！」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkJCswoZnx
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVYyE8EzDF
「咁我去買野飲？」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GvShYB5fj
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一如以往地互相去對方的家中晚飯。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YcyM3dTB6
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「亞基里斯你又痾？！」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtEPgzjaED
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「咪又係你餵太多搞到咁…」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wBxgs7CqB
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一如以往地帶亞基散步。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUhPdaRQ8P
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因為我們真的太過親近，即使確立了情侶關係後我們也沒甚麼改變，身體接觸是多了，確立正式關係後會做的也做過了，但其他一切如常。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGC4RDMT6R
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這使我有種…奇怪的感覺。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqBM41klVS
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不過也就是「這樣子」嗎，我有這種感覺。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOvknOOhna
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我看過一套動畫叫靈魂奇異記，當中有個比喻是這樣的：有一條小魚問鯨魚，「大海怎樣去？我要去大海。」，鯨魚傻眼：「這兒就是大海呀？」，小魚不信：「不不不，這只是水裡，我要找的是大海。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwXNPR25AZ
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準確對白我不記得，但我現在感覺自己就是那尾小魚。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7nqb77Urh
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差別在於我知道自己已經到了終點，到了大海，我終於成為了童桐的男朋友。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkQxmvKXJD
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但……也就是這樣罷了，大海就和水裡一樣。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mtgWUtZ9G
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說得我都好像是個渣男了，但一向視童桐為終極目標，窮一生追逐，犧牲一切也要得到的我，真的得到她了。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7rK1ws2vt
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之後呢？1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxK1iOhAiF
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沒有想像中興奮，沒有想像中狂喜，我以為自己成功得米之時，會好像中了六合彩一樣大喜大笑，會好像手機抽蛋單抽SSR，會如那天婚禮童桐主動吻我那樣吧。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG0OPrIPSk
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但沒有，完全沒有，我心情平淡得我以為自己精神或心臟有問題。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8sxwKWR8v
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我怎麼了？——在好幾次和童桐聊完電話睡覺後，我都質問自己。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofFnsqcrUw
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2bJISihLW
現在的我幸福嗎？幸福。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ysTkSCrOs
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現在的我快樂嗎？快樂。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8QPBuU0jh
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現在我的滿足嗎？滿足。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kE2E9yzbY
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCaCVymn8C
那麼我現在是怎麼？為甚麼在茫然？1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14p8cpswNj
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00nYtOtfgA
我有時甚至會看著我爸釣回來的鮮魚，本已在大海的牠氣絕於我爸的小冰盒之中，溶化的冰水中也是水裡，牠還會想找大海嗎？我會苦苦思索著這問題直到出神，直到我媽拿菜刀一刀拍昏那尾魚的「砰」一聲才回過神來。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNN7fRXz4v
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至於童桐的話，她比我正常多了。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHOZXXAWml
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqdkses7HM
雖然我和她之間直接跳過了熱戀期，但童桐卻愈來愈黏我。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnlFIsrTdl
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4zFkBIunQ
「呀遊，早晨～」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeaA9YMJjd
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「What！the！Fu…」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxmmjHFdyG
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFBWKXpp9d
試過幾次早上瞪開眼，童桐現在不只是坐在床尾或站在我旁邊，而是鑽到我的被窩中輕擁著我。是很甜蜜沒錯，但早上醒來一張人臉貼著自己，即使童桐多可愛也有點不對勁吧。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMQ7hKVan1
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「嚇親你？」童桐在被窩中抱住我問。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1ldKRFF9G
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHSiTqyvnP
「童桐，我…未刷牙，驚把口臭到你啫嗚嗚嗚？！」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwczK18nY6
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X3n5OQIH5
童桐閉上眼深深吻到我嘴上，然後用舌頭舔舔自己嘴唇笑著說：「嘻，點會。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZaWCMW2h6
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5Eh6LzQvh
如果我媽不是在家我真的會就地把她…！！1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQB2akiyyf
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovLE80AYiA
總之，童桐和我都彼此壓抑了自己十幾年，她這樣子才是正常吧，即使顯得有點太用力。有問題的人是我，明明跟自己說過無論童桐的好壞也會接受…但感覺也不是因為那些往事作崇。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYh2hG7Pol
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我是連幸福也害怕的那種膽小鬼嗎？1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AG8v4DIv6
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mFUEW2Na1
再舉一個例。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ABgBvi5lJ
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「好，抆箭。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk3FeYP8Gh
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魚腩盃決賽定了在八月最後的一個周末，英姐和贊助比賽的發叔都說這樣子人們才難忘，選手們多點時間練習比賽也更刺激。所以已經失去了不少練習時間的正趕緊追上其他決賽的高手。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrrFpR5GL8
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左手抵住箭靶，右手握住箭柄，發力拔箭…慢著！1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3KOhQbMF1
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「呀遊～」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSbo5nfUS6
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童桐從後抱住我。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3S1ShSfSm
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuFkOMlDNI
「童…童桐？！」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDHOJZI4lu
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射箭運動中，其實很少人是被發射的箭矢射中而受傷，因為我們都特別注意有沒有笨蛋在射箭時越過發射線進入危險的射擊區。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiK6DjoIaa
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相反，最危險的是拔箭的時候。常有學生沒注意身後，把箭矢從靶上拔出時用箭尾插傷身後其他來拔箭的人。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTfxbVIngCw
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「危險呀！做咩黎左既？」被童桐抱住我沒法從箭靶上拔箭。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoreuj37i9
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtkl8j5WIh
「掛住你囉。」童桐用頭輕蹭向我撒嬌。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRbAuQc4ra
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb8xDO7qPh
「嗄？我地一個鐘前先食完下午茶…」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdpvtxKwMh
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ407Z9yMU3k
「成一個鐘無見過你喇…」童桐扁著嘴說。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLLNLmaNwT
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYY6Btu8E0
因為我這樣被她定身在射擊區內，後方其他師兄師姐都沒法射擊。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LZQmODhWE
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZwEbnVG2A
「師兄，你…抆箭先呀不如？」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1IXcvNd6S
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「喂要攬唔好係度攬啦？！」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnOd1C9WJL
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKbBzBYvvC
惹眾怒了…1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7b8zFSxag
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1w9AfGDSom
好不容易說服童桐回沙發區等我，我連忙高速拔出箭矢收回箭袋，跑去沙發安撫被罵而扁著嘴的童桐，結果練習次數比計畫中少了一截。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3KA2IYQra
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQFslLunva
又例如有一天晚上我和情聖在聊Facetime.1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyJ8gTg8rG
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgg18tDO6O
「個邊零下四十度既話，普通雪櫃算唔算係熱櫃既一種？」我問。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsd9n6s6Viu
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNH6CIgOc3
「呃…不過其實又無想像中凍，同埋難得黎加拿大渡蜜月無理由唔北上睇極光，我地之後會去個香港人開既牧場度玩…呀遊。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCknHIfErV
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjbzncGqbu
情聖突然面色發青，明明他那邊是中午，他還在吃午飯。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXppJLJgcFl
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FcPMV8mgG
「做咩？」但我這邊是半夜，農曆七月那種。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85RoRBtDdm
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvfXXFtpqz
「你後面有個人影郁緊。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTP9ueMO0r
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「嘩我屌呀？！…童桐？」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwRyvTgezY
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQg5EB7y6g
那人影一晃後突然從黑暗中高速欺近，把我嚇得差點尿褲子的人正是童桐。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPUIeM2xOP
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuvBWiG9wM
「你唔係話訓覺啦咩？」我問。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcZbCuAk2v
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yN7PMGoaO
「我見到你呢邊有光。」童桐一雙眼死瞪著屏幕說，「你明明仲同我講左早抖…你呃我？」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOV5EzyZhip
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgKhrazCRk
她一直在那邊監視著我的窗戶？1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb6epVOJmb
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP14SAEMdG
「就…我同情聖傾緊計呀。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9kkezqFbx
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMlHGNrDue
畫面中的情聖不安地吞吞口水：「Hi, 童桐～」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgKI99y1Ln
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCP8h4krusS
「好耐無見，情聖～」童桐馬上笑盈盈地揮揮手，和剛剛判若兩人。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetb4A0Wjnj
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我和情聖隔著屏幕不安地交換一個眼神。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa12XF5bK7j
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXoRDeNrma
童桐這樣黏我我其實很高興，我也想像過各種和童桐糖痴豆一樣的畫面，各種摸頭，牽手，擁抱以至更親密，但是現在這也太過…1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXXbkRPVIM
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「喂你個邊咁夜，唔阻你訓啦。」情聖察言觀色，「之後再傾，明信片等陣返酒店寄，拜拜。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJXnL7IODP
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPfMZUNxBC
「拜拜～」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuA0NOtxdj
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIr8NSkwdl
情聖消失在畫面上，黑掉的屏幕倒映著我與童桐。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTgbXhVZBl
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWQRbOUPw8
…半夜自己開門進來，真的好嗎？我們始終沒有同居吧，白天也算了。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDxj5eoNGQ
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjblxT4fku
「今次真係訓？」童桐問。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUx06V2qG8
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「嗯。」我笑著說，「攰啦都。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoGZpp6EZn
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但看到她這表情，我也不能說甚麼。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObf9lv4mEL
1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTOzf0vaIX
「咁我睇住你訓。」童桐在床邊坐下，「使唔使我摀耳？膝枕？」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9OSMwKcvU
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「唔…唔使，咁，真係早抖啦。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LWo31pQno
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結果還是被童桐摀著耳朵，輕輕按摩頭皮直至我失去意識睡著。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKs82h5eoJ
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童桐愛我，我感受到了，應該說感受不了才怪，有時連亞基都為之側目。但是這樣是正常的嗎？即使我沒有經驗，我也有看過小說漫畫電影之類，情侶即使是熱戀期也不會這樣子吧。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPGVcLEBOj
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童桐…沒事吧？她好像又瘦了？1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OhAvNfPqX
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更何況我們早就相處了不多年，童桐這樣黏著我反而有點一反常態。她時不時要擁抱要親吻要摸頭要撒嬌，每天都和我如膠似漆，更加顯得有點…突兀嗎？1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMKBvZtpob
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然後。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNumF0mjJy1
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「妍妍今晚上黎食飯，執好間屋。」我媽拿著買回來的一袋二袋說。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGJVdejhyy
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「咁…突然？！」我看看身邊臉色沉了下來的童桐，又看看我媽手足無措。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3gRRAc7ji
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「嗯，佢搵工個度有野問我…Ｄ後生女真係，仲有幾個月就畢業，連自己想點都唔知，ＣＶ都未寫過。」我媽扶著額搖頭。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BoozaiABR
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「呀遊，我幫你執屋。」童桐站起來說。1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GYrMq07bW
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「唔使啦，係我同亞基整到咁亂…」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZkdYWKL5i
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「你同我坐低！！間屋我會執，只可以…」童桐回眸的雙眼放出殺氣，「…由我執。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxd8XWJiNh
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「係。」1162Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VLLi5lT1N
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我和正跳來跳去耍蠢的亞基連忙坐回沙發上正襟危坐。
