White sheets stained red in a hotel bed232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACfxpjZWYl
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5iGLmL6N7
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6H8Q7rI9cA
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpYAkx7eUi
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcgQYbP4Ik
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E4c24P8kM
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVT7GiDHCxh
Vivid visions invading my rest 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0gUynzAc4
I can't sleep because all I see is death232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHnlkCEAdR
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAc04RwqNv1
Thinking about death at such an early age232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmBVRaYu0q
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRsinpGy2b
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7Q4elmxqP
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrSDTZPk4I
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZarlaeGyEh
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicussDTrtn
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJP62iXXPi
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmikYSlwoO9
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXW2g0zq4V
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRPcXPGwK8
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKYFRUefoZ
Nobody actually cares until you're dead232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PC4ySdOao
Until you're another headline in the news232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiGt4J89EV
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99J6EbEjqh
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwWHzJceWC
"I miss you today" 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82LblDF15I
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3byXtbSADl
But they care now, 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XvBvnfUZF
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViJipi69sz
Mixed signals is all they send232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxjtNGhjVR
One day I matter to them 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nXWyUUopg
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVG5o6PEf6A
A few months ago, I felt like flying 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FBCrCSOri
A few months ago, I truly felt alive232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxh194mLAnE
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXM3Hi988q
It's hard to explain with words,232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1evKPZ6uk
How the silence kills 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGVHfZAmh9
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYAWks9EDj
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0K8ArhRFJ
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Jr1wRlmv0
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzwZnci571
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNzOUDEguv
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡly7kf2D19Q
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtBwVYTQcn
The little voice in my head, it screams it232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZ2z5iLP36
"This was their choice"232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK958mZjUb
And to be lonely all the time is mine232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuYtPeMRzE
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkAeoWU1D5
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6W3XgxiUP
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHPucqhYjX
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJrOMTU24v
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2TCR6IFhI
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ROcS7bQ6O
I wish somebody would call232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUB3NSZvsu
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBLONX5Esi
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTtS9horst
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLemnZUaz5
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVu72lghX2
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqnGgLUc05
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 232Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kfHgW79Km
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
