White sheets stained red in a hotel bed292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhIe2R3W4W
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡht3ygKPqTc
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLJev8FkLp
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEldRPutE7r
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJ8BSxLEtv
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcacjKp493x
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFZRC9Swo2
Vivid visions invading my rest 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9tDSONwDw
I can't sleep because all I see is death292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcxJMLjyC9
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P2coXo2vm
Thinking about death at such an early age292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeeV5IXu10
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPijDxZ4DC
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey0wkDv3GG
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2raB16ajq
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLcssbx6nG
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyk05SgfZeB
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3CIIh9i9e
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyqWhTiLlW
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WRFOZBkYX
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5KUn74tJZ
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDYTYJnlVw
Nobody actually cares until you're dead292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEa8eTPW6A
Until you're another headline in the news292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAvd5lciCQ
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaePHDDLA3u
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQY7Bp8rFw
"I miss you today" 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrsffOpBtT
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMDqvHf653
But they care now, 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNY0uV3FdJ4
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTq1YsIQyI
Mixed signals is all they send292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrTRLfjTtD
One day I matter to them 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGgX0pNJcK
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsQGDeDdvm
A few months ago, I felt like flying 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoLscBnnXS
A few months ago, I truly felt alive292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCml7jAWd9
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsGegihl2U
It's hard to explain with words,292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZutFrGj0e
How the silence kills 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDdWEbsktH
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05RAZeszku
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lvS4ayR1q
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5Zejx4Xsy
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI2SrFgKjy
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyYtB2uaRx
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzMU57vgoL
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH11xeApt8u
The little voice in my head, it screams it292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8viTtBmMms
"This was their choice"292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRG5XrTGT2a
And to be lonely all the time is mine292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn6Ybpka3V
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSOuSLptWX
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMq8LGeiNk
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1ZWDvQoqB
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57emdhOl01
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OaJehVXyQ
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCa1AVgFwF
I wish somebody would call292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBz4Ns2RAB
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3lJCo1CDM
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuDiKcW3M8
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcymyFvKVl
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9viYEwHgz
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf93Kf3fgQy
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 292Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvabdBrAee
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
