White sheets stained red in a hotel bed233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52VBnYa0Bk
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6G6Hfl29Z
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtx5DIq08dX
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRDy1oWmC0
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyyy4ojTYD
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqUq7kmkRE
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9vPBU8KMc
Vivid visions invading my rest 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgf79mNfkpj
I can't sleep because all I see is death233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchs5YhoTTE
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDajszLhael
Thinking about death at such an early age233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XbzxvhwmC
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xT3YoyJhy
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvTkyLw2Ez
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ224aZmjXf
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KgcbzgY8w
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg433TgdSxi
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCtwVP1iQB
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6XwdoqlDy
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VJg7h3yON
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBULUiRDZW
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiLijgx1IC
Nobody actually cares until you're dead233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaIKVyuxdb
Until you're another headline in the news233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRKn4bF4GP
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiQZQCDs6l
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2a25ooLi9
"I miss you today" 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttv0LsJTum
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAiGGtJ7eg
But they care now, 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6bwCFJUhG
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14KfsSzQLw
Mixed signals is all they send233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cavVRqZ5K
One day I matter to them 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsuZJv0V6p
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1UNMcjKz5
A few months ago, I felt like flying 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsjaDSKhDB
A few months ago, I truly felt alive233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZy62mFVkil
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGJQ7rdQge
It's hard to explain with words,233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8p6rTVxBV
How the silence kills 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11QAlzmt1p
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSnJ2rcPuz
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gJX80zLzF
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSQQgS2Z8J
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwToqHf8XA
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeY6plKF8n0
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYyXwaOmOz
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7quUcmD7yb
The little voice in my head, it screams it233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3Q2t5Cex8
"This was their choice"233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wtH7uXqsE
And to be lonely all the time is mine233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS32Bt8XOT
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5IfB5omu5
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6KXpQHL5N
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuq4CESxsJ6
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnzo4emLk9
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwBnrIv0zZ
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfOD8Pi9Ir
I wish somebody would call233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyIXr644Ei
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPskgHmS6Gd
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYLL6qO9BI
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRNO6qgWwl
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8JZs4KbRy
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xoUSSXTTx
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 233Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT5nvyqUbS
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
