I wish I could understand why I feel this way238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JM5gQDo3o
Why flying doesn't feel the same 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfojjl1nrF
And the lows don't seem to fade238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNuCQka9aQ
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5FjWzRkA1
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9g1wwuIisZ
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5fVspaOgT
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJT13qxj89q
I'll convert this pain into something that works 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZUJ60Oj8o
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiidWHb6zX
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UkNSgGX4h
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeK5CRKsQQ
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOEBTPmQsh
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvIlKeX1r0
The breathing turns to drowning 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOT1sBUHP2
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl9pFY1oIG
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWM3bWrvWQ
But no one welcomes me with open arms238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jaTnBT1di
Their love is fictitious 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8H7EWhvC38
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxn4LKVgH9f
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAQBzXBSlF
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbtx8tURDu
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEz8t6IdMzk
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16NfEpss6q
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsfJWimfy2
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ti3Rax6pW
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2uLCaN09H
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsi1mRgSy2m
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhECQw90Av2
They get their way, nothing remains the same238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxqGeLGxht
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJpiM7hue0
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0f2TrmQ18J
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnoy1zduMI
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvebBuvs7rD
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVKyyhWmdi
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDj2wSwew4
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsIYFLzcdb
But full of myself and always on time 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdPEb9QGW7
I admit that the crime is mine 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9FQLt6bbF
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaabeGkxC9
The devil will lose his incentive 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndWmLcu8xU
The weak little girl, poisoned 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5reYztVM8r
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaeP2aavXJ
Brick by brick 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb62p1CcuH
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUclkFVkls
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0aD2Ic4OK
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfLdUSjoZu
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6si9YV8hlp
It's still right there 238Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4DWRWsjZO
The devil on my shoulder
