“Evan, you’re 5 minutes late.” Mrs Burner tells me, not taking her eyes off the white board.
“Yeah I know, got held up in the hallway.” I answer, smirking.
She shakes her head and just points to my empty seat.
I look around the class and smile at people as I go to sit down. A kid I haven’t noticed before pulls his head from his desk and we lock eyes, I feel- My heart jump and I throw myself in my seat and turn around.
What was that?! I think in a panic and touch where my heart is, feeling the beat quicken. I turn around and sneak another look at him, he has brown fashionably messy hair and he’s wearing a very nice looking button up black shirt. I want to see his face but he’s looking down at the desk, his face begins to move my way and I quickly turn around.
I then feel a tap on my shoulder and I turn around to the guy sitting behind me, It’s Mark.
“Hey dude, you looking at the strange guy? He’s weird isn’t he?” Mark laughs quietly and I just look in his eyes and force another smile. “Anyway dude, you coming to my party this weekend? It’s going to be a huge one.”
“Of course I am, why the hell wouldn’t I?” I whisper and he punches me in the arm excitedly.
”Evan! Turn around and face the front, I’ll have no whispering while I talk.” Mrs Burner raises her voice and I quickly turn around and laugh quietly.
“As I was saying, the second world war started in 1939 When Adolf Hitler raided Poland on the 1st of September...” She carried on as my mind wandered to the quiet kid in the back of the class.
I put my hand over my heart again and feel it kick up speed, why Is this happening to me? I’m straight? Yeah, I’m definitely straight. I tell myself quietly and try to drop the topic. My mind goes back to it while I was trying to do my work, If I am straight why do I feel this way? I focus on my work harder but the thoughts won’t go away. God, kill me. I put my head on the desk for a second.
The bell goes a while later, telling us it’s the end of the day. I get up and pack my bags. Mark shakes me on the shoulders excitedly and shouts “2 more days until the party dude!” I high five him and leave the class room after him.
I get in my nice car that my parents paid for and started it, It hummed alive and I pulled out of the parking lot. I turned the radio on and drove home, drumming my fingers to some music trying to forget this afternoon.
When I arrived to at my nice home, I drove up the driveway and parked outside the house. I turned the car off and got out. The live in maid (Elizabeth) opened the door for me and I greeted her.
”Nice hair today” I said, smiling at Elizabeth.
”Thank you Evan, Happy you like it” She smiles back and I hung up my coat on a coat hanger. I go up the fancy staircase and get to my room, I shut the door.
”Alexa, play ‘The Cure’” I ask Alexa, She started playing ‘Boys Don’t cry’. I roll my eyes as she always plays very popular songs first and sit down on my bed. My room is a dark grey and black aesthetic with band posters dotted around the room and photos of me and my friends on my walls. I have a on-suite and a walk in wardrobe full of my dark clothes that I usually wear. I lay down on my bed, listening to the music.
My mind wanders to the situation this afternoon and the way I reacted to that good look— that boy. I stop my thoughts. I’m straight, I’ll show myself I’m straight. I close my eyes.
I suddenly wake up to my phone buzzing, I squint at the screen. “I must of fell asleep” I say to Myself and look at the notification.
Emily has sent you a message.
I roll my eyes and open it up-
Emily- Hey
Me- Hi
merely seconds go by and she replies.
Emily- Want to hang out?
This was my chance to prove to myself that I was straight. I instantly types back-
Me- Absolutely, meet at my house in 10 minutes?
Emily- Of course ;)
I get dressed and make sure my hair is good, I put some deodorant on and some other spray I found in a drawer. I then sat on my bed waiting. My parents are never home so why would they care.
10 minutes of waiting later, I hear the fancy doorbell ring.
I run downstairs and open the door before Elizabeth even had a chance.
“Hey Emily, come on!” I grab her hand and she giggles as we run up the staircase and enter my room.
She laughs and sits on my bed, still in her cheerleading outfit. She pats next to her and I sit down.
“I know I tell you this every time I’m over but your house is gorgeous. It’s huge.” She says, as she looks around my room.
“It sometimes feels like my house, considering my parents are never home.” I didn't mean it as suggestive but It felt that way after I said it.
”Well, that’s good” She moves her hand up to my cheek and holds my face, looking into my eyes.
I made my decision, I need to ask her.
“Do you want to-“ She cut me off by kissing me, hard. She pushes me down and we begin to make out. I didn’t know how to feel, I- I should be enjoying this, but I’m not.
She pulls away after a while and pecks me again.
”Yes” She smiles.
I have a girlfriend now, She has liked me for a while and She’s a good friend. Maybe this will be good for me.
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