I feel like loneliness will never let me go.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYU3PpnLb3S
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmm5Xqo47X
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28FDMAKVF2
people I can turn to—any time—55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbGbf5aDu1
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfGV9Fi3jG
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmRMQ4UC12
someone who chooses them,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFEYriHBAy
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq99A6dXCKM
I don’t have siblings,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOD2J9iY2I
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oWnzU5w3x
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9qU6r2SIt
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSp57uxnyk
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkna55oUCJS
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7FkgDjxE2
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfvDtUmIRY
but maybe it’s worse.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQie0XBrPH7
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW2m88Yvqu
I can’t.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd86fPFd47t
Because if I go,55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTNW8Tur4t
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKVpUSq7U4
I would support him, and he would support me.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSERVvD2ks
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJ2HcsvRVF
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTfqXIlKUw
when it was my turn to enter adult life—55Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ewOFGkN2D
I was alone.
