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Years later after our daughter graduated from college she left to become a zoologist Sarah, my beautiful perfect wife then became ill. For many months she layed in a hospital bed tormented by the sickness of her condition, seeing in constant misery made me both sad and sick to my stomach. It was as if I felt the same pain as her, staying true to our wedding vows. I stayed by her side every single day. I stayed at the hospital sleeping on the fold out couch. Everyday after I came from work I went to the hospital to sit on the couch next to her bed. I held her hand tightly with both of mine after losing Max and both of my parents as well as her own parents. I could not lose her too.
I said to her as she slept. "I don't know if you can hear me,but I'm going to say this anyway I can't lose you. I love you more than anything in this world.............................."I began to shed many tears down while many more rolled down my face "Sarah I love you please I am begging you don't leave me"I said as I kissed her on the forehead as she slept she began to smile. The next day I asked my boss for time off so that I could spend the entire day with her as I watched tv I also watched her sleep.
However, I soon fell asleep myself hours later I would feel a hand placed upon me constantly shaking me to get. I awoke to see that Sarah was awake "It's time wake up dear"she said smiling I quickly jumped and hugged her tightly as I restrained myself from crying. "It's ok I'm still here''she said as she hugged me back when I let go of her I stared into her eyes "I want you to go home James you look awful"she said.
"No you're my wife you're sick I'm going to stay by your side"I said "Hey hey ...................................................look I am happy that you're doing this, but you're tired please just go home''she said. "Ok I'll go"I said I went home then once I arrived I received the most devastating news she died I dropped to my knees as I cried while I came to the realization. Deep down as I wept in my sadness I realized that she knew that she was gonna die,but she didn't want me to see her. My sadness soon evolved into happiness.
For, I knew that she was in a better place as a week passed as I informed everyone of her death. While at the funeral I held my daughter in my arms I looked up to the sky smiling as I knew that her suffering was now over and that made me happy.
However, that happiness did not stop my sadness as I did and will always miss my greatest love, ten years later I would develop the same condition. I wrote this story out of my grief as a tribute to the love I had for her, and as I lay here laying upon my death bed I think about the very love that exists within my heart. Sarah saw it in me and helped it blossom into the flower that it is today. As I lay here meeting death as if it were an old friend I leave this message behind for those who read this story "Only love can heal the wounds of hatred".
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