White sheets stained red in a hotel bed224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT9OgPh6hZ
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtj4aTnToQN
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwY7Lm8R8M
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9QvYxEpUO
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f07ygitFy
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ePSg7ogjT
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDOUcMp0Z9
Vivid visions invading my rest 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nuRonKPg1
I can't sleep because all I see is death224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcVkPVllUq
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShz57fFqpj
Thinking about death at such an early age224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcC1JMzHty
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi81ik0fDPi
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNO9Vq2xP5D
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hvijZ7otT
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvMRltpT96
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdSKrakcza
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKkuBmsOLT
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd95OpwiWD
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4c6E0Za8E
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xc0CxCyE9
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYOagSXsez
Nobody actually cares until you're dead224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhx9U85VK9N
Until you're another headline in the news224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQwi9QcUG8
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40hT4GyJ5N
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezlFQchJos
"I miss you today" 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEVLo7ijZu
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9Y1ssocDE
But they care now, 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsEFQu7h1l
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwkZQtV7fe
Mixed signals is all they send224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwdMZ7dxpN
One day I matter to them 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuz8wR3MBD
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMRdhlV9ao
A few months ago, I felt like flying 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6WOs1ZtjM
A few months ago, I truly felt alive224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4WKcVB4Pf
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplRTamPfg2
It's hard to explain with words,224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6AvS9ot53
How the silence kills 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJdJkSTtUo
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbjagAl3nl
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJApnGu9C4j
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvxEMIpsVb
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz2hTj1iId
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlKBEtwxvJ
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDotMLg40mc
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87aLwzYm7Q
The little voice in my head, it screams it224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgUARfV2lJ
"This was their choice"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ11kgTsxC9
And to be lonely all the time is mine224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLFy5wKa25
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5ArCYpVs4
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lJDrTQR3q
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYgeeQ5gha
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvh9OVLbNn
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7ZJWRmvT0
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vavVZXDgd
I wish somebody would call224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQGIlq0UJX
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsqmhmoxve
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWBE9FB4sf
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOtnMGvwrB
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8bcBiKJjx
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4eFOuacnT
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIS91aqClVA
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
