I'm a horrible person.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVRr7C8nHT
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Vk1TFdynD
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7i3SYxc33L
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEQExr8KID
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ICauBPRUY
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjShshbRzPd
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu8We68saM
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHRDnaDtWa
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUrlUhzjnS
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlTGryNc1f
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2jq8UQK3z
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEw5g2HIVd1
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCpBFWwS0s
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgprg6QVFqb
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12weYYZopo
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEg9oYJD70
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInzn4jv9nI
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0I87oTp8pQ
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAydxG1YBTA
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bHH0gvuzo
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYn5Ont3FM
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbIhSVQ40l
Of being lonely.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKhMWBDkG7
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4uB0QAbcI
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So I take comfort in my own world.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mbcJ6gmQw
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UHAWV7tO5
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMotEfxlI9n
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymqHaBlYCD
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcboBt595Pd
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GxfSXImZQ
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8JhgWFzwc
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNWxBCtuTu
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UcfbGIM2K
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWUcBh3we5
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HHk6Gnh7k
I shouldn't even have been born.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEV6JrEmoys
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.357Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGWF6QYuIL
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