White sheets stained red in a hotel bed234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUaNFYWo1b
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDYhY9irTr
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpyxgchYA5
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMA4NlCjVL
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEY5pEu1ZQ
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGITaxg3uo
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZBKphSC6G
Vivid visions invading my rest 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeC1QQqsrgo
I can't sleep because all I see is death234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNRD9bZ5Xi
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNz2GpKziK
Thinking about death at such an early age234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSWx83EM4M
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGOYxMSGhs
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKdSeP9ZXr
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaY6EANmZDd
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCvVaLVjBp
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bmeb4xRLY
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSoYKRWJ2G
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4BrDuv365
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQCH6PXAaf
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55oxuPnywH
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLrhrrWFJ9
Nobody actually cares until you're dead234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6w6uMYnOQN
Until you're another headline in the news234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZjlVCwWlL
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVt6P3g0QFb
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0FaVK9Nge
"I miss you today" 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy65iDd5Qv
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyJ0lgpkla
But they care now, 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhfQTwPHWd
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4pn80PspD
Mixed signals is all they send234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRC8KHSiaY
One day I matter to them 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgeQEdrR3A
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4U4z7HsVYy
A few months ago, I felt like flying 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1XORb6ltr
A few months ago, I truly felt alive234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rfnwm5SnL
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuTU9Vt1Mt
It's hard to explain with words,234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cb6cZZKbZ
How the silence kills 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoXzQyB31S
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2I5WHsmMu8
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdw8BzDfTt
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tHSDFNkCU
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubZ3rNLSkn
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotCdJRvniC
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vGiJKw0P2
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjOQu11quP
The little voice in my head, it screams it234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFgJq4uEdZ
"This was their choice"234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcoi0qgSFZ
And to be lonely all the time is mine234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYzeyIL1Lo
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPivqDAyp5r
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSeXiDru4U
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YhQl5Y6rp
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKLNGj1evD
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1naw3M2dIs
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMI0Thy1Qa
I wish somebody would call234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjRnktaaiV
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vN49qBdiB
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhUvW1Xusv
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJsjgARjve
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwP3ZlgvqK
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2pEkXorh7
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡef2JuK2lWz
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
