I'm a horrible person.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zWOKNXecm
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlL6rqWdJsy
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9c2n59qBx3
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciAXkJzdlX
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuY05nHtwoK
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlKVCJ3GsU
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv7wMbvAhn
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1GX1zJdlf
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcyJxVRbds
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOd10vjqFR
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpEXO0oqcw
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9ryVWLYn6
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IENhUVjqE
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCgI7BnL0F
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApHqRdjVyq
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdj0ihlMQFX
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZ7CrJQIxW
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMQAxkKQ6T
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6HoDxOv8R
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKDVnk5Otb
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKvCuheTPL
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNsh9ozJE1
Of being lonely.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8fq3aIcuR
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeqfxWPI1O
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So I take comfort in my own world.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7UJUuB9Pj
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzg5oF5gbmr
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpyGm0dErW
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6x7ya9OHH0
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAcv3dJDD6
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY9m6bTuu4
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUphuWZsb5g
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEJ1ktRL4L
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0zLYIfkwW
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyh6LB1fQ9e
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDGConyZD0
I shouldn't even have been born.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgX0ZhFnLp
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.358Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3Yf1TJf7d
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