I feel like loneliness will never let me go.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5TgcgYNSU
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjN75ZXMF0
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmj9dGhkBJ
people I can turn to—any time—51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROSa7ZpjOH
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRI9ql1txlD
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1Kkfj6KDz
someone who chooses them,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPj1ioEyLW
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAI7oEgNphZ
I don’t have siblings,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJQx4uGEKz
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kpOb8tV1I
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUYf0UxV1o
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsdIU2GJ6c
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzGjUHcHPR
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qP5WEFJgO
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnwPjwmtPE
but maybe it’s worse.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdXvMG26jJ
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlqoMZNLMb
I can’t.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wabhLwzft
Because if I go,51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvP5BmGZY9T
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK7dUIwXkz
I would support him, and he would support me.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT00ux8qiEo
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxbVEqm225
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuo2un1iNgh
when it was my turn to enter adult life—51Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQlspf2no4
I was alone.
