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I am quietly installed in my office. This is my own place, in this family home. Far from the adventures of my children, I appreciate being able to breathe calmly from time to time. There, I decompress and take the time to think, to drown myself in my thoughts, in my memories.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zAPlYv8Fn
Suddenly there is a knock at the door. I quickly slip the photo I had been looking at for several minutes into the pocket of my blouse, and pretend to be concentrating on a file. I barely have time to say, “Come in” when the door opens to reveal my daughter. At seventeen and a half years old, she has behaved like a real tornado since the start of her adolescence, four years earlier. However, in her face framed by long brown hair, childhood can still be seen.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJud5yyFVZ7
— Mom, I need to talk to you about something super important ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyun70GaSUV
I suppress a smile. With Orlane, everything is always mega important ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyaWSsyhai
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— With Alexandra, we would like to get a tattoo ! She says, excited, as if it’s the best news of the year.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KlIRzAAq5
— A tattoo ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUYFSifmZs
She nods energetically.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVSLQFiAlt
— While you are still a minor ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRRyCThVeh
— Soon to be an adult.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJEdI4fTgg
— Yes, so seventeen years and counting.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRXhU6PKaO
— If you say so. So, is it yes ? I need parental consent to do this.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7gzqfAa0P
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As I expected, my daughter's face turns an angry red, while her light eyes darken.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxZuLf7weV
— You never let me do anything cool ! She shouts, slamming the door behind her.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pzlX8aZLS
Another of these great classics is to avoid any discussion by taking long strides. I hear him scream.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsV8BkNnA9
— She always forbids me from everything ! She’s never there for us ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsgcTsx35z
— You exaggerate ! Mom is always there whenever we need her, tries to calm my son down in a paternalistic tone.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMquF2cGYcn
Calm, thoughtful and very mature in nature for a young man of sixteen, my son has a character that is the polar opposite of that of his sister.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJhsPBkTww
— She’s not a cool mother ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx42hqlR57J
I decide to join them in the kitchen.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74qOcNFq6U
— If being fashionable means letting you drink alcohol, do drugs, let you date anyone, or allow you to get tattoos, then no, I'm not cool...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNwWCXDOC6
— But why don’t you want to ? After all, it’s just a little drawing on the skin, adds my daughter with a pout.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRN2L9BK49
My God, how tenacious she is… Like me ultimately.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57DLJNMgor
— Orlane, the day you want to get a tattoo for a good reason, I will accept, but not to be like your friends.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7G62Po8yh
My son looks at us, imperturbable.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Zl3evLqn9
— You definitely have a tattoo ! She accuses me, angrily.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZxoleM0W1
I look down, weighing the pros and cons, and end up telling them : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRksrAUpyMK
— Follow me to the living room, both of you. I need to talk to you.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPaQbhcNAC
Without a word, they accompany me, and each sit in one of the large armchairs, facing mine.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe16LKiIzgl
— You are both old enough now for me to tell you a story. And please don't interrupt me. The story I am about to tell you is personal to me, but it is important that you know it, because it has made us who we are.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFT4nbW02l
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It all started on September 26, 1991 : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1Dex8NxZo
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Autumn has not yet arrived although the leaves of the trees are starting to turn red under the less intense rays of the sun.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArI47wi4Wm
I detail my reflection while doing my hair in front of the mirror. I don't think I'm pretty, although many people tell me otherwise. I'm not very tall, I don't have the figure of a top model, in fact, I find myself rather ordinary. Not to mention this damn hair that refuses to stay styled the way I want it ! Giving up trying to tame them, I abandon my hairbrush and go down the stairs of the house. I'm so happy to be in high school where I'm now one of the big guys. Sixteen is the age where my real life begins, the age where my parents finally treat me like an adult and no longer like an immature child. The age when all dreams are achievable and desires possible.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i3bBxLDqv
My mind escapes for a moment to fly towards Chad, my boyfriend of several months. Chad is young, handsome, athletic and intelligent when he manages to stay focused long enough on his homework instead of thinking about sports, which is hard for him. He's not very tall, but built like a sportsman : all muscles. I like his black hair in a crew cut, and his hazel eyes. We have known each other since childhood. I had been secretly in love with him for years. In high school, I was known for being the type of serious girl, always top of the class, which did not attract boys, much to my despair. Chad is the most popular boy in school, so there was no chance he would be interested in me until a teacher asked me to help him with math. When he finally asked me to go out with him, I couldn't believe it anymore.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQzoctdBFA
For six months, Chad and I have been in perfect love...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wGsguOIiH
Okay, we only exchanged chaste kisses, we don't go out much, instead spending our time watching movies at his house. I also admit that contrary to what I had always imagined, I don't feel this passion that romance novels boast about, perhaps this is due to the fact that we have few things in common. When Chad kisses me, I have the horrible feeling of kissing my best friend but I’m sure that with time, our story will become more intense, passionate and that this feeling will disappear. After all, he’s the one I always wanted so everything will work out in the end.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9vMsWT5Vs
Letting out a romantic sigh, I enter the kitchen. Almost my entire family is gathered there : Ashley and John, my parents as well as Nina, my younger sister. The only thing missing is Nicolas, my big brother who recently left for New York University and who only comes home for the holidays.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHRmMOtlM2
— My little Megan… The more I see you, the less you look like my baby, my mother laments, staring at me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8RKL5UEOk
She isn’t very tall, she has a face with soft features that charms most people she meets. I get her brown hair and blue eyes from her. She always expresses herself calmly, but with conviction.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡali7p1st8g
I act as if his rantings don't matter to me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPXao0BeUX
— Mom, I’ll always be your daughter. And then, you have Nina as a baby…435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqmczfuH7K
My sister makes a face. At thirteen, she sees herself more as a teenager than as the youngest member of the family.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkj4iBj0ioo
— Are you still planning to go to Chad’s party tonight ? How many will you be ? Asks my father before swallowing his coffee.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAGYY4dKHO
— Yes I’m going. There will be about fifty of us.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8jvNcW8xJ
My father coughs and chokes.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yJZRgOmzw
— That much ? Ask my mother in turn.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgWWHvC9q4
I nod yes.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SsViRmtT4
— There will be the whole class as well as Chad's friends, that's a lot of people, he's very popular at school.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZDAL5I5nc
— That’s true, my father agrees with a touch of pride.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQpZPEFR28
Even though he tends to be overprotective, I love my father very much. I find him a handsome man for his age. At forty, his dark brown hair begins to take on gray shades at the temples and expression lines slowly creep into his angular face, further marking his smile and his frown.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMhturwu6s
My father works in construction, his specialty is facade maintenance. He judges each house by the quality of its exterior paint ! My mother is a secretary in a real estate agency, which doesn't excite her, but she has fixed hours, which suits her perfectly. We are a middle class American family. We live in a residential neighborhood in the small town of Millisky, Pennsylvania, where almost everyone knows each other, if only by sight. The town has around five thousand souls. We have a hospital, shops, restaurants, cinemas, and even a large shopping center, so we never get bored. In addition, our town is surrounded by a beautiful forest which allows for long walks, we also have a lake about five kilometers to the south. To the west, a hill overlooks the city, it is the chic district where all the local bourgeois have built their beautiful homes, which most often only serve as second homes. To the north, a highway takes us to Pittsburgh, the nearest major city, a two hour drive, and to the east, Philadelphia is a three hour drive.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8NoiBzIJf
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A little later that day, I'm in the main hallway of the school. It is a large white building, some classrooms have faded walls, originally cream-colored, and the same goes for places of frequent passage. The central corridor has on each side of its walls, two rows of gray lockers stacked on top of each other. I take some books from mine when, turning around, I see a boy of average height, with brown hair and light eyes, walk past me. He looks at me furtively. When I meet his gaze, I feel like I'm falling from a ten- story building. It's a strange thing I've never felt before and it only lasts a few seconds. Coming to my senses, I tell myself that I must be going crazy.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8PGdh2Z0v
— Not bad, admires Amy, my best friend, who followed my gaze.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKdghaHQfn
— New student ? I'm asking perfunctorily as I'm sure I've never seen it before.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0w9JNJSy5
— I’ll find out, says my friend, narrowing her eyes with interest.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1a0O20Oyak
— In any case, he’s very cute, I can’t help but point out.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObWqsWEBQX
— You're the one who says that, even though you're dating the hottest boy in school ! She exclaims, shocked.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrpwCDTvuI
I smile, remembering that Chad never wanted to go out with her. He preferred me. It's so rare for a boy to reject her that I know she harbors a little resentment towards me. She has never told me openly but sometimes, like this moment, she throws a little barb at me. Without being mean, it gets heavy some days. However, she has been my friend for so long that I don't see myself falling out with her over such a small matter.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZHwcnY5ei
Later that day, in history class, I am fascinated by the documentary that the professor shows us concerning the liberation of Europe during the Second World War. This is not the first report I have seen on the subject but each time, I am caught up in the violence, the abomination of this conflict. When the images of the concentration camps appear on the screen, I look away. This is too hard for me, so I concentrate on a completely different theme. Since the start of the course, I have had the strange sensation of feeling observed. As I turn to scan the class, I see the new student sitting two rows behind me, his eyes fixed on me. When he realizes that I have noticed him, he returns his gaze to the screen. I imitate him but after a few seconds, I turn around again.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgWWsIY7zZ
Grid ! I thought, giving a hint of a smile as he refocused on the documentary. For long minutes, I no longer dared to move. It's stupid but this boy intimidates me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrDOXfC4w3
When the film ends, I turn in my seat to follow the teacher as he walks around the class summarizing what we just saw. The newcomer is still staring at me. His look is indecipherable.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12lPZ3qfWj
— Imagine these families separated during endless years of war, imagine their suffering. If you had been in their place, would you have chosen resignation in the face of the invader or would you have opted for resistance ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrUEVR8CUc
I raise my hand, certain of my answer.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4utFgVJFn
— Yes Megan.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoU9ebXISkq
— I would have chosen resistance. Faced with injustice, I think I would have been incapable of looking at the situation without taking part in the fight.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp0RiOLDgK
— Good. Someone else's opinion ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcGMqe4ixr
Many raise their hands including the new one.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBMBow16Y3
— And you, what do you think ? Asks the teacher, addressing him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Hwb7mvW1X
— I believe that with hindsight, it is easy to give your opinion, but at that time, people who engaged in the resistance ran enormous risks, not only for themselves but also for those close to them. All this must be taken into consideration.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9d0bLuIPUN
— Perfect, Jessy ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN37O8VJhB4
Jessy… 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDGf6B63zn
I have a hard time taking my eyes off him even though his name resonates within me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSnPSw97L0
— For the next class, you will write me a presentation on this subject, continues the professor.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZznm8uGAbD
The bell announcing the end of classes rings, the new guy immediately picks up his things and leaves, bowing his head. It makes me feel like I'm running away from the whole world.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PPXhKiZC4
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I head to the bathroom to put some gloss on my lips and find my friends Amy and Pearl there.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsf7hHgX4rL
— So, Meg, where are you with Chad ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey6n5UzEz5
My cheeks immediately turn red.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsafHW4mar
— There is nothing to say.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVOGLrHh4S
— Don’t tell us you haven’t done it yet, Amy insists.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEnJ8qipWm
— Well no… Well, I mean, do you feel ready ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGrCuICHpF
Amy shrugs. I know she hasn't been a virgin for some time.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhkMd0q3A1
— There’s no reason, Pearl assures. You're with the boy you've always wanted, so why not go all the way ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIAKgWjpOi
These words make me think more than they should. I've been dreaming about Chad for years, so why do I feel this stuck ? Why don't my feelings push me to open up completely ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2eNxRLqWn
I feel lost and I know perfectly well that it's not my friends I could confide in. They would immediately judge me, thinking I'm crazy for asking myself a thousand questions when I'm dating a great guy.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21SBVZFDCb
If only Nick were here, I thought with regret.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCuB7VkEkV
My brother would be able to advise me perfectly. It's crazy how much I miss him. Looking forward to the next vacation so he can come back to see us.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Mo93CNtbU
— By the way, have you seen the new one ? Pearl continues, arranging her brown hair in front of the mirror. He is too beautiful ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa16K638JFU
It’s true that he is beautiful ! A finely sculpted body without being skinny and a face with fine features that I find refined, piercing green eyes lined with long eyelashes, slightly messy light brown hair... I also memorized the little chain with at the end a cross that dangles from his left ear giving him a little rebellious side that I find sexy.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdjehycuAp
— I learned a few things about him...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLtabJYrvv
This simple sentence from Amy focuses all my attention.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5SANoRnnR
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A few hours later, at the end of classes, I found my father in the high school parking lot. This day is important to me. I pass my driving license. I am confident, because for several weeks, Chad has been teaching me everything there is to know and, according to him, I am ready.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJGiTutOde
— Megan, we need to talk, my father begins.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUkRKfVMVd
Already knowing that I am going to be treated to a moral lesson, I hold back a sigh.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7r0TvVqbbf
— It’s about that party at Chad’s. You know I trust you, but... knowing you with him until late...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUt8XOxKwm
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— Will you be… serious this evening ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMy5WU2MaX
— Dad, I'm still a virgin and I don't plan on that changing tonight.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqH98FxWOa
— Thank God, he breathes with relief after grimacing.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImcuZ2cYpx
Shortly after, we return home, me with my license in my pocket and my father with the certainty that I am still innocent.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYjXqsI0k9
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In the evening, I found Chad at his house. He lives in a large, modern and chic house, close to the city center. Their villa includes three bedrooms with an independent bathroom, a games room, an office, a fully equipped kitchen and a gigantic living room which, that evening, easily accommodated fifty guests. Outside, in a garden, in which my entire house could fit, is a heated swimming pool. As the girlfriend of the owner of the house, I make a grand entrance. I'm wearing a pretty black silk dress, perfectly fitted, which suits me perfectly. I turn heads as I pass, especially Chad who only has eyes for me. The party is in full swing, the whole class has gathered there.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0REamNDYeI
I'm chatting with Amy in the corner of the room, when I spot the new student, Jessy, standing a little further away. He observes me while chatting with Stanley, a friend of my brother. He stares at me and gives me a small smile to which I can't help but respond.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFDGM0ATHC
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— This guy is so hot. I'm going to go and get to know each other, Amy said to me, scrutinizing Jessy.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnFZDgJ3GZ
Without knowing why, my heart sinks.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQYUe54cWz
— Amy…, my reaction is stupid. You look very pretty with this dress.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyPiaiXCUI
She smiles. I see her approach Jessy, Stanley quickly walks away while Amy launches into a tirade, pointing out several people in the room. She must inform him of the gossip that is circulating. I can't help the pang of jealousy that creeps into me when I see her place a hand on Jessy's arm. At this moment, he looks up at me, his expression is indecipherable. I have to look elsewhere... But I can't do it.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8HRjeWFFM
— Are you okay, Meg ? You're having fun ? Chad appears in front of me and places his hands on my hips.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPbskll20q
Finally I take my eyes off Amy and the new guy. I have to think about something other than his green eyes which make me feel like they are penetrating my soul.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuzep26uwF
I place my lips on my boyfriend's in a brief kiss.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppS41GNRwS
— Where were you ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuwnxYkkdr
— I was walking around the house. Haven't you noticed that some people look like they've been drunk ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsG9ONpPjm
— Yes, I met Matt earlier, he reeked of alcohol.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKWBwXmvx2
— Great, Chad breathes, annoyed. If my parents find out about this, I'm dead.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJSy5ocOKL
I glance in Jessy and Amy’s direction. He has disappeared while she returns to us, blowing : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6DlYUU4eX
— This guy is weird ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5i4XMFVZ4O
— What happened with Jessy ? I said, trying to contain my relief.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9J4hoH64r8
— I don’t know, I was talking to him and, suddenly, he went out to get some fresh air. Who invited him anyway ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5txPzZIsWn
— It's me. We had a class together, I told him it would be the best way to meet people.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpilylYkZn
How nice Chad is ! That's why I love him, my heart reminds me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcqtk8AWie
— I’m going to try to find out who brought the alcohol, he continues.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NJV7KVsY8
— I am coming with you.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeR0SJZj3s
We leave Amy in the living room and head towards the kitchen. A group of American football players, of which Chad is the quarterback, are seated there.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUlEr4GSKj
— Damn, you guys are annoying ! I warned you though : no alcohol.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQ0hh9uNG8
My boyfriend raises his voice.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaCbV5H7Ia
— Relax, Chad, it's just beers.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMAN8KehzP
— Beers or not, if my parents find out I'll be in big trouble, get rid of it ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2FrSlRN5Z
The five young people take their bottles while complaining and drop one which spills down the front of my dress.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlgB7R2C2i
— It’s clever ! Chad exclaims as I gape.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qa1KvdiSn
I grab a roll of paper towels and try to wipe the alcohol off, to no avail.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zZD3C9Oc8
— Come with me, my boyfriend said, taking me by the hand. I don't mean to be offensive, but you stink of alcohol. We're going to have problems with your parents if you leave like that again.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMV2WqU1Jr
— I know, it’s because of your stupid friends ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgHsCnHF5K
— I'm sorry. I have an idea. Go take a shower, and in the meantime, I'll wash and dry your dress and off you go, neither seen nor known ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwDmt4coNt
Having little choice, I accept.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02m3mVhqvC
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Several minutes later, which seemed like an eternity, I found Chad in his room. I am in my bathrobe and my boyfriend is holding my clean dress in his hands when there is a knock at the door. Neither of us has time to make a move that Amy and Pearl are already initiating. They stand in the doorway, look at us and mutter an apology before closing the door, giggling.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Sk6TVgwDD
— Great, they’re going to think anything now, I mutter angrily.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPSaZovOZ7
— But no, they are your friends. You just need to explain the situation to them when we get down.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRXdy19wCp
I'm not convinced, but Chad is right, they are my friends, they will definitely believe me. And then, I have nothing to reproach myself for.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsD7W3KudT6
Clearly, this evening is far from being the evening I dreamed of ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8OFqNpFPt
When we join the guests on the ground floor, I immediately feel that they are staring at me with eloquent little smiles. I'm going to pour myself a glass of non alcoholic punch when Amy and Pearl come to talk to me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPUJFNriJy
— So, Meg, how was it ? Is Chad as good a shot as he seems ? Amy asks me, with a spark of curiosity in her eyes.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHNWLpZW3q
— What are you talking about ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVjtWYXZAs
— Of you and Chad half naked in his room ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGxkwYgyKS
— That’s not at all what you think ! Nothing happened ! Some idiots had spilled beer on me. I had to take a shower while Chad cleaned my dress and he was dressed in case you didn't notice ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpk7uzT9f3S
It annoys me to have to justify myself as if I had committed a crime.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHUy7KB2Fk
— But of course ! Pearl replies, giggling with Amy before walking away towards other students in our class.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kZLGNTtC6
This story is crazy, and the worst part is that no one wants to believe me, not even my best friends, at least the ones I thought were real friends. The looks that I already found embarrassing became even more insistent, and shame invaded me. It’s a shame to feel this ! Sensing my discomfort, Chad comes to join me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zKTbYMizI
— I'm going back.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLR8U4vHdIM
— But no, stay, you're not going to let these idiots ruin your evening ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sFCSN6cSe
He hugs me tightly to reassure me, but435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqbwotZxRG
I gently push him away. There are already enough comments as it is, there is no point in adding more.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRUgBblNgJ
— No, I'm going back. See you tomorrow ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ehd8nw5QL
Disappointed, he acquiesces. I kiss him on the tips of his lips as we usually do.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtUHHwKRrB
— You don’t want me to take you home ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68IDLx16Wr
— I need to walk...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVy2MbSpb8B
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It feels good to be alone and to be able to enjoy the peace and quiet of the cool night. The moon just makes a crescent in the sky. Looking up, I admire the stars which, far from everything, don't care about the gossip that runs on Earth. Tears burn my eyes, I feel more alone than ever on this Earth which is definitely not running smoothly.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIroIUsSKY9
— Did you need to get some fresh air ? A soft voice nearby asks, bringing me out of my reverie.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqRXBGLI2Q
Jessy is by my side, looking up to the sky.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQUniFveA1
— Yes. Exactly. You too ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6fJHOnmzt
This is the first time I've seen him up close. Immediately, my heart races. A small diamond shines in his ear, replacing the cross he wore during the day. Two locks frame his forehead, falling in front of his eyes when he lowers his head. I know I shouldn't stare at him like that, but I can't help it. I feel like an insect attracted by a light that hypnotizes it. He looks at me, gives me a smile. Why do I feel so intimidated around him ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGvEun1oyZ
A breath of wind rises, making me shiver. Jessy takes off his black leather jacket and hands it to me, I put it on and thank him. Does he notice my trouble ? I don't know, but from his piercing gaze, I suspect he's enjoying the situation.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFc3qUsQhi
— Yes, I needed to get some fresh air too, I don’t really like crowds. I saw you leaving, I thought maybe you’d like some company ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPUOWZ2eQQ
— If you want, I shrug casually while being happy that he noticed me. Jessy, is that right ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mH4VMO9w4
He nods with a smile.
— I'm Meg...
— Megan, I know.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBN6iZgtqdl
I look at him, surprised.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7PCbE1Tz4
— Good. What else do you know about me ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUveqDonNK
— Let’s see… You’re the best student in class, and you’re dating the star player of the football team.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTumqqiEpNB
— You're good ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjoWKk2Ggh
— I guess you must have heard something about me too ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8y3qgZjdpV
— Not much, actually. I just know that you are seventeen, that you have just arrived in Millisky and that you are repeating your school year.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSc3zxWh961
— Everything is true. It's not that serious ? What upsets you..., he adds to my astonishment.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyNy6GAstN
— No, there are much worse things in life. It's nothing, just nonsense.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYvZ8YGoqX
— If it’s so harmless, then why did you leave your boyfriend’s party ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApJHUlpOx1
— Maybe because, this evening, I saw the true faces of my so called friends. My confidence in them melted like snow in the sun.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLKVGz0lrV
Jessy sighs as she looks up again to look at the starry sky.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxRWvpWTWp
— I know this feeling of disappointment well.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0nkYPETyu
— Did this happen to you too ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRDeOQIkua
He seems surprised that I am interested in him and turns to me, burying his hands in the pockets of his pants.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhgdMw2lt4
— To be betrayed, disappointed ? Oh yes ! Although I don't understand why your friends would turn their backs on you.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJpkq8rm1E
— Haven't you heard the gossip spread by Amy and Pearl ? They told everyone that I slept with Chad. Even though I told them that this is not the case, they did not believe me, and worse, they preferred to continue to denigrate me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoKfSxL0ru
As I tell him this, I search his eyes to check if he is sincere or if he is making fun of me like the others.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeLs9kkU1a
— I have learned to no longer listen, and even less believe, what people say out of pure malice or jealousy. I am convinced that you are telling the truth.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEm6hyziYf
— You seem very sure of yourself for someone who doesn’t know me ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fR83ddhbe
He locks his gaze on mine before responding : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtygoMKJT2
— I see in you.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmim7RvXSEr
This response leaves me speechless and upsets me more than it should. Faced with him, with his words, I feel lost. Fortunately, we arrived on my street and I just want to be alone to try to analyze what I feel.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMIwNAkRcZ
— Thank you, I said, handing him back his jacket. And thank you for taking me home.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67hfIjsRxy
— At your service, he says, turning left while I continue straight.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8qS5cknU5
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The following days, nothing erases this attraction which pushes me towards Jessy. This makes me feel so guilty that I try to focus on my relationship with Chad, without really succeeding. As for Jessy, I feel like he's been running away from me since the other night. He looks away as soon as I look at him and doesn't speak to me anymore. I don't know what I did wrong for him to ignore me like that, but it pains me a lot. Perhaps he also ended up believing the nonsense that was circulated about my relationship ? If that were the case, I would be extremely hurt.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqKjseMtkM
It was during history class that the teacher gave me the opportunity to get closer to him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTGaijCNmC
— I asked each of you to write a presentation on the last lesson.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2Ibv3Uayf
At these words, several students point to their copy on their table.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJig9omtQzn
— Jessy, can you pick them up ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSwYkThWLu
This one executes. When he reaches my height, his gaze finally anchors on mine. I feel like seconds are becoming minutes. At this very moment, I realize how much I've missed Jessy these past few days. His hand brushes against mine as I hand him my paper, making me want to grab it and never let go.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnswGYtYecd
As if reading my thoughts, Jessy narrows his eyes slightly and purses his lips. Then he turns away towards the next table, breaking the spell that united us as the professor continues speaking : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaW7A9VOAB
— To find out what you have learned from this course, I have prepared a written quiz for you.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rgiQk89RI
Immediately, boos are heard.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjCw7avHrS
— Yes, I know, I'm not nice. While you answer the questionnaire, I will go through your presentations and form teams of two. For next week, you will have to refine your different points of view, compare them, in order to share them in front of the whole class.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2GSjtgwpQ
Although I am a good student, I don't particularly enjoy being on the board in front of everyone else and am already worried about who I will have to work with. As long as it's neither with Amy nor with435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGkuVs6wLs
Pearl. I haven't spoken to them since the party at Chad's.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDubGr77Irj
They tried to come see me on Monday but I totally ignored them. Even if I find myself alone most of the time, Chad does not share all of my classes, I prefer that to being poorly accompanied.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjxVtaFboB
For long minutes, I put these thoughts aside to concentrate on the questioning.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmI8jMNcjCn
When I finish, I raise my head and look behind me, towards Jessy who finishes a few seconds after me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmtwf5BLEl
The teacher notices us because he tells us : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetjphkX9io
— Alright. Megan and Jessy, you'll be teaming up next week. You can go.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZbLVmHyWP
At the same time, we get up and put our homework on the teacher's desk before leaving the classroom.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc7wJ88w2M
I thought we were going to be able to discuss this project but already Jessy is quickly moving away.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScZQU5DKrP
— Jessy, wait ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeARW8S7GO
He slows down, but doesn't stop.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSe86GvXCq
— We need to discuss how we are going to approach this presentation.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlQDITGtbV
His shoulders relax and he exhales.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsOYMOhKn6
— I don't like working with others. So I suggest you do your part on your own, I will do the same and we will meet again before the next class to compare our points of view.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdcE3TJtGr
— Thank you for your proposal but I refuse. There's no way I'm going to get a bad grade because you're antisocial.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RzKyAKEKA
— I'm not…435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdeGulXDfU
Before he finishes his sentence, I raise an eyebrow which interrupts him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbL2bxNK3r
— Okay, maybe I am a little, he admits with a little smile. Alright, you win Megan.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1TpRChMig
Feeling like I need to take advantage of my advantage before he changes his mind, I quickly scribble my address on a piece of paper and hand it to him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk50vA423Dm
— Come to my place at the end of classes, we will be quiet to study.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxsJhG60zZ
— Thanks for the address but we could just as easily meet up after school and go to your house together.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oZfqV1v0V
Why didn't I think of that ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPEV2p33TY
I refrain from slapping myself.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVz8maDix4b
Embarrassed by my stupidity, I smile shyly. Jessy leans towards me, slips my address into his pocket and adds mischievously : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDaZFS5o8c
— I'm keeping it anyway. You never know, you might get lost along the way.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwnlZbDfxq
I don't understand why just looking at him, talking to him, puts me in this state. I feel my cheeks on fire and I am certain that when I open my mouth, nothing but nonsense comes out.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfl3BTnFLxo
But what is happening to me ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluztAlrd5E
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During the next class, I feel Chad's gaze, sitting at the desk next to mine, weighing on me suspiciously. I do my best to appear comfortable and innocent until he hands me a paper.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiQklMcU0k
What's going on with Jessy ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4YgL5n3zA
Astonished, I wrote : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXx9JvOjVy
What ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jzyg7XOqF
Chad's response was quick : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLvPERanHX
Amy told me you two seem close and that I should be worried. It's the case ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPM6u5ok7r
Anger replaces disbelief. What the hell is his problem ? Is she not tired of taking care of my life, of making up stories for me ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEauqDhGMD
No, not at all. We just have a presentation to make together. 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLka7XXX5V
A smile lights up Chad's features. I managed to reassure him, yet I fear I may not have been completely honest with him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3aYgxVnsj
As I look at his profile, I have to recognize that my boyfriend no longer inspires in me the feelings that inspired me just a few months ago. I feel myself detaching myself from Chad, I come to wonder if I was only in love with him one day or if I have always confused love and friendship. Slipping my hands through my hair, I breathe deeply. The only thing I know for sure is that I am lost in my emotions.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEKKWoAHx4
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At the end of class, Jessy comes to join me, backpack on his shoulder and a book in hand.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiqND7WZtF
— I love this book. I must have read it about ten times since last year, he tells me. I thought you might like to read it ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvt5h02SZLW
While walking the streets, I quickly skim a few pages.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYuDAlRn3h
— Do you mind if I save it to read tonight ? I'll give it back to you tomorrow.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmpNf2SFgP
— On the contrary. It’s so rare that I meet people who like to read something other than comics.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJdqwlLhyW
— I understand you. Comics are Chad's favorite reading.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoylLyHwTAi
— I'm not surprised, Chad seems more of an athlete than a cerebral one.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxKbDmzW6S
I am left speechless.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4C1PSM7Do
— Are you always this frank ? Can't help but ask him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GleyDv4TI
He shrugs his shoulders while responding : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy17adBuIZ
— Very often. I hurt you ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiPyBFsb5Z
I thought for a few seconds before answering him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPQXpfD3mb
— No. I must admit that it is the truth.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZV6Ryz4XB
His smile widens, making me melt a little more.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAylt5KN62
Arriving home, we sit in the living room and chat about the homework we have handed in. We both think we'll get good grades. My mother comes home from work and walks into the living room, surprising us. I suddenly feel uncomfortable being with a boy other than Chad under my parents' roof. I jump up, followed by my guest.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTBVGekLqu
— Hey, Ch…, it’s not Chad, she smiled.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqShMirxAFb
— Mom, this is Jessy.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5RNLowOvT
They greet each other.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ940swcM491
— We have a presentation to give to the whole class about the Second World War.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUubS7EnFX7
With a nod, Jessy confirms my words. Since my mother arrived, he hasn't said a word, and seems intimidated. This adds as evidence : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAIqv7P6UB
— Jessy, are you staying to eat with us this evening ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4oqBX1jdq
He shrugs his shoulders.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhBw3cYShn
— I don't want to bother you…435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuh3oTNF3m
— Don't worry, I still cook too much since Nick left for college.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4u88HSQZzz
— Nicolas is my older brother…435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0PMygInYf
— It would be a pleasure to have you with us. My husband is tired of being surrounded by girls.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGNZANAEhX
— Okay then, Jessy said, smiling. Thanks ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaDdqHGDoy
A little later, he met my father, then Nina. When it was time to sit down at the table, without anyone telling her, Jessy naturally took a seat next to me. I control myself so as not to let my disorder appear in front of those close to me. I feel myself vibrate every time his arm brushes mine. From time to time, Jessy looks at me sideways and gives a little amused smile, and I immediately blush ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhhBN8NSWR
The meal passes in a good atmosphere until Nina, as usual, says out loud what she is thinking : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJDkuYr4kD
— You're not bad, Jessy, but I prefer Chad. It is awesome ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnctGI8vdGk
— Nina ! We don't say that kind of thing ! Reprimands my mother.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Y8MIBFGzg
— For what ? I tell the truth.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2R3a3nDU99
— Chad is nice, Jessy responds politely.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFOKzWe3Gn
— And he’s strong ! Nina continues, making me want to throw myself over the table and strangle her.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmdrHT1SzG
— It’s true, Chad is a great athlete, adds my father. He also taught Megan how to drive. Considering the number of guests at his party the other night, he's also very popular. He has everything going for him, this boy, says my father, whom I would like to strangle at the same time as my sister.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBAJQZFwW9
— It’s true that he’s really lucky, Jessy whispers, looking at me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKgXVJj7uN
I stare at him, not knowing how to react. I have a sudden and insane desire to throw myself into his arms to kiss him, this idea scares me as much as his words made me happy. Also, I'm left speechless, which makes him smile more.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vtcabRTr8
At the end of the meal, Jessy helps me clear the table, then asks me where the bathroom is. I tell him. My mother then approaches me and gives me a little smile.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UEPZDIDLt
— This boy is very nice, she comments quietly so that only I can hear. And very cute at that.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmyLDCtora
I glance at him sideways, smiling.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrw8b9ULxz
"I suppose you know what you're doing ? "435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZLFLxGt2C
— Not really.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtSyPhGWsJ
— Meg, you’re sixteen. You didn't make a lifelong commitment to Chad. You are all young, you have the right to be carefree. I was, at your age, and I didn't know your father until much later, when I decided to settle down.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNp1gKXKKSP
— You know very well that I am too serious to let myself be guided by my emotions without having first thought for hours.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTx3JxG4Dxc
— Yes, I know, my mother sighs. And at first glance, I would say that Jessy seems to be just like you.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0GRtHjOvxF
— You think that…435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixpzPRP4Eu
I want to ask her if she thinks Jessy is interested in me, but I leave it hanging when I see him coming back to us.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo32H7gIt83
— Thank you very much for inviting me to your table. It's getting late, I'm going to go home.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnn5GvPgFS3
— Wait, I'm going to walk with you for a while.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYY9ssDrgdO
Jessy nods before going to grab his jacket hanging on a hook in the entryway.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68wjy4HycA
— Thanks again ! Have a good evening everyone, he says as he leaves.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOKMSUgL8m
— Megan ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmRfOXOjFX
I turn to my mother who is standing in the hallway, at the entrance to the kitchen.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOujzuyBmOK
— I am sure of it ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxxcyuUkDx
I give him a big smile.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzz1wCe4Cfc
— She is sure of what ? Asks Jessy who heard everything from the porch.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkswYN6a7z
— Oh, you're welcome, just something I asked him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO8Q967SL5
Fortunately, he doesn't insist.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxORpYmdns
We walk down the sidewalk in silence.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eVbocEV6F
My neighborhood is a quiet place, where all the houses435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Fz9UK4hmy
look alike with their little white fence surrounding the garden. Only the colors of the houses vary from one to another, sometimes white with blue shutters, sometimes brown with red shutters. Our family home is cream with green shutters. My father makes a point of maintaining it well, repainting it as soon as the paint shows signs of age, and mowing the lawn regularly. This corner of the city is not known for being the richest, but at least its inhabitants ensure that nothing can damage it. I love this quiet little town which seems to live as if in a cocoon where nothing serious ever happens and where the smallest event, like the arrival of Jessy, is experienced as big news. This thought pulls me out of my reverie and, turning back to my companion, I decide to question him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBAiBUmhmn
— Did you move here alone ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EnLcUY1bK
This seems incongruous to me since he is only seventeen, but I never see him with anyone, not even in town.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWF7eg86Gr
— No, I live with my mother.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZlWevLTdj
— And your father ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdYD4CPuWQ
— My father died when I was a kid.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzV3xmny77
— Sorry.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmjGAnlFVx
— It's nothing. My mother remarried and I have a little brother, Jason, who is now seven.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ38LBiC7nn
— So your father in law and your brother live with you ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqnYvBRhOI
Jessy grimace. 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qJ7X1lEE7
— No, they stayed in Allentown.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRV6dvyhJuE
— For what ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMEAh7C5oh
Jessy gives me a big smile while answering : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2QS6lxiAR
— Joker ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4iVtU7gp2
Preferring not to insist, I move on to other questions : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuI56dYEldH
— Why did you leave Allentown ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqfldoikhi
— Re joker ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRqeGHbfpb
— OK. I always see you alone... but you must have friends ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYI5vtoMf4D
— You know, I just arrived and I don’t know anyone yet, except you. In Allentown, I had friends, or so I thought, but..., he interrupts himself, purses his lips, shaking his head : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmjgLdmF0r
— I don't want to talk about it... Let's just say, sometimes you think you know people and you're wrong.
— Like me the other night...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDt5jw9gEu
Looking serious, he nods.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh62UCNxvUH
— So you’re from Allentown ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTIf0SVq9J
— Yes, I lived in a small neighborhood where everyone had known each other forever, a bit like this one. (He looks around.) Except that in town, we couldn't see the stars as well.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ852RaOAa1c
I follow his gaze, staring at the sky illuminated by hundreds of sparkling points that no cloud hides. I feel very small and fragile in the face of this immensity. It's strange to find myself next to this boy to whom I feel close and who, at the same time, intimidates me so much.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnsg5DO6ap
— Your family loves Chad very much, he said suddenly, breaking this magical moment. How long have you been together ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XUWU0kFus
I sit on the low wall bordering a house for sale.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiu3jieKmo
— My father was a big athlete in high school and I think he recognizes himself in Chad. My mother finds him cute and nice, and my sister is in love with him, I think ! (I smile.) He and I have known each other for a very long time, since kindergarten in fact…435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvSkfvFxjP
— And you’ve always loved him, Jessy adds, sitting down next to me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpU5Okcw5F
I blush and lower my head.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1qviXemR1
— It’s complicated… But let’s talk about you instead. Did you leave a girlfriend in Allentown ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJh6lYbwlY
Jessy turns to me and raises his eyebrows, visibly surprised. I stare at him, both impatient and dreading his answer.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pPYOzg5Am
— Your question is strange...
— Why ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNVImMqyeh
— Because you're dating the perfect guy according to everyone around you, so I wonder what your questioning is hiding.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqMi9auAxZ
— It wasn’t you who told me that you shouldn’t necessarily listen to what others say ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxj6ledpmcv
— Touché, he smiled. Let's say I had a girlfriend.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTxZvgmfLz
— You still have ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSBGwHvCxu
— Well no, we split up...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafM5PbUlU4
I don't give him time to finish his sentence as my lips are already on his. Immediately, he kisses me back.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡic2OweKcni
His lips are soft and warm on mine, I feel him slide a hand to my waist, pulling me closer to him until, as suddenly as it began, he pushes me back forcefully before standing up abruptly. jump, visibly annoyed.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwC9d015m14
— That’s not true ! Why did you do it ? He writes to himself while standing in front of me, hands on hips waiting for a response.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07XgX7IAqP
— I don’t know, I said as sincerely as possible. Since I met you, I have felt lost. I don't know why but I feel like I've known you forever and this feeling totally upsets me. I was hoping you felt the same way I did.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgq1owyrVh
Far from calming down, Jessy walks away from me, walking as quickly as he can. I get up and run after him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMomT2RU1e
— Jessy, wait ! What is happening ? Please don't tell me that kiss was that bad ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7HpE1tgbn
He doesn't stop though. I grab him by one arm, forcing him to stop his way.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WpLSLHenX
He glares at me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBB41agAad3
— I'm sorry if... I shouldn't have kissed you, but I honestly thought you wanted to too.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ArtKnDVOZ
— It is, he whispers, staring at me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSleju6aEZz
— So where is the problem ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjHOzimAsX
— I can not do that.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XpUhOcmU9
— But why ? I know that compared to Chad it's a bad thing but...435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPstMoDLX9
— It has nothing to do with him. The problem is me. I'm not made for love, he gets angry again. I gave too much, now that is forbidden to me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4lth6hL01
He frees himself from my hand before continuing on his way. Staying there, I say to him : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHfv5qaTMB
— I don't understand ! You can't pretend to want to kiss me and then run away like that a second later. It's not me who made you suffer so why should I pay for what others made you endure ? I'm not your ex ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nVSTlrOZ6
Abruptly, he stops his running, turns around before coming back towards me. His features are distorted by anger but I also read a form of pain there.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonhv5JVTRw
— No, you are not the one who changed my life and I in no way wish to become the one who changes yours in the same way ! My life is ruined Meg, I'm already at the end. I'm going to die, he adds when he sees that I don't understand his words.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9hUHraejX
— Wh... What ? I stammer, in shock.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzkJcqIEJL
He gets closer. His face is only a few centimeters from mine.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsWwbmFK6s
— Meg, I'm HIV positive. I have the AIDS virus, he admits quietly so that no one else can hear him, although the street is deserted. So stay away from me, believe me it's better ! 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpyzyTVI7I
He leaves as quickly as possible. Soon night envelops it completely. For a long moment, I stay there, dismayed, unable to make the slightest gesture, no longer knowing what to think. His words seem to spin in my head like a wild merry go round that no one can stop. I don't know how long I stand on that sidewalk looking in his direction long after he's gone.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUIB9OTh5h
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When I get home, I try not to let anything show and lock myself in the kitchen. I thought I would be safe, but as soon as I closed the door, my mother opened it and stuck her head in.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFipG8H9ZCb
— Are you okay, Meg ? You're very pale, aren't you sick ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYDQfnAB3D
— Everything is fine. I miss Nicolas, I would like to talk to him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAfGFnm61O
Understanding the message, my mother nods and closes the door behind her. Immediately, I grab the phone and dial my brother’s number. Luckily he answers after two rings.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBOUOPGTMh
— Hello ? he says, happily.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTTFckQxvs
— Nick, it’s me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PUquupE1G
I'm having a hard time keeping the tremors in my voice at bay.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolCCXECBx6
— Meg, what’s going on ? He worries.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5e4wdGJcfn
The day I met Jessy, I told my brother that same evening. He seemed happy that a boy other than Chad was messing with me. For some reason, Nick always grimaced at my relationship with Chad. 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCtkmKMgjV
— Jessy came to the house for dinner this evening... 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2QXdlGrgZ
— Oh, he sighs, he threw you away.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJtfznUwRx
I think about the way I kissed him and feel myself blushing again. If I had known how he was going to push me away, I would never have let myself be carried away by my desire.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL55OARsFO
— Yes, but that’s not the worst, I sob. Jessy admitted to me that she was sick.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rEgZChovN
Realizing the horror of the situation, I fall to the ground. I am not afraid of AIDS, I know that I risk nothing. But I am terrified for Jessy, for his future which is likely to be short. My brother doesn't speak, he gives me time to calm down. When my sobs dry up, I continue : 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡON16x54naC
— Jessy is HIV positive, I blurt out in one breath.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrINsStWZBC
A gasp of surprise escapes my brother.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEovB6BoC08
— Okay, he breathes, making me understand that he’s thinking about the situation. What are you going to do ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDG5RbZWtx
— I don't know. Nick, I need to know your opinion.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaHTdzyUYt
— I admit that I didn't expect that at all. Do you see yourself turning your back on him ? 435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5z4XhddKkk
— I wouldn't be able to.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG6VpCgMfh
— Meg, I know this probably isn't the kind of relationship you imagined, but based on what you've told me so far about this guy, I think right now he especially needs support and friendship. Don’t reject him because he doesn’t match your ideal.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CwHXPwXqE
— Exactly, he corresponds to my ideal and the fact that he is ill changes nothing. If I am devastated it is because AIDS is an incurable disease. I don't want him to die, Nick, I'm crying again.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hSRssychu
I am aware that I have only known him for a short time but, without being able to explain it, he has already marked my existence.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡma3uzvfAOm
— Come on, little sister, don’t cry. For now, Jessy is alive and, even if he keeps you at a distance, I'm sure he would be happy to have you in his life. Try to make him smile while he's here. He must need to think about something other than this crap.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9dD5PC4OZ
— You're right. Nick, what I confided to you must absolutely remain between us. No one should know.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bsHyxSiAp
— Finally you know me ! Come on now tell me how he dumped you ! He laughs as I bite my lip in shame.
