I'm a horrible person.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLtPkJLUMB
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELFmKgVOe7
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzqfG0B1YM
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxrCUSJrXI
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NNirHOLve
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uL4QN6u7P
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLtGxb4DIr
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2F6E9G2he
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhlCLtarVi
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7prp2FVmta
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i5eNQjgLl
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKA1S9LX29c
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNlZhm4pcn
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1W9rggQeo
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRRcZw0DnY
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B9Qrwy9x6
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbnpyDmgcV
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILQRICsdYe
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB24LfXhoq
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjABsY7efJG
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsjoJ1ZlCT
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzuZ9FjAgw
Of being lonely.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzK3cRkKUU
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVn5Ny2CH2
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So I take comfort in my own world.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUUke2Y6rb
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5unGSa9fZ
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgjSkWozAX
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmQJcJ8SIS
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLidNcEQaI9
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90DRjjXI1J
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZ9HhWh8l7
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxjZmzdWWH
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr58zyVM1cT
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnPZ43baLl
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8CfQcYF8q
I shouldn't even have been born.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOWVHBT5Iw
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9ubXqv8Ms
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