FIEFDOM FALL is an album I’m immensely proud of creating, especially considering the period in which it was made. I started working on the concept in July 2024, after writing the first piece, Passion of The Cut Sleeve, about my boyfriend at the time - the day before we broke up. That piece became the catalyst for the album, leading me to write mostly about my childhood trauma as a way to process it.

The title, FIEFDOM FALL, comes from the second piece on the album, Filial Piety, which I wrote to make sense of my feelings toward my parents. To me, FIEFDOM FALL represents the destruction of a belief system, both internally and externally. Internally, I changed in December when my family from New Zealand came to visit. I noticed myself becoming more assertive, mirroring the confidence I saw in their tourist behaviors. This confidence was new to me - I realized how much of my personality I had kept hidden, likely because I associated it with my queerness and, in turn, suppressed both. The external change is mostly about how others perceive things, as explored in Rue You, where I wrote from the perspective of a character who both adores and is repelled by someone. In a way, that push-and-pull dynamic mirrors how outside forces shaped my own relationships and self-perception.

FIEFDOM FALL is also deeply poetic, which is something I’ve always strived for - poetry within lyrics. It doesn’t always adhere to traditional song structures, much like queerness itself isn’t always seen as mainstream. The poetic style feels especially fitting given how personal the album is to my experiences with sexuality and identity. In some ways, the poetry acts as a veil, masking the full truth beneath flowery - or in this case, Chinese - imagery.

And that’s what this album encapsulates. I hope you can identify with these struggles I’ve carried for years - struggles that are ultimately human: jealousy (Shaded Jade), heartbreak (I Don’t Think), baby fever (Antinomy), and more. But even if you don’t relate to anything I’ve said, I hope you can still enjoy the experience of stepping into the shoes of a queer artist navigating life.

A haunting and introspective poem that blends into the mystique of ACE OF SPADES.

"PARADIGM SHIFT IN PARALLAX" delves into the blurred lines between Virtue and Vice.

A Life in the In-Betweenis an exploration of life, memory, identity and time woven together.

This diary reflects the personal journey of someone searching for their place in the world, grappling with exhaustion and uncertainty about the future. Amidst the pressure of studies and career choices, the narrator questions if they are on the right path. The search for identity and purpose becomes a shared experience, capturing inner struggles, solitude, and the need for self-understanding in an uncertain world.

"LOST IN THE HAZE OF DAWN"— a hauntingly beautiful exploration of shattered dreams, silent screams, and the unyielding resilience of the human heart.

"THE WEIGHT OF WINGS" is a thought-provoking and imaginative exploration of the human experience. Through a rich tapestry of metaphors, symbolism, and wordplay, the poem delves into themes of identity, morality, freedom, and the complexities of life. The language is vivid and expressive, with a unique blend of abstract concepts and tangible imagery. The poem's structure and rhythm add to its emotional impact, creating a sense of urgency and introspection.

"Beyond the Fractured Light" is a poignant and introspective poem that explores the human search for happiness, meaning, and emotional wholeness. Through vivid imagery and metaphors, the poem delves into the complexities of the human experience, revealing the fragility and beauty of the human spirit.

This poem grapples with the complexities and contradictions of human emotions and relationships. It reflects on the profound and sometimes conflicting feelings that can arise, questioning how quickly emotions can change and the impact they have on our lives. The poem delves into the nature of pain, truth, and self-perception, exploring how these experiences shape our understanding of ourselves and others. It ultimately portrays a journey of introspection and self-awareness, capturing the tension between external perceptions and internal realities.

A few drops of dew, a few drops of poetry before sunrise.A few drops of sweat, a few drops of emotion before sunset.

Are you?

Our world is full of secrets. Secrets that not a lot of people know about. Secrets that better stay hidden from the masses…

A highly organised terrorist group has gained in power for years. Infiltrating large companies, rebel groups, even governments… Eliminating this threat is the primary target of the top-secret, international organisation, the World Security Coalition. A new type of shadow warfare has commenced…

Dawn joined the organisation only several months ago, but already proved to be one of the most competent operators the WSC ever had. She is part of ‘the younger generation’, an initiative to recruit young-adults as new agents.

But defeating this new threat won’t be her sole struggle. Struggling social skills, teammates, and a recruit to work with, a feeling of guilt towards the only teammate that neared the term ‘friend’ and constant lying to her ‘normal life’ friends, one is even getting suspicious…

Is she physically impregnable enough to absorb all the pain of her wounds? Is she mentally strong enough to carry on this ambiguous life? Will she, get through this, or will she, only look through the pain?

At what cost will this all end?

(Sidenote: this story contains many genres and not one is disproportionately dominant over the others.)