they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,260Please respect copyright.PENANA1DStzLSupI
all in the same breath with no hesitation.260Please respect copyright.PENANAtwO5iUPlOk
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later260Please respect copyright.PENANAIUtv4NYthJ
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.260Please respect copyright.PENANATslYXSnTij
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,260Please respect copyright.PENANAqN607htydz
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s260Please respect copyright.PENANA2tbqq9UyyC
but in the end they still withhold dinner,260Please respect copyright.PENANA6fapUGT87n
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.260Please respect copyright.PENANAUkm0ioZSxQ
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals260Please respect copyright.PENANA0lsN1W67iF
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.260Please respect copyright.PENANAbHUdX4d82w
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch260Please respect copyright.PENANA3V04smp1yF
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.260Please respect copyright.PENANAvJI7ekPXA4
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,260Please respect copyright.PENANA1g0IXc4bCo
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.260Please respect copyright.PENANAXJlYq4stj1
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief260Please respect copyright.PENANAIg4eAwI913
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.260Please respect copyright.PENANAlAsUjI5nop
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",260Please respect copyright.PENANAwM06rIlZ6h
said it was all mental and to just stop260Please respect copyright.PENANAmeS2POQrEM
but it was habits formed out of pent up260Please respect copyright.PENANACexpwm6jSC
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.260Please respect copyright.PENANAoDDEnklaHH
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they said it was all in my mind,260Please respect copyright.PENANAlPsfs4Oe0d
the anxiety, the stress.260Please respect copyright.PENANA5TiYt6VeCk
that i had a happy, loving family260Please respect copyright.PENANAVzYpPLX1kg
and i was perfectly fine.260Please respect copyright.PENANA7P8O0wwClz
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i'm not.260Please respect copyright.PENANA1nt6m8dO8o
i'm drowning in my own blood260Please respect copyright.PENANAvDkK50a15L
and choking on my tongue260Please respect copyright.PENANAv08X172Yv8
when i try to say so.260Please respect copyright.PENANAqCQB9XOZ34
260Please respect copyright.PENANAr3ql3DEEqr
...260Please respect copyright.PENANA2tNrRetKK6
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(it's all in my mind.260Please respect copyright.PENANA4uC5hcg0np
every last drop of anxiety,260Please respect copyright.PENANAe2pscWNFIZ
i have a happy, loving family.260Please respect copyright.PENANAiOQ8BvxrJv
i'm perfectly fine.)260Please respect copyright.PENANAUnIXNkaY8L