they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,233Please respect copyright.PENANANp2IOz7rvK
all in the same breath with no hesitation.233Please respect copyright.PENANAXogDfLpCkA
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later233Please respect copyright.PENANA4PAueMTO6E
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.233Please respect copyright.PENANAK84PreKDEg
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,233Please respect copyright.PENANAwIgd7mOEEX
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s233Please respect copyright.PENANA1LpjfFt67k
but in the end they still withhold dinner,233Please respect copyright.PENANAnbYnS1URuC
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.233Please respect copyright.PENANAgb4Kk2REgx
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals233Please respect copyright.PENANAmMyaHSMLwU
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.233Please respect copyright.PENANAUGbmgmAYnF
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch233Please respect copyright.PENANAbt5yf7ZhzD
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.233Please respect copyright.PENANA1ASAtsK0kM
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,233Please respect copyright.PENANAvnEML9QeMm
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.233Please respect copyright.PENANAl19ZC6rXTH
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief233Please respect copyright.PENANA41muTQCaid
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.233Please respect copyright.PENANAoKUaNPxLij
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",233Please respect copyright.PENANAfIg8DXs4Zd
said it was all mental and to just stop233Please respect copyright.PENANAKJJH0xFjNE
but it was habits formed out of pent up233Please respect copyright.PENANAdQVwiDb7Tq
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.233Please respect copyright.PENANAnI77dUAEOe
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they said it was all in my mind,233Please respect copyright.PENANAgvLhNzfufF
the anxiety, the stress.233Please respect copyright.PENANAQQ9NgY5zcr
that i had a happy, loving family233Please respect copyright.PENANAYK58Dc8r0U
and i was perfectly fine.233Please respect copyright.PENANApwsVxJR3a9
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i'm not.233Please respect copyright.PENANA3cigRXMduH
i'm drowning in my own blood233Please respect copyright.PENANAG7SkvZoBAB
and choking on my tongue233Please respect copyright.PENANAKbjOfksY7F
when i try to say so.233Please respect copyright.PENANAcqQGmh8fcZ
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...233Please respect copyright.PENANAJNVPyfPDlR
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(it's all in my mind.233Please respect copyright.PENANA0aBCcTWt9J
every last drop of anxiety,233Please respect copyright.PENANAMY64IFHGCU
i have a happy, loving family.233Please respect copyright.PENANADWRycRtxWl
i'm perfectly fine.)233Please respect copyright.PENANAQUdRCFJcNz