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打打鬧鬧、互相鬥嘴,即使阿龍看起來很生氣,卻也是開玩笑般的生氣。266Please respect copyright.PENANAzJmwBqSMg8
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本來一開始擔心他們會打起來,但現在也跟殷和傑哥一樣無所謂了。266Please respect copyright.PENANALz4ARa0zfj
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捷運行駛到士林站,門一開,我們便出了車。266Please respect copyright.PENANAK7V0cNo3v5
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在離開士林捷運站後,往士林夜市開始前進。266Please respect copyright.PENANARbatlaLH2m
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「你怎麼不過去和瑀峰一起走?」殷小小聲的靠在我耳邊說。266Please respect copyright.PENANANDOU3rWF0H
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我搖頭,然後聳肩,這動作讓殷更不理解。266Please respect copyright.PENANACDGxZsrTxO
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我不否認我還在生氣。266Please respect copyright.PENANAjaFoEK0mav
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也許殷他們會覺得沒什麼,但對我來說並不是「沒什麼」。266Please respect copyright.PENANAaVtSHDE5lH
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「你們這樣好奇怪喔!難道吵架了嗎?要我幫妳跟瑀峰談一下嗎?」殷又繼續問。266Please respect copyright.PENANAJcvKQDJaYa
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「不用啦!反正跟他談也沒用、跟他講什麼也沒用,他不就是這麼冷漠的人嗎?所以,就算了。」我小聲的回答殷。266Please respect copyright.PENANAcePyOXXKRz
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走在我們後面的是阿龍跟小迪、瑀跟傑哥走在最後面,所以他們沒有聽到我和殷的對話。266Please respect copyright.PENANAlWSKWKEZ4A
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我忍住想回頭看瑀的衝動,回頭看他就代表我認輸了,我不能認輸,就是要讓他知道我在生氣。266Please respect copyright.PENANAEHFZkUFVzn
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抱著小孩子賭氣的想法,繼續和殷走在一起。266Please respect copyright.PENANAHM97So2QQT
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不曉得走了多久,在我回過神時,已經到了士林夜市。266Please respect copyright.PENANAU7cJoKNtCz
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這是我第一次來,這裡也是一樣很熱鬧,不習慣人群的我緊緊靠著殷,殷則是挽住我的手繼續向前。266Please respect copyright.PENANATcNrz7yDa0
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「殷殷!我們去買那個好不好!」小迪跑過來,拉著殷另一隻右手並指著左方賣烤魷魚的攤販。266Please respect copyright.PENANAivHdQfI2wr
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殷點頭說好,而我並不想吃,放開了殷挽住我的那隻手,小迪馬上就把殷拉走了。266Please respect copyright.PENANAuRRtC4WyDq
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「阿龍,我們也去買吧。」在後面的傑哥看了我一眼後,對阿龍說。266Please respect copyright.PENANAUROO5f0rb5
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阿龍看了我、又看了瑀,沒說半句就和傑哥往小迪那邊走去。266Please respect copyright.PENANAeJ8E1EDxEw
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……我該說這個傑哥心機很重嗎?就是故意要留下我跟瑀嘛!266Please respect copyright.PENANAzYgesq8xbq
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平靜心情、穩定情緒,這點心機打垮不了我葉星橋的。266Please respect copyright.PENANAPzxO1fNqL9
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「到底有什麼好生氣的?」站在旁邊的瑀,難得主動開了口。266Please respect copyright.PENANAPQtTDYdoSW
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終於知道我在生氣了?但是他知道我氣的是什麼嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAGljByzbjDu
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「你自己都不會有點自知之明嗎?」我反問。266Please respect copyright.PENANARRxweeGoG8
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「我不認為我該道歉、也沒有必要道歉。」他講的一副理所當然。266Please respect copyright.PENANA8SB44nBh5C
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沒必要道歉?放你個屁!266Please respect copyright.PENANAUGbJEXPcQT
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一直忍住沒爆發的火氣已到極限,我轉過頭瞪著他。266Please respect copyright.PENANA19Ia3FAIqE
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「對,你就覺得你沒有錯,對,你永遠都沒有錯,錯的是我,可以嗎?」266Please respect copyright.PENANAQr9zPaavQM
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他依舊用那張冷漠的表情看著我,這讓我覺得他是在看小孩子鬧脾氣。266Please respect copyright.PENANA4xHHdWjjDU
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真是夠了。266Please respect copyright.PENANA33DI7MALRg
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「你有沒有想過你把我推給別人的時候我的感受?我只是想跟一般情侶一樣被你在乎被你關心,這些你都做不到嗎?做不到沒關係,我們也是這樣走過來的,但是今天、今天我真的受不了,我是女的、我也會想要跟自己心愛的人走看看情人橋,結果呢?你把我推給阿龍?也不出聲反駁一下就放任我和阿龍去走情人橋?你到底是不是人啊!」我推了他一把,他無動於衷。266Please respect copyright.PENANAUU8y2sCq6n
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「妳可以開口拒絕,但妳沒有,那妳想過我的感受嗎?」面對我的怒火,他依舊是那種冷態度。266Please respect copyright.PENANAUm7FxyvG2y
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「我要怎麼想?你從來沒讓我了解過你,關於你所有的一切我都不知道!你的朋友們一定都比我還清楚,而我呢?我卻連你為什麼一個人住、為什麼這麼冷漠、為什麼不去理解我的想法都不知道!」我盡量壓低了聲音,不讓在遠處買東西的他們聽到。266Please respect copyright.PENANAhHI4GLi8l0
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所有的心聲全部一次說了出來,但是他會懂嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAiB38LJ5qyf
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如果像小人妖說的那樣,他不懂得表達但至少他會想,那他或許會懂吧會理解我現在的憤怒還有──266Please respect copyright.PENANAdbtqZekaUk
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「妳不覺得妳很無理取鬧嗎?」266Please respect copyright.PENANAySc4L7zq2n
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期待?266Please respect copyright.PENANAJQ7yPAkJCy
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好像有什麼東西碎掉了、破裂了。266Please respect copyright.PENANAzpvxXeOHpg
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我瞪大眼睛的看著他,不曉得是不是看錯我發現他臉上閃過一絲驚訝,但是我想那是錯覺吧。266Please respect copyright.PENANAhG6fVMhLd3
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無理取鬧……266Please respect copyright.PENANAx4HDFljtex
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從以前到現在都是我在無理取鬧嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAj5nyDGWcNN
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「嗯,我無理取鬧。」我撇過頭,離開了他身邊。266Please respect copyright.PENANAZOO4amQalJ
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好痛、好難受,這種想哭又不能哭出來的感覺──266Please respect copyright.PENANAKIM8cGX7KS
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令我窒息。266Please respect copyright.PENANAhowOPhQObN
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*266Please respect copyright.PENANAaNlLQGy246
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二零一三年,七月。266Please respect copyright.PENANAsteAVdVwK0
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在那之後呢?我努力回想,只記得後來以那種失神的狀態陪他們逛、走,最後回基隆。266Please respect copyright.PENANAnceSyvzSYy
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也沒有再跟瑀講過話。266Please respect copyright.PENANAF8myTaCngi
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如果我知道我們會演變成這種結果,那我還會對他說出自己的心聲和不滿嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAFObSPPnAcK
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有些事情,無論在怎麼去想也得不到答案,事過已久,已經找不到任何解答了。266Please respect copyright.PENANAlXcutyrcS7
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後悔已來不及。266Please respect copyright.PENANA8WhmdGysFY
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阿龍抽完了菸,回到了他的座位,開始和小迪催促著我趕快點菜。266Please respect copyright.PENANAffjCEsd8W7
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我笑笑的看了菜單,隨便點了一個簡餐和冰紅茶,讓服務生把菜單收走。266Please respect copyright.PENANARAQLlthi5S
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「阿楊能來就好了,突然覺得好無趣。」小迪手撐著下巴,看著阿龍。266Please respect copyright.PENANA8OKMRYSsyG
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「整天就是玩,你還會幹麻?」阿龍說。266Please respect copyright.PENANAmEp85A0ObM
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「無趣的人生就不是人生啦!對吧?」小迪笑著看我。266Please respect copyright.PENANAUCFYugxTP0
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我點頭,但是我的人生好像也沒什麼有趣,所以我的人生還是人生嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAz7YM2azpva
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有點在繞口令。266Please respect copyright.PENANA1eFbdqZk0y
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「咦?橋橋妳還戴著啊?那條項鍊。」眼尖的小迪馬上發現我頸上的這條項鍊。266Please respect copyright.PENANAgT68SJgyJb
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他的心、他替我戴上並贈予我的對鍊。266Please respect copyright.PENANAukctav9bke
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「嗯,戴著也好,不用怕它不見。」我說。266Please respect copyright.PENANAyWeculv7Un
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「看來妳還是很在意阿楊。」阿龍說。266Please respect copyright.PENANAfLBHa7YZ20
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我想在回答些什麼,服務生卻送來了餐點,終止了這話題。266Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4apUbZjFT
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我邊吃邊聽小迪說他們這段日子發生的事,雖然多半都是他跟阿龍在家的鬧劇,但多少還是有提到殷和傑哥。266Please respect copyright.PENANAhm4VQT7hVF
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殷有了男朋友、工作也穩定,但沒有因為工作和男朋友就放棄她最愛的跳舞。266Please respect copyright.PENANAOKYTp5TQMV
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而傑哥,依舊是以女朋友為中心,可是他不像以前只要女朋友叫他就會馬上到,總而言之就是傑哥開始重視朋友了。266Please respect copyright.PENANAbfKTH6K7uc
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他呢?266Please respect copyright.PENANAXi59jZt4GY
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小迪沒有提到任何關於他的事,而我也沒有問,我們自己心裡都清楚,所以迴避了這個話題。266Please respect copyright.PENANAy3K4gLgHkt
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「我說阿,橋橋妳現在這樣子很漂亮耶!如果是看黑髮的妳就還好,染成棕色就很漂亮。」小迪讚嘆般的說。266Please respect copyright.PENANASsV4PmYH6s
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「我本來是染紅棕色的,結果紅色幾乎都被洗掉,變成棕色了。」我喝了一口紅茶後才說。266Please respect copyright.PENANAthhUi2tCqg
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「妳本來就很可愛,現在又染頭髮、頭髮又長長,阿楊看到一定會很驚訝。」小迪說。266Please respect copyright.PENANAKW1OhZlzvw
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會嗎?他看到現在這個模樣的我,會有反應嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAQA8ApHbthN
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……一定還是那張臉吧。266Please respect copyright.PENANABbnPKATOkj
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我記憶中的他,至今為止都從未改變過──那冷漠的表情、那讓人看不出喜怒哀樂的臉。266Please respect copyright.PENANAXxnuU3crzs
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還有迷人的笑容。266Please respect copyright.PENANAxExqHyIcOJ
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即使那笑容在我記憶中出現不多次,卻印象深刻。266Please respect copyright.PENANAnhMWmHObBS
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「等等吃完我們去看看阿楊吧?」266Please respect copyright.PENANAOWvJbx5qvw
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這句話終止了我的回憶,我看著阿龍,想開口拒絕卻怎麼也說不出來。266Please respect copyright.PENANAzpDilJncI3
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也許淺意識裡,我是想見到他的,但顧及過去,不知道到底該不該見這一面。266Please respect copyright.PENANAKI5ZfrmNSy
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「對啊對啊!橋橋,妳等等就跟我們去嘛!阿楊一定也很想看看妳。」小迪在一旁附和阿龍。266Please respect copyright.PENANAKlPsf1VNFN
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「我騎車來的,要我跟在你們車子後面嗎?而且……他不會想見我的吧。」我低下頭,再度吸了一口紅茶。266Please respect copyright.PENANAcSjFRzJrxc
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「妳等等就坐我的車,等要回來我在開到這裡放妳下車。」阿龍毫不在乎的回答。266Please respect copyright.PENANAAVyWJ3trIq
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講的還真是輕鬆。266Please respect copyright.PENANAWqlJKmfZPY
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「阿楊怎麼可能不想看到妳!他每分每秒都想的啦!妳可是他最在乎的人耶!」小迪說。266Please respect copyright.PENANAwdlflvpvI8
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最在乎的人……266Please respect copyright.PENANAR9TDnmogqZ
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我淺淺一笑,小迪露出疑惑的表情。266Please respect copyright.PENANAdtLZcWuK7s
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「在乎又怎樣呢?我們分手的時候,我對他說了很傷人的話,雖然他還是以那種態度回應我,但是某種程度上已經傷到他的心了吧?我講了那麼過分的話……」266Please respect copyright.PENANADZ3nUpi8um
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當時分手的情景,我還記得,怎麼可能會忘記?266Please respect copyright.PENANAsDEQW5X1sK
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那麼幼稚又愛無理取鬧的我,對他說了那麼重的話,他當時到底是怎麼想的?表面平靜,那內心呢?266Please respect copyright.PENANAXRqBNzeNka
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很痛、很痛吧?266Please respect copyright.PENANAi3BbQHTaSO
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那麼殘忍的我,他還愛嗎?還會在乎嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANApXy09SM58J
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「無論妳說了什麼,那都不重要,妳只要記得阿楊只有愛過妳一個人,而且從最初到最後都是很愛很愛的,所以妳不要顧慮那麼多,等等和我們一起去找他吧。」阿龍很認真的看著我。266Please respect copyright.PENANAo8z3FErNzh
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深吸一口氣,用手擋住了臉,此時此刻的我真的很不想讓人看到我那脆弱的眼淚。266Please respect copyright.PENANAd3FyEyrr1y
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瑀從最初到最後愛過的人,是我,這我怎麼可能不知道。266Please respect copyright.PENANAqCvr5c6dWY
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但是我要怎麼面對?我能為當時說的那些話後悔嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAkRJ7TgfIoX
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可是如果他真的像阿龍說的那樣沒有放在心上呢?是不是我就可以從這段日子以來的罪惡感裡解放出來?266Please respect copyright.PENANAAsV1IRxopo
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既然無可避免、既然是注定要我今天和他見上一面,那我還要逃避嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAy4QDIwY2FP
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擦去了眼淚,我把手放下,小迪對我露出擔憂的表情,而阿龍一就是用認真的眼神看著我。266Please respect copyright.PENANAS6uxYAIHwm
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「嗯,等等就跟你們去吧。」266Please respect copyright.PENANAjpYlCBoFeh
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如果一開始就知道愛到最後會是一場空,你……還會選擇繼續愛下去嗎?266Please respect copyright.PENANAB3jlCprp3S
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