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「需要你直白的愛意來確認我的存在。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygoyPTkewR
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我跟夏油傑打小認識。夏油一家都是非常好的人，在我們搬過去之後相當照顧我們。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡby1ithaCwA
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爸爸媽媽一直以來都忙於工作，我已經很習慣自己一個人待在家裡了。好在夏油傑跟我是同一所學校的，至少回家的路上還能有個照應。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxWH15n01Z
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他一直很受歡迎。有禮貌的優等生，外表俊秀，談吐與同齡人相比還要成熟大方，這樣的孩子很難不受人喜愛。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hu7bzV3kS
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我很喜歡他。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JAHjxDqBq
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但他終究是飛鳥。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6aNI9xCGU
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……他好像跟一般人有些不一樣。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnExJduvgIS
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M8nqQNC6o
舉個例子，我曾經撞見他對著空氣揮拳，揮完之後不知道吞下了什麼，臉上的痛苦不似作偽。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5ZJT362hQ
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如果是為了演戲的話，這演技穩妥妥可以去報名角逐奧斯卡了。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3s7WDUtao
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「……你都看見了？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEjlBHDlsq
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他看見我一言不發地站在那，錯愕地問，似乎有種被戳破秘密的羞恥感。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYL8l1uK44
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我說對，然後從口袋拿出一根棒棒糖給他。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuxqXuM1qc
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmAj3qMgDi
「葡萄口味的。」我說。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLewhUSKYs
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jPjWyMYbL
他說謝謝，然後當著我的面拆開包裝塞進嘴裡。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tXRJ4aoL1
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走回去的路上難得很安靜。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7NNl1hQ6Y
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「……你不問我什麼嗎？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4XsQINBvR
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqj2oPA1uD
「怕你尷尬。」我誠實地說。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVvE2BUmM0
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtxjS6KdkH
他無奈地笑了，像是在說「敗給你了」。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV1EeiFu86
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey58VbGk5n
仲夏的風帶著些微的潮意吹過，在陽光下舒展的枝椏沙沙地掉下幾片綠葉，日光在臉上落下斑駁光影。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaA2pj6ZslH
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敗給你了。他說。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DdXjfYaNZ
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcueQ7ZZuST
我好像墜入愛河，於是也跟著笑了起來。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR4MBC2Ii2
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03.437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxLUghBBC5
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「我看得見一些……一般人看不見的東西。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtDLTChNE6
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「鬼？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6y7jdZogY
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「比鬼還可怕吧……完全看不出是什麼樣子的。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq88EyLlNe
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIUstyzaXd
「史萊姆？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgieXyxQyn2
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「唔，倒是有看過一個很像的。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrHfW06SzZ
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuykEszc96J
我們有一搭沒一搭地聊，直到夏油傑停下腳步。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2GKKPDYOU
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他看向我的眼神突然變得很鄭重，就像是下定什麼決心似的。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOz65Xaet8V
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzmdQZCcC4
他說，我可以吸收這些東西，然後讓他們為我所用。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWR3R2UXaz
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvewOZsjEp
我想起夏油傑吞嚥的動作。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVcgWweXq8
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmgv2rIv3d
仰頭吞下的時候整張臉會皺在一起，喉結上下滾動，抑制即將嘔吐的衝動，睜開眼的時候眼眶已經微微泛紅。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6dPxHpQFP
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明明很痛苦吧。我說。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjPHsgTokJ
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「一定要吃掉那些東西嗎？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROgWXwBW3F
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMhHwWuUmR
「一定要。」他說，「說實話，味道就跟沾了嘔吐物的抹布，很難吃。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWSrFSaN0D
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQQzOel8O5
聽起來真糟糕。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjH6JjXquU
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCZifUFn0a
「但是一想到只要熬過幾秒鐘，就能幫助到更多人的話──那麼，這短暫的痛苦，似乎也就沒什麼了。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQnDY8HFmk
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOsfdali9e
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHvOM7AbRN
我後來意識到墜入愛河也許並不只是因為那個笑容，而是他提起「理想」的時候，閃閃發光的模樣。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygoNj3UuXf
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCxyj5PtN2
我愛他，愛他的抱負。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuQ3LnWBVd
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ681DgiVQGk
所以在他的咒靈殺死我的時候，我始終都認為，那是我喜歡的少年。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOdGRDZNl7
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lOVlFzvDL
八歲，十四歲，殺死我的那年他十六歲。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30dFEgAqT4
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他從來沒有變過。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4rQS9uuD6
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夏油傑離開之後，一切都變成飛鳥了，我也是。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafSKWNzAMl
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04.437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxSXBZsya1
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夏油傑畢業後就加入高專了。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj11doW7rDR
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUHIYvth8g
少了一個人在身邊，放學的路上又開始變得很安靜。我不太習慣，但也不打算找新朋友陪我。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGjvcpV9Nj
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總覺得會有種替代掉「夏油傑」的感覺，而我不想要這樣。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0UNL1KgOa
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「你怎麼低著頭在走路？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBjxFNz54u
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EFD0JfUVg
這聲音是夏油傑。我詫異地抬頭向身後一看，那個高了我一大截的少年正笑眯眯地看我。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyk0GKSyVY2
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「你怎麼在這？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZFiUkwnwh
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還穿得像個不良少年似的，我說。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWD0DKMVozT
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他臉上的笑意瞬間僵住，大概是有些好氣又好笑。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuyyBLZDpk
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEGeo4SF1S
「來陪你放學。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jQjlxtHtY
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──結果你是這樣說我的？他的眼神赤裸裸地傳達出這則訊息。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyAUQrx1in
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我驚訝於他的回答，頓時有些心虛，心裡卻又覺得還挺高興的，只能吐吐舌假裝沒事矇混過去。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbBzkYyxTF
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZh8A6nWJbS
夏油傑不會因為這種玩笑同我置氣。他無奈地伸手拍拍我的腦袋，將我背在身上的書包給拿走，動作流暢自然地就像是做過數百次一樣。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAj2sebQS6m
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnvxyPSJCq
陽光將他的影子拉得冗長，我低下頭幼稚地踩，偶爾踩在落葉上，發出嘎吱嘎吱的聲響。夏油傑已經很習慣我時不時無聊的小舉動，無所謂地任由我的鞋子在他的「頭」上放肆。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocDxAZIQxW
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「沒想到你還有空來接我。」我說。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoE8K7SMED
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氣流經過喉嚨，聲帶顫動，他發出「嗯──」的聲音，臉上的表情似笑非笑。「怕你覺得寂寞，暗地裡偷偷哭。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuiwolQHjp
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才不會。我反駁道。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMo0qPldbZW
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欸？是嗎？可是媽媽傳訊息給我，說自從我去高專上學之後，鄰居太太的女兒晚上都會在被窩裡偷偷哭。鄰居太太的女兒是誰啊──夏油傑瞇起眼睛笑的時候像隻壞心眼的狐狸。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnehByyWZJ4
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我不敢置信地瞪大眼睛。媽媽這個叛徒！437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPpA9aVbzi
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPKk7MygFf
無話可說，我索性攤牌承認是我，我確實會暗地裡想他。我說沒辦法，你走以後我好不習慣。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLoTPV7uiX
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「你叫我起床，幫我拿書包，跟我一起上學、一起放學……傑，那麼多年的習慣不是可以隨便割捨的。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEDleOa4PP
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJH8KTtvDc
我不想找別人跟我一起放學，因為沒有人能代替夏油傑陪我走這條路。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs98pJ7CJnv
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他終究是不一樣的。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPcl8d1AOc
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437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6deWpRDmA5
黑髮少年綁著我熟悉的丸子頭，他看著我，突然沒了聲音。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl9YPWTBX8
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5IjbeK9uK
那我以後陪你一起下課好嗎？最後他妥協似地問，眼神卻很溫柔。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSORlO8d2pN
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437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJP28XQ6ovO
「還要常常講電話。」我堅持。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IsfrL3xN3
437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbUoJMx7cv
「不是每天都在傳訊息了嗎？」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg3WEpXffe
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「但我想聽你說話呀。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3KZUrqUp3L
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「好。」437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPnnHLZ881
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都聽你的。他說。437Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcdEyRPKG0
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