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天亮，上班。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4I5gvDQAO
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0F7wDwQnVa
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOltOnGmUh9
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR21DoFCc6x
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi72uTf2Pkd
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看不見，罷。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7rwD6jaWn
天黑，下班。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0mRBTlSMw
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrxwLDTqHa
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSdt2EyY8y
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sbFTtMQW4
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFs8kKjVSn
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkP152nX9Mf
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMWYnjCFpc
公司，午飯時間。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2ln20hT4G
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz58Bedzywq
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看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdo0JBYePN
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驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAbi5sFY9f
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYZFcD41lI
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還是……210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZje7UmORf
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxp0RuZsZAe
公司，工作。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJyXwpL0mq
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRYzhxNB4X
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOkdrReamd
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrNZSd97yv
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剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAbc6uwsx1
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快意，笑了。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbF5bVCfZju
酒吧，喝酒。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHneAyyuBZJ
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuSqiw79T5
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「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSo4ewReLM
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqxT5oBqFA
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3zaz7AicW
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醉倒。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaA340VLUc
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9RapQKyjr
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYVQhY2C9R
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今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdiMSnbwwZ
假期，醫院。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5XciHCUTY
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUgySdvA2j
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0EeQqfk0Z
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「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWsAtNpHTm
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKndYtUyA0p
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「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtN8srmq83Y
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死寂。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AdUNi7k5p
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNigDiYGjRa
回家，晚飯。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJ2GRubPrr
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZNUpQqsUk
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「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJH4Z3xPvga
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妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwT7vMybXB
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我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOHZEqhv5q
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJugpCAzS4
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一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjTSsm9vfY
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LXglkcbFu
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xqa4IJjaS
男友家，床上。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yA7feZTZH
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZgwY9rSuN
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4UMVSPA9p
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdP6kpkh5R
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床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt5F6PbSY1
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8sVx5PNkT
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5gMgb3aAF
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kvBVRFQkh
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「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ov3VonnY4
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「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RJvvRfOtj
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「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5MIDgrj87
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「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMzLeJADTe
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「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHs9Yj1V7M
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG03PBhWHmQ
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDovnsNXyy
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「在你體內。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQrUoj0Q5H
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「甚麼？」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iwsCuhhzv
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「蟻。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0reZMGd6L
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3iHaw5T6R
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它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlASR38JaE
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gXpqvTJwK
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ1bVnaaWS
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「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfKTctc790
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「誰？」另一聲音反問。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Izu3JSuLl
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「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEO9ZMLeS6
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靜。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MaMXRXjrZ
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2ejZ7M1lH
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fAR9KTXZi
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醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqymof0rzuQ
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我：「我有精神病？」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9YWUdY64M
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醫：「是情緒病。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PP49QwVki
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我：「怎麼辦？」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyfkCe2CGB
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醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFjHT1fVO3
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我：「謝謝醫生。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJTM6W0TCU
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醫：「不用謝。」210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSBQSUQwNK
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離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mYJUY5EHE
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKEG1MeMhX
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2aGZOtmrj
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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