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一篇完成,很長,閱讀請有心理準備。201Please respect copyright.PENANAybXxRqy4Xc
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本文原發於│2018-09-15 10:57:16201Please respect copyright.PENANAbcMsOLQFps
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現在我要說的故事,真的非常平淡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMSqZ55m0JC
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沒有太多的激情,也沒有太多的熱血,更沒有太多的戲劇性衝突。201Please respect copyright.PENANAex08gEvTd3
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都是些再平凡不過的家庭日常生活。201Please respect copyright.PENANAcxW1WgvHvI
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現在我就要開始說了……201Please respect copyright.PENANApVMv7DFpXL
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我出生在南部小鎮的富有家庭。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJcYUMUJ0j4
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我們黃家目前連我在內總共五個人。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6HBI5jsMdK
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我,爸爸,媽媽,阿公和阿媽。201Please respect copyright.PENANAyDFyK9sqgf
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阿公和爸爸都是商人,在整個東南亞經營運輸和貿易生意,到處都有據點。201Please respect copyright.PENANAVrRgZ6g6oI
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常常早上還在泰國,下午就到菲律賓,明天又到另一個國家,所以一般都會好幾天才回家休息一次。201Please respect copyright.PENANASzKd5aDwBI
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做的生意,就是在各國之間進行貨物運輸和販賣。201Please respect copyright.PENANAEPXe0nLkaa
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阿媽和媽媽雖然不必在外面奔波,不過還是要負責在家裡幫忙處理整理重要的公司文件。201Please respect copyright.PENANASuSBj0Q6Aa
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可以說我們黃家是個商業家族。201Please respect copyright.PENANACQrIxqfckx
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自然是這個小鎮最有錢的家庭。201Please respect copyright.PENANAVvS00opgM8
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所以鎮裡如果辦什麼活動需要錢,往往都會來家裡商量,請求我們家幫忙贊助一點。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWcF5gwfZhE
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所以我們黃家對於這個以務農為主的小鎮來說,是個非常特殊的存在。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHZ3G91q5bO
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現在既然說到我出生的這個小鎮,我不得不說它真的是個非常單純純樸的地方。201Please respect copyright.PENANA2jiorwOjpG
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一片又一片的農田,一隻又一隻幫忙農作的大水牛,還有到處奔跑嬉戲的活潑孩子們……201Please respect copyright.PENANAP6h2wqqvsY
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但是同樣是孩子的我,只能乖乖留在家裡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUlHcV5CgpD
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因為我自從出生就體弱多病,總是大病小病不斷,不是去醫院就是乖乖留在自己的房間養病。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfCSWZbnh4k
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各大醫院給我看病到最後,醫師都說我的問題是:先天抵抗力低落。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6aHIKQNhNq
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怎麼治療?沒有徹底的治療辦法,只能希望我的抵抗力會有自然好轉的一天。201Please respect copyright.PENANA76YsbdGNa2
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因此西藥我從來沒有少吃過,昂貴的中藥補品更是三餐,童年的我真的是個大藥桶。201Please respect copyright.PENANArCDYkeBE5l
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也幸好,我們黃家很有錢,沒有這方面的問題,否則多病的我恐怕早就已經被放棄。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHvzyv3Xtr2
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不過,沒有讀過什麼書的阿媽還是為多病的我著急萬分,不時責怪我的媽媽,讓媽媽受盡委屈。201Please respect copyright.PENANA18aHjYruca
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我就因此記得媽媽被阿媽罵到哭的一段記憶。201Please respect copyright.PENANAo2R4be7Z1Z
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當時我七歲,發著四十度高燒,躺在自己的床上病懨懨。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvr4Lx0MDfr
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二十六歲的媽媽坐在我的床沿,一邊聽著阿媽不停的責罵,一邊流著眼淚用濕巾為我擦涼身體。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJRLFvkAFOF
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阿媽責罵媽媽知道自己身子虛弱,常常感冒不適,還敢嫁來黃家生下我這個最重要的長子,把病弱的體質傳進黃家。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWmMl32B9ke
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阿媽責罵媽媽生下我之後就像個石女,再也生不出來,讓黃家只有我這個體弱多病的長子。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8kZImTgsg5
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甚至於,阿媽責罵出身貧寒葉家的媽媽沒有半點自知之明,不安本份的嫁入黃家,肯定是為了黃家的錢勾引爸爸。201Please respect copyright.PENANARjxZ4h8KRw
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所以我相信,當時媽媽的處境一定比我還要難受。201Please respect copyright.PENANAnl5nzJMv7K
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如果不是為了我這個親生孩子而隱忍,才二十六歲的媽媽恐怕已經被阿媽罵到離開黃家。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6S6GaJAJnX
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就這樣,這場把媽媽罵哭的大責罵結束不久,在外面跑的阿公和爸爸回來了。201Please respect copyright.PENANANfXDtc13Ct
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因此,我的生命就要再次不同。201Please respect copyright.PENANABN2DZMIemg
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我的阿公,就是現在這個黃家的一家之主。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYWorrfB88y
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雖然阿公沒有讀過書,但是很會做生意,算是東南亞貿易圈的一號人物,所以把事業做的很大,賺錢的速度就像轉開水龍頭。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfQiFxZgUxd
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阿公坐到我的床沿,疼惜摸摸我的臉,然後叫著媽媽的小名:「阿素?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAEKtAdmxigX
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媽媽和爸爸站一起:「爸?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAyG17zU874C
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阿公:「前陣子妳被罵的事情,剛才妳的媽媽(阿媽)都跟我說了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqjb1gJryTs
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媽媽:「嗯……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2yACJPEvcB
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阿公:「媽媽是心急孩子忽然又高燒,不是有意把妳罵成那樣,原諒媽媽吧。妳絕對是我們黃家的好媳婦。」201Please respect copyright.PENANACRGBZyS5zy
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阿媽安靜站在阿公身邊,不發一言。201Please respect copyright.PENANAGCcU2V3pj8
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媽媽則是低下頭,眼淚又一次滾出來:「我知道……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA5LBfb0t3vb
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阿公:「那麼來說正事。孩子的對像我們辦好了,是個不錯的對象。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAgfLsJAFau4
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媽媽擦掉淚水:「已經辦好了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANATO3MHJd8cH
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阿公:「去他們家看過,互相說過所有情況,把一半的聘金給他們。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmMdmKSKqsu
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媽媽:「她什麼時候會來家裡?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAhuiXOPP7GR
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阿公:「下個月的九日她會來台灣。二天之後的十一日是師父說的吉日,正式迎娶入門。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAsuZG30BFh3
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然後,大家安靜好一會。201Please respect copyright.PENANAoX120wAprU
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阿公疼惜的一直看著我這個病弱躺著的獨孫。201Please respect copyright.PENANAw30gpB5Vkb
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直到媽媽打破沉默:「爸……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA5MACa8FuJt
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阿公:「什麼事?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjVbD7qpTh6
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媽媽:「這樣做,真的好嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAU1NdG9YwOp
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阿公:「阿素,你應該知道,這是沒辦法的辦法了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcn3vCr0Mpg
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媽媽:「我知道……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXvwsaVJO2z
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阿公:「到處跑醫院都沒有用,醫生就是沒有辦法完全治好。只能照宮廟乩童說的這樣做做看,給孩子沖喜了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANArr6upPhSZW
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媽媽:「但是孩子還這麼小,就要讓他娶妻……會不會對他的未來怎麼樣?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAkIudLqHU1Y
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阿公唯有語氣沉重的說:「反正只是做個樣子,不是真要讓她娶。現在我們黃家只有這個血脈,先想辦法讓孩子可以平安長大吧。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA54vO0Tf0Wb
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就這樣,改變我的生命的那個女人就要來到身邊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAin8LY545fv
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七歲的我,為了沖喜治病,就要娶妻了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvOxXa35GOY
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那個女人,我都叫她姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlbR0imztT6
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現在我要說的,就是以我和姊姊為中心、關於黃家的平淡日常生活故事……201Please respect copyright.PENANARPWWN9fGTr
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《我們黃家的故事》201Please respect copyright.PENANAajtValbKHH
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隨著下個月九日逼近,家裡為了我的婚事越來越忙碌。201Please respect copyright.PENANASXEWyv3DKz
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忙碌準備一堆婚禮相關物品。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxZ2VuPelbj
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除了專心照顧我的媽媽,阿公阿媽和爸爸整天忙進忙出。201Please respect copyright.PENANAXShDxJvwUT
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甚至於,我的房間家具也完全換新。201Please respect copyright.PENANAuiI8PQfFjJ
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但是我完全不清楚情況,同樣動不動就發高燒,只能躺平在床上養病。201Please respect copyright.PENANASABFpUvBpq
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終於,九日那一天來到。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3CPMqr1R5i
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即將嫁給我的姊姊,已經來到台灣。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3N0rilfdKs
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所以傍晚的時候,媽媽把狀況好一點的我抱出門,阿公開車把所有人載往大城市的餐館。201Please respect copyright.PENANADh9KZiEXTT
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我和姊姊,就是在餐館裡面的包廂第一次見面。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzjADp4Glmp
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大家坐在大圓桌,看著彼此。201Please respect copyright.PENANAFW4IZcBQ10
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我們一家五人,坐在圓桌的一邊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAO7bxJBmVcA
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對方二人都是女性,坐在圓桌對面。201Please respect copyright.PENANAC3qXmwXNzS
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一名是準備嫁來黄家的近二十歲年輕女孩,留著一頭烏黑亮麗秀髮。201Please respect copyright.PENANAbl3zDD6Bk4
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另一名是看來四十歲左右的中年婦女,胖胖的,是姊姊的姑姑。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjvVALBwUt1
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她們二人都穿著越南式女性旗袍。201Please respect copyright.PENANAph939DnKwR
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沒有錯,她們都是越南人。201Please respect copyright.PENANA59NAieA9GL
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即將和我結婚的姊姊,可以說是所謂的越南新娘。201Please respect copyright.PENANAu11usjynWM
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接下來我要說的這些關於姊姊的事情,都是之後才慢慢知道。201Please respect copyright.PENANA9XCm3Shzwo
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姊姊的名字是:『林花。』201Please respect copyright.PENANAQB8yn7wxsx
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嫁來黄家的姊姊十八歲,比我年長十一歲。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOUAAxiVhHz
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姊姊是她家的長女,下面還有二位年長我好幾歲的弟弟。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6i5Zeyicik
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全家在越南的鄉村務農,姊姊一邊在鄰鎮的高中讀書,一邊打工幫助家計。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQgD62EpGdE
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姊姊是成績一直在前十名的優等生。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgy2PPPPwoP
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原本計劃在高中畢業之後繼續半工半讀大學,選讀和育幼有關的科系,未來當小朋友的老師。201Please respect copyright.PENANAM5eQFXxGhX
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但是就在高中畢業前夕,爸爸忽然中風臥床,家計再也支持不下去。201Please respect copyright.PENANAb7kiWgmx4s
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姊姊為了自己的家庭,只得拿我們黃家一大筆錢,告別父母和二名年幼弟弟,遠渡重洋嫁來我們黃家。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgxYj0PjCDF
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先是依靠英文和阿公與爸爸溝通,之後再比手劃腳的慢慢學習漢語。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMccMKSHX1y
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這些就是關於姊姊的事情……201Please respect copyright.PENANA93FMduScbq
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不過當時在餐館的我才七歲,出於好奇一直看著比較年輕的姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6unSfYsmsv
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內心單純想著:『漂亮的姊姊,頭髮又黑又長……』201Please respect copyright.PENANAYagXLBWNyB
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至於就要和我結婚成親的姊姊,同樣安靜看著我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxi68wprCIu
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只是面無表情,看不出喜怒哀樂。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqRzkT1Y7dd
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所以這時候的姊姊雖然漂亮,但是看起來冷冷冰冰,很難接近的樣子。201Please respect copyright.PENANASo3agZXf6J
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我相信,是因為姊姊對於面對這一切的不安,才會感覺很不親近人。201Please respect copyright.PENANAy4jppImXw5
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而不論如何,冰冷就是我對姊姊的深刻印象。201Please respect copyright.PENANAH0YSr0fgNr
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初次見面這天的餐館會面,就在如此面無表情的沉默中開始。201Please respect copyright.PENANANRDAre1jxx
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阿公、爸爸和姊姊,都是用英文溝通。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3GsxG7vzLH
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阿媽和媽媽如果要和姊姊說話,同樣要透過阿公與爸爸進行翻譯。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3q1Hd779bB
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尤其是媽媽,一再向姊姊拜託:「林花小姐,我因為和先生早婚,所以不過大妳八歲而已,真的能夠體諒妳必須嫁過來的委屈。我不敢要妳做什麼,只求妳以同樣的女人心體會我這個做母親的心情。這個孩子一直是個很聽話的乖孩子,不吵不鬧,只是從小身體一直很不好。今後真的要拜託妳幫忙照顧……我真的拜託妳了……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAkbSqPufvWp
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媽媽是真的發自內心的再三拜託姊姊幫忙照顧我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAL97NwxWe5y
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姊姊都是平淡回答:「好。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAuwbvimWFhc
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姊姊嘴巴回答好,問題是她的內心到底又是怎麼想?201Please respect copyright.PENANAOA8TsZPCKj
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總之,這一晚的餐館聚餐,就這樣在姊姊面無表情的冰冷中結束了……201Please respect copyright.PENANA1CC2VLL24x
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二天之後的十一吉日。201Please respect copyright.PENANALeAjgMCoPF
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姊姊穿著潔白新娘服正式嫁進我們黃家,成為台灣媳婦。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYCEW5o7F9W
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病懨懨的我同樣穿起兒童西裝,勉強支撐起精神,在什麼都不懂的情況下和面無表情的姊姊拜堂成親。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJKFLRi0aHh
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一直陪在我身邊的姊姊同樣冷冷冰冰,看起來很難接近。201Please respect copyright.PENANATTHlXs3B6x
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所以我完全不敢親近姊姊,更不敢和姊姊說句話,只能一直找媽媽。201Please respect copyright.PENANAL122MAcXrX
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就這樣,忙碌一整天的婚禮終於結束。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwIlBTeQFof
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當晚的洞房花燭夜,只能由我和姊姊一起度過,否則不吉利。201Please respect copyright.PENANApOntTBVY7p
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但是我才七歲,什麼都不懂,所以發現自己和陌生的冰冷姊姊一起被留在房間,我立刻撐著不舒服的身體跑出房間找媽媽。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlMTpHR7pQC
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畢竟姊姊對我來說是個陌生人,加上姊姊從頭到尾的冰冷態度,所以還是七歲孩子的我完全不想和姊姊獨自在一起,就算姊姊再漂亮也一樣。201Please respect copyright.PENANAtHqNbjaQGP
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已經換上睡衣的姊姊,只能一直安靜跟在我背後。201Please respect copyright.PENANAiAp8zBPfay
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剛開始,媽媽一直哄我,把我帶回房間,要我乖乖的和姊姊一起睡覺,然後關門離開。201Please respect copyright.PENANAXDk53eF8fK
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我當然又吵著追出去找媽媽。201Please respect copyright.PENANAz7lhe0I2At
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就這樣來回找媽媽幾次,對我很溫柔的阿公終於大罵:「你已經是個娶妻的大人了,到底一直在吵什麼!這麼晚了還不快點回房間睡覺!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAYPZCTNnpqW
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這真的是我第一次被阿公罵。201Please respect copyright.PENANA5459STpdUG
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加上對於發生的事情和完全搞不清楚整個情況。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzVO8Kpi7qS
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所以我怕到了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAquFNerdxUx
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背後跟著姊姊,哭著轉身乖乖回到房間,坐在新床上不安哭著。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6uSTqJ1qa8
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一定是因為這樣,姊姊看我無助害怕的一直哭著要媽媽,就像被狗媽媽拋棄的可憐小狗。201Please respect copyright.PENANA81Z3SOEVn3
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因此姊姊發現我終究只是個普通的七歲小男孩,不是什麼可怕的存在。201Please respect copyright.PENANAEw8LR3zNGA
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冰冷的姊姊,終於改變對我的態度。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3b9uEYAayi
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姊姊遲疑一會,不忍心的伸出手,把我溫柔摟在懷裡,輕輕搖著我,哄著我,完全把我當成孩子安撫。201Please respect copyright.PENANAndj75Gdmmc
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至於我,忽然被姊姊摟著,一開始哭叫著抗拒,努力想要逃離這個冰冷的陌生人。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8fXerZXuHJ
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直到我看見姊姊溫柔哄我的溫暖笑臉。201Please respect copyright.PENANA67iR4k7pk6
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這是我第一次看見姊姊露出的友善笑容。201Please respect copyright.PENANAaexHF4UDTM
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七歲的我因此知道了,姊姊其實沒有那麼冰冷可怕。201Please respect copyright.PENANA9KSKIQtomg
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姊姊其實是很溫柔的好姊姊,否則怎麼會像這樣微笑哄我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAbtSiJPXIw8
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於是我慢慢收起眼淚,不再哭鬧,乖乖的依偎在姊姊溫暖的懷裡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAuIqOUlZeKs
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被溫柔的姊姊摟著哄,感受著姊姊的善意,直到被姊姊輕輕搖哄到睡著。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqs7alxjWPG
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我和年長十一歲的姊姊,就從這一晚開始共同生活了……201Please respect copyright.PENANADpXYZN9YSa
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姊姊被迫為錢離家,遠嫁我們黃家,讓她冷冷冰冰的,頗有拒人千里之外的感覺,很明顯就能看出來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAK11FDmMTsI
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事實上,姊姊曾經跟我說過,剛來台灣的那陣子她的確一直在想著逃跑的事情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAiRJxu3Rar0
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逃離這個用錢買自己的黃家,能逃多遠就逃多遠,躲到台灣其他地方想辦法生活。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZEvzeIbGYl
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反正姊姊的聘金,她的家人已經完全拿到。201Please respect copyright.PENANAojbX6COEjj
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就算姊姊逃走,也只能算是姊姊個人『離家出走』,不會給娘家帶來太大麻煩。201Please respect copyright.PENANASeaoYLX0hi
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但是新婚之夜,姊姊看著我的無助哭泣,就像一隻不停唉唉叫需要人照顧的可憐小動物,就此讓姊姊的冰冷心情融化。201Please respect copyright.PENANAz0wqE8x4YG
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姊姊想說,先幫忙照顧我一陣子,順便認識更多同樣來自越南的朋友,收集更多台灣其他地方的資訊,再正式逃跑。201Please respect copyright.PENANAXmC9hMDpEU
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結果情況卻是,隨著一天天照顧我,姊姊的想法一天天軟化。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZilr9nEhxE
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此外,加上大家都對姊姊很好,完全以家人的平等態度對待姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfs3nkiKh0H
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年長八歲的媽媽更是把姊姊當作親妹妹對待。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8cJcFf9NYu
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大家同進同出,同吃同喝,而不是把姊姊當成越南勞工對待。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOu8Nuaf55i
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甚至於,每個月會給姊姊五千元的零用錢。201Please respect copyright.PENANAk8hyLUTlGH
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姊姊終於接受自己的命運。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3pdFziFX3g
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姊姊開始把黃家當成她第二個家,和媽媽一起照顧我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHqT8wIaHwd
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甚至於,姊姊很快就變成照顧我最多的人,也是付出最多心力的人。201Please respect copyright.PENANADXPOM8pyDt
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畢竟媽媽晚上會回房間睡覺,只有姊姊才能整晚和我在一起,在我生病發燒的時候整夜看護。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlrElEt5Zyt
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在我身邊時睡時醒的給我量體溫,餵我水,哄我吃藥,給我的身體擦涼。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPbqgSXECBq
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所以姊姊不只是姊姊,更像是忽然跑出來的第二個媽媽。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkUxz0jusJW
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我自然很快的習慣了姊姊的存在。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMEfpPATert
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越來越喜歡整天陪伴我的溫柔姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAB4GIQ44Z7g
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對於姊姊的依賴越來越重。201Please respect copyright.PENANA4I7Iy5MvvC
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把姊姊當成可以整天陪我玩的大玩伴。201Please respect copyright.PENANATUOyEkrbAX
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總會:「姊姊!姊姊!」的親密叫著。201Please respect copyright.PENANAv1H2JYouLb
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握著姊姊溫暖的手,讓姊姊陪著玩耍。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQ89jZTQwqU
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玩玩捉迷藏。201Please respect copyright.PENANAD8dK8FzAns
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玩玩跳房子。201Please respect copyright.PENANACq7mlhenQE
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一起唱唱歌。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvES6oLOJV6
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讓姊姊一口口餵飯。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjOtn9Vd8dp
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讓姊姊帶我上廁所。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjtWueWuUjD
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讓姊姊幫我洗頭洗澡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlbgzCeNVJU
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讓姊姊哄著一起睡覺。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8EzRfgFJ17
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讓媽媽看著我和姊姊的相處,半開玩笑的落寞說好幾次:「你這個孩子根本只要姊姊不要媽媽了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA8jBgyNeh6O
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由此可知,我的確已經變成整天黏著姊姊,由姊姊日夜拉拔照顧的孩子。201Please respect copyright.PENANAD395EYQByz
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十八歲的姊姊有我這麼親密陪伴,更是完全打消逃跑念頭,為了照顧我而決心留在黃家。201Please respect copyright.PENANA30u3Tm7kmU
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姊姊就這樣找到救贖和生命的出路,沒有走上躲躲藏藏過活的悲慘道路……201Please respect copyright.PENANA9WpXgm8Dqp
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另一方,關於我的身體狀況。201Please respect copyright.PENANAiDCS3FwrRK
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原本病弱的身體真的慢慢好轉,不再那麼容易生病發燒。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgMyp8yxPFm
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我越吃越胖,長出肉,不再像以前那樣骨瘦如材。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOmjzgc2vdA
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甚至於,我會有體力拉著姊姊出門跑步玩耍,就像那些在外面到處跑的活潑小朋友。201Please respect copyright.PENANAz1pr6aUMUq
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我的身體狀況好轉,除了沖喜成功真的找不到其他解釋。201Please respect copyright.PENANA4nq59a1qUC
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阿公、阿媽、爸爸和媽媽為此喜悅萬分。201Please respect copyright.PENANA9YhEgEoDAC
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他們紛紛高興表示,給我找來姊姊成親沖喜是對的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAut3OAvcmsQ
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所以一年之後,八歲的我健康的進入本鎮國民小學就讀,和其他同年齡小朋友一起接受正式教育。201Please respect copyright.PENANAi4pMqEaKO5
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姊姊都會牽著我的手,親自把我帶往學校,一直用不流暢的漢語說:「你在學校要乖乖的喔……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0GSi8hEF5
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直到看我進入校園,姊姊才回家幫忙家事,或是以姊姊的英文能力幫助家族的生意文件。201Please respect copyright.PENANAGArwIq0N2T
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接著,再於下午四點放學時間前來校門口接我,關心詢問:「學校過的怎麼樣?有沒有乖乖?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmrA7OtprpI
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不論風吹、雨淋、烈日,溫柔的姊姊沒有一天不陪我接我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAe3ZroANgjR
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回家之後,姊姊更是會親自陪我寫作業,教我數學,確定我的學習沒有任何問題。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPtoCt0xmqk
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甚至於,在學校的我忽然身體很不舒服或是發燒,必須早退,趕來學校接我的也是姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZpIpIW9qfJ
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親密的把我當孩子一樣揹著,帶我去醫院檢查,然後再帶我回家。201Please respect copyright.PENANAaimPfLlX7c
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說真的,我和姊姊要說是夫妻,其實更像是感情非常好的姊姊弟弟……201Please respect copyright.PENANAZo7izDbGgL
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不過也因此,我被學校的小朋友找麻煩了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIUbTB1nHyY
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我和姊姊的事情,全鎮的成年人都知道。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPCTwGm9Ghk
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成年人知道長輩讓我娶姊姊是萬不得已的沖喜,所以成熟體諒的沒有說什麼。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJOP5ww4zmI
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但是和我同年齡的小朋友們,知道我和姊姊的事情之後,終於瞭解為什麼我的上下學總是有漂亮姊姊親密接送,出於幼稚的無知開始嘲笑:「男生愛女生!羞羞臉!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA06MEkv8eCy
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像這樣的嘲笑我還可以忍受,所以不理他們。201Please respect copyright.PENANAsIB62Izane
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一陣子之後,他們竟然開始當我的面嘲笑姊姊,說她是:「家裡不要的女孩!為了錢來台灣的越南窮人!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA5dAoI759FO
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他們這樣說姊姊,我當然覺得很生氣,不是吵架就是打架。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIRQHjeWgUS
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那段時間,足足一週以上,真的又吵又打的度過。201Please respect copyright.PENANA5jVeBlQcvS
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後來會解決,還是姊姊看我身上一直有打架的傷口,對我詢問到底之後親自出面處理。201Please respect copyright.PENANABoK4ZqM0lR
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放學時間,姊姊陪我在校門口面對那些說壞話的小朋友。201Please respect copyright.PENANAFTSrtGY9O4
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姊姊蹲下來,溫柔微笑,和氣說著:「大家一起當好朋友,好不好?」201Please respect copyright.PENANApsJDtOJDu2
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就這樣,那些原本欺負我的小朋友改變態度,不再亂說話。201Please respect copyright.PENANArTdFa0xbIe
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甚至於,會在放學的時候陪我們一起走,開心的和姊姊說話聊天。201Please respect copyright.PENANARmwJodIxXp
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因為姊姊的漂亮,還有姊姊的溫柔,小朋友們一定會喜歡。201Please respect copyright.PENANA2ObxzVPzlO
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喜歡和小朋友相處的姊姊,更是順理成章的成為大家的好姊姊,會在週末帶著我和大家一起玩。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZkBTQeBZjs
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我的拳頭無法解決的事情,溫柔的姊姊輕鬆辦到。201Please respect copyright.PENANAdUBLwz3jHe
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我真的更加佩服姊姊了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAI53TocGnPl
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不過,我也因此開始體會到自己和姊姊的奇妙關係。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvzXZiAPAYi
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畢竟學校的小朋友沒有人像我和姊姊一樣結婚。201Please respect copyright.PENANAheDkpq3XS9
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只有我,像爸爸媽媽、阿公阿媽和其他大人一樣結婚。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvpplfLjUlG
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我就是從這個時候開始思考:『我為什麼會和姊姊結婚啊?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAXDsLOE8ydW
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我一個人想幾天,終於在這天放學,只有我和姊姊的時候直接問:「姊姊,我想問妳一個問題。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAEQwxo1tkTZ
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姊姊:「什麼問題?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAq8f1lyEJBb
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我問:「我們為什麼會結婚?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAi0WI2CWYlA
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面對我的問題,十九歲的姊姊沉默了。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6X02MpcEPd
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安靜牽著我的小手,一步步帶我回家。201Please respect copyright.PENANA9bkCkoi5FM
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八歲的我,完全不瞭解姊姊為什麼都不說話。201Please respect copyright.PENANAevIYDAnMPg
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不過只要是個成年人,一定能瞭解姊姊不語的原因。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYhjWdQE6Fs
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十九歲,根本還只是大學生。201Please respect copyright.PENANACpNLKYhicb
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如果姊姊的爸爸沒有中風,現在姊姊應該正在越南的某間大學半工半讀。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYDAm0LHqFO
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姊姊卻是拿錢嫁來台灣,和我結婚成為黄家媳婦,一年來一直日夜陪伴我生活。201Please respect copyright.PENANAdvRcPwtmAw
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姊姊的寧靜,其實是有重量的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAF0zthW06Mf
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生活的重量,從來不是三言二語可以輕鬆說完。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIVCNwfHpek
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也或許,正是因為無奈和感嘆,才讓它這麼不容易說完。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUCXt3qY7ND
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天真不懂的我追問:「姊姊?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAs8HdeVACgv
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姊姊回答:「因為我們必須結婚。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAc0CaB9lAff
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我:「為什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAt4IRTugOYX
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姊姊僅能:「姊姊不知道應該怎麼說。等到回家之後,你問媽媽吧?」201Please respect copyright.PENANARneyAx6Vjr
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所以回家之後,我真的牽著姊姊的手,跑去問媽媽這件事。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmcFphQmK77
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媽媽沉默的和姊姊互看,然後回答我:「等你長大之後就知道為什麼會和姊姊結婚了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAMuqxVJJ55c
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結果,當年八歲的我還是完全不知道為什麼自己會和姊姊結婚。201Please respect copyright.PENANA4zK7QporvQ
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我也只能想著這件事幾天之後,開始把它淡忘掉,繼續開開心心的牽著姊姊的手,和姊姊一起生活……201Please respect copyright.PENANAdQvI8uhSOL
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就這樣,幾年的國小生活迅速過去。201Please respect copyright.PENANAKKBqMu0c00
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姊姊嫁來黄家的時候十八歲,現在已經二十三歲。201Please respect copyright.PENANAN4uE8sbxSx
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照顧我之餘順便幫忙家事,處理家裡公司的英文翻譯工作,可說已經完全融入黃家的一切生活。201Please respect copyright.PENANAv8DqLpJc02
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至於越南娘家,姊姊和娘家密切保持聯絡,不論是實體信件,電子信件,通訊軟體,沒有斷絕過。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhU9PWTt5m0
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中風的爸爸情況好轉。201Please respect copyright.PENANAePikbvBQos
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媽媽用姊姊的聘金開一間穀物貿易店,生意做的不錯。201Please respect copyright.PENANAtvFAOtpHKY
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二位弟弟則是都在高中讀書,準備考大學。201Please respect copyright.PENANAeZcicLhOpb
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所以原本窮困的娘家的確因為姊姊的聘金,慢慢發達起來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5ZoGy80NJ
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就這樣來看,窮人女孩為錢出嫁遠方,真的不好嗎?201Please respect copyright.PENANAQf6iKaeP4G
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當然,每個人心中都有想法和答案……201Please respect copyright.PENANA70AH5gO9bs
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我則是十二歲,健康快樂的入讀國中一年級。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhmyxHbbtzE
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開始長高的我,心靈隨之成長。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxnrScWSwyt
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小時候的我,整天黏著姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfVhhlvnDc8
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但是現在的我,對於那麼黏姊姊開始覺得怪怪的。201Please respect copyright.PENANA7dwALRBfCn
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和姊姊一起手牽手走在路上,以前的我覺得很自然快樂,但是現在的我卻覺得很奇怪。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIRu6iifyR4
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尤其是如果在路上遇見認識的同學或是朋友,我都會趕緊放開姊姊的手,和姊姊分開,不想要被他們看見我和姊姊手牽手。201Please respect copyright.PENANAl5Itlc78uU
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甚至於,我會對於和姊姊同房睡覺這件事感到彆扭。201Please respect copyright.PENANABSIgmMpWzj
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睡覺的時候,我都已經故意側躺背對姊姊,並且離遠點,姊姊卻還是主動靠上來,從我的背後主動摟抱我在懷裡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOUmETwGw92
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就像過去那樣,從背後抱著我一起看電視。201Please respect copyright.PENANAKxg5noWdfr
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就像過去那樣,從背後抱著唸故事書給我聽。201Please respect copyright.PENANASpFSU1JVW3
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就像過去那樣,抱著親密搖我,唱兒歌給我聽,陪我說話。201Please respect copyright.PENANA22IJUaW4fg
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就像過去那樣,一直把我當成孩子……201Please respect copyright.PENANAKi2OSbYAnH
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因此,今晚睡覺又被姊姊像這樣從背後親密摟抱,彆扭好一陣子的我終於說:「姊姊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANACRwUSkC3ue
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姊姊:「嗯?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0cldANS9QM
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我說:「妳可以不要抱我嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAH3wT7pNLqK
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姊姊:「怎麼了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAHlFR0dzvFi
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我誠實說:「感覺好難為情。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAx3J9nGFqPe
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姊姊沉默。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6r2fAfIANw
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我繼續趁這個機會說出心底話:「其實……我越來越覺得我們一起睡覺很奇怪……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAureUd8oKjb
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmk0d7CIXeO
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我說:「我知道,好多年來我們都是一起睡覺,妳會像這樣抱著我。但是,現在我真的開始覺得好奇怪……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAktS8d57PMA
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又是幾秒的沉默。201Please respect copyright.PENANAd6dSdTVIvj
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姊姊主動移動手,不再從背後摟抱我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIqThx5wKGK
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我擔心姊姊不開心,回頭看去:「姊姊,我沒有討厭妳,只是真的覺得好奇怪。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXbEp8EE6Hn
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陰暗的燈光下,側躺面對我的姊姊溫柔微笑:「阿弟,你長大了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAicwEExVSfc
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不只姊姊,阿媽和媽媽也是叫我阿弟。201Please respect copyright.PENANAotjvIYUsVF
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我只能說:「是嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANABLziz1jCmV
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姊姊:「你也不喜歡和姊姊牽手被同學看見吧?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAm5YJmhSPTv
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我這才知道,原來姊姊有察覺到這件事,知道我都會在路上遇到同學的時候放開姊姊的手。201Please respect copyright.PENANAd0x4OsJZGH
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唯有乖乖承認:「嗯……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAECRgqVORPy
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姊姊詢問:「你也會討厭姊姊陪你上下學?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAJq03aN0onm
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我沒想到姊姊會反問這件事,所以我真的想幾秒:「上下學……我是覺得,上下學我一個人不會有問題。其實姊姊可以不必一直跟著我,感覺有點浪費妳的時間……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAW78sqSWMox
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姊姊得到我的回答:「姊姊知道了,以後你自己上下學吧。明天你還要去學校,先睡覺。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcBrzfRqIWn
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說完,姊姊轉身,背對我睡覺,沒有再摸我一下。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkBnETjUAuz
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我也只好同樣繼續背對姊姊睡覺。201Please respect copyright.PENANAKAevPIJln2
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我知道,姊姊依然是當年那個一心一意照顧陪伴我的姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANArgsqfO3Q2b
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但是開始長大改變的我,真的不再是當年七歲的我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwTybFvtyvi
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雖然當時沒有感覺,不過我和姊姊的關係,的的確確就從這時候開始不同。201Please respect copyright.PENANAtr2JgfjbTI
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隔天,姊姊果然讓我一個人上學,下午回家時間也沒有來校門口接我,讓我感覺好奇怪,就像有什麼明顯不對勁。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPdm2xJERlY
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甚至於,回到家之後,在房間放下書包,發現房間裡面怪怪的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQSV14t7DY9
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但是那時我還忽然說不出房間哪裡奇怪。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhZHniCeXzX
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直到進入廚房從冰箱找喝的,遇見正在忙碌晚餐的媽媽和姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANA2hX8IXrFW9
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我先問候:「媽媽,姊姊。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAaXl2cR8bBU
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媽媽知道我一定還沒有完全搞清楚情況,所以主動跟我說:「今天開始,姊姊會去原本用來堆雜物的那個房間睡覺。下午已經把雜物間清理好,也把姊姊的東西都搬進去,以後那裡就是姊姊的臥房。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAD26R8heh5M
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這就是剛才我為什麼覺得房間有點奇怪,因為原本屬於姊姊的東西與衣物都消失不見。201Please respect copyright.PENANAcbGpJLNQaY
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我小小意外到:「姊姊要睡在雜物間?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAfxYYtB7mpO
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媽媽:「你不是跟姊姊說不想和姊姊一起睡覺?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAVxGqMCYVDS
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我:「昨晚我是那樣說……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAeFF6p1piJ2
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然後,我看向姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZoomEgC9YY
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姊姊面無表情站在瓦斯爐前炒青菜,沒有看我一眼。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6aT4SvzlvJ
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我:「姊姊?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAimVaE5Kxk5
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姊姊終於看我:「嗯?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAJAFhl87ycu
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我:「你真的要搬去雜物間?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2rUPvEJ3Pr
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姊姊回我:「早上姊姊和媽媽談過之後,覺得這樣對你比較好。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAarCGXImVK8
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我:「可是---」201Please respect copyright.PENANAu6xGesczjH
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『可是』到這裡,我又半句話說不出。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPLV0L3GPQb
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畢竟我究竟想要『可是』什麼?201Please respect copyright.PENANAbbv7W7xerW
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我的確一天天覺得和姊姊同床共枕很奇怪,親口說出這件事。201Please respect copyright.PENANArQcQxd7exq
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我和姊姊分房生活本來就是很自然的發展,到底還有什麼好『可是』?201Please respect copyright.PENANAQZp1ln9Nmv
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所以『可是』之後,我真的又沒有一句話可以說,只能站著。201Please respect copyright.PENANATEYshu3lxs
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因此姊姊再說:「你真的已經長大了,開始獨立自主。姊姊很高興,可以陪伴你平安長大到今天。今後也要繼續成長為一位優秀的大人,知不知道?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1pRl2i1uJ5
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我唯有:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANApAP3fJvCHH
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媽媽有意思讓這件事就這樣:「好啦!你自己聞聞衣服,都是臭酸味!快去浴室洗澡,準備吃晚飯了!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAxMKVY7KYkn
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就這樣,我們沒有再談過這件事。201Please respect copyright.PENANAi1JI6crAlm
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我跟姊姊正式分房生活……201Please respect copyright.PENANAlUMRiPYowL
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姊姊決定放手,讓我自由自在的長大,相信那樣對我的成長最好。201Please respect copyright.PENANAennYcFPhta
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我從上下學不再有姊姊陪伴,直到現在分房睡覺,真的一直有種說不出的奇怪感。201Please respect copyright.PENANAdA1gigtdhP
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就像自己的生活,忽然有什麼重要的人事物消失不見。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwGVCAelgsw
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這樣的消失,好像明顯是錯的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAiYegjE77uI
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但是我又感覺到,這樣才是對的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlZrXocXOu2
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我相信這就是姊姊所說的獨立自主和所謂的長大吧。201Please respect copyright.PENANAoTB6lmI3T4
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卻也因為這樣,沒有姊姊常常跟隨陪伴的我,雖然獲得很高的生活自由,卻也交上壞朋友了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPpzPyndSFs
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週六日,以前我都是跟姊姊一起出門,搭公車去鄰近城市的鬧區走走逛逛再回家。201Please respect copyright.PENANA17TWXTxM9H
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不再有姊姊緊密陪伴的我,都和同學朋友一起出遊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPLKwkDoeSf
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姊姊都會在我出門赴約的時候,微笑的說:「路上小心,早點回來。」完全把我當成大人尊重看待。201Please respect copyright.PENANA1C5SZuR4K1
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就這樣,朋友彼此之間再互相介紹,我終於和一群大人常說的『壞孩子』認識。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvOx2omYgZO
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一夥近三十人,男女都有,對我來說都是些大哥哥大姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlsKiL81mJ4
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年紀大約是國中生到二十歲,最年長的幾位等著當兵,並且他們的家庭明顯都有問題。201Please respect copyright.PENANAd4LHNcUQ32
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搶劫吸毒之類的嚴重事情沒有。但是檳榔喝酒,喜歡夜遊飆車,嗆聲裝大……大概就是缺少家庭關愛的鄉下8+9。201Please respect copyright.PENANATDhAPsmJav
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當然,認識他們之初,我也覺得和他們在一起不太好。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWRa5bLpolC
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聰明的孩子絕對會知道不應該和他們繼續往來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmWykfeO2vu
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但是我又無法抗拒和他們繼續來往的誘惑。201Please respect copyright.PENANAF72V30NUNt
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因為他們有帥氣的摩托車。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxniFJ0iO35
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他們是個8+9飆車族,車隊名稱叫做三太子風火輪。201Please respect copyright.PENANAimN7dW8LBL
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沒有錯,我喜歡帥氣的摩托車。201Please respect copyright.PENANAcv3nS11qru
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看著那樣的帥氣摩托車,我就想騎上去飆。201Please respect copyright.PENANAr5n3mF1Bio
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聽著引擎聲怒吼,我的感覺整個嗨到不必嗑任何東西。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYFtAGKP1nB
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尤其是家裡沒有摩托車,只有分別由爺爺、爸爸和媽媽各自擁有的二輛汽車。201Please respect copyright.PENANA0yxgQU3zRI
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當年的我不懂汽車,只記得叫難聽的梅賽什麼的,看起來又黑又大又笨重,一點都不拉風的廉價車。201Please respect copyright.PENANABuRcMBuNU4
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而大哥大姊他們不只有摩托車,還都經過特別改裝,看起來又酷又炫。201Please respect copyright.PENANArB1lXcjTba
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只要坐上去感覺就像世界無敵了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAVy0S4c5c3K
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當年才十三歲的我,真的好希望自己也能擁有一輛自己的帥氣摩托車。201Please respect copyright.PENANA2OEz8C7qrh
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所以我真的克制不住和他們一群人來往的慾望。201Please respect copyright.PENANAku4gnsKHkN
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他們一定是因為全都破碎家庭出身,主觀的認為我也一樣,所以完全不問我的來歷,我到場就接受我,讓我跟隊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAURT4JgtXD3
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所以我不必上學的週六日一出門,就是主動去找他們,大家一起出門全速衝鋒。201Please respect copyright.PENANANUhf3iLPZP
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當然,我都是後座被載的那個。201Please respect copyright.PENANARyWD5DEhNI
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大部份時間,都是在靠中央山脈的山路衝鋒兜風,大約深夜就解散回家。201Please respect copyright.PENANA4oxikW77Z3
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少數時候,大家飆的比較瘋,就是順著車少的靠海道路從台灣南部衝到台北,再從基隆衝進宜蘭花蓮直到台東,再一路騎回來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzb2LIPgryo
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真的是完全不睡覺,從白天騎到黑夜,再從黑夜騎到白天,猛衝台灣島一圈的衝鋒。201Please respect copyright.PENANA23wY4d392Q
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每個月都會像這樣衝一次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZGOljpVRwD
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大家都樂此不疲,我更是好開心。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8mVeida55q
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我覺得這個世界真的好遼闊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkwZDevRzG5
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我真的好想看到外面更寬大的世界。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzbl2owvl2m
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我越來越不想離開這個環島飆車團體。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmulKkfIn5H
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不過想也知道,我才一個國中生,家人一定擔心追問。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkRFBmsMc1h
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如果半夜才回家,這種情況還好,被媽媽碎念個幾句就好。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMCmZRXTxoO
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如果是一整天的瘋狂環島……201Please respect copyright.PENANAtKsPnoY1yj
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終於,這個週日早上,第三次我再次環島瘋回來之後,被追問到底了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOtjsYVoZku
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不只媽媽和姊姊,就連最疼我的阿媽也在一邊看。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvsCpGePRBC
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媽媽一臉擔心:「昨天週六你到底去哪裡?怎麼整晚都不回來?這樣的情況已經不是一次二次了!你才幾歲啊!大家整晚等你,怕你出什麼事,一直想去報警知不知道?」201Please respect copyright.PENANALcyQIGzqYX
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因為擔心會被媽媽繼續罵,所以我回答:「沒事啦。只是和幾個朋友去台北玩。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAhoCvmFOXBH
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這是事實,因為車隊的確會經過台北。201Please respect copyright.PENANAd5H4Z5al6o
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雖然抵達台北的時候都是大部份人回家睡覺的深夜。201Please respect copyright.PENANAyIE2JZLXQh
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換姊姊問:「阿弟,你們沒有做壞事吧?」201Please respect copyright.PENANArSo2TceK8g
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如果說謊,媽媽和姊姊一定會看出來。201Please respect copyright.PENANADfhZ3AZByN
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我覺得很煩又很無奈的直視她們,明示自己的清白:「沒有啦。真的只是一群人出去玩而已。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXcBKvHQl82
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不過是騎摩托車瘋狂繞台灣,還會是什麼壞事?201Please respect copyright.PENANABiex7xmNBR
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姊姊再問:「下週六你們也會像這樣出去玩到週日才回家?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0KAeDeAmcl
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我不耐煩的回:「又不是每次都這樣好不好?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAm6CRjq9wI6
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姊姊:「表示以後還會像這樣?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAa7wfKtbJC7
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我不敢回答,因為是肯定的,所以生氣大罵:「妳們又煩又囉嗦!有完沒完!碎碎唸個不停!我要回房間睡覺了啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAiTUN7TL2sT
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就此頭也不回,直往房間快步走。201Please respect copyright.PENANAoIDpKeXsGL
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媽媽她們看我忽然這麼兇的大罵之後轉身就走,全部愣在客廳,忽然追不上來。201Please respect copyright.PENANApb86HQTDwL
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只有姊姊,第一時間追進房間,拉著我的手:「你到底跟誰出去?」201Please respect copyright.PENANALUX7ga2Ntk
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就這樣,我第一次和姊姊吵架了……201Please respect copyright.PENANAoi7RALQV9g
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發急的我,只能甩開姊姊的手:「問這麼多做什麼?是有那麼嚴重喔?」201Please respect copyright.PENANASOWAIUVH2O
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姊姊:「阿弟,媽媽剛才沒有說錯,你才十三歲,是個國中生啊!整晚不回家,大家當然擔心!加上你正在叛逆期,我們可以不擔心嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAOEEzMV339N
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這時候,媽媽和阿媽也追上來觀戰。201Please respect copyright.PENANAbjr0dmRTp7
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不過她們暫時都沒有說話,把發言權交給姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMsXnkBRUjV
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我一心只想早點罵退她們,所以直接對姊姊罵:「到底關妳什麼事!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAI4xcfAoZLT
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姊姊:「為什麼不關我的事!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXtFfGkIwwb
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我:「妳到底是我的誰啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAiRNo1i8u9t
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姊姊:「我是妳的姊姊啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXbeeeKyK1S
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我:「我只是把妳當姊姊喊!不然我什麼時候有姊姊了!妳是媽媽生的喔?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAa8IEGyWzzW
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姊姊的確一時難以回答。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwr9pobhRel
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我繼續說:「妳又不姓黃!明明什麼都不是!妳只是個外人!就不要再對我管那麼多了啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAHPTeShgdMB
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANA5j6Z3wA7yC
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媽媽:「你這個孩子對姊姊說什麼話!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmVZDEU2JGg
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阿媽也罵我:「是姊姊辛苦的一手把你帶到這麼大,知不知道?怕你冷!怕你熱!怕你餓到!怕你受傷生病!怕你書沒讀好!你還要去哪裡找這樣的姊姊!到底誰還會對你這麼好啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAacWkaDGBYE
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媽媽:「你的阿媽沒有說錯!姊姊真的對你那麼好,結果你竟然對姊姊說這種話!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAoE5uvGYafu
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這樣子,我又要面對她們三人了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwzIyMfGNLX
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整晚沒有睡的我,又煩又氣又累,拉著房門就要緊緊關上。201Please respect copyright.PENANAS6WV00KTxQ
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姊姊卻是踏出一步,伸手用力頂著門,不給我關。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxmVqWlOO2Y
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甚至於,姊姊直瞪著我,毫不移開雙眼。201Please respect copyright.PENANA0vQlwyoCO2
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被姊姊這樣瞪,頓時一陣膽寒。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkcF5VFsAsf
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畢竟我是被姊姊從七歲一手帶大的孩子,對於和姊姊相處的實際記憶真的比媽媽還要多。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkFPVFk0Pwu
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所以被姊姊這樣瞪,讓我感覺比親生媽媽這樣瞪還要可怕。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjzvnOypaZT
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覺得自己真的麻煩大了……201Please respect copyright.PENANAuyGG9rHSJ3
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我又急又怕:「放手!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAelx5fuF0pR
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姊姊:「不放!你不敢說,背後一定有問題!你好好說出是和誰出去整晚!你們到底去做什麼!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAdqOBFeI2St
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我:「我已經說了,妳沒有資格問!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAKY1zENywZ7
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媽媽出頭:「那麼媽媽總有資格問吧!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA4RQjbbgSjl
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我更是不敢回答媽媽,只能繼續用力推門,對姊姊喊:「反正跟妳沒有關係,放手啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAwNrHObdfLb
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姊姊只能喊:「我不是外人!我是嫁進黃家的媳婦!你這樣子,我會擔心啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmdR3ZM9Dun
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我:「什麼媳婦!到底是誰的媳婦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAzrdZ5WcZ4b
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姊姊:「你的啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcPyAbsTYWE
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當時的情況,姊姊不這樣說不行。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzr2RyWVkwN
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因為姊姊真的會在這個黃家找不到立足之地。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzTbe2OYLHO
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只會是個來自越南卻長時間住在黃家的外人。201Please respect copyright.PENANAXcrSrWc2Jz
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我:「才不是!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAzMT7RFB3T7
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姊姊:「為什麼不是?」201Please respect copyright.PENANABFdQayZyEH
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我:「我又不是願意和妳結婚!再說當時我才幾歲啊!而且大家都知道只是做做樣子,又不是真的!妳才不是我的媳婦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAFcrN1D3s1M
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接著姊姊的回答,我萬萬想不到。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1801hD03v
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我真的萬萬想不到。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgYWrVSoUHI
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姊姊問我:「那麼姊姊搬出去,和其他男生約會結婚也沒有關係了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3Wy1cXYwKo
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當然姊姊是故意這樣說,為了嚇嚇我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1iZlvzBap
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不過才十三歲的我根本還只是個不夠懂事的孩子,心臟立刻一個大跳!201Please respect copyright.PENANAUcxH2qdnsn
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這樣的心情,就像孩子聽到守寡的媽媽要改嫁。201Please respect copyright.PENANA0ol3NjgfXl
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只要是孩子,一般都會很難接受這樣的事情。201Please respect copyright.PENANA4BJDHpnRv7
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到時候姊姊會被其他人搶走,姊姊就不再是我的姊姊了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPqOvYTwEot
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說起來,當時的我真的就像個要斷奶卻無法斷個徹底的孩子。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIRoSxHE2wq
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當然我緊張的對姊姊說:「妳說什麼啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbLMLRuspPE
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姊姊說:「反正我又不是黃家的媳婦,你管姊姊那麼多。」201Please respect copyright.PENANABDdpIeqKPL
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我:「這是不同的事情啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANApw6XrPINjj
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姊姊:「隨便你吧。」201Please respect copyright.PENANALfoPjVTJXz
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說完,姊姊還真的直接放手,不再想把我的房間門頂開,並且轉身就走。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPJir56xQ3f
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媽媽配合姊姊:「你這個孩子實在是啊……看看你剛才對姊姊說什麼話!姊姊真的不想管你了,還不快去跟姊姊說對不起!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqnt9q6EChj
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我猶豫堅持僵持著。201Please respect copyright.PENANAE8LaG5M82G
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畢竟如果說出事實,我知道她們一定不會再讓我去參加車隊兜風。201Please respect copyright.PENANArsv9E91gaG
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如果不說,姊姊又會變成別人的姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAEEXiVuD5nf
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我的心情真的是有夠天人交戰。201Please respect copyright.PENANAo8Ob8CTPkP
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根本是逼我二選一。201Please respect copyright.PENANAGQ41MZ8rT8
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媽媽:「姊姊真的不必勉強自己一直留在我們家!現在你真的要看姊姊離開?還不快去跟姊姊道歉!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAq6AdKZiRgX
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終於,我還是害怕的:「嘖!」一聲,離開房間,快步跑去找姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOpHHbxCYub
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姊姊坐在客廳沙發看電視,冰冷的完全不看我一眼。201Please respect copyright.PENANAE5kOW536b6
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我:「姊姊。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAu7w9bTy0it
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAuWQfOX65CL
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我:「姊姊,妳不要這樣。」201Please respect copyright.PENANALuJxQIXXOb
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAI6vzIAhZlX
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我:「對不起。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAS6Nyznbqfc
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAfaFz9NcybN
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我:「妳不要走啦。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAWllR6FMID1
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAtAn9enDXsj
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我:「剛才我真的不是故意那樣說……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAEP10qQb4xT
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姊姊終於看我:「姊姊想聽到的不是這些。是你整晚到底去哪裡?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA4aKQn0paxJ
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我又是一番掙扎:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAaof9jFbUtR
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姊姊終於看我:「你從小到大,今天真的是第一次有事情瞞著姊姊。讓姊姊好難過。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA8hmmARZU1M
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我:「如果我說了,你們一定不會再讓我出去……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1qFGfYdOpc
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姊姊:「反正你先說,到底整晚去哪裡做什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAr92CW0uKj3
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcmxr9lzP2I
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姊姊:「還是不願意說嗎?反正對你來說,姊姊只是這個黃家的外人吧。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbuT59eXbgQ
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我:「不是那樣啦。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA039jpmpHwE
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姊姊:「那就告訴姊姊。不然姊姊真的要搬走了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAI720sX6mGC
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我只能心一橫:「昨天我是去參加車隊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAwoTjTbR1Jf
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姊姊:「車隊?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9aJgNoVzM1
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我:「整天跟大家坐摩托車兜風,只有那樣而已。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0Gmjqmqwgu
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阿媽擔心的問:「你跟人家去飆車?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAOcLk62ERPh
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我拼命想著讓自己可以無罪開脫的回答說詞,可是就速度來說,又覺得很難辯駁:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZMRWNeIOC
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媽媽看我的沉默,直接有罪判定,滿臉的難以相信:「你竟然去跟人家飆車……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAQ86aHrS6sW
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我:「不是飆車啦!只是外面騎一圈而已!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAAg3pNHBA9X
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姊姊冰冷的說:「騎去哪裡?為什麼整晚才回來?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAWUlXpILOPg
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我:「沒有去哪裡啦……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqEmoJCQ0R9
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姊姊:「到底跟人家騎去哪裡?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1QuqwZHyYm
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我:「就是……台灣繞一圈而已……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAdTbJAyoX0I
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姊姊略顯訝異:「台灣繞一圈?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3W480am71m
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我看姊姊的反應,知道不妙了:「真的只有那樣!不是什麼危險的飆車啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAyFJljS9DQZ
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姊姊:「一天騎台灣一圈?所以整晚都在騎車?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAX3TA2lQACh
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阿媽再次:「哎喲!這樣不就整天在飆車!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPKe7C7z8Fx
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媽媽同樣受驚不小,音量非常大:「你這個孩子實在是!竟然去跟飆車族整天在一起飆車!那樣有多危險知不知道!如果出事怎麼辦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAot2fMVYimX
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換阿媽哀叫:「哎喲……你這樣如果讓疼你的阿公知道,他一定會驚的血壓飆高喔……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAhxKZg0IZ3h
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我:「真的沒有想的那麼危險啦!再說我已經參加過三次,不是都沒有出事!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAVxnmaQvqVr
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媽媽直接大聲:「以後不准再去參加,聽到沒有!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAOtLP1lRHBo
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阿媽:「黃家現在只有你這個獨孫!黃家還要靠你傳下去!你要是有個萬一要怎麼辦啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0VMOwUR6EK
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果然,變成我最討厭的情況。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIx75XZKDiT
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我只能做著沒有意義的抗議:「就是因為會這樣,我才不敢跟妳們說啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANANrKBFh7YDv
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姊姊接口:「你不敢說,因為你自己也知道本來就不應該去參加。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1YtNHYYz1V
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我:「但是真的沒有想像的危險!你們看我不是一直都平安回來?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPZwzGeWDbG
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姊姊:「不論你說多安全,我們都不會相信。飆車本來就是很危險的事情,更不必說你才十三歲。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZexUQULoHM
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我:「所以等我十八歲就可以了,是不是?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6Fhcufbc6
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姊姊卻是直瞪著我,直接一句:「姊姊對你很失望。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0MIXmzBf2s
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAyPD3Rgqdbm
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姊姊:「我一直以為你會開始懂事,會自己想……結果你竟然做出這麼危險的事情,去參加整天飆車的飆車族。姊姊真的對你非常失望。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAMHO4owHYPS
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbWMrdIxg3P
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姊姊:「你根本還是個不懂事的孩子,完全不知道事情輕重。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA8IbuyIIirN
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阿媽也在旁邊整個憂心:「會變壞……這樣一定會變壞……哎喲……怎麼辦啦……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA6oqu0ddZPc
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我做著最後掙扎:「事情真的不是那樣……」201Please respect copyright.PENANADpuJY0Q1pC
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姊姊:「反正你不准再去參加,否則姊姊就搬出去,再也不管你了,有沒有聽到?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAyshv4LGzrL
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我還能怎麼回答?201Please respect copyright.PENANA1FZzlswe7I
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只能垂頭喪氣:「知道了……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAF6tFZ2gTXV
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當時的我,真的覺得好難過,覺得好不甘願。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUib3X4mYNg
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因為我真的很喜歡騎著摩托車兜風的感覺。201Please respect copyright.PENANAo2it3VTynS
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現在這一切,因為我不希望姊姊離開,所以都要被強迫終止。201Please respect copyright.PENANAn7y96EIh2f
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讓我怎麼接受?201Please respect copyright.PENANAIXj5w4GWlA
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我自然悶悶不樂起來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAnLMAlMw4yI
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週日的這場爭吵,就這樣結束。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHvtIBlcl0A
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然後,週二這一天,在外面跑生意的爸爸回家休息幾天了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAE9qwElcEa6
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所以這一天放學回家,我立刻被爸爸叫到客廳。201Please respect copyright.PENANAytuoh0TnPr
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爸爸一臉嚴肅,姊姊她們三人都在旁邊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAVKF3z99iuD
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雖然爸爸因為和阿公一樣整天在東南亞跑,都把我的事情交給阿媽媽媽和姊姊,幾乎沒有插手過我的教育,不過還是會在必要的時候管教我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAI98SRnhfnb
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所以我其實還頂怕爸爸的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfkjHTzzCQI
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爸爸開口就是嚴肅的問:「聽媽媽說,你去參加飆車族,已經好幾次和他們環島?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAp7GlLb4NZo
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我覺得說再多也沒有意義,所以簡單的:「嗯。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcDeypmPaUC
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爸爸嚴厲罵來:「亂來!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAI7to1z0343
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAfwjciRQldO
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爸爸:「你以為飆車好玩啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANASWJudWNd3b
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不服氣又不甘心的我,雖然會怕爸爸,不過還是什麼都不管了,直接說:「很好玩。」201Please respect copyright.PENANADE8t2yXtLK
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聽著腳下的引擎怒吼,看著二旁道路快速向後衝去的速度感,進入前方從來沒有見過的新世界,真的很好玩。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmCjcNhw0ML
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我真的喜歡騎摩托車旅行的感覺。201Please respect copyright.PENANAR9gal8FZOp
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越是參加那個車隊,我越是著迷於那樣的感覺,難以自拔。201Please respect copyright.PENANAe73co0rf5J
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不過,在場四人都為我這句話:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAlUwRgVPTB8
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真的,他們都被我一句話頂到安靜。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIvjajmDN3M
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好幾秒,半句話沒有。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwGDKmwH7LR
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爸爸反應回來,更兇的說:「飆車是在拿自己的生命安危開玩笑,你到底知不知道!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAOmICqpbv2B
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我:「反正你們不會懂啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAMa4LKs9ejO
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爸爸:「是你完全不懂!真的跟個孩子一樣!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbETXX96D77
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我正想要給爸爸頂嘴……201Please respect copyright.PENANA2rODNEOtxC
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一直安靜在旁邊的姊姊:「那麼你說,我們不懂什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAfktYvxeyd5
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我:「反正你們不會再讓我去了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9UCjSy9nJR
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姊姊:「我們的確不會再讓你去參加飆車族。可是如果你說出來,至少我們還可以懂你為什麼會去參加。是因為姊姊開始不陪你,所以你覺得一個人很寂寞嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1foHNNLYYU
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我:「不是那樣啦。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXozgLCK4nV
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姊姊:「那是怎麼樣?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAeGzVUdCC3j
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我:「我喜歡騎摩托車。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAsAEjCyeM0u
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姊姊:「你喜歡騎摩托車?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA33OjHlSvbz
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我:「我知道你們一定會覺得那些騎摩托車的人都是壞孩子,當然不會讓我去參加。可是他們其實沒有你們想像的那麼壞。我只是和他們一起騎車,一起兜風,又沒有怎麼樣……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3WarSuQreY
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姊姊卻是說:「我們先把他們的事情放在一邊。你為什麼會喜歡摩托車?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAKWDZ91CZmz
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我:「你們一定不喜歡摩托車吧?是不是覺得會騎摩托車的人都是窮人?都不是什麼好人?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAP7C8XOj8J0
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姊姊:「你為什麼這樣問?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAsEBXzANsg1
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我:「因為一定是這樣啊!否則我們家為什麼連一輛摩托車都沒有!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAVJXFM5XERH
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爸爸出面回答:「因為汽車載人載物比較方便,也比較安全!再說平時如果大家需要出門,媽媽會開車,不是都會開爸爸的車載你們出門?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAQk2QGXiuyq
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我:「不一樣啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAFslbjFxNwI
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姊姊:「哪裡不一樣?」201Please respect copyright.PENANACaXIHPswRj
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我:「摩托車帥氣拉風又自由,騎起來的感覺就是好棒!我們家的車又笨重又醜,名字也難聽又難記,叫梅塞什麼的……要怎麼跟帥氣的摩托車比!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAW3op5hevj6
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爸爸沉默二秒,口氣好許多:「梅賽德斯?」201Please respect copyright.PENANARnkACbTUBm
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我:「對!梅賽德斯!聽都沒有聽過!看起來也真的有夠醜!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAx8EnxIaxpn
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爸爸:「梅賽德斯是主名,大家常知的通名是賓士。我們家二輛車都是賓士高級車款,你知道一輛多少錢嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjL1mIrt5ml
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當然我絕對聽過,知道是很貴的車,忍不住確認:「賓士?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAhuGLVmhi3H
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爸爸:「都是賓士。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAyhFmp7FlUu
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下一秒,我有一種極為失望的感覺,因為總覺得賓士那樣的名貴轎車應該看起來更加不同凡響才對。201Please respect copyright.PENANAaJ5UbjsTo7
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所以我發自內心回答爸爸:「好醜……真的……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAVxjr1wMaHk
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首先,美醜是很主觀的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAdQ9XptIQhL
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再來,我真的打心底覺得,賓士有名又貴到讓我很無法理解。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZbM2YLClTM
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真的,就算我已經長大成人,還是不喜歡賓士的外型,就算是賓士的跑車款也一樣……絕對是青菜蘿蔔每人各有喜好。201Please respect copyright.PENANAd0BRkAlKWo
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所以這時候的我萬分的難掩失望之情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAdwNvnlG8EV
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爸爸:「賓士也有跑車款,看起來很好看。我們家二輛都是家用房車,所以看起來像一般常見車輛,不過的確都是很貴的頂級賓士。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAWWiBduRDha
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAM5QdhVb7f2
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姊姊再問:「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA18a4vLUW5m
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我:「摩托車很棒啊!車隊的大哥大姊都把自己的車改的好酷好炫!那是因為你們沒有看過,不然你們一定也會喜歡!坐在上面騎,感覺就很舒服!真的可以騎一整天也不會膩!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAh1lyF58CqR
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他們四人,幾秒的安靜。201Please respect copyright.PENANAktlZIwfmXr
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爸爸終於說:「十來歲的年輕人,真的都會比較喜歡摩托車吧?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAJAGyPrAQ96
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我:「所以讓我再去參加車隊啦!他們真的只是單純的在路上騎車,沒有想的那麼危險!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA6VtAhc87U3
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媽媽直接大聲:「不可能!」201Please respect copyright.PENANABU7Qr6Me1z
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爸爸也說:「你給我乖乖留在家裡,有沒有聽到?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAi6YQwq6cCa
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阿媽更是:「傻孫啊,摩托車騎那麼快多危險啊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAtdp9URBRn0
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我還能怎辦:「我就知道!一定會變成這樣!跟你們根本白說!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA899MqP3UJD
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姊姊:「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車?」201Please respect copyright.PENANASWOcDDcNPe
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我開始發洩自己被強迫阻止的怒氣:「我就是喜歡!比家裡那二輛什麼醜賓士帥氣多了!就算你們現在禁止我!但是等到我滿十八歲是個大人了,一定要回去車隊給你們看!到時候看你們怎麼阻止我!」201Please respect copyright.PENANATWoRQzHLOj
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媽媽:「你這個孩子!說這什麼話!」201Please respect copyright.PENANABvX6Pt1pYf
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我:「我一定會回去車隊給你們看!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAgZmph9SJW1
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媽媽本來想再罵我,但是看爸爸一直安靜:「你也對孩子說句話啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjDYgUHwPxE
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爸爸卻是思考:「嗯……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGD41n3xLii
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媽媽:「喂!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbtSz7ftdgf
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爸爸回答媽媽:「看他這樣,不如我先通知爸爸?不管怎樣,這件事都要讓爸爸知道,再看要怎麼處理。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9mYOFOJ8DJ
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當然,爸爸口中的爸爸就是阿公。201Please respect copyright.PENANAREsp8QTnNc
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媽媽:「要告訴爸爸?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjgbGPpWcFB
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阿媽:「讓你的阿公知道你出去飆車一整天,還要出去繼續飆,一定要為你急的高血壓啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANACsEixkHOtE
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然後,爸爸播起電話,開始和電話另一頭的阿公說我的事情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqTy152qsvc
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參加8+9飆車族。201Please respect copyright.PENANASHs2QRZe5H
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一整天的飆車,環台一圈好幾次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAA2dY7PcqL4
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還放話,長大成人之後要回去繼續飆……201Please respect copyright.PENANAycXMXpzzrQ
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然後爸爸掛電話,告訴我們:「爸爸說他會把工作的事排開,搭明天的班機趕回來。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZTRGb7czO5
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阿公一定吃驚訝異又發急,否則不會放下工作立刻趕回來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAyafIflrYmX
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阿媽:「傻孫子,你自己看看,阿公為你急的……哎喲……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAI75cu5Yc3F
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我也只能摸摸鼻子回房間,心情忐忑又不好的準備面對明天就要回來的阿公。201Please respect copyright.PENANAXTtSZaseS9
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就這樣,隔天週三,我照樣去學校上學。201Please respect copyright.PENANASCdwzn4t1Q
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傍晚回家,阿公果然已經等在客廳。201Please respect copyright.PENANA7m2tz02XYD
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姊姊他們四個人,都陪在旁邊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAE6eHFPJkE7
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因為阿公和阿媽一樣疼我這個寶貝金孫,所以阿公沒有像爸爸一樣嚴肅板著臉。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIzF5OO6Ggz
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阿公說的很溫和:「阿弟,先回房間放下書包,然後來告訴阿公怎麼回事?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAF3Ce4zVgAH
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於是放下書包的我,回到客廳。201Please respect copyright.PENANA02inPqqZ69
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阿公立刻對我招手,讓我親密坐到大腿上。201Please respect copyright.PENANA07aJ3xgOh2
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阿公對待我,真的一直都像對待幼稚園的小孩子。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgFNl4VLDSG
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可能對阿公來說,我不論長多大,永遠都會是當年那個可愛的小孫子吧。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMdPITz1sWF
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於是我開始把整個事情從頭跟阿公說一次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgVXk2obzxV
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說完之後,換阿公問我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAefuoMWQSka
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先問我怎麼和那個車隊認識上,然後問我們都去哪裡?201Please respect copyright.PENANA45g8mocqx4
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接著都是問一些我為什麼那麼喜歡摩托車之類的事情?201Please respect copyright.PENANAWz2Q7i63p5
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我一直把自己的所有感受告訴阿公,並且求阿公讓我回去參加車隊,才能繼續快樂兜風旅行。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmKO0tph0oB
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阿公很有耐心的仔細聽我從頭說到完。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8Cm3p3uEW7
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最後,阿公問我:「你真的這麼喜歡摩托車?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAJl2mzFEhYy
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我當然說:「很喜歡!因為看起來好帥,騎著兜風也很開心!」201Please respect copyright.PENANABR7Etc6zZa
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阿公安靜:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAuJe7GeaFRx
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我開始撒嬌:「阿公……讓我回去參加好不好啦?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAoz6qZfs48t
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阿公:「不可以。真的太危險。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA64SQ6mwnQW
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我像個孩子拼命耍賴:「讓我回去啦!讓我回去啦!讓我回去啦!……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0VwSS9Ohj1
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阿公一直微笑看著我,一言不發。201Please respect copyright.PENANADqCColyoBJ
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爸爸很兇罵來:「不要這樣亂!大家是為你好!長大一點!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2Z16Y8kzb8
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以前阿公都會袒護我,不過現在阿公只是安靜微笑看我。201Please respect copyright.PENANASP5l3wGnup
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我當然不敢再發亂:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXbsJipfWyJ
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阿公哄我:「好了,去洗個澡,換個衣服,全家一起去餐館吃晚飯。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbDHIS5YlRd
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我:「可是車隊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANASugGGcdj1L
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阿公摸著我的頭:「乖。去洗澡。」201Please respect copyright.PENANApzESNFolbv
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我只好百般絕望,垂頭喪氣,前往浴室洗澡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMlNIQNl3Pc
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在離開客廳的時候,聽到阿公叫爸爸的小名:「阿忠?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAM1hiVC2h1e
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爸爸回應:「爸?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA171gDKG2tG
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阿公:「我們黃家的確只有他一個男孩。不管怎麼樣,今後大家一定要看好他。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9NTLbL2ZQh
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爸爸回答:「我們都知道要看好他。可問題是再過幾年他如果成年,到時候又要怎麼管?成年人實在是很難管了。要是真的搬出去,更是沒有辦法管。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAOdxljRsE5K
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然後我走遠,只聽到交談聲,聽不到他們到底在商量要怎麼看緊我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAr954G4CFGO
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當時我真的是感覺徹底無望啊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfAQIZrmVzj
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車隊當然更是沒有辦法再回去。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJaMPp5JEbT
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因為姊姊故意會在週六日一直跟著我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQfBhOH8W5x
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我因為不希望姊姊離開黃家,所以也不敢再偷跑回去參加車隊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUjSFlo0gvP
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可以說我在『姊姊』和『摩托車』這二個我都喜歡的存在,選擇了姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqNR7IAbimL
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不過我還是會在路上有人騎摩托車經過的時候,感覺好羨慕。201Please respect copyright.PENANAN269sNPSQv
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一心想著:我一定要在成年之後想辦法買一輛自己的摩托車……201Please respect copyright.PENANAtX5usns4Hp
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我對於摩托車旅行的慾望,真的只是暫時自我壓抑,並沒有消失。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHb3MStthX1
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一個月之後的這個週六。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWBYCdUyLfu
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一大早,姊姊就出門,不見蹤影。201Please respect copyright.PENANApEb5uH7exr
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看不見姊姊,感覺就是奇怪。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlUfks1FQiB
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因為姊姊應該會主動來跟著我監視才是?201Please respect copyright.PENANAAVdugIv1YR
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我吃著早餐,好奇追問媽媽:「姊姊呢?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3u06qosiNj
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媽媽:「去城裡。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAryG8L5Uqg7
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也就是說,姊姊去鄰近的城市。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxB4oXzTwXj
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我問:「去做什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmNyFRvurB2
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媽媽隨便敷衍:「辦點事情。」201Please respect copyright.PENANANGvUvHa830
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於是吃過早餐的我,回到房間寫週末作業。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzk4vfnWIBq
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雖然我想過可以趁姊姊不在的這個機會偷偷跑回去參加車隊,不過還是因為害怕姊姊會離開而……201Please respect copyright.PENANAIyuKStQFu8
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就這樣,下午大約二點。201Please respect copyright.PENANAW0PoeiWbLq
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我聽到響亮的摩托車引擎聲。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYEMP9w7HjD
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那樣的引擎聲,一聽就很不同凡響,絕對不是一般市區常見的摩托車引擎聲。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlqUoEqjA6F
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如果要形容那樣的引擎聲,就像是馬匹的腳蹄,很有力的踩著地面,每次都快速踩三下:『噠!噠!噠!』,『噠!噠!噠!』,『噠!噠!噠!』201Please respect copyright.PENANAUGuNkK6UH2
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聽起來規律、快速又清脆,非常悅耳。201Please respect copyright.PENANAf3m1ho4x05
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尤其是,竟然不是從家門前的道路騎過去,而是騎進這個住家的廣大前院,在前院踏馬蹄。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3md2lTJn2A
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鄉下因為土地寬,像我們這樣的有錢人家一般都會有像這樣的大前院。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzIwxc11O1r
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摩托車就那樣停在前院,三馬蹄引擎隆隆作響。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzZyCxawkuY
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寫作業的我立刻停筆,順著聲音轉頭,心中猜想:『摩托車?誰來了?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAKiIh0Lk9bD
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然後媽媽高興喊來:「阿弟你快來看!姊姊把摩托車牽回家了!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqmlwtX3HGp
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我自然萬般意外:『姊姊?牽摩托車回家?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAmknFSuIZUB
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立刻拋下作業跑到前院看個究竟。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkNzz8HxFf3
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抵達前院,阿媽和媽媽已經在前院看摩托車。201Please respect copyright.PENANAN8PcxipcUj
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引擎正在隆隆作響的果然不是一般車。201Please respect copyright.PENANApahw4Ms9VP
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至少一看外型就絕對不是路上常見的車款。201Please respect copyright.PENANAEzbjs1x32w
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外表看起來很拉風,很像是賽車場使用的競技車。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIE7zWEQ7O5
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那麼是什麼車?201Please respect copyright.PENANABIPp8QCDvN
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是哈雷重型機車,全球限量二百輛的特別款,現在有一輛在我家。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHTFQCa27DF
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全車幾乎都是由技術師父純手工組合和調整,可以說是精密的手工品。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUr6u7VBRY0
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必然是從美國出發,通過層層關卡和檢查之後運來台灣,才會一個月之久才來到家裡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQIlr2Kc8AD
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至於價錢,這一輛哈雷價值將近新台幣三百萬元,抵的上一輛賓士。201Please respect copyright.PENANAFAj2zdjgmS
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把這台限量款哈雷騎回來的騎士,正是一大早就出門的姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAbTyH25Ex7z
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漂亮的姊姊穿著全黑緊身皮衣,身材凹凸搶眼,跨坐哈雷,看起來超級帥氣迷人。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOlgzLYphD9
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過去那支車隊的所有大哥和大姊頭,從車到人都跟姊姊完全沒得比。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQkbm8Me8Gp
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我趕緊跑到車邊,興奮的又叫又跳:「姊姊!這輛車是怎麼回事!是怎麼回事!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqJB57cPK7A
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姊姊對我溫暖微笑:「阿公和爸爸買回來的摩托車。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAUmP4pJbDx7
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我完全難以相信:「真的買回來?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAsGJ4sj0ewe
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畢竟一個月來,家人都沒有跟我說要買摩托車回來。201Please respect copyright.PENANA813irfnmuf
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媽媽回答:「本來阿公是說要大家把你看好。後來是你的姊姊跟阿公和爸爸說,如果你這麼喜歡摩托車,不如買一輛回來。看姊姊對妳多好,處處為你想,你卻對姊姊說那些話……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAdP367IPDiu
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我已經顧不得那麼多,激動興奮叫個不停:「哇!哇!哇!哇!哇!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAWQyZCG8zgx
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姊姊:「帥氣嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmIv48aCzMI
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我:「好帥!好帥!好帥!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjFdPtlEQ3w
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姊姊微笑:「你真的很喜歡摩托車呢。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAycTHWeRWue
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我:「買摩托車為什麼都不跟我說!」201Please respect copyright.PENANArZJP1zBH49
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姊姊直接說:「因為如果這一個月你趁機跑回去參加飆車,我們就會在你眼前把摩托車賣掉,懲罰你。讓你知道偷偷做壞事會有報應。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAU49eO5kTiW
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到時候對我來說,會是多可怕的報應和懲罰啊?201Please respect copyright.PENANATZcX348QqE
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也幸好,今天我沒有趁著姊姊不在偷偷跑回去車隊。201Please respect copyright.PENANADi2VtzxqHb
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我忍不住又氣又笑:「好壞!你們真的好壞!都不說!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9QRuW2EiMb
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姊姊伸手摸我的頭:「不過你一直很乖,沒有偷偷跑回去飆車。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAvEPmFy9FFb
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我:「所以這輛車要給我騎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqiEguRXrK3
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我已經滿心騎著它到處兜風的幻想。201Please respect copyright.PENANARyx8BUHQej
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姊姊:「不是喔。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAw5k0IK7Bhr
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我:「不是?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAi03ZWSDRgx
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姊姊:「你才幾歲,也沒有駕照,怎麼能讓你自己騎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2oHKMoVsIF
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我急的:「不讓我騎,那麼買回來做什麼啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAC1xtSO37x9
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媽媽告訴我:「姊姊會負責載你,讓你願意乖乖留在家裡。除非你成年考上駕照,否則這輛車都給姊姊騎,讓姊姊載你兜風。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA7zw6Jvt1YI
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這就是阿公回來的那天,為什麼沒有說要買車回來的原因。不是沒有錢買,而是阿公和爸爸整天不在家,很難常常載我兜風,摩托車買回來也只是堆灰塵,相信我一定不會喜歡……201Please respect copyright.PENANA3eNTdaoQVi
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不過我聽媽媽這樣說才想到,直看著姊姊:「啊!姊姊會騎車?妳有駕照?妳真的把車騎回來?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAoL2qYYutAv
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因為就我知道,姊姊應該不會騎車也不會開車。201Please respect copyright.PENANAug8Sii0X38
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姊姊:「這一個月,你在學校上課的時候我去考駕照。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAFgefdjZH0l
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我喜悅的:「姊姊好帥!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAKnNjOU5d7A
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姊姊又一次提醒:「你絕對不可以再去參加外面那些車隊,不然這輛帥氣的摩托車就會賣給別人,知不知道?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAeiMsVfsny9
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我再問:「姊姊真的自己把這輛車騎回來?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAFjxFsFHTx9
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姊姊:「路上大家都在看,感覺有夠不好意思。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAVVuPCuUkye
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我:「因為看起來真的好帥啊!可是這輛車看起來好重,姊姊真的有辦法騎的動?」201Please respect copyright.PENANABxteq5HiYt
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姊姊:「我本來也懷疑自己會騎不動。但是實際坐上去,發現重心很穩,腳架也很容易推動,女生也能輕鬆騎動。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAblGRpisOpu
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聽到這裡,我再也忍不住。201Please respect copyright.PENANATVzoKRchYP
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直接伸手摸握把:「讓我騎一下看看就好!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAVKAYyYrDRy
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就算只有一次也好,我也要帥氣的騎著哈雷限量款機車兜風!201Please respect copyright.PENANA1VHfXDWDkL
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姊姊:「不行。沒聽到姊姊剛才說什麼嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAuTh2CaAfCc
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我:「只是在這個庭院而已,讓我騎騎看啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAMnncwJ7dqg
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姊姊:「剛才姊姊已經說過,除非你二十歲考到駕照,否則絕對不可能讓你自己騎。如果你自己偷騎,也會把它賣掉喔。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3jCjkvmKGR
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我:「可是---」201Please respect copyright.PENANAs16LjpIR0l
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姊姊溫柔微笑:「姊姊不是說了,我可以隨時載你出門。你不相信姊姊嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAopE7LrMwIY
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姊姊這樣說,才讓我稍微釋懷。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwKJL0zVRyf
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在一旁媽媽說:「讓姊姊負責載你,這樣大家才會放心。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAITGwbRIWJZ
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阿媽也說:「對啦對啦,這樣最好,不然要賣掉喔。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZWKhqu3v3P
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姊姊:「戴上這頂安全帽,上車吧。姊姊先載你在附近騎一圈。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAG6ShVSr22H
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我不再多說,開心的直接坐上後座。201Please respect copyright.PENANAXL5O3qAMmh
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姊姊:「抱緊我,比較安全。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAf68ELOyaAV
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於是我親密摟著姊姊的細腰,貼靠在姊姊的背上。201Please respect copyright.PENANADYqzk4ZfuX
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姊姊:「阿媽,媽媽,我們去外面騎一圈就回來。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA8TgeKUNT32
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媽媽:「小心一點。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAdvigy6Mkkw
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然後姊姊調轉車頭,轉動油門,載我出發。201Please respect copyright.PENANAdVpK5wI31L
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雖然時速只有安全的三四十公里,並且都是騎在附近的寬大省道。201Please respect copyright.PENANAeUNqXi9sgK
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不過可以再一次騎車兜風,我還是覺得好開心。201Please respect copyright.PENANAeCDecruKgt
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當然,路上所有人還是都看著這輛車,聽著不同凡響的三馬蹄引擎聲,真的非常引人注意。201Please respect copyright.PENANASAzsb30DK4
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就此騎著騎著,姊姊忽然說:「阿弟?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1KwIzj1UB6
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我:「什麼事?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAX66w5RcWpM
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姊姊:「現在這輛車雖然是姊姊騎,不過姊姊其實對於自己騎車沒有興趣。所以你快點長大,二十歲考重機駕照,換你載姊姊,知道嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGyFJsZQ2Yv
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我:「好。」201Please respect copyright.PENANApQ6r0Ikuke
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姊姊:「約好了喔?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAS7ef9C6tYw
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我當然說:「約好了!」201Please respect copyright.PENANA4prN4GLwTi
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然後,又是一會的安靜兜風。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQYEVYNPrBM
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換我主動開口:「姊姊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPphPJXt7dE
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姊姊:「怎麼了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAW5JmaxzjSL
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我:「那一天,我對妳說那些話,對不起……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAR0x9Qc1oIr
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姊姊:「姊姊能夠瞭解,沒有關係,你能夠平安長大,好好的成人,比什麼都重要。所以你不要再把這件事放在心上了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3HYsYz0FUe
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不過我還是開口,很想要再說點什麼。201Please respect copyright.PENANA06GiLaqFZE
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問題是,我到底還能說什麼?201Please respect copyright.PENANAE1JJ4l9X6w
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不論如何,我們家就這樣因為姊姊為我說話,買進一輛非常帥氣的哈雷機車。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfZyWrQxXIy
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由姊姊負責保管,定時騎去哈雷直屬的修車場檢查,所以保養的非常好。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHvDpFd4zB1
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我當然沒有興趣再去參加那個飆車隊,因為我已經和姊姊組成一個二人小車隊。201Please respect copyright.PENANArRZK1gZinY
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姊姊會在我的作業寫完之後穿上出遊用皮衣,帥氣的載我出門兜風。201Please respect copyright.PENANAObSAZA1I8C
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載我前往從來沒有去過的地方,騎進沒有去過的大街小巷,看看陌生的新世界。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgfZZ83Q6vf
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甚至於,有計劃和安排的準備好帳篷之類野營用品,載我去遠一點的露營區過夜,週日下午才載我回家。201Please respect copyright.PENANAA4KvwqkXyg
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整趟旅程,我們都會東聊西聊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUP2f2r6H9B
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我都是說些最近遇到的事情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAETdf1khJ5J
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姊姊都會說些以前在越南的往事,或是她的父母和二位弟弟。201Please respect copyright.PENANAeFCvdW1Mkl
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因此我對於姊姊的娘家算是有一定程度的瞭解。201Please respect copyright.PENANARo4vRt60JH
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我問過:「姊姊,妳很想念越南的家人吧?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAeqlIgT4s1h
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姊姊:「當然會想啊。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2S8WmSd9LG
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我再問:「為什麼不回家看看?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAKZzf1tLnnY
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面對這個問題,姊姊沒有回答,只是沉默。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqw7ovF3tqe
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不過我大概可以猜想到姊姊的心。201Please respect copyright.PENANACC4a3kKHFA
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姊姊一定是認為已經過來台灣黃家這麼久,加上一種難以說明白的望鄉情怯吧……201Please respect copyright.PENANAYeVnmtZobj
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所以雖然姊姊和我分房生活,不再於上下學接送我,但是因為摩托車旅行,我們的關係依然親密。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgkS2Gyrk5k
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真的讓我一再想起阿媽罵我的時候說的:『到底誰還會對你這麼好?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAu55P1uhHoU
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忙碌於工作的阿公和爸爸不可能。201Please respect copyright.PENANACRfX50ewGn
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阿媽雖然疼我,不過已經有點年紀,加上必須處理很多家事,所以同樣不可能。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8YO48nghA7
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媽媽十八歲和爸爸結婚,十九歲生下我,雖然現在才三十二歲,不過親密感沒有姊姊對我這麼好,加上必須管教我而無法對我百依百順。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjx2GRitJ71
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真的只有姊姊對我這麼好。201Please respect copyright.PENANAtGKJ0x3GFj
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因此,我再次認真思考:『姊姊對我來說,到底是什麼人?』201Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZkhLmyMhh
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姊姊當然是沒有血緣關係的外人,不是真正的姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANA7goBQIS4mk
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真的要當成姊姊看待,我們之間有十一歲這麼大的年齡差距,很詭異。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPaQ8NW9PZT
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如果要說感情,又比一般的姊弟還要親密,絕對是姊弟以上的程度。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzzO9uw0tBa
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要說我和姊姊是情侶或是夫妻……問題是,我的確是由姊姊一手拉拔長大的孩子,完全無法產生那麼親密的戀愛感情。雖然我的確不希望失去姊姊,更別說姊姊如果真的交男朋友。我對於姊姊真的具有不能有第三者出現的獨佔心理。
反觀姊姊,雖然把我照顧的不像單純的姊姊照顧弟弟,因為真的照顧的太貼心,但是看起來也不像對我有明顯的男女之愛那樣的感覺。201Please respect copyright.PENANAq1BPzMdlD4
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所以,姊姊到底是我的什麼人?201Please respect copyright.PENANAG2Prxn4G0E
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姊弟以上,戀人未滿,到底應該怎麼面對這樣的關係?201Please respect copyright.PENANAohxZ87sM3T
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一天天長大成人的我,就這樣開始越來越認真的給自己和姊姊的關係尋找新定位。201Please respect copyright.PENANA50kY6AX6og
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畢竟我已經隱隱感覺到,如果找不到答案,最後等著我的一定只有遺憾和失落……201Please respect copyright.PENANAkyMJU2Tx1L
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我們家這輛哈雷,是全世界限量二百輛的限定款。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfihAl80rjS
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網路上專門觀看影片的網站,只要輸入這輛哈雷的型號,就能找到不少相關影片。201Please respect copyright.PENANA2NEsYPP8Og
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大部分的同款車都是在歐美。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzJmVPb4V0e
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台灣這裡,只有我們家這一輛。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqt0QaQGjLj
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所以只要是和台灣有關的同款車影片,一定是我們家。201Please respect copyright.PENANABqewXdlrbZ
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不是我們拍的影片,是路上偶然遇到的識車人拍的。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwHtCUO3K8n
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他們看到我們這輛罕見哈雷出現眼前,當然立刻開始錄影。201Please respect copyright.PENANA0lYA46x9rd
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影片中的姊姊都穿著黑色緊身皮衣,載著後座的我兜風,時速都是很安全的三十多公里而已。201Please respect copyright.PENANAf78TFNGAA8
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姊姊看起來真的帥氣又迷人,根本像是摩托車界的瀟灑女英雄。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8MkhNhfoDn
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然後影片底下的留言,大都是一些車友或是愛車人,否則不會從型號找進來看影片。201Please respect copyright.PENANA5hioSX4Juw
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他們發表像這樣的言論:201Please respect copyright.PENANAVEe8bQdOBw
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「哈雷重機引擎特殊的三節拍好棒!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAUv5D0quDGc
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「這輛車多少?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAaggW5JU2PA
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「三百多萬,全球限定二百輛的特殊款,台灣應該只有這一輛。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAc1BraCj782
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「三百多萬?我要不吃不喝好幾年才買的起啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAasDIaGMbu4
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「她幾歲?買的起?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAAwsFG0ktSg
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「一定是有錢人家的大小姐。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAzuSSZWc1KF
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「是我的菜,我可以。」201Please respect copyright.PENANArODcEuEeW5
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「不管可不可以,路上遇見離遠一點,別撞上了,當心要賣腎。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAIdKYcTGnRt
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「如果是她撞我怎麼辦?可以要她用身體賠償?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAAiscWuJVxT
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「朋友在路上親眼看見過。我聽他說還不太相信,竟然真是年輕女騎士……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbTBHmBZzWl
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「她撐的住這麼大的重機?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAkkTA7QiHRR
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「後座載的是誰?弟弟還是男朋友?年齡看不出來。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAkTcBD9M3xn
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「看他抱成那樣,應該是男朋友?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0pnMBQsob8
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然後有人說:「他們的關係,你們點進去這個連結的影片看看……」201Please respect copyright.PENANABAD3Ko2xeA
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點進去連結之後,又是另一段錄影的影片。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjJcX5huac6
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我記得那段影片和那一天。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWqF1VWGLAf
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那一天姊姊載我跑遠一點,回程的時候在路邊的小七休息,買麵包飲料休息一會,忽然跑出一個三十歲左右的大哥哥。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgGASTZxrat
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那位大哥哥穿著同樣用來騎車旅行的緊身皮衣,也是騎自己的重型摩托車出門旅行,遇到我們也在小七休息,於是趁機邊錄影邊跟騎士姊姊搭話。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYXKkTDspek
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當然,大哥哥的重機只是幾十萬元的那種大眾車……201Please respect copyright.PENANAUECV2ljmmL
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大哥哥友善詢問姊姊許多這輛哈雷重機和我們的問題。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHqjVIagctf
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姊姊都是面帶微笑,落落大方面對。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgnl6TBTvYb
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如果是關於哈雷騎起來的問題,姊姊都是直接回答。201Please respect copyright.PENANAO2xd4Tjhzi
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如果是比較家庭私事,姊姊會直接表示這個問題不能回答。201Please respect copyright.PENANAaa6wwpBrI4
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在一邊安靜陪姊姊的我,看大哥哥這樣一直和姊姊裝熟說話,不由得覺得討厭起來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxWGKW8GC6Q
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這樣的討厭心情如果真的要說清楚,其實更多的是:你不要隨便一直和我的姊姊搭話啦!201Please respect copyright.PENANASSJlYXsACU
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可以說是獨佔姊姊的心情,希望其他男人滾遠一點。201Please respect copyright.PENANAoAOAGyy6j3
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所以我插話,跟姊姊說:「姊姊,回家了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAivXZZHiPzj
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之後就是我和姊姊都上車,我再次緊緊摟抱姊姊的細腰,貼在姊姊背上,讓姊姊載回家。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfHeGFKKl2T
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那位大哥哥一直拍到我們的背影和哈雷一起消失在路上為止。201Please respect copyright.PENANAoDeyIaMu0k
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大致上,這段影片就是這樣。201Please respect copyright.PENANAASNo0w9Awc
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至於底下的留言當然……201Please respect copyright.PENANAO4HLIIFzNU
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「姊姊?弟弟?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmDs0zucC5g
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「騙誰啊,臉蛋一看就不是姊弟,沒有血緣關係。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAaZAOWCEDbd
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「年齡看起來也不像姊弟,差個十歲吧,差太多。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAAo0FkTOFPv
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「所以是個貼上有錢大小姐的年輕小白臉?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAdJaMyDYL2D
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「有可能,看他抱著那麼親密……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAI1VTatqR0a
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大致上,都是一些像這樣的留言。201Please respect copyright.PENANASja4H261H7
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後座的我被說成是倒貼姊姊的年輕小白臉,我其實沒有太多負面感覺。201Please respect copyright.PENANApMJceRjdBv
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因為我自己也在想這樣的問題:『我到底是姊姊的誰?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAld2bxONKef
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至少,大家就這樣看影片,的確也都認為我和姊姊不是姊弟,而是感情很好的年輕情侶……201Please respect copyright.PENANAU1jpQMaUV9
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然後,大約是我國中快要畢業的這個晚上。201Please respect copyright.PENANAiclQTwnVdW
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我們全家一起吃晚餐,看著電視的社會新聞。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhHICP9m7gL
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新聞說到最近發生的一起老少配結婚事件。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgP65yTnIVF
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女方五十多歲,男方二十來歲,女方比男方年長近三十歲。201Please respect copyright.PENANAi70MhsoNCN
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當然,因為他們的年齡差距,所以立即吸引我的目光。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQOKDuYy22i
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接下來,新聞記者跑去詢問一位男女關係專家,詢問關於這件事的想法。201Please respect copyright.PENANA7mvXsPgPks
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那位男女專家說:『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAnxNTVjbbFF
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我沒有注意到當時的姊姊有沒有專心看這個新聞,她又是什麼樣的表情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAor3HMsej8I
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我只知道自己看完這則新聞,總會不時想著:『所以沒有愛情也沒有關係嗎?』201Please respect copyright.PENANA6XHIjYoExx
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然後,十五歲的我從國中畢業了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAm74OhBrbTY
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媽媽主動問:「畢業典禮要我們出席?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjWnh2dLXYu
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我說:「只是領畢業證書,你們不必來浪費時間。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0qpXPyr4SL
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我是真的這樣想,不想浪費大家的時間。201Please respect copyright.PENANAf9ScjPKLIh
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不過當年二十六歲的姊姊還是來學校,在校門口等我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAGIadJ6VJEM
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畢業典禮結束,我們一群畢業生被老師和學弟妹們歡送出校門,遠遠就能聽見熟悉的規律馬蹄三拍。201Please respect copyright.PENANAVAdaqfJMwz
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幾名從國小認識到現在的同學,因為他們都認識姊姊,所以已經圍著姊姊聊天。201Please respect copyright.PENANArPrPpxj9MU
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我萬分意外的跑上去:「姊姊?妳怎麼來學校?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAV2dPBNGzxF
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姊姊:「過來載你。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjWmeQj4Bp3
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我:「為什麼忽然要來載我?要去兜風?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAY1pCMjtFBb
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頗感意外,因為姊姊對於騎車的事情總是興趣缺缺,只有我主動找姊姊載我出門,沒有姊姊找我出門。201Please respect copyright.PENANAtlycnakQbZ
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由此可知姊姊對我多好,總是對於我的騎車兜風要求百求百應。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWmw9yKv7fZ
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畢竟姊姊真的可以不必這樣,就是把我丟著不管也不能怪她……201Please respect copyright.PENANAFU9v9iaSkD
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姊姊:「今天早上阿公已經回家。說要在餐廳慶祝你國中畢業,所以讓我來接你。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbmbsuRlbte
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我這才瞭解:「喔……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAQgGW2kBWgK
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所以是想要給我驚喜的慶祝聚餐吧。201Please respect copyright.PENANAq1W5rdzplc
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的確很像是疼我的阿公會做的事情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAyX8mvIug5V
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然後我簡單跟這幾名老同學道別,讓姊姊載走。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3vBjJb3I9r
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進入大餐廳的停車場之後,發現阿公個人專用的賓士已經停在裡面。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjsckbfyo4d
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和姊姊一起進入餐廳的大包廂,果然阿公、阿媽和爸爸媽媽都在。
我又一次意外:「爸爸?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAuCd8mSFYGk
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因為工作的關係,所以阿公和爸爸很少同時間回家休息。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWeVQzhwxaQ
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會像這樣一起出現,往往都是什麼大事,像是發現我去跟飆車族。201Please respect copyright.PENANA19c9FaUaT9
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所以我小抱怨起來:「不過是畢業,又不是什麼重要大事,搞的好像很重要一樣……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqP4OHuBio1
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阿公笑容滿面,告訴我和姊姊:「是要談很重要的事情。你們先坐,再來談重要的大事。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAH9JVGmibts
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我第三次意外:「真的有大事?什麼事?」201Please respect copyright.PENANANwucF1TKtQ
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阿公:「先坐。開始吃再說。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAlmAtmyYyX1
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於是我看姊姊一眼,想瞭解情況。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIlh7NEfi9u
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姊姊也一臉茫然,不清楚情況。201Please respect copyright.PENANAGPp2CQPtWt
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我只好和姊姊坐一起。201Please respect copyright.PENANA5M7cAuCzrV
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大家給自己倒綠茶飲料,然後拿起碗筷開動。201Please respect copyright.PENANAKVq5TSIgh8
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吃過幾口,阿公先說:「阿弟,你也要十六歲了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAxo2JPtgQpC
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我說:「還有二個月。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAi3twLeFcsd
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阿公:「今天大家來吃飯,也算是先慶祝你十六歲生日。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAed8VNuGx0P
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我說:「喔……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAFY0ZritwLw
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這樣我還是不瞭解算是什麼大事。201Please respect copyright.PENANA31bAgwfIIh
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阿公:「阿公和阿媽本來還有生另外四個男孩。但是他們都命不好,還是孩子就夭折,我和阿媽只剩下你的爸爸。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAsp6U6OpJdD
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我邊吃邊說:「這件事我聽媽媽說過,本來還有二個大伯和二個叔叔。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAb1zDUfZJy5
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阿公:「然後你的爸媽生下你之後,就沒有再生……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2G3a6rxLLt
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爸爸趕緊開口,明顯要為媽媽和自己辯護:「爸,我和阿素---」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbuF88UJrQI
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阿公伸手制止爸爸說下去,並且表示沒有關係。201Please respect copyright.PENANAk0mb30WeVC
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爸爸發現阿公不是要怪他們,因此索性閉嘴。201Please respect copyright.PENANAj5wfrvQRed
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阿公繼續對我說:「現在我們黃家只剩下你,你有讓黃家開枝散葉的責任。現在我們黃家缺的不是錢,缺的是興旺的人丁。知道嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAeINE4e3H6n
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我專心看著阿公。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhVKvu8ZH88
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因為我知道阿公一定想說什麼,只是我還聽不出來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAXqCfvqBb9n
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阿公:「我們黃家人一向早婚,最遲也會在二十歲結婚。早婚有早婚的好處,可以早一點把黃家傳下去,並且多生一點傳承的人丁出來。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGLuv3HKw7Y
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我稍微有點知道阿公到底想說什麼,不過還是安靜看著阿公。201Please respect copyright.PENANAnI4TFfwskC
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阿公:「不管政府怎麼規定,在我們黃家男孩十六歲就是成年,可以結婚了。當年我和你的阿媽就是十六歲成親,十七歲生下你的第一個大伯。」201Please respect copyright.PENANASkRsSsOdit
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我的心情沉重起來:「所以?」201Please respect copyright.PENANASLWqsIOfB2
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阿公沒有回答我,看向坐我身邊的姊姊,直接喊她的名字:「林花,妳來黄家已經九年了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAa28rk1lUWi
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我身邊的姊姊,表情平靜:「對。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAxdjclEr6VG
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阿公直說:「這九年來,我看妳和阿弟的感情一直很好,也為我們黃家和阿弟奉獻那麼多……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAv9iA4a8FNC
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姊姊安靜聽著:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANA28pRqnoPUb
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阿公直說:「如果阿弟是要娶其他女孩進來黄家,阿公真的會猶豫,因為需要時間觀察和瞭解對方。不過如果是妳,阿公可以放心讓妳成為黃家的媳婦。再說也只有妳才能完全管好阿弟,其他女孩就不知道會怎麼樣了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA5kj6cFP8zs
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姊姊依然沒有半句話。201Please respect copyright.PENANA1vW2zXlQo6
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我則是終於完全瞭解,為什麼今天阿公和爸爸都會在場。201Please respect copyright.PENANAsEucrUj7a6
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阿公想把我和姊姊的事情說出一個定論。201Please respect copyright.PENANAx9Dm5fV6rt
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因此我不只訝異,心情更是緊張起來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJJ8U6oKrK0
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我再次開始自問:『我和姊姊又沒有男女的愛情,真的可以嗎?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAJeNHtVmoVq
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阿公問姊姊:「我們黃家不敢說是什麼大戶人家,不過我們黃家的財力妳一定很清楚。好的時候每個月百萬百萬的在賺,差的時候也有二三十萬,不是一般家庭比的起。所以這件事妳覺得怎麼樣?妳要不要乾脆正式嫁進黃家,給黃家生孩子?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAo9Lnzx7W6S
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZjAy1xgQq8
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阿公:「女人年過三十會越來越難生,真的就是那樣。妳今年已經二十七,不年輕,不能再猶豫。接不接受真的要立刻決定。如果妳不想正式嫁入黃家,也是時候快點開始新人生,才不會耽誤到妳自己。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2SpdZxWDho
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所以阿公是想說,如果阿姐不打算正式和我結婚生子,就應該早點另外找好對象,對姊姊才是最好的選擇。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8OKzyo2GNr
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我擔心的:「阿公,你不要這樣逼姊姊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAlkqZClidCs
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阿公趁勢:「你看,這個孩子打心底擔心妳,保護妳。我們黃家有錢,還有像這樣護著你的阿弟。妳難道真的還會有什麼不滿?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAMxwxpV14xa
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姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANApIp1Jn3Q7U
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我:「阿公。不要這樣逼姊姊啦。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAegYDviajay
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阿公轉移目標向我:「那你又怎麼想?十六歲成年的你,要不要正式娶這個從小辛苦照顧你長大的姊姊?剛才阿公已經說過,黃家只剩下你,所以你越早傳承下去越好。要是再拖下去,姊姊真的不年輕了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAf1nDFUkAuu
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我:「可是結婚這種事,要彼此喜歡啊。我和姊姊就像姊姊和弟弟那樣,沒有愛情,要怎麼一起生活?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAzckHXbTYzz
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阿公:「傻孫子。你認為人們結婚之後,過的是什麼樣的生活?」201Please respect copyright.PENANApsLAhX7m6F
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我不太懂阿公到底想說什麼,所以安靜看著阿公。201Please respect copyright.PENANAaMc6PlTVXc
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阿公:「你和姊姊的關係,在阿公來看,已經和一般的老夫老妻差不多。所以阿公才會直接在今天問你們這件婚事。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAih5pl9M45r
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我:「可是我們連戀愛都沒有啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAJC5A2RuHEG
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阿公看向爸爸:「阿忠,你說,我們怎麼看這件事?」201Please respect copyright.PENANARbMsRQhNnv
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我這才知道,阿公和爸爸竟然已經議論過我和姊姊的事情。201Please respect copyright.PENANApVZmmgBlIQ
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爸爸告訴我:「阿公和爸爸都覺得,你和姊姊已經跳過戀愛那個階段。所以爸爸也覺得,今天是應該讓阿公問你和姊姊的事。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA5AZ5IJUtGO
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我真是深感不解:「跳過?想要結婚怎麼可以跳過戀愛?沒有戀愛就結婚,那樣不是會有很多問題?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAinPhr5YBQQ
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爸爸解釋:「爸爸知道你年輕,所以無法立刻聽懂。戀愛從來不是為了保障婚姻一切順利。戀愛只是其中一條走向婚姻的道路。婚姻會不會有問題,從來都是看有沒有辦法長時間認真對待對方,願意和對方長時間在一起。而你和姊姊的相處,看起來完全沒有問題。所以你們如果正式結婚,不過是把名義上的姊弟轉變成為具有實際關係的夫妻。這樣你懂嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAjKEd5GESZB
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阿公也說:「接著阿公要說的話,是因為阿公已經把你當十六歲的大人看待才會說。一定要戀愛才能結婚那種事,是涉世未深的孩子才會說。真正出過社會的大人都是看對眼就好,沒有那麼多什麼戀不戀愛的。這樣你懂嗎?所以阿公看你和姊姊的相處絕對可以,不會有問題,才會在今天直接提出這件事。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAvwI33NsV5s
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爸爸繼續補充說下去:「再說,先結婚再戀愛的例子,爸爸也算見過不少。所以你們二個怎麼想這件事?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA4K1IWdRW66
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我說不出半句話:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZAtEZbenDG
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因為他們這樣說,讓我忽然間懂了些什麼。201Please respect copyright.PENANARGxl8ctxtf
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讓我受到一定程度的震撼。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQejyJJ3WPT
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並且開始瞭解,那晚看電視新聞,為什麼男女關係專家會說:『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAxKAI4vWDle
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姊姊安靜和我一樣:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAihsX3zIlCi
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換阿公問姊姊:「林花,比起阿弟,妳絕對是個更懂世事的大人。剛才我們告訴阿弟的這些話,妳覺得有沒有說錯?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAvEfsSaToOj
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姊姊對於那些看法的回答,真的可以相當程度看出姊姊的心思。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkh6X3vzkIY
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因此阿公絕對是故意問姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANA56TIvJaRx0
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姊姊沉默:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAYT3wfJuFHF
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阿公:「林花,妳放心的說。妳也已經跟著黃家奉獻九年。不論怎樣的答案,我們都絕對不會虧待妳。否則就是黃家無情,對不起妳。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPGLEWzqgTC
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阿公一定是想說:就算姊姊不答應這場婚事,最後因為尷尬想要離開黃家,也一定會給姊姊一大筆補償的錢。201Please respect copyright.PENANAGKfgr607cU
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姊姊終於說:「我覺得---」201Please respect copyright.PENANADUDzD5NLqY
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說到這裡,姊姊欲言又止,安靜打住。201Please respect copyright.PENANAx1TvtSTtoh
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大家都安靜看著姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8aGcNfF3mQ
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尤其是我,心臟碰碰跳到自己都能聽見……201Please respect copyright.PENANACzycqA6hWM
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姊姊幾秒的沉默:「對於阿弟,我真的年紀太大。還是年紀相近的女孩才是阿弟的好對象。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA6RdAWdMSAE
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大家沉默。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6mBsq8DjJD
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我更是如遭重擊,因為姊姊拒絕了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmZIQSxDTnO
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果然,我們終究只是姊姊和弟弟。201Please respect copyright.PENANACGiJQi5lUl
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所以姊姊為了避免尷尬,應該不久之後就會離開黃家,和其他男人在一起?201Please respect copyright.PENANAomss4mcBPf
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阿公開口,語氣平淡,微帶遲疑:「是這樣啊?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAsgMY7BaLg5
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然後,阿公拿起自己的茶杯,喝口茶。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmlv8vZv49d
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姊姊繼續說下去:「再說,阿弟剛才已經表示他並不喜歡我。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA7KL1hSeslN
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沒有錯,我的確已經透過自己的疑問,表示自己對於姊姊沒有愛情存在。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwcLdwizufp
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不過母子連心,媽媽一定有體會到我的心情:「阿弟,快把你的真正心意告訴大家。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAeEheY42idh
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我還在姊姊拒絕婚事的不知所措中:「我……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAyWC49DjkAM
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媽媽:「如果你喜歡姊姊,直接說出來,不然姊姊真的會離開喔。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1LF75BQRpL
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我不希望姊姊離開:「我喜歡姊姊!當然我喜歡啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAy5H8cSQowp
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媽媽:「你願意跟姊姊結婚?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAxuz3Kjiabr
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我:「我……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAuj5BpOK7bJ
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媽媽:「不願意?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAON9co2L9eT
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瞬間,我幾乎想問:『不可以讓姊姊繼續留在家裡?』201Please respect copyright.PENANA94q1sabAyO
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但是我又想到,這樣問不就表示我要拒絕婚事?201Please respect copyright.PENANAtsu3PQSKG4
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並且繼續把姊姊綁在家裡,限制她的人生和幸福?201Please respect copyright.PENANA4jEP8uRycd
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這樣的我,難道不是很自私?201Please respect copyright.PENANApWpmgDFV2a
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再說,如果姊姊住在黃家,卻又另外交起男朋友,我能接受那樣的情況嗎?201Please respect copyright.PENANAdL0hvJeXj8
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所以我說:「我不知道……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAN4yxoeVTBw
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爸爸問:「你怎麼會不知道?你是想要拒絕這件事,還是你真的不知道?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAW82lmg46Ay
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我:「我真的不知道。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqa8QxGg6os
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爸爸問出真正的重點:「你不需要管那些戀愛什麼的。你只需要說出來,你願不願意和姊姊結婚?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAz7wmYdEZlL
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAnJUxunkaSz
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爸爸:「不願意?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA8xHKZYelYV
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媽媽:「如果你願意和姊姊結婚,這是唯一的好機會。因為媽媽整天看著你和姊姊的相處,知道只有你能留下姊姊。」201Please respect copyright.PENANADYkVLqsa6z
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我被問急,乾脆直說:「剛才姊姊說的,你們是沒有聽到嗎!讓姊姊勉強留下來,到底是有什麼意義啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAy17492hwZw
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媽媽:「所以如果姊姊其實願意這件事,你就也願意和姊姊正式結婚?」201Please respect copyright.PENANANpn5Smw4jo
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我:「姊姊都拒絕了啊!一直問到底是有什麼意義!」201Please respect copyright.PENANABSbkQvVXPK
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媽媽:「可是媽媽看你們,總覺得是誤會……」201Please respect copyright.PENANApZebeTfAPm
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我被媽媽這些話給說愣好幾秒。201Please respect copyright.PENANACaeMsdr40v
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如果姊姊其實是願意,我願意嗎?201Please respect copyright.PENANAF72zDnXgeW
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但是,可能嗎?201Please respect copyright.PENANApawyyLYBIr
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剛才姊姊不是已經拒絕我?201Please respect copyright.PENANAor7wVIkmBs
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尤其是,阿公竟然也說:「我也覺得剛才我是問錯方向了……」201Please respect copyright.PENANApORLuhC5Zw
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcqZyOkN06t
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媽媽轉而問姊姊:「我雖然是阿弟的親生母親,不過我終究只大妳八歲,這九年來我一直把妳當成妹妹,相信妳一定知道。雖然剛才聽妳那樣說,不過我覺得自己沒有聽到妳真正的內心話。妳真正的心意到底是什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAwTYUTsZoz3
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姊姊安靜:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANARppnPGbo1n
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媽媽:「大家日夜生活九年,真的就像無話不說的家人一樣。所以請妳任何話都直接說沒有關係。如果妳真的沒有那個意思,也請妳不要拐彎抹角,直接說。至少大家不會有誤會,阿弟也不會一直有遺憾和猜想。因為阿弟剛才說的那些,絕對知道感情無法勉強。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAgnlNyPVLNJ
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姊姊:「其實我……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAh87ThYQmHt
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媽媽:「是的?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0DJQu9HVd
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姊姊慢慢低下頭:「我剛才那樣說,因為我以為阿弟對我沒有愛情,沒有辦法接受我……如果阿弟真的沒有辦法接受我,我能夠瞭解,絕對沒有關係,有必要的話我可以離開黃家。剛才我是想說那些。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAxHcKkxyRNG
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媽媽:「所以的確是誤會了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGgcUwQguaP
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姊姊:「九年來,我真的已經覺得自己是黃家人,而不是我出生的林家人了……」201Please respect copyright.PENANApEhibpQFSN
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媽媽催促:「繼續把妳的心意說下去。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPNnsvBhLgK
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姊姊靦腆說著:「這件事情,我其實都看黃家的意思……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAHGwv7YkJWw
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持續幾秒的安靜。201Please respect copyright.PENANALOfrYcEnfA
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對我來說,姊姊根本是在說:『正式娶我,讓我成為真正的黃家媳婦吧。』201Please respect copyright.PENANAH6XFqo2yEP
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我吃驚又意外的完全不知道該說什麼。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjj7smdjow6
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媽媽喜悅打破沉默:「阿弟!媽媽就知道,果然是誤會!快點!跟姊姊說,你想要跟姊姊正式結婚啊!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAkQJM1k4arQ
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我難以置信的,轉頭看著身邊低頭的姊姊:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANA8UsS8IFnGg
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媽媽:「快點跟姊姊說,你想跟姊姊結婚!」201Please respect copyright.PENANApa78AVj1bJ
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我終於開口:「姊姊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9FRTJWAU1k
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姊姊依然靦腆低頭:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAti7ooj5yXt
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我:「妳真的不會勉強和我結婚?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAaaBtut3PMJ
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姊姊微微向我轉頭:「你才不會勉強正式娶姊姊吧?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAzx1TSKWYXf
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我趕緊說:「我是不會!但是!但是……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbkdPBuECUw
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媽媽趕緊代姊姊詢問:「但是?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3At3zJ5kwO
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我:「我比姊姊還要小十一歲,現在也才這麼小,才要十六歲,姊姊真的不會討厭和我正式結婚?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAeuPZ50dkFS
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姊姊終於完全轉過頭,正面看著我,靦腆微笑:「我已經習慣整天看著像個孩子需要照顧的你。所以你比起擔心姊姊,不如先擔心自己更像個孩子,都這麼大了竟然還需要姊姊一直看著照顧。你先擔心自己什麼時候才會完全長大吧。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAEYAcdHf0Bl
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我難掩喜悅和感動:「姊姊……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAEjjj3RsQra
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姊姊繼續說:「再說姊姊早就已經把我的所有青春歲月奉獻給了你,奉獻給了你們黃家……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAd9UYbiZ5xs
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3kbgeegnaP
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姊姊:「所以姊姊更擔心的是,你真的願意和姊姊結婚?就算沒有和姊姊談過戀愛?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAkynZN3wJ6l
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爸爸在我回答之前,趕緊告訴我:「你不要想那麼多了,先把姊姊留住比較重要!真的也有不少人先結婚再戀愛,知道嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAFASdQXzX34
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我當然說:「我願意!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqvnRooC2As
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話都說到這裡,關於戀愛結婚的事情我決定先聽爸爸的話,暫時不管它了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMsarWIsLTI
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畢竟不論怎麼說,姊姊自己也願意和我正式在一起,然後姊姊都不會再離開我的身邊!201Please respect copyright.PENANAKFLohZrm47
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所以我還需要懷疑什麼?201Please respect copyright.PENANAcyNcOYslQX
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姊姊:「以後你還是要乖乖聽姊姊的話,有沒有聽到?不然姊姊會生氣。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAu3imYsiA8F
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我說:「好!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZpde23kpuK
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姊姊:「一定要繼續聽話喔?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmzKdPzqxBK
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我說:「我一定會聽話!」201Please respect copyright.PENANATCu6IQ1QXo
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阿公知道真的說成這件事,笑到合不攏嘴,用台語說:「我就知道這件事一定說的成!聽某嘴,大富貴!我們黃家準備大富大貴啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAUf0wWFojxN
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阿媽雖然同樣喜悅,但還是趁機取笑阿公:「我說的話,你就有聽啊?難怪你只能賺那麼一點!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAAsyHPra4pq
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阿公:「阿忠!快!讓餐廳送幾瓶好酒來!今天真的大喜,一定要好好慶祝一下!哈哈哈哈------」201Please respect copyright.PENANAO9f5lQS8md
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大家都為我和姊姊開心不已。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkIIvEVT1eJ
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我和姊姊彼此尷尬難為情好一會,沒有交談,不過還是自然的迅速要好起來,像以前那樣親密的無話不談。201Please respect copyright.PENANAS71Wag1m21
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甚至於,感覺自己跟姊姊好像真的更加親密了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAu8fmeisy6Y
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所以過去幾年最困擾我的問題:『我和姊姊沒有經歷過愛情,如果真的要在一起,我應該怎麼面對姊姊?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAL9YyDvfkjY
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現在我已經完全知道應該怎麼面對。201Please respect copyright.PENANADnDh47taBr
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答案正是:『根本沒有必要去煩惱這個問題。』201Please respect copyright.PENANAgxvteSNJs4
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我和姊姊的親密感情,不會改變。201Please respect copyright.PENANAN0xdzkz6Jm
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我們九年來的感情,的確已經是跨越戀愛的家族親情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPGAyHgdJ0r
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阿公他們做的,真的不過是讓我們完全湊在一起。201Please respect copyright.PENANA5Z1snhb8NF
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就這樣,我和姊姊終於決定正式成親了……201Please respect copyright.PENANAvzxNUzEw90
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因為七歲的時候我和姊姊已經舉行過正式婚禮,所以在我十六歲生日那天家裡簡單準備三牲五果,讓我和姊姊一起祭拜黃家祖先,告訴祖先我已經成年,現在要和姊姊真正成親。201Please respect copyright.PENANASliFL88Xqw
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阿公想要早點抱到黃家下一代大孫,加上擔心姊姊再拖下去會成為年過三十的高齡產婦,所以一直明示暗喻的希望我和姊姊快點完成好事。201Please respect copyright.PENANACcpJZUk1kn
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就在我入讀高中的前一天,正好是月底發下個月零用錢的時候。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmF16HhFWGd
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掌管全家金錢的阿公回家休息,順便把我和姊姊叫到客廳。201Please respect copyright.PENANABEwilbqhhT
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阿公先是對姊姊說:「今天開始,家裡不會給妳每個月五千元的零用錢。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAr9wwI7jCg2
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姊姊安靜聽著,沒有一句話。201Please respect copyright.PENANAFLaRzQAker
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我意外:「不給姊姊零用錢?為什麼?姊姊有做錯什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPStQf336tz
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阿公從胸前口袋拿出二張名片般的塑膠卡片:「來,這個給你們夫妻。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1NyWW1IyTC
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我和姊姊安靜接過,都是一樣的信用卡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjLUPkYhZLh
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阿公:「那二張卡是同帳戶的對卡,每個月最多可以刷二萬元,也可以提領小額現金出來。你們省著點用,學會節儉才是真正的持家之本。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAdzDvH8Deji
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我這才知道,姊姊不是做錯事,是因為我們的夫妻身份一起升級了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlTYPAPPfoU
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並且阿公可以透過每個月寄來的刷卡帳單,瞭解我們的支出詳細,必要時對我們進行相關詢問。201Please respect copyright.PENANABJmE8ONZoS
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姊姊:「謝謝阿公。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGuCJ9O3mSi
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我也說:「謝謝阿公。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPZamapxDP0
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接著阿公拿起茶杯,順便無聲示意要我們繼續留下,所以我和姊姊只能乖乖坐著等待。201Please respect copyright.PENANArfXvAA4P1g
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阿公喝口茶,開口詢問:「你們到底是怎麼回事?都正式拜過祖先,卻還是一直分房睡?」201Please respect copyright.PENANANtdNxuC2jR
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我趕緊說:「沒有啦。只是覺得暫時這樣比較好。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGwEAIGTv9S
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阿公:「那一天阿公已經和你說的很清楚,姊姊已經這個歲數。另外我們黃家缺的不是錢,缺的是興旺起來的人丁。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGruBa4lQsb
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我:「我知道。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGCpx1jKgyx
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阿公當著姊姊的面,直接問我:「那件事你會覺得不好意思是不是?」201Please respect copyright.PENANALAbWKizd4p
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我趕緊說:「因為我才這個年紀,才要讀高中,真的覺得生孩子這件事---」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmrLHkOnV87
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阿公冷冰冰的一段話頂來:「孩子是會讓你負責帶?你在學校不說又會有誰知道?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXXydweRCdd
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畢竟是在鄰鎮,也都是些不認識的外地同學……201Please respect copyright.PENANAWzPeBbNauL
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再說,孩子必定是會由阿媽、媽媽和姊姊養育,就像小時候的我一樣。201Please respect copyright.PENANATQ127EhZGU
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我無話可答:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAJSB1hoQE6K
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阿公:「明年你十七歲。阿公十七歲的時候,生下已經無緣孝順我和阿媽的大伯。你要給阿公拖到幾歲?再說,你和姊姊像這樣獨睡,男人不男人,女人不女人,陰陽怪氣的不健康,真的好嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAYJCTdlsv4w
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0sBHL9oXTp
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阿公:「這件事,你到底想要怎麼回答阿公?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAnSrJYqa7HO
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以前阿公疼我,所以都是溫溫和和。201Please respect copyright.PENANAaMJo9iu8K3
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現在,我真的感覺到來自阿公的魄力和壓力。201Please respect copyright.PENANAtdFZum5o8B
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我深深體會,這件事不給阿公交待,阿公絕對不會放過我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgal7SnrQrp
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相信爸爸和媽媽一定也有承受過這樣的壓力。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmXSDm5nxrk
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不過我和姊姊還是沒有進一步發展,依然維持以前的分房生活。201Please respect copyright.PENANAal5hzNTeKR
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主要是我知道自己還只是高中生,加上心情沒有整理好……201Please respect copyright.PENANAV3hJTgfikR
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我和姊姊就這樣繼續一天拖過一天,過著『有名無實的夫妻生活』。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWJSsZUu1DB
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阿公也『有嘴說到沒口水』,只能唉聲不斷……201Please respect copyright.PENANAXOgwfWq2r3
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事情再次出現變化,是在我讀高中二年級那一年,十七歲的聖誕夜。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUXyLoEcX3r
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姊姊騎車載我進行長途旅行,從南部老家前往台北市參加聖誕夜晚會。201Please respect copyright.PENANAueWGBovBpR
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熱鬧的聖誕晚會結束之後,又前往入住的國際級大飯店,參加飯店收費舉辦的跨夜晚會。201Please respect copyright.PENANANzvXGM2Ii1
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非常熱鬧,很多人都聚在一起唱歌、跳舞、吃大餐。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8Cn3Vfs0j6
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甚至有熱情的情侶當場擁抱熱吻。201Please respect copyright.PENANAddGl0WNKmF
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我和姊姊也在人群中和大家一起開心。201Please respect copyright.PENANAx9AmjYHMhx
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因為飯店有提供一種雞尾酒,喝起來又甜又清爽,很接近摻糖的乳酸菌飲料口感,一點都不像是酒類。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlQAVHZ7Cv4
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我和姊姊開心的一起喝多。201Please respect copyright.PENANAKhTAOQd6wH
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然後就……你懂……201Please respect copyright.PENANABTItQ8egQ0
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我和姊姊都只有一點點記憶,不記得是怎麼開始,只記得是一個充滿溫暖笑聲的愉快自然夜晚。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOboXP9QisO
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大量酒精真的徹底解放我們的心。201Please respect copyright.PENANAa6DA8iygsN
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隔天中午,我們在姊姊的房間清醒,當時你說有多尷尬就多尷尬,完全不知道要跟對方說什麼。201Please respect copyright.PENANApOrYveKIzZ
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一直到整理好行李退房,騎著哈雷回程南下,我照樣摟著姊姊的細腰,我們才又開始談話。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPU1SqyIePj
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迅速恢復以前的親密感。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6eTOi40qf
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甚至於感覺更加的親密。201Please respect copyright.PENANAfWLoWFWrrN
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我們都沒有問:怎麼辦?201Please respect copyright.PENANALtGqI4QVuQ
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姊姊和我都知道,正式拜過祖先報告了,真的也不需要怎麼辦。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPI48600X25
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就這樣自自然然的一起面對這件事吧。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8qfWgsM0EO
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不過回家之後,我們還是什麼都沒有跟家人說。201Please respect copyright.PENANAf8IpviHn6m
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畢竟覺得這樣的私事,加上是意外,不需要特意去說。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmZYsZhSruB
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我和姊姊繼續分房,恢復以往那樣的生活,像是什麼都沒有發生過。201Please respect copyright.PENANAecsaUOr9jV
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直到一個多月後的農曆除夕,全家六人一起圍爐吃團夜飯。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0ZxD3e2kq
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大圓桌上面各式菜色都有,非常豐盛。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOLs35AfaFT
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大家開動之後,阿公拿出一瓶高級洋酒,開瓶給大家倒一杯。201Please respect copyright.PENANAj5CkPGvmfq
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阿公說:「大家喝杯迎春酒。」201Please respect copyright.PENANANGAt0EpKKG
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姊姊忽然說:「我不能喝酒。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcMOZKl80Ip
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媽媽一向把姊姊當妹妹對待,關心詢問:「腸胃不舒服?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAH408V2pUHF
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姊姊沉默幾秒,才尷尬說出:「我有了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAaalz0Ztaqb
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大家:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAgFUs4rrvbG
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我相信,大家一定都聽出來姊姊說的是什麼。201Please respect copyright.PENANAbTE3OjJvH4
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我受到的震撼更是深。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIKIjGIc1ek
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我一直在心中問:『聖誕夜那一晚?姊姊真的有了?』201Please respect copyright.PENANAXl5pAf1Jnb
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畢竟我和姊姊也只有那一晚。201Please respect copyright.PENANAt1my4Aspbd
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媽媽緊張的進行最後確認:「妳有了什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAllttDuc4Cc
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姊姊:「孩子。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAcOLBy5JKlQ
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媽媽:「真的有了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAPRiMTOxU4I
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姊姊:「嗯……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAZzqGS3pf7U
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阿公認真直問:「誰的?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA1KHvt1VP59
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我可以瞭解阿公為什麼這樣追問。201Please respect copyright.PENANATGvp4adirH
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因為我和姊姊跟以前的相處都一樣,沒有變化。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqAtl6nVG2q
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如果我是阿公,一定也會半信半疑的追問確認,避免誤會……201Please respect copyright.PENANAaF7XdHyKPs
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姊姊安靜幾秒,露出尷尬笑容:「去問你的寶貝孫子。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAv8j5jyhqkL
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阿媽驚喜的:「唉呀------」201Please respect copyright.PENANACSMQ6hpAAZ
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阿公等待這天一年以上,同樣喜悅的:「哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈---」201Please respect copyright.PENANA2f8wpnSLbG
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爸爸直接伸手,開心萬分的在我頭上亂抓:「臭小子!看看你!真的讓爸爸我當阿公啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANATFESNZoaZ6
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媽媽則是出於好奇,一邊喜悅一邊問:「怎麼回事?看你們平時在家裡都一樣啊?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0IMfJUmchr
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爸爸笑著說:「你管他們夫妻那麼多?是妳的金孫就好啦!」201Please respect copyright.PENANAyY1MP9Hv3l
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我讓二十八歲的姊姊懷孕,家裡肯定沒有人料想的到這麼快。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMk8kNFIbwc
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阿公感動萬分:「這麼說,今年的團圓飯,我們黄家已經是七人同桌?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAKzwOXoCoMY
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阿媽心花怒放:「明年團圓飯就能見到大金孫的面。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAX08GCycYRN
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阿公:「快!把她那杯酒拿掉,換果汁!今晚大家好好的喝一杯!黃家真的要開始人丁興旺啦!乾杯---」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGnupqciFul
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所有人都拿起自己的杯:「乾杯---」201Please respect copyright.PENANAoOB8dibVvU
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今年的團圓飯充滿熱鬧歡笑聲。201Please respect copyright.PENANA6dBbCa3noy
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他們都萬分期待姊姊的生產。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgEZKjevzlF
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二十八歲的姊姊頓時取代我,成為家裡最受寵的人。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJZ6yELJsRv
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大家怕姊姊餓到,怕姊姊累到,怕姊姊生病,怕姊姊受傷,絕對不讓姊姊做事。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIYYNiXNQqB
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給姊姊吃的補品和山珍海味更是不必說,想吃什麼有什麼,多貴都會買回來。201Please respect copyright.PENANAIMgKXUE2ko
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至於我,依然和姊姊同樣分房睡,沒有因為姊姊懷孕而同房。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxL4El1om1w
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並且一天天看著姊姊的肚子變大,心情複雜的唯有死心接受事實。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZXig9qh4us
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就算我有意拖著,最後還是讓姊姊大肚子。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMLj2gcMDzh
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我真的只能說,早婚早生果然是黃家男性的命運……201Please respect copyright.PENANAikfzCUWe27
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升上高三之後,姊姊順利給黃家生下一個健康的白胖男孩,黃家的下一代繼承人。201Please respect copyright.PENANAdX1u5Bg4Su
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十八歲的我成為一個嬰兒的爸爸,照阿公的意思把黃家傳承下去,我的高中同學都不知道這件事。201Please respect copyright.PENANANzFU245hE8
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我和姊姊真的只有聖誕夜一起意外睡過那麼一次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmWoqprbDAQ
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卻讓我們一起踏上人生下一個階段,成為一個孩子的父母。201Please respect copyright.PENANAmq4NRcrpX5
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醫院私人病房內,我抱著自己和姊姊的長子,真是完全不知道應該用什麼樣的心情面對。201Please respect copyright.PENANAklXWQT5GqE
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反觀其他人,抱著這個黃家下一代都是高興萬分。201Please respect copyright.PENANASoIko36Gks
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升格當阿祖的阿公,更是抱著黃家大金孫盡力疼愛,開心到合不攏嘴。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgLm7SCnc48
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黃家最受寵的人,自然又從姊姊變成我們的孩子。201Please respect copyright.PENANAItD4r3GMDc
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把孩子從醫院抱回家,黄家開始日夜可以聽到嬰兒哭聲。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwYVLP8dbGa
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阿媽、媽媽和姊姊輪流照顧。201Please respect copyright.PENANAgUFveHKFKc
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房間的我,半夜睡覺更是被客廳傳來的啼哭聲吵醒好幾次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhbzhcl6gXP
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我雖然聽的煩,還是心想:『反正不是我在帶孩子,就這樣吧……』201Please respect copyright.PENANAzByvwQ2Hik
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姊姊就此一邊照顧我們的孩子,一邊陪伴我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAnp0fYfeIGz
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對姊姊來說,肯定像是有大小二個孩子需要看著……201Please respect copyright.PENANAgn0oAOqEvP
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隔年六月,我從高中畢業。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhMMZh9EwWV
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雖然我有報考大學,但是我對於是否就讀大學有疑問。201Please respect copyright.PENANAWInxt0XXoB
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另外,也是因為我覺得自己和姊姊的關係『該是時候了』。201Please respect copyright.PENANANzjyjwF4gd
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於是我把姊姊約出門兜風,表示有事想要和姊姊好好談談。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxO21eNvWTD
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黃家的大前院,阿媽和媽媽抱著大金孫,目送我們騎哈雷出門。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQCErA2ijEm
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姊姊邊騎哈雷邊問我:「你想找姊姊說什麼?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAauypysfkdb
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我說:「妳覺得我不去讀大學好嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA8Vl2m6OhDN
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姊姊:「你不想讀大學?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAW3UbBjgGok
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我:「我想跟阿公和爸爸一起出去工作。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAKV9lT1vyc1
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姊姊:「為什麼?你不是報考了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA58vNwkefHf
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我:「首先是我對於讀大學沒有什麼興趣。而且他們都沒有強迫我讀大學,讓我想讀就去讀。再來是因為我看著姊姊妳照顧小孩,越來越覺得自己應該跟著阿公爸爸去家裡的公司工作。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAscVXFjOFT1
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姊姊:「和他們說了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAMCs8mus21r
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我:「還沒。」201Please respect copyright.PENANA9WTBwN3T0W
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姊姊:「你沒有勉強自己工作吧?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAr1cxjXZNl2
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我:「沒有。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAq3s21H2Yvi
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幾秒的沉默。201Please respect copyright.PENANAeyj4nn3V44
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姊姊終於說:「孩子的爸爸,加油喔。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAd8Yr9O97Yr
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我:「…………」201Please respect copyright.PENANAfODAfjb6P1
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姊姊:「怎麼了?還有什麼事想要說?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA0UgZ6tDV8P
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我安靜的,確定路上幾乎沒有人車,開始大起膽子移動雙手。201Please respect copyright.PENANAtTrQZwPjA1
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摟著姊姊細腰的雙手開始向上方移動,摸著姊姊豐滿的胸部。201Please respect copyright.PENANAH9v0A7MqFd
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真的好豐滿……201Please respect copyright.PENANAnYridRkSUJ
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聖誕夜怎麼樣,我不記得了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvxgCzZU9eC
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不過從小到大除非不小心碰到,否則我都沒有碰過姊姊的胸部。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZlCySCfJzJ
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姊姊安靜幾秒:「你的手?」201Please respect copyright.PENANALSJrc96zKM
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我怕被罵,有點緊張:「姊姊,我在想,我都已經高中畢業,快要十九歲,也要去工作了……我們像以前那樣恢復同房好不好?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAk4hqLs5nWH
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姊姊沉默的把哈雷騎進路邊的無人小巷,停在路邊,一定是避免被人看見我摸胸部。201Please respect copyright.PENANAnXzBDHPKrk
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我緊張不安:「姊姊,妳不願意嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA66xHwwV3Ta
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姊姊看出我很緊張:「都生下你的孩子了,你還在擔心什麼?只是孩子還是會在半夜哭吵,我會需要常常半夜出入,到時候一定會吵到你睡覺。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAehwCKyaboP
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我:「喔……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA5rwvXkBemx
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姊姊再問:「另外,你的手……你是在跟姊姊求愛?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAlyKgh0XUJN
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我終究是個年輕男性,當然會有慾望,會對那件事充滿興趣。201Please respect copyright.PENANAhKRrh68WrO
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一年多以前的聖誕夜,意外和姊姊發生關係,我就開始一直想著這件事:『反正都跟姊姊發生關係了……』201Please respect copyright.PENANAgCVGE9wz6L
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簡單說:我想要再跟姊姊上床一次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAcC1rHQ0Frq
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一直沒有再行動,的確因為覺得還是高中生,又害怕姊姊會反對抗拒,所以猶豫再三。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8ODIN4xgo
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然後,姊姊忽然在團圓飯宣告懷孕,讓我只能完全打消念頭,不敢碰姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAQjU6t0942D
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不過現在,孩子已經出生,高中畢業,也要出社會工作了……201Please respect copyright.PENANAOHpmkPKb4F
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所以我緊張的用這種方式告訴姊姊:「反正我們都有孩子了?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAGLFYP4kqnz
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姊姊大方的說:「姊姊已經知道,放開手,衣服被妳弄濕了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXU136oB9Vo
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我:「衣服弄濕?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAg9bPBTX1rH
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姊姊:「忘記姊姊一直在給你的孩子餵母乳?你這樣抓,皮衣裡面的胸衣已經濕掉,感覺到涼涼的。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAXmF4ZAa6nM
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我趕緊放手:「啊,對不起……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAlujV1L8Qwn
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姊姊:「找間汽車旅館清洗吧。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAqmuQw1eTTF
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聽到姊姊這樣說,我鬆口大氣。201Please respect copyright.PENANAV6xrFvcTFA
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因為不可能單純去汽車旅館。201Please respect copyright.PENANA3ryh2o1JRh
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姊姊明確的給綠燈。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4yyIVMnrZ
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不愧是二十九歲的成年人,很大方的面對。201Please respect copyright.PENANAN5SQrBmBWt
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也一定有想過我像這樣正式求愛的情況,才能反應的這麼迅速自然。201Please respect copyright.PENANAlzxOwFXaGI
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於是我像以前那樣重新摟著姊姊的腰。201Please respect copyright.PENANAyPan54njYy
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姊姊把哈雷騎回大路,載著我繼續走。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMvjUzdXpd0
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又是一會的安靜。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOqISnToiSU
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姊姊忍不住嘻笑起來:「明明都已經是一個孩子的爸爸,卻還像個害羞的男孩呢,呵呵……」201Please respect copyright.PENANABRETo0IXHd
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我只能說:「我會盡快長大啦。」201Please respect copyright.PENANACGKUGpny3l
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哈雷就此騎進路邊遇到的第一間汽車旅館。201Please respect copyright.PENANAkkx0okDVlD
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正式拜過祖先的我們,一起開房間了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAcneSTYnzVG
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明明身上帶有足夠現金,姊姊卻特意用阿公給的信用卡刷卡租房間。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwofBYLcEDh
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哈雷停進一樓車庫,我和姊姊一起上二樓。201Please respect copyright.PENANAKzEtACKTQH
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姊姊先去坐到電話旁邊,撥電話回家。201Please respect copyright.PENANAqtkKxtOQMX
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姊姊:「阿媽?我和阿弟正在一間叫做春田的汽車旅館,今天可能會晚點才回去……我知道夜路危險。如果太晚,我們明天再回去……孩子要拜託妳和媽媽照顧了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAICFXmuFlDp
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當時我看著姊姊電話回家,光明正大的跟阿媽報告正在汽車旅館,真的很訝異,不瞭解姊姊為什麼要通知家裡。201Please respect copyright.PENANAK5lsKSxL2Q
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之後我慢慢想,才想懂姊姊的用意。201Please respect copyright.PENANA5Oba7NjEaq
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信用卡的帳單寄回給阿公,就會從刷卡明細知道我們去汽車旅館,避免阿公又追問起生孩子的事情。201Please respect copyright.PENANAxQFYixXMIC
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電話回家連絡阿媽和媽媽,是類似的道理。201Please respect copyright.PENANAcGipJ50yTu
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他們所有人就會明確的知道我和姊姊關係再次不同。201Please respect copyright.PENANAm2mHY7bdF1
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這樣就算我和姊姊再次同房,或是比較親密的舉動,他們也不會太意外。201Please respect copyright.PENANAZICSnpKnHC
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所以二十九歲的姊姊真的是個成熟女性,知道怎麼好好的處理這些家務事。201Please respect copyright.PENANA00RB897e8z
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那麼十八歲的我呢?什麼時候才會完全長大成熟?201Please respect copyright.PENANAWPTOAPUmeS
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不論如何,害羞的我和大大方方的姊姊、就在這間旅館度過生命中的第二次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAUTEfs47PqO
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並且是完全清醒、沒有酒精作用的第二次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAc91MHa5dZO
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在親密的笑聲中彼此試探摸索完成的第二次。201Please respect copyright.PENANAPRjVSW7jCI
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我和姊姊就從這一天開始,成為真正擁有親密性生活的夫妻。201Please respect copyright.PENANAn3Td8APESj
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我們之間,不再有任何心理障礙和隔閡了……201Please respect copyright.PENANAJH5K6yiZjA
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我果斷放棄大學。201Please respect copyright.PENANAvPY4q8xM9i
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正式出社會跟著阿公,讓阿公教我做生意的道理和訣竅。201Please respect copyright.PENANAicd0aTRoUY
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平均四天回家休息二天,和守在家裡的姊姊團聚。201Please respect copyright.PENANApFKr9RvWyV
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男人在外工作打拼,女人守在家裡照顧孩子,如此生活的確是我們黃家的寫照。201Please respect copyright.PENANARsJbMzjpjF
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只是,就算是家裡可以關上門的房間,和姊姊親熱我還是會覺得尷尬。201Please respect copyright.PENANAucuRPH01Tl
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畢竟阿媽、媽媽總是在家裡,她們多少一定會察覺。201Please respect copyright.PENANAJDfrwytujW
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所以只要我說:「姊姊,我們騎車出門兜風?」一定會順便去汽車旅館刷信用卡報到。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjxoNTFTcEb
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因此有我定時播種,姊姊很快又有了。201Please respect copyright.PENANAic6q2HwtlE
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我二十歲那年,姊姊再次生下我們的第二個孩子,也是黃家的第二個大金孫。201Please respect copyright.PENANA21VqYt9PKX
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我成為二個男孩的爸爸。201Please respect copyright.PENANAOyu38f0hOu
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阿公真是太滿意這樣的情況。201Please respect copyright.PENANAGacAyKkhfb
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二個寶貝大金孫左擁右抱:「黃家的未來都靠你們這對寶貝兄弟了!」201Please respect copyright.PENANATfV2oJMsoS
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甚至於,阿公特意把我和姊姊的信用卡金額上限調高,擺明要讓我們盡情去汽車旅館做人。
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我和姊姊也只能:「嗯……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAaeMucnamxT
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不過我還是和姊姊一起回到房間之後:「姊姊,雖然剛才阿公那樣說……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAhuHSYPmNJf
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姊姊沒有反對和討厭,只有淡淡回答:「我也已經三十一歲了。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAbk2pnWcB2Z
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我不明白姊姊的意思,所以看著姊姊。201Please respect copyright.PENANAVL1yP5i5rg
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姊姊微笑:「我的確像阿公說的,沒有幾年機會了……孩子的爸爸,加油喔。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAmFcHYCiU4j
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姊姊都這樣說,我還能怎麼辦:「好吧……」201Please respect copyright.PENANA09Z6NbfiZx
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就這樣,我和姊姊不多想,能生就生。201Please respect copyright.PENANA4xa87Y3ln9
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從我十七歲開始直到二十五歲的這八年,我和姊姊成為三男二女、總共五個孩子的父母。201Please respect copyright.PENANAMOki0vwgX1
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姊姊將近一半時間都在懷孕中度過。201Please respect copyright.PENANAiQpbA5Zk4L
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總是生產之後幾個月,肚子又開始隆起。201Please respect copyright.PENANA7xIXzZuXnU
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為了一直給陸續出生的孩子餵奶,乳汁沒有中斷分泌。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYXQAuYFZC2
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姊姊就這樣生到第五胎的三十六歲,踏入醫學上受孕機會低的高齡產婦年齡,肚皮才自然的不再有反應。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwFNlwH5A5F
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至少給黃家增加人口這件事,阿公很滿意。201Please respect copyright.PENANAzjRHzfZCjN
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八年的時間,我和姊姊的確完成阿公的期望了……201Please respect copyright.PENANAj0YhK6CEyn
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現在,我二十八歲。201Please respect copyright.PENANAjGVLwV0gh1
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我和姊姊的長子十歲了。201Please respect copyright.PENANA7QCVljuy4H
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算是已經長大懂事,會開始好奇的想要瞭解更多世事。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8BAUvyk3k1
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他終於在我回家休息的這天,拉著弟弟妹妹問我:「爸爸,你為什麼都叫媽媽為姊姊?姊姊為什麼都叫你阿弟?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAa8Q5JxhI55
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你認為,我應該怎麼回答孩子?201Please respect copyright.PENANALPiVwfaTGw
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我當然說:「因為爸爸在七歲的時候就和十八歲的媽媽結婚,讓媽媽照顧到這麼大,當然要喊媽媽為姊姊,被媽媽喊阿弟。」201Please respect copyright.PENANAIW79oNqROx
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沒有錯,不論我幾歲,都覺得姊姊一直像對待小弟弟那樣照看我。201Please respect copyright.PENANAt0ioogyJpb
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長子很困惑:「爸爸七歲,媽媽十八歲,結婚?」201Please respect copyright.PENANA3zZazULuUK
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我問他:「奇怪嗎?」201Please respect copyright.PENANAgBwZsHaEYa
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長子乖乖點頭。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8DV9fF0xj4
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於是我開始把自己和姊姊的故事,說給我們的第一個長子聽。201Please respect copyright.PENANA8uIW1sWzqs
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讓他知道自己的爸爸媽媽到底是怎麼沒有經過戀愛,卻還是一直在一起……201Please respect copyright.PENANARLY0uUbEAF
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那麼接下來我還能說什麼?201Please respect copyright.PENANAQES3INc6Im
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我真的已經沒有太多可以說。201Please respect copyright.PENANASE5vqLGff8
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七歲病弱的我,娶十八歲的姊姊沖喜,讓姊姊親手照顧長大,再於十六歲的時候和姊姊正式結成連理,十八歲生下我們的長子,後續幾年再生下二男二女總共五個孩子。201Please respect copyright.PENANAYr0MYzu22x
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十八歲為錢來到黃家的姊姊,本來想找機會逃跑,卻因為不忍心看還是個病弱孩子的我無助啼哭,開始接受我,日夜照顧我,漸漸的融入黃家的生活,最後給黃家生下五名重要的下一代。201Please respect copyright.PENANAwj8O21rkeT
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我們之間,一天天培養出來的深厚感情當然有,不過戀愛般的愛情絕對沒有……201Please respect copyright.PENANAqaJEQ789pG
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你也會覺得我和姊姊的夫妻關係真的奇怪?201Please respect copyright.PENANAOxn9SBBAv8
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年齡相差太多的男女,絕對不可能有未來?201Please respect copyright.PENANAddEtxXtoMG
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我不知道你會怎麼想我和姐姐的事。201Please respect copyright.PENANAv7mwXFSNwf
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我只知道自己和姊姊一路走來,覺得男女關係專家真的沒有說錯:201Please respect copyright.PENANATHS4Ie9fnL
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『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。201Please respect copyright.PENANAyfZXiqk6Ex
真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半?』201Please respect copyright.PENANA715RUqtgIg
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愛情真的像爸爸說的,只是通往婚姻的其中一條道路。201Please respect copyright.PENANAr11JzzQ6Lx
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維持一段婚姻的從來不是愛情,永遠都是在於是否用心對待對方。201Please respect copyright.PENANAHUfrCvmSgW
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有心了,把對方當成自己的另一半照顧陪伴,自然能刻骨銘心,自然能長久。201Please respect copyright.PENANA1RX3Df13Wp
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這才是家族親情和婚姻的真諦。201Please respect copyright.PENANA0ICE2e4pAv
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因此我沒有什麼可以再說。201Please respect copyright.PENANAVMOk44FAEL
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再說下去,恐怕就是那五隻兔崽子怎麼又吵又鬧又合作的興旺黃家的故事。201Please respect copyright.PENANA9WL1aBQFVr
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所以現在我唯有說:「這就是黃家屬於我和姊姊的故事了……」201Please respect copyright.PENANAVpjQXiLjAy
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