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近現代／家族／愛情親情／日常／姊弟搭配193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxXWbMW8cX
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＝底下正文開始＝193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthONsEuA3l
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現在我要說的故事，真的非常平淡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkX6OWs3nzH
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沒有太多的激情，也沒有太多的熱血，更沒有太多的戲劇性衝突。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBx9dBJV6v
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都是些再平凡不過的家庭日常生活。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqNaYDr5R9
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現在我就要開始說了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKLwuVpamc
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我出生在南部小鎮的富有家庭。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtn3zNaJogH
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我們黃家目前連我在內總共五個人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIvpufhneF
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我，爸爸，媽媽，阿公和阿媽。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZSCLKyAJZ
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阿公和爸爸都是商人，在整個東南亞經營運輸和貿易生意，到處都有據點。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJncJUrZZl
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常常早上還在泰國，下午就到菲律賓，明天又到另一個國家，所以一般都會好幾天才回家休息一次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xpUvwzU1n
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做的生意，就是在各國之間進行貨物運輸和販賣。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK61i23uuUX
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阿媽和媽媽雖然不必在外面奔波，不過還是要負責在家裡幫忙處理整理重要的公司文件。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Cz6NzQXxC
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可以說我們黃家是個商業家族。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOp6ILgaypB
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自然是這個小鎮最有錢的家庭。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLfB1XTZGW
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所以鎮裡如果辦什麼活動需要錢，往往都會來家裡商量，請求我們家幫忙贊助一點。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoETND9PrY
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所以我們黃家對於這個以務農為主的小鎮來說，是個非常特殊的存在。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6wiTVLNbF
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現在既然說到我出生的這個小鎮，我不得不說它真的是個非常單純純樸的地方。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgZd4tzH5h
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一片又一片的農田，一隻又一隻幫忙農作的大水牛，還有到處奔跑嬉戲的活潑孩子們……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrB6OoG7gI7
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但是同樣是孩子的我，只能乖乖留在家裡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOEaZmSlIB
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因為我自從出生就體弱多病，總是大病小病不斷，不是去醫院就是乖乖留在自己的房間養病。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGmTqRS0KC
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各大醫院給我看病到最後，醫師都說我的問題是：先天抵抗力低落。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55LKnOrJhz
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怎麼治療？沒有徹底的治療辦法，只能希望我的抵抗力會有自然好轉的一天。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWR7ig1rxH
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因此西藥我從來沒有少吃過，昂貴的中藥補品更是三餐，童年的我真的是個大藥桶。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGWi2kURsB
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也幸好，我們黃家很有錢，沒有這方面的問題，否則多病的我恐怕早就已經被放棄。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAr28cOOTi
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不過，沒有讀過什麼書的阿媽還是為多病的我著急萬分，不時責怪我的媽媽，讓媽媽受盡委屈。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaRLklQJw1
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我就因此記得媽媽被阿媽罵到哭的一段記憶。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9zkneUWso
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當時我七歲，發著四十度高燒，躺在自己的床上病懨懨。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnx9uMZLjj
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二十六歲的媽媽坐在我的床沿，一邊聽著阿媽不停的責罵，一邊流著眼淚用濕巾為我擦涼身體。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfEhH0lT1m
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阿媽責罵媽媽知道自己身子虛弱，常常感冒不適，還敢嫁來黃家生下我這個最重要的長子，把病弱的體質傳進黃家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZeMVeU8Kn
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阿媽責罵媽媽生下我之後就像個石女，再也生不出來，讓黃家只有我這個體弱多病的長子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8cGYPb3In
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甚至於，阿媽責罵出身貧寒葉家的媽媽沒有半點自知之明，不安本份的嫁入黃家，肯定是為了黃家的錢勾引爸爸。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgt4syNuHIr
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所以我相信，當時媽媽的處境一定比我還要難受。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIK2eZR7PX
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如果不是為了我這個親生孩子而隱忍，才二十六歲的媽媽恐怕已經被阿媽罵到離開黃家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGl2BdEdwV
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就這樣，這場把媽媽罵哭的大責罵結束不久，在外面跑的阿公和爸爸回來了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XDqoBlT8I
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因此，我的生命就要再次不同。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK2c3AzhP7
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我的阿公，就是現在這個黃家的一家之主。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51Nh2qskqO
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雖然阿公沒有讀過書，但是很會做生意，算是東南亞貿易圈的一號人物，所以把事業做的很大，賺錢的速度就像轉開水龍頭。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxlH01icoO
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阿公坐到我的床沿，疼惜摸摸我的臉，然後叫著媽媽的小名：「阿素？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VQ2MS4sIb
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媽媽和爸爸站一起：「爸？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFVVq5YEVQ
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阿公：「前陣子妳被罵的事情，剛才妳的媽媽（阿媽）都跟我說了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHo96xbKYM
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媽媽：「嗯……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KyPmqYza7
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阿公：「媽媽是心急孩子忽然又高燒，不是有意把妳罵成那樣，原諒媽媽吧。妳絕對是我們黃家的好媳婦。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcirDHNjEH
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阿媽安靜站在阿公身邊，不發一言。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNOd8YxS9z
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媽媽則是低下頭，眼淚又一次滾出來：「我知道……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Blt9JID2i
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阿公：「那麼來說正事。孩子的對像我們辦好了，是個不錯的對象。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76K7oPtfQE
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媽媽擦掉淚水：「已經辦好了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KS98FIElt
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阿公：「去他們家看過，互相說過所有情況，把一半的聘金給他們。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRm7eGcqXs
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媽媽：「她什麼時候會來家裡？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3JD1OQD7C
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阿公：「下個月的九日她會來台灣。二天之後的十一日是師父說的吉日，正式迎娶入門。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPyks1hNUA
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然後，大家安靜好一會。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQNRWEh4Q4
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阿公疼惜的一直看著我這個病弱躺著的獨孫。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jbZf3QsPO
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直到媽媽打破沉默：「爸……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6Jtfl4CKg
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阿公：「什麼事？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkbFOMdu3t
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媽媽：「這樣做，真的好嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygkw7s5J1h
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阿公：「阿素，你應該知道，這是沒辦法的辦法了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2IAaX7OSf
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媽媽：「我知道……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1wn3ThDqR
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阿公：「到處跑醫院都沒有用，醫生就是沒有辦法完全治好。只能照宮廟乩童說的這樣做做看，給孩子沖喜了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUKJ4MZs4q
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媽媽：「但是孩子還這麼小，就要讓他娶妻……會不會對他的未來怎麼樣？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNoSpeHK6L
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阿公唯有語氣沉重的說：「反正只是做個樣子，不是真要讓她娶。現在我們黃家只有這個血脈，先想辦法讓孩子可以平安長大吧。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3G8rJHF3I
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就這樣，改變我的生命的那個女人就要來到身邊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFTz9yhe92
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七歲的我，為了沖喜治病，就要娶妻了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALco9cp1fR
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那個女人，我都叫她姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpQyXVvXxM
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現在我要說的，就是以我和姊姊為中心、關於黃家的平淡日常生活故事……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgdpKqMuuw
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《我們黃家的故事》193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFW3J8CJH3a
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隨著下個月九日逼近，家裡為了我的婚事越來越忙碌。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkfYqRpQyp
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忙碌準備一堆婚禮相關物品。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTtkBUYmPt
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除了專心照顧我的媽媽，阿公阿媽和爸爸整天忙進忙出。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLZuPpK27I
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甚至於，我的房間家具也完全換新。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBLqnT6S3E
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但是我完全不清楚情況，同樣動不動就發高燒，只能躺平在床上養病。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfyVGo6tWg
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終於，九日那一天來到。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVDcEWiHuC
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即將嫁給我的姊姊，已經來到台灣。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwRkdFrd2I
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所以傍晚的時候，媽媽把狀況好一點的我抱出門，阿公開車把所有人載往大城市的餐館。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBeMMulRbK
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我和姊姊，就是在餐館裡面的包廂第一次見面。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6HkvBWp9j
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大家坐在大圓桌，看著彼此。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMNyqGeynd
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我們一家五人，坐在圓桌的一邊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYoKG3vpIE
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對方二人都是女性，坐在圓桌對面。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV45u6VCDtL
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一名是準備嫁來黄家的近二十歲年輕女孩，留著一頭烏黑亮麗秀髮。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfa6IxNHAm
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另一名是看來四十歲左右的中年婦女，胖胖的，是姊姊的姑姑。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYmaak1cbH
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她們二人都穿著越南式女性旗袍。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL24MQJQZDN
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沒有錯，她們都是越南人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkprADEnND3
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即將和我結婚的姊姊，可以說是所謂的越南新娘。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3GznhwLBE
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接下來我要說的這些關於姊姊的事情，都是之後才慢慢知道。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMYdR0AoQe
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姊姊的名字是：『林花。』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VV4FgyThR
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嫁來黄家的姊姊十八歲，比我年長十一歲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWCtCkOWAO
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姊姊是她家的長女，下面還有二位年長我好幾歲的弟弟。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAsxMY3b3f
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全家在越南的鄉村務農，姊姊一邊在鄰鎮的高中讀書，一邊打工幫助家計。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHswhPuFjq
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姊姊是成績一直在前十名的優等生。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11QckHnM2f
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原本計劃在高中畢業之後繼續半工半讀大學，選讀和育幼有關的科系，未來當小朋友的老師。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyyh7iS1us
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但是就在高中畢業前夕，爸爸忽然中風臥床，家計再也支持不下去。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1FfGao0Rh
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姊姊為了自己的家庭，只得拿我們黃家一大筆錢，告別父母和二名年幼弟弟，遠渡重洋嫁來我們黃家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMfkrMDTJc
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先是依靠英文和阿公與爸爸溝通，之後再比手劃腳的慢慢學習漢語。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9KjjMoeGR
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這些就是關於姊姊的事情……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLrr9DYovf
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不過當時在餐館的我才七歲，出於好奇一直看著比較年輕的姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAN183uPhn
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內心單純想著：『漂亮的姊姊，頭髮又黑又長……』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQziaxIsuVu
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至於就要和我結婚成親的姊姊，同樣安靜看著我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOOshaacTi
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只是面無表情，看不出喜怒哀樂。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoLTUD8LRv
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所以這時候的姊姊雖然漂亮，但是看起來冷冷冰冰，很難接近的樣子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yGlQfGk58
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我相信，是因為姊姊對於面對這一切的不安，才會感覺很不親近人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMjF4ITkYI
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而不論如何，冰冷就是我對姊姊的深刻印象。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMlsy8IDN1
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初次見面這天的餐館會面，就在如此面無表情的沉默中開始。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YFAgvIHRa
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阿公、爸爸和姊姊，都是用英文溝通。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtX4CGOTXxN
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阿媽和媽媽如果要和姊姊說話，同樣要透過阿公與爸爸進行翻譯。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nXr5XN2qF
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尤其是媽媽，一再向姊姊拜託：「林花小姐，我因為和先生早婚，所以不過大妳八歲而已，真的能夠體諒妳必須嫁過來的委屈。我不敢要妳做什麼，只求妳以同樣的女人心體會我這個做母親的心情。這個孩子一直是個很聽話的乖孩子，不吵不鬧，只是從小身體一直很不好。今後真的要拜託妳幫忙照顧……我真的拜託妳了……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMx3OULvEN
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媽媽是真的發自內心的再三拜託姊姊幫忙照顧我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVmpbaeGIo
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姊姊都是平淡回答：「好。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqeAHSKYmh
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姊姊嘴巴回答好，問題是她的內心到底又是怎麼想？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvasyqpT2M
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總之，這一晚的餐館聚餐，就這樣在姊姊面無表情的冰冷中結束了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOk6nxc6MQ
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二天之後的十一吉日。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx5Z3RL7Y4
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姊姊穿著潔白新娘服正式嫁進我們黃家，成為台灣媳婦。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM8jo2RERf
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病懨懨的我同樣穿起兒童西裝，勉強支撐起精神，在什麼都不懂的情況下和面無表情的姊姊拜堂成親。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40g8Kzmude
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一直陪在我身邊的姊姊同樣冷冷冰冰，看起來很難接近。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpo9hFJs8Tl
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所以我完全不敢親近姊姊，更不敢和姊姊說句話，只能一直找媽媽。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wwCEalQS0
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就這樣，忙碌一整天的婚禮終於結束。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMykkF5Qlv
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當晚的洞房花燭夜，只能由我和姊姊一起度過，否則不吉利。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFQm3yHSUt
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但是我才七歲，什麼都不懂，所以發現自己和陌生的冰冷姊姊一起被留在房間，我立刻撐著不舒服的身體跑出房間找媽媽。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mhg54fpSN
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畢竟姊姊對我來說是個陌生人，加上姊姊從頭到尾的冰冷態度，所以還是七歲孩子的我完全不想和姊姊獨自在一起，就算姊姊再漂亮也一樣。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZb8aMYTBB
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已經換上睡衣的姊姊，只能一直安靜跟在我背後。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhptxiYSMi
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剛開始，媽媽一直哄我，把我帶回房間，要我乖乖的和姊姊一起睡覺，然後關門離開。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4PGwTtd1J
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我當然又吵著追出去找媽媽。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Yb6eILXm7
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就這樣來回找媽媽幾次，對我很溫柔的阿公終於大罵：「你已經是個娶妻的大人了，到底一直在吵什麼！這麼晚了還不快點回房間睡覺！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJgoYUc3bO
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這真的是我第一次被阿公罵。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9mR2Ivphr
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加上對於發生的事情和完全搞不清楚整個情況。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWFJnBhfnZ
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所以我怕到了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ztl6GBkRl
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背後跟著姊姊，哭著轉身乖乖回到房間，坐在新床上不安哭著。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmQLpMq6bV
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一定是因為這樣，姊姊看我無助害怕的一直哭著要媽媽，就像被狗媽媽拋棄的可憐小狗。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsSP6ZMrb5
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因此姊姊發現我終究只是個普通的七歲小男孩，不是什麼可怕的存在。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftzP4yjPKM
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冰冷的姊姊，終於改變對我的態度。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbkRHXH9ZC
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姊姊遲疑一會，不忍心的伸出手，把我溫柔摟在懷裡，輕輕搖著我，哄著我，完全把我當成孩子安撫。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9o0hogzis
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至於我，忽然被姊姊摟著，一開始哭叫著抗拒，努力想要逃離這個冰冷的陌生人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAq6vw2u8wD
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直到我看見姊姊溫柔哄我的溫暖笑臉。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4h4Lc87U8M
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這是我第一次看見姊姊露出的友善笑容。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFKw7PU9fe
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七歲的我因此知道了，姊姊其實沒有那麼冰冷可怕。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduVswJBKwf
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姊姊其實是很溫柔的好姊姊，否則怎麼會像這樣微笑哄我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQ133ZbyyL
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於是我慢慢收起眼淚，不再哭鬧，乖乖的依偎在姊姊溫暖的懷裡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQL7nqp7N55
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被溫柔的姊姊摟著哄，感受著姊姊的善意，直到被姊姊輕輕搖哄到睡著。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W0CT5zPoS
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我和年長十一歲的姊姊，就從這一晚開始共同生活了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj33iq7qbTn
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姊姊被迫為錢離家，遠嫁我們黃家，讓她冷冷冰冰的，頗有拒人千里之外的感覺，很明顯就能看出來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3FtRuAUKl
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事實上，姊姊曾經跟我說過，剛來台灣的那陣子她的確一直在想著逃跑的事情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eiuIMJssF
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逃離這個用錢買自己的黃家，能逃多遠就逃多遠，躲到台灣其他地方想辦法生活。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypKkofvsvh
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反正姊姊的聘金，她的家人已經完全拿到。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3O4SmCyfT
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就算姊姊逃走，也只能算是姊姊個人『離家出走』，不會給娘家帶來太大麻煩。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7AR2zY8fO
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但是新婚之夜，姊姊看著我的無助哭泣，就像一隻不停唉唉叫需要人照顧的可憐小動物，就此讓姊姊的冰冷心情融化。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXovFMydbVW
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姊姊想說，先幫忙照顧我一陣子，順便認識更多同樣來自越南的朋友，收集更多台灣其他地方的資訊，再正式逃跑。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbyJ54SS0n
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結果情況卻是，隨著一天天照顧我，姊姊的想法一天天軟化。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHvtRM1ARk
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此外，加上大家都對姊姊很好，完全以家人的平等態度對待姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKxXGGaosD
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年長八歲的媽媽更是把姊姊當作親妹妹對待。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQG2PTftte
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大家同進同出，同吃同喝，而不是把姊姊當成越南勞工對待。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7jpfKoJLg
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甚至於，每個月會給姊姊五千元的零用錢。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6rGyxEnoc
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姊姊終於接受自己的命運。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXIyagAxTu
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姊姊開始把黃家當成她第二個家，和媽媽一起照顧我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNX3M16QW0
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甚至於，姊姊很快就變成照顧我最多的人，也是付出最多心力的人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG13dPRQSXQ
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畢竟媽媽晚上會回房間睡覺，只有姊姊才能整晚和我在一起，在我生病發燒的時候整夜看護。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFsQ2a8SaI
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在我身邊時睡時醒的給我量體溫，餵我水，哄我吃藥，給我的身體擦涼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡef03oH1Irh
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所以姊姊不只是姊姊，更像是忽然跑出來的第二個媽媽。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMA8ceFzwl
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我自然很快的習慣了姊姊的存在。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJRHbAaNZa
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越來越喜歡整天陪伴我的溫柔姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bYnwdLdll
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對於姊姊的依賴越來越重。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIoh9AIkxy
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把姊姊當成可以整天陪我玩的大玩伴。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFmLDC8HEE
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總會：「姊姊！姊姊！」的親密叫著。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOZMiGxHj8
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握著姊姊溫暖的手，讓姊姊陪著玩耍。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroZBx6QKVX
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玩玩捉迷藏。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzsGhf9QvJ
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玩玩跳房子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbo1w4axeo
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一起唱唱歌。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaAQNKnU1I
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讓姊姊一口口餵飯。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKQrHr2Gan
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讓姊姊帶我上廁所。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTbWPawdFK
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讓姊姊幫我洗頭洗澡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqlAQG11oQ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JxP8cfE7F
讓姊姊哄著一起睡覺。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJVwj3k44B
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIdeyimcq5
讓媽媽看著我和姊姊的相處，半開玩笑的落寞說好幾次：「你這個孩子根本只要姊姊不要媽媽了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimkAHqPIbA
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由此可知，我的確已經變成整天黏著姊姊，由姊姊日夜拉拔照顧的孩子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2PRNh8v87
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLFItZqGKk
十八歲的姊姊有我這麼親密陪伴，更是完全打消逃跑念頭，為了照顧我而決心留在黃家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcY5ODBhffb
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwekRPu0zBe
姊姊就這樣找到救贖和生命的出路，沒有走上躲躲藏藏過活的悲慘道路……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZqow1cbMC
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另一方，關於我的身體狀況。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjG5DYC8Fm
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptuj98PEgK
原本病弱的身體真的慢慢好轉，不再那麼容易生病發燒。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tx7x8X4VD
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mjx16XHgW
我越吃越胖，長出肉，不再像以前那樣骨瘦如材。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPG08EAGsl
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHBZziAMgJ
甚至於，我會有體力拉著姊姊出門跑步玩耍，就像那些在外面到處跑的活潑小朋友。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0NbBYCkZ7
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我的身體狀況好轉，除了沖喜成功真的找不到其他解釋。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5Ja66Q5D1
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阿公、阿媽、爸爸和媽媽為此喜悅萬分。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT79S890ZT4
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYfxfkfyVn
他們紛紛高興表示，給我找來姊姊成親沖喜是對的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfANzsQAh3
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLCgxi9Bx9
所以一年之後，八歲的我健康的進入本鎮國民小學就讀，和其他同年齡小朋友一起接受正式教育。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaiZ3YX2nF
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcCrxfhT9e
姊姊都會牽著我的手，親自把我帶往學校，一直用不流暢的漢語說：「你在學校要乖乖的喔……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOkh7EFQtY
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp88Ho1n9qI
直到看我進入校園，姊姊才回家幫忙家事，或是以姊姊的英文能力幫助家族的生意文件。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpVMW6zrg8
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP75vwdrpPk
接著，再於下午四點放學時間前來校門口接我，關心詢問：「學校過的怎麼樣？有沒有乖乖？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuJkzcEbN8
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOtOlthlnB
不論風吹、雨淋、烈日，溫柔的姊姊沒有一天不陪我接我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9lLvqLZUJ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgWPPn507O
回家之後，姊姊更是會親自陪我寫作業，教我數學，確定我的學習沒有任何問題。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HfetGsqDq
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVz09n53m2u
甚至於，在學校的我忽然身體很不舒服或是發燒，必須早退，趕來學校接我的也是姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqWMvZWbyz
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親密的把我當孩子一樣揹著，帶我去醫院檢查，然後再帶我回家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2IWebq8QF
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LdC7XGbjt
說真的，我和姊姊要說是夫妻，其實更像是感情非常好的姊姊弟弟……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJsYAbyLki
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不過也因此，我被學校的小朋友找麻煩了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQeIn3B5Wu
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeUk45dw0V
我和姊姊的事情，全鎮的成年人都知道。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFEOZ5tW01
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr9OrVYOxH
成年人知道長輩讓我娶姊姊是萬不得已的沖喜，所以成熟體諒的沒有說什麼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovYwpAlaqx
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但是和我同年齡的小朋友們，知道我和姊姊的事情之後，終於瞭解為什麼我的上下學總是有漂亮姊姊親密接送，出於幼稚的無知開始嘲笑：「男生愛女生！羞羞臉！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHNFc0eEpA
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像這樣的嘲笑我還可以忍受，所以不理他們。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3Dc2PuVNd
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjclvESwkRr
一陣子之後，他們竟然開始當我的面嘲笑姊姊，說她是：「家裡不要的女孩！為了錢來台灣的越南窮人！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHH1wHeR0i
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他們這樣說姊姊，我當然覺得很生氣，不是吵架就是打架。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLCL7jtEA1
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那段時間，足足一週以上，真的又吵又打的度過。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMW6P6uXP9
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後來會解決，還是姊姊看我身上一直有打架的傷口，對我詢問到底之後親自出面處理。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWSC4WkbMD
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放學時間，姊姊陪我在校門口面對那些說壞話的小朋友。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnWiycJ4Ij
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58JaA6B2Hn
姊姊蹲下來，溫柔微笑，和氣說著：「大家一起當好朋友，好不好？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb2JRB7LMu
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKQKyIR0dl
就這樣，那些原本欺負我的小朋友改變態度，不再亂說話。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccUzVrRGmm
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLMojCBbRj
甚至於，會在放學的時候陪我們一起走，開心的和姊姊說話聊天。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprwh4XcILc
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0ZIxgXgD6
因為姊姊的漂亮，還有姊姊的溫柔，小朋友們一定會喜歡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtl4l0WImk
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobZuvrVei3
喜歡和小朋友相處的姊姊，更是順理成章的成為大家的好姊姊，會在週末帶著我和大家一起玩。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObRqN5TdPY
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHu0nsRtgWe
我的拳頭無法解決的事情，溫柔的姊姊輕鬆辦到。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGoNXG036A
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtH2pwnnCFR
我真的更加佩服姊姊了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKrNZo4RBZ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT8Z7Z7PfU
不過，我也因此開始體會到自己和姊姊的奇妙關係。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkSZ8Yts1t
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGak6OHKcQy
畢竟學校的小朋友沒有人像我和姊姊一樣結婚。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzICKg8XtDN
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsINICHkR6E
只有我，像爸爸媽媽、阿公阿媽和其他大人一樣結婚。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXx5ojko6mv
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXXGrt6Pgq
我就是從這個時候開始思考：『我為什麼會和姊姊結婚啊？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eu2bd3mth
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeT39BCjem
我一個人想幾天，終於在這天放學，只有我和姊姊的時候直接問：「姊姊，我想問妳一個問題。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEFfQ0fUrx
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VxOWfL7NK
姊姊：「什麼問題？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBe5pdfLMd
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9zRBquxZj
我問：「我們為什麼會結婚？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7ScTbgr6W
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlPVX3lFS6
面對我的問題，十九歲的姊姊沉默了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdeOQsyrYZ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDFnAohVLw
安靜牽著我的小手，一步步帶我回家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3s0FFYlQ8
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIcWqCSDTN
八歲的我，完全不瞭解姊姊為什麼都不說話。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SVO3z6WBI
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwUMdk0GVO
不過只要是個成年人，一定能瞭解姊姊不語的原因。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7ekDl5NRG
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtus2uk09Ja
十九歲，根本還只是大學生。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfNuGP3uwk
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AA4nQHDcO
如果姊姊的爸爸沒有中風，現在姊姊應該正在越南的某間大學半工半讀。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDLI89KIhT
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqz41mSogs
姊姊卻是拿錢嫁來台灣，和我結婚成為黄家媳婦，一年來一直日夜陪伴我生活。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRecc4G0Cv
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2r3aRczPMY
姊姊的寧靜，其實是有重量的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRjizXBacy
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdxenadyvT
生活的重量，從來不是三言二語可以輕鬆說完。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZ6MOJZ56k
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43yYrPa1m4
也或許，正是因為無奈和感嘆，才讓它這麼不容易說完。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArU62zQ4qE
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaa80QZrkfZ
天真不懂的我追問：「姊姊？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNS1lk0zlk
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIQdCVb2CQ
姊姊回答：「因為我們必須結婚。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGonPZMGzQx
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykbQ018iRZ
我：「為什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRxChz5xpj
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0yNpQhoOc
姊姊僅能：「姊姊不知道應該怎麼說。等到回家之後，你問媽媽吧？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kGra2Hsgb
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTaODzX9OS
所以回家之後，我真的牽著姊姊的手，跑去問媽媽這件事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucX4QEMFGd
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hw5N6Vs9U
媽媽沉默的和姊姊互看，然後回答我：「等你長大之後就知道為什麼會和姊姊結婚了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFkAfMXq2W
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8qLczen39
結果，當年八歲的我還是完全不知道為什麼自己會和姊姊結婚。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlj7mZylo6o
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pLc2RNt37
我也只能想著這件事幾天之後，開始把它淡忘掉，繼續開開心心的牽著姊姊的手，和姊姊一起生活……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY42bZfA8d
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就這樣，幾年的國小生活迅速過去。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrpb0ZYhq6
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZjlWBnbTe
姊姊嫁來黄家的時候十八歲，現在已經二十三歲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLdBs8HbxL
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4UlD2iv0n
照顧我之餘順便幫忙家事，處理家裡公司的英文翻譯工作，可說已經完全融入黃家的一切生活。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgZ34XApxk
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxD6Mo7cfVd
至於越南娘家，姊姊和娘家密切保持聯絡，不論是實體信件，電子信件，通訊軟體，沒有斷絕過。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzEilxYPga
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中風的爸爸情況好轉。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pdAsilikz
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAXxtTORUz
媽媽用姊姊的聘金開一間穀物貿易店，生意做的不錯。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8u2hywOKb
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fXd2D3Hc0
二位弟弟則是都在高中讀書，準備考大學。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkvP5doZpi
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所以原本窮困的娘家的確因為姊姊的聘金，慢慢發達起來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1B3OoUfWr7
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDsFutarx9
就這樣來看，窮人女孩為錢出嫁遠方，真的不好嗎？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Wa6fYfTpa
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當然，每個人心中都有想法和答案……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOf0KK4MXw
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我則是十二歲，健康快樂的入讀國中一年級。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlddEDf0gf
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開始長高的我，心靈隨之成長。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFDXKZOlJt
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNBf81thFu
小時候的我，整天黏著姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMkinCCCdb
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq7gSs9Z7E
但是現在的我，對於那麼黏姊姊開始覺得怪怪的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbdQWw12KU
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNI4TmS80K
和姊姊一起手牽手走在路上，以前的我覺得很自然快樂，但是現在的我卻覺得很奇怪。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljEVtc3oMY
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25Cu0zPkB7
尤其是如果在路上遇見認識的同學或是朋友，我都會趕緊放開姊姊的手，和姊姊分開，不想要被他們看見我和姊姊手牽手。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydLwoIQzCk
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTm2FY0nWPv
甚至於，我會對於和姊姊同房睡覺這件事感到彆扭。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemBXi8KK49
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKOi7q7BAD
睡覺的時候，我都已經故意側躺背對姊姊，並且離遠點，姊姊卻還是主動靠上來，從我的背後主動摟抱我在懷裡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDKtPt2qAD
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就像過去那樣，從背後抱著我一起看電視。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTswtXUxd7
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就像過去那樣，從背後抱著唸故事書給我聽。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz128grx32n
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡto2wGH6Egh
就像過去那樣，抱著親密搖我，唱兒歌給我聽，陪我說話。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0QXFlm72z
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就像過去那樣，一直把我當成孩子……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2jPBdjmbJ
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因此，今晚睡覺又被姊姊像這樣從背後親密摟抱，彆扭好一陣子的我終於說：「姊姊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1YTUFgb73
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姊姊：「嗯？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf99mf2Nkdg
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我說：「妳可以不要抱我嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjiQGkAdaI
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姊姊：「怎麼了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFezWA3NiD
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我誠實說：「感覺好難為情。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCjIGyQsta
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姊姊沉默。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLS5uwFNdk
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我繼續趁這個機會說出心底話：「其實……我越來越覺得我們一起睡覺很奇怪……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGn1ovBsHC
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姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G5IaBltqr
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我說：「我知道，好多年來我們都是一起睡覺，妳會像這樣抱著我。但是，現在我真的開始覺得好奇怪……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprHL1iEEdh
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又是幾秒的沉默。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRc0QlKee4o
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姊姊主動移動手，不再從背後摟抱我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMluam8PCKn
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我擔心姊姊不開心，回頭看去：「姊姊，我沒有討厭妳，只是真的覺得好奇怪。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrH3zAYbfGt
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陰暗的燈光下，側躺面對我的姊姊溫柔微笑：「阿弟，你長大了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD45sKpHGyF
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不只姊姊，阿媽和媽媽也是叫我阿弟。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnmrqORm40
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我只能說：「是嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bMXlIjOyj
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姊姊：「你也不喜歡和姊姊牽手被同學看見吧？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrXFmmJlQW
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzec9CM17wN
我這才知道，原來姊姊有察覺到這件事，知道我都會在路上遇到同學的時候放開姊姊的手。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSrNduw8L3
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唯有乖乖承認：「嗯……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmtU5zxxn0
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姊姊詢問：「你也會討厭姊姊陪你上下學？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxRLQ0yQeG
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGvTFIeOIh
我沒想到姊姊會反問這件事，所以我真的想幾秒：「上下學……我是覺得，上下學我一個人不會有問題。其實姊姊可以不必一直跟著我，感覺有點浪費妳的時間……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQlGszoPfT
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S5zfyZ0Iu
姊姊得到我的回答：「姊姊知道了，以後你自己上下學吧。明天你還要去學校，先睡覺。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ReOWqcJUb
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說完，姊姊轉身，背對我睡覺，沒有再摸我一下。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2ZlOaPyfE
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我也只好同樣繼續背對姊姊睡覺。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhNSzFwd5K
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我知道，姊姊依然是當年那個一心一意照顧陪伴我的姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzWAJxIKoq
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但是開始長大改變的我，真的不再是當年七歲的我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJETdGMllEs
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雖然當時沒有感覺，不過我和姊姊的關係，的的確確就從這時候開始不同。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kNKEo8N7X
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隔天，姊姊果然讓我一個人上學，下午回家時間也沒有來校門口接我，讓我感覺好奇怪，就像有什麼明顯不對勁。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4wbZNvdYv
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甚至於，回到家之後，在房間放下書包，發現房間裡面怪怪的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXPne2KOgP
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但是那時我還忽然說不出房間哪裡奇怪。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkbfr9TxvO
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直到進入廚房從冰箱找喝的，遇見正在忙碌晚餐的媽媽和姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHYpOi7qRl
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我先問候：「媽媽，姊姊。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡec9U28ziLe
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媽媽知道我一定還沒有完全搞清楚情況，所以主動跟我說：「今天開始，姊姊會去原本用來堆雜物的那個房間睡覺。下午已經把雜物間清理好，也把姊姊的東西都搬進去，以後那裡就是姊姊的臥房。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GT5HWjwqG
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這就是剛才我為什麼覺得房間有點奇怪，因為原本屬於姊姊的東西與衣物都消失不見。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozNzLjZeKH
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我小小意外到：「姊姊要睡在雜物間？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGZJDCbBEc
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媽媽：「你不是跟姊姊說不想和姊姊一起睡覺？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nG11Qv7Xf
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我：「昨晚我是那樣說……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEncAt30aZD
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然後，我看向姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4myJHL8h0
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姊姊面無表情站在瓦斯爐前炒青菜，沒有看我一眼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhNgPeyZLj
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我：「姊姊？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnAEf1FKMk
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姊姊終於看我：「嗯？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIlUftu6f5
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我：「你真的要搬去雜物間？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmQ0LbnyQg
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姊姊回我：「早上姊姊和媽媽談過之後，覺得這樣對你比較好。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPT0nE3Jk5C
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我：「可是－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXj7fKtGrTQ
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『可是』到這裡，我又半句話說不出。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqHVgRM50x
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畢竟我究竟想要『可是』什麼？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5fwC17znr
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我的確一天天覺得和姊姊同床共枕很奇怪，親口說出這件事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8nXLDP76i
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我和姊姊分房生活本來就是很自然的發展，到底還有什麼好『可是』？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ij7tsHBuJ
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所以『可是』之後，我真的又沒有一句話可以說，只能站著。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7wLFhsXqH
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因此姊姊再說：「你真的已經長大了，開始獨立自主。姊姊很高興，可以陪伴你平安長大到今天。今後也要繼續成長為一位優秀的大人，知不知道？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdEUrIVKTd
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我唯有：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxyJTXEN8v
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媽媽有意思讓這件事就這樣：「好啦！你自己聞聞衣服，都是臭酸味！快去浴室洗澡，準備吃晚飯了！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEJqBgRy0J
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就這樣，我們沒有再談過這件事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTLMxC4TA9
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我跟姊姊正式分房生活……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA6g0wq2l2
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姊姊決定放手，讓我自由自在的長大，相信那樣對我的成長最好。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeaVbALP1p
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzVJhCaPIW
我從上下學不再有姊姊陪伴，直到現在分房睡覺，真的一直有種說不出的奇怪感。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2ALQoVrTR
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就像自己的生活，忽然有什麼重要的人事物消失不見。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmpzYONaQY
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這樣的消失，好像明顯是錯的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohw8oKnixF
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但是我又感覺到，這樣才是對的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LsW3AZxVp
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我相信這就是姊姊所說的獨立自主和所謂的長大吧。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXVj84sRPt
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卻也因為這樣，沒有姊姊常常跟隨陪伴的我，雖然獲得很高的生活自由，卻也交上壞朋友了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZ1HxEeymG
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznQIBZXR9u
週六日，以前我都是跟姊姊一起出門，搭公車去鄰近城市的鬧區走走逛逛再回家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8sZcLDBE3
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不再有姊姊緊密陪伴的我，都和同學朋友一起出遊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwAsRuRHtJ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZisxbAgBP
姊姊都會在我出門赴約的時候，微笑的說：「路上小心，早點回來。」完全把我當成大人尊重看待。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3DCZGStH0
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就這樣，朋友彼此之間再互相介紹，我終於和一群大人常說的『壞孩子』認識。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXaH33MjxW
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一夥近三十人，男女都有，對我來說都是些大哥哥大姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAfoRR4biz
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年紀大約是國中生到二十歲，最年長的幾位等著當兵，並且他們的家庭明顯都有問題。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELCqn5atMe
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搶劫吸毒之類的嚴重事情沒有。但是檳榔喝酒，喜歡夜遊飆車，嗆聲裝大……大概就是缺少家庭關愛的鄉下8+9。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls90m2WYdI
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當然，認識他們之初，我也覺得和他們在一起不太好。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK4otEq41F
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聰明的孩子絕對會知道不應該和他們繼續往來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2zdHDeQUb
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但是我又無法抗拒和他們繼續來往的誘惑。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLERFaGLU9M
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因為他們有帥氣的摩托車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPuKbhAQAB
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他們是個8+9飆車族，車隊名稱叫做三太子風火輪。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnJRFm1eey
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沒有錯，我喜歡帥氣的摩托車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmkq797ObL
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看著那樣的帥氣摩托車，我就想騎上去飆。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7f0t9oalaJ
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聽著引擎聲怒吼，我的感覺整個嗨到不必嗑任何東西。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk170eJu5u
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尤其是家裡沒有摩托車，只有分別由爺爺、爸爸和媽媽各自擁有的二輛汽車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjuvzDzzVN
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當年的我不懂汽車，只記得叫難聽的梅賽什麼的，看起來又黑又大又笨重，一點都不拉風的廉價車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAu5PnhSpJ
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而大哥大姊他們不只有摩托車，還都經過特別改裝，看起來又酷又炫。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmQdwAT7I4
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只要坐上去感覺就像世界無敵了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlBVcLKB1X
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當年才十三歲的我，真的好希望自己也能擁有一輛自己的帥氣摩托車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiB5znDCfV
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所以我真的克制不住和他們一群人來往的慾望。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnOPnhYHJi
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他們一定是因為全都破碎家庭出身，主觀的認為我也一樣，所以完全不問我的來歷，我到場就接受我，讓我跟隊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ly5fro7UY
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所以我不必上學的週六日一出門，就是主動去找他們，大家一起出門全速衝鋒。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0yQtGoVbs
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當然，我都是後座被載的那個。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSF4xwFCp2
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大部份時間，都是在靠中央山脈的山路衝鋒兜風，大約深夜就解散回家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlBmTGvLvP
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少數時候，大家飆的比較瘋，就是順著車少的靠海道路從台灣南部衝到台北，再從基隆衝進宜蘭花蓮直到台東，再一路騎回來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylMnqYDdaq
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真的是完全不睡覺，從白天騎到黑夜，再從黑夜騎到白天，猛衝台灣島一圈的衝鋒。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeozHfdyFG9
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每個月都會像這樣衝一次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jufLz1DEE
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大家都樂此不疲，我更是好開心。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoI7gfZwYx4
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我覺得這個世界真的好遼闊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNZK5VVsFX
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我真的好想看到外面更寬大的世界。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKDSF7nJzR
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我越來越不想離開這個環島飆車團體。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyW3HhSD4AK
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不過想也知道，我才一個國中生，家人一定擔心追問。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIL3EqpPmbf
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如果半夜才回家，這種情況還好，被媽媽碎念個幾句就好。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM56gMbOfyk
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如果是一整天的瘋狂環島……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRohHmWjIE
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終於，這個週日早上，第三次我再次環島瘋回來之後，被追問到底了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoPco1OxOS
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不只媽媽和姊姊，就連最疼我的阿媽也在一邊看。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6DoFqvnd1
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLQxKJjpuC
媽媽一臉擔心：「昨天週六你到底去哪裡？怎麼整晚都不回來？這樣的情況已經不是一次二次了！你才幾歲啊！大家整晚等你，怕你出什麼事，一直想去報警知不知道？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xF30OrkXL
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因為擔心會被媽媽繼續罵，所以我回答：「沒事啦。只是和幾個朋友去台北玩。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHusVs8fZ5
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這是事實，因為車隊的確會經過台北。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJctRfG6HXF
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雖然抵達台北的時候都是大部份人回家睡覺的深夜。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSetg9bZznn
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換姊姊問：「阿弟，你們沒有做壞事吧？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GNS1wyXE4
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如果說謊，媽媽和姊姊一定會看出來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKtw6dcbc5
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzql6xAXRt
我覺得很煩又很無奈的直視她們，明示自己的清白：「沒有啦。真的只是一群人出去玩而已。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAO1pClNFi
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不過是騎摩托車瘋狂繞台灣，還會是什麼壞事？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevYNgfYP5y
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姊姊再問：「下週六你們也會像這樣出去玩到週日才回家？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QvVxwvVTS
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMNH4KaHPF
我不耐煩的回：「又不是每次都這樣好不好？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHevvZNW8Vv
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DqaqYmzzQ
姊姊：「表示以後還會像這樣？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJnzwuavhB
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAz1MQo5Op2
我不敢回答，因為是肯定的，所以生氣大罵：「妳們又煩又囉嗦！有完沒完！碎碎唸個不停！我要回房間睡覺了啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoqrd8um5M
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就此頭也不回，直往房間快步走。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkf86rm106
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媽媽她們看我忽然這麼兇的大罵之後轉身就走，全部愣在客廳，忽然追不上來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPotFZP1ACG
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只有姊姊，第一時間追進房間，拉著我的手：「你到底跟誰出去？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EtCZ26LRi
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就這樣，我第一次和姊姊吵架了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWSRXIOhfE
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhvBB3YcW2
發急的我，只能甩開姊姊的手：「問這麼多做什麼？是有那麼嚴重喔？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNRCDUhKmz
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqT3YOItSI
姊姊：「阿弟，媽媽剛才沒有說錯，你才十三歲，是個國中生啊！整晚不回家，大家當然擔心！加上你正在叛逆期，我們可以不擔心嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXapYMQsGp5
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyDy53SMVV
這時候，媽媽和阿媽也追上來觀戰。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kPMF3SWmG
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不過她們暫時都沒有說話，把發言權交給姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDeps3xAob
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我一心只想早點罵退她們，所以直接對姊姊罵：「到底關妳什麼事！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJGNOmcQfJ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6pVkfh0JK
姊姊：「為什麼不關我的事！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtY5IisnQ9
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbk1k9vYov0
我：「妳到底是我的誰啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gOUAN7qns
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUZEcgJtsH
姊姊：「我是妳的姊姊啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OUjzMXJVH
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我：「我只是把妳當姊姊喊！不然我什麼時候有姊姊了！妳是媽媽生的喔？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRb8JD9Tke
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姊姊的確一時難以回答。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwl2QIwgB1
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTWvSODIn1
我繼續說：「妳又不姓黃！明明什麼都不是！妳只是個外人！就不要再對我管那麼多了啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjlTwQgLHG
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姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY1fa58EHP
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媽媽：「你這個孩子對姊姊說什麼話！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin0rBROnHU
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsp9VMgvCt
阿媽也罵我：「是姊姊辛苦的一手把你帶到這麼大，知不知道？怕你冷！怕你熱！怕你餓到！怕你受傷生病！怕你書沒讀好！你還要去哪裡找這樣的姊姊！到底誰還會對你這麼好啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7UUADEsZX
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JlKGDjmCY
媽媽：「你的阿媽沒有說錯！姊姊真的對你那麼好，結果你竟然對姊姊說這種話！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxAwlMF8Gz
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFg6KWxjBr
這樣子，我又要面對她們三人了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqwYkbY3Qy
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整晚沒有睡的我，又煩又氣又累，拉著房門就要緊緊關上。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcxIxjRX0z
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs6isH8ayz
姊姊卻是踏出一步，伸手用力頂著門，不給我關。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIywSacKGx
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甚至於，姊姊直瞪著我，毫不移開雙眼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwzIahyZLJ
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被姊姊這樣瞪，頓時一陣膽寒。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSkGzMcStU
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畢竟我是被姊姊從七歲一手帶大的孩子，對於和姊姊相處的實際記憶真的比媽媽還要多。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywA6VpYYYE
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所以被姊姊這樣瞪，讓我感覺比親生媽媽這樣瞪還要可怕。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0YYyqzdIi
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覺得自己真的麻煩大了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpf5Su6f2pj
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0Oa1TrsZi
我又急又怕：「放手！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGb8DwS128
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiZYjvCM1B
姊姊：「不放！你不敢說，背後一定有問題！你好好說出是和誰出去整晚！你們到底去做什麼！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANnab51n1A
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFMKSzf5Xo
我：「我已經說了，妳沒有資格問！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUTqAgAUOe
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj63PbDWnT9
媽媽出頭：「那麼媽媽總有資格問吧！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2vvx9GNwO
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOL0YevvRXm
我更是不敢回答媽媽，只能繼續用力推門，對姊姊喊：「反正跟妳沒有關係，放手啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUt8REAiPs
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqmoN8t4hM
姊姊只能喊：「我不是外人！我是嫁進黃家的媳婦！你這樣子，我會擔心啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw2su1zQf2
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我：「什麼媳婦！到底是誰的媳婦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqX91MX1vsa
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoM9uUuID6s
姊姊：「你的啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkp3k2aW3O
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUdk34Z6iP
當時的情況，姊姊不這樣說不行。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScGpCHtzsu
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因為姊姊真的會在這個黃家找不到立足之地。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLs1t3DJck
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQMDdqY9m8
只會是個來自越南卻長時間住在黃家的外人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4m9VwlnFw
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我：「才不是！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtKINEWUF0
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvsqQ0aLJe
姊姊：「為什麼不是？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIi5HLMWpC
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfw7ySPOIZd
我：「我又不是願意和妳結婚！再說當時我才幾歲啊！而且大家都知道只是做做樣子，又不是真的！妳才不是我的媳婦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1Z5u3LIhE
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlCUkUUfwF
接著姊姊的回答，我萬萬想不到。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXiZQCeQQp
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zjCjyugdS
我真的萬萬想不到。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1jofJX9re
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1y0fIMd0B
姊姊問我：「那麼姊姊搬出去，和其他男生約會結婚也沒有關係了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdUr4xdYwX
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當然姊姊是故意這樣說，為了嚇嚇我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDC2WO7pV5
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不過才十三歲的我根本還只是個不夠懂事的孩子，心臟立刻一個大跳！193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C2mVOrQfl
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這樣的心情，就像孩子聽到守寡的媽媽要改嫁。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXteOQk067
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只要是孩子，一般都會很難接受這樣的事情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYZdTNQtDq
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqQPJ22jol
到時候姊姊會被其他人搶走，姊姊就不再是我的姊姊了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RUKHOnQZm
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1Nwv59zbb
說起來，當時的我真的就像個要斷奶卻無法斷個徹底的孩子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwVNOu84tU
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRLiFhjmQI
當然我緊張的對姊姊說：「妳說什麼啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9nJWNbEMC
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRW4TXBqfGi
姊姊說：「反正我又不是黃家的媳婦，你管姊姊那麼多。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnt8V8bmcN5
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38iRhQELLd
我：「這是不同的事情啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcgsJsYaCT
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc2fhSf34n
姊姊：「隨便你吧。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswkbncA9ZK
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsI9KA6ofW
說完，姊姊還真的直接放手，不再想把我的房間門頂開，並且轉身就走。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxfE87PpP6
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRV7bPbeYxF
媽媽配合姊姊：「你這個孩子實在是啊……看看你剛才對姊姊說什麼話！姊姊真的不想管你了，還不快去跟姊姊說對不起！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrO9oqtHr3F
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEIAdY4cSg
我猶豫堅持僵持著。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNV94tGCnEe
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgl2JX7OUG
畢竟如果說出事實，我知道她們一定不會再讓我去參加車隊兜風。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLgJGZd9KH
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBqmMqZaDk
如果不說，姊姊又會變成別人的姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuElHCQIEe
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA66GdIOGOZ
我的心情真的是有夠天人交戰。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLBFhAv4Pn
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根本是逼我二選一。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmjz2LxMjA
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKbXRh2YmV
媽媽：「姊姊真的不必勉強自己一直留在我們家！現在你真的要看姊姊離開？還不快去跟姊姊道歉！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkY9OHZeq1E
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXPmvISRoo
終於，我還是害怕的：「嘖！」一聲，離開房間，快步跑去找姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYTcP8C5Vn
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姊姊坐在客廳沙發看電視，冰冷的完全不看我一眼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMG6vXT5pg
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfm8nxQlmbR
我：「姊姊。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwpv1mk45P
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姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJvUNKIG4h
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我：「姊姊，妳不要這樣。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmdEpZ9WqR
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfC15uZZPp
姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfEH6Y5kXB
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我：「對不起。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkkI1FSnUK
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姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHv05BmxGUD
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我：「妳不要走啦。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIjPKNHeSh
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姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8DjrlM9Ds
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我：「剛才我真的不是故意那樣說……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96GtHTgEXb
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姊姊終於看我：「姊姊想聽到的不是這些。是你整晚到底去哪裡？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1lecHBLjt
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我又是一番掙扎：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPQaull5Iu
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姊姊終於看我：「你從小到大，今天真的是第一次有事情瞞著姊姊。讓姊姊好難過。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrmYuvWgcZ
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我：「如果我說了，你們一定不會再讓我出去……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiK3sNLekY
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姊姊：「反正你先說，到底整晚去哪裡做什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VJlzu4qCn
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqCd9J27NC
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姊姊：「還是不願意說嗎？反正對你來說，姊姊只是這個黃家的外人吧。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdHlEZiYrF
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我：「不是那樣啦。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKUrnnJQS5
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姊姊：「那就告訴姊姊。不然姊姊真的要搬走了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimAx7uBTDz
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我只能心一橫：「昨天我是去參加車隊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsk9qHlA2e
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姊姊：「車隊？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctm2Fve4nC
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我：「整天跟大家坐摩托車兜風，只有那樣而已。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIbnGnMGbU
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阿媽擔心的問：「你跟人家去飆車？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaalvhDvVpA
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我拼命想著讓自己可以無罪開脫的回答說詞，可是就速度來說，又覺得很難辯駁：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8N4MhdC5BU
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媽媽看我的沉默，直接有罪判定，滿臉的難以相信：「你竟然去跟人家飆車……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4E97ClMdku
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我：「不是飆車啦！只是外面騎一圈而已！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5BMlLdAl0
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34KcOg9cfl
姊姊冰冷的說：「騎去哪裡？為什麼整晚才回來？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qnn8jHI84
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我：「沒有去哪裡啦……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb03VTwM6FN
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姊姊：「到底跟人家騎去哪裡？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgr72k3JcxA
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我：「就是……台灣繞一圈而已……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpm7tfAgTBZ
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姊姊略顯訝異：「台灣繞一圈？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErD9s0dhDl
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我看姊姊的反應，知道不妙了：「真的只有那樣！不是什麼危險的飆車啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDrUkxE6zP
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姊姊：「一天騎台灣一圈？所以整晚都在騎車？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQPBcZsx2Q
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阿媽再次：「哎喲！這樣不就整天在飆車！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUPMx1rxSS
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媽媽同樣受驚不小，音量非常大：「你這個孩子實在是！竟然去跟飆車族整天在一起飆車！那樣有多危險知不知道！如果出事怎麼辦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIv05XFMACn
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換阿媽哀叫：「哎喲……你這樣如果讓疼你的阿公知道，他一定會驚的血壓飆高喔……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9r0JBPI7I
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我：「真的沒有想的那麼危險啦！再說我已經參加過三次，不是都沒有出事！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfOBJktKum
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媽媽直接大聲：「以後不准再去參加，聽到沒有！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGncbyiMkfj
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阿媽：「黃家現在只有你這個獨孫！黃家還要靠你傳下去！你要是有個萬一要怎麼辦啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusX5tc50mZ
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果然，變成我最討厭的情況。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4KNTu3k06
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我只能做著沒有意義的抗議：「就是因為會這樣，我才不敢跟妳們說啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4sXvzU7c6
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姊姊接口：「你不敢說，因為你自己也知道本來就不應該去參加。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdrY1Ft0nW
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我：「但是真的沒有想像的危險！你們看我不是一直都平安回來？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMH4h1M0K2
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姊姊：「不論你說多安全，我們都不會相信。飆車本來就是很危險的事情，更不必說你才十三歲。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53qtpqle8V
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我：「所以等我十八歲就可以了，是不是？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wK6kKhqb2
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姊姊卻是直瞪著我，直接一句：「姊姊對你很失望。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZpMLJQyQo
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVYfWlSTue
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姊姊：「我一直以為你會開始懂事，會自己想……結果你竟然做出這麼危險的事情，去參加整天飆車的飆車族。姊姊真的對你非常失望。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20GBowDLTE
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6uBJ75HA6
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姊姊：「你根本還是個不懂事的孩子，完全不知道事情輕重。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxdjKs5q4J
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitOspdGU1m
阿媽也在旁邊整個憂心：「會變壞……這樣一定會變壞……哎喲……怎麼辦啦……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWi02x14pT
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我做著最後掙扎：「事情真的不是那樣……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTa4pc2SLh
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6EMvph3b9
姊姊：「反正你不准再去參加，否則姊姊就搬出去，再也不管你了，有沒有聽到？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4k0q8Ejsd5
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我還能怎麼回答？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4f79uwp8N
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只能垂頭喪氣：「知道了……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tbLr5OyvP
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當時的我，真的覺得好難過，覺得好不甘願。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUXT3451Gq
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因為我真的很喜歡騎著摩托車兜風的感覺。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Xz6vyPLoS
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現在這一切，因為我不希望姊姊離開，所以都要被強迫終止。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2rUDreuUT
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讓我怎麼接受？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC23QxxRFWU
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我自然悶悶不樂起來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfMrIVccME
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週日的這場爭吵，就這樣結束。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7DBcafJ1w
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然後，週二這一天，在外面跑生意的爸爸回家休息幾天了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JjXqvbJRz
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所以這一天放學回家，我立刻被爸爸叫到客廳。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K7L0bJeUH
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爸爸一臉嚴肅，姊姊她們三人都在旁邊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11AIcBU0pD
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雖然爸爸因為和阿公一樣整天在東南亞跑，都把我的事情交給阿媽媽媽和姊姊，幾乎沒有插手過我的教育，不過還是會在必要的時候管教我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxs3Ixrxn9
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所以我其實還頂怕爸爸的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8dzbPggxI
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爸爸開口就是嚴肅的問：「聽媽媽說，你去參加飆車族，已經好幾次和他們環島？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WoW98pW9s
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我覺得說再多也沒有意義，所以簡單的：「嗯。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1v62rObLSn
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mMp6urCOb
爸爸嚴厲罵來：「亂來！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31eopUass3
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCxFLtiAFj
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爸爸：「你以為飆車好玩啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRn3PvsDrQl
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不服氣又不甘心的我，雖然會怕爸爸，不過還是什麼都不管了，直接說：「很好玩。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLlIbZYkxo
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聽著腳下的引擎怒吼，看著二旁道路快速向後衝去的速度感，進入前方從來沒有見過的新世界，真的很好玩。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuiLGpxKeA
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我真的喜歡騎摩托車旅行的感覺。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwvqdclARD
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越是參加那個車隊，我越是著迷於那樣的感覺，難以自拔。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2P4yrtCLpd
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不過，在場四人都為我這句話：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4teVRLykBx
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真的，他們都被我一句話頂到安靜。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS5erXeKwT
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好幾秒，半句話沒有。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57L6FZhBX5
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爸爸反應回來，更兇的說：「飆車是在拿自己的生命安危開玩笑，你到底知不知道！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCC71dCgzkK
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我：「反正你們不會懂啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BvVjjG9XO
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爸爸：「是你完全不懂！真的跟個孩子一樣！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsVl8mwyUa
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我正想要給爸爸頂嘴……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAms52ODyC
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一直安靜在旁邊的姊姊：「那麼你說，我們不懂什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rLIhmiVf3
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我：「反正你們不會再讓我去了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFtTA0SGWK
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmOCO6HRzZ
姊姊：「我們的確不會再讓你去參加飆車族。可是如果你說出來，至少我們還可以懂你為什麼會去參加。是因為姊姊開始不陪你，所以你覺得一個人很寂寞嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrwX8lzHGw
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我：「不是那樣啦。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ663fZyvgWp
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姊姊：「那是怎麼樣？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVCMRULsIP
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我：「我喜歡騎摩托車。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdu3UCxAfT
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CjxKeqATC
姊姊：「你喜歡騎摩托車？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHXipstl9S
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我：「我知道你們一定會覺得那些騎摩托車的人都是壞孩子，當然不會讓我去參加。可是他們其實沒有你們想像的那麼壞。我只是和他們一起騎車，一起兜風，又沒有怎麼樣……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VOnRBuyb1
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姊姊卻是說：「我們先把他們的事情放在一邊。你為什麼會喜歡摩托車？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NN9W0KVna
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我：「你們一定不喜歡摩托車吧？是不是覺得會騎摩托車的人都是窮人？都不是什麼好人？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kdbmrWKeT
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姊姊：「你為什麼這樣問？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKum9xAhrfC
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我：「因為一定是這樣啊！否則我們家為什麼連一輛摩托車都沒有！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVD6xTz92m
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爸爸出面回答：「因為汽車載人載物比較方便，也比較安全！再說平時如果大家需要出門，媽媽會開車，不是都會開爸爸的車載你們出門？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnfRtquhta
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我：「不一樣啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Xov3X20d4
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姊姊：「哪裡不一樣？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniZIsfBRRP
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我：「摩托車帥氣拉風又自由，騎起來的感覺就是好棒！我們家的車又笨重又醜，名字也難聽又難記，叫梅塞什麼的……要怎麼跟帥氣的摩托車比！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxodIy9RGfN
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爸爸沉默二秒，口氣好許多：「梅賽德斯？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbkM02vDXt
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我：「對！梅賽德斯！聽都沒有聽過！看起來也真的有夠醜！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGguI27Otq
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爸爸：「梅賽德斯是主名，大家常知的通名是賓士。我們家二輛車都是賓士高級車款，你知道一輛多少錢嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRJptT6h3f
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當然我絕對聽過，知道是很貴的車，忍不住確認：「賓士？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp78bDcaf4P
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爸爸：「都是賓士。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvp6qBMSMFg
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下一秒，我有一種極為失望的感覺，因為總覺得賓士那樣的名貴轎車應該看起來更加不同凡響才對。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltgJzz6Pyb
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所以我發自內心回答爸爸：「好醜……真的……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5z8Wz88GL
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首先，美醜是很主觀的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkjDyGWbkV
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再來，我真的打心底覺得，賓士有名又貴到讓我很無法理解。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26YjnD3yhr
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真的，就算我已經長大成人，還是不喜歡賓士的外型，就算是賓士的跑車款也一樣……絕對是青菜蘿蔔每人各有喜好。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlvYC0fZX8
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所以這時候的我萬分的難掩失望之情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQIj030kAK
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爸爸：「賓士也有跑車款，看起來很好看。我們家二輛都是家用房車，所以看起來像一般常見車輛，不過的確都是很貴的頂級賓士。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFevIUR7El
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QP5gsARPJ
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姊姊再問：「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDfygxtH9H
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdccBerSgl
我：「摩托車很棒啊！車隊的大哥大姊都把自己的車改的好酷好炫！那是因為你們沒有看過，不然你們一定也會喜歡！坐在上面騎，感覺就很舒服！真的可以騎一整天也不會膩！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGYt6F7VlO
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他們四人，幾秒的安靜。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbwsgwU4VE
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爸爸終於說：「十來歲的年輕人，真的都會比較喜歡摩托車吧？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7bGrRCYvO
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我：「所以讓我再去參加車隊啦！他們真的只是單純的在路上騎車，沒有想的那麼危險！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2uYeqRxY1
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媽媽直接大聲：「不可能！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZCL2QWIrg
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爸爸也說：「你給我乖乖留在家裡，有沒有聽到？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpv5mAvKKPQ
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阿媽更是：「傻孫啊，摩托車騎那麼快多危險啊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAv7T7Njbo
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我還能怎辦：「我就知道！一定會變成這樣！跟你們根本白說！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhvZpybqKw
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGSj78D6sM
姊姊：「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzp9H52ssQ7
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtjK1hUsXc
我開始發洩自己被強迫阻止的怒氣：「我就是喜歡！比家裡那二輛什麼醜賓士帥氣多了！就算你們現在禁止我！但是等到我滿十八歲是個大人了，一定要回去車隊給你們看！到時候看你們怎麼阻止我！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkauCYqHRjm
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媽媽：「你這個孩子！說這什麼話！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9r8IkL3Jt
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我：「我一定會回去車隊給你們看！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlJPXfBnty
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媽媽本來想再罵我，但是看爸爸一直安靜：「你也對孩子說句話啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA155L5tIR
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爸爸卻是思考：「嗯……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39wFZjJJi8
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媽媽：「喂！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzQozsF8JC
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爸爸回答媽媽：「看他這樣，不如我先通知爸爸？不管怎樣，這件事都要讓爸爸知道，再看要怎麼處理。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkL6bPeKtv
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當然，爸爸口中的爸爸就是阿公。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VNBH1Kvk8
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媽媽：「要告訴爸爸？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjVLhqUIHa
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阿媽：「讓你的阿公知道你出去飆車一整天，還要出去繼續飆，一定要為你急的高血壓啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOtOXisTmW
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然後，爸爸播起電話，開始和電話另一頭的阿公說我的事情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBgRAGBmJE
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參加8+9飆車族。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWcKRbLrAF
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一整天的飆車，環台一圈好幾次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnL349qhzi
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還放話，長大成人之後要回去繼續飆……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIpJk9JIGR
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然後爸爸掛電話，告訴我們：「爸爸說他會把工作的事排開，搭明天的班機趕回來。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx47P2xc8hS
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阿公一定吃驚訝異又發急，否則不會放下工作立刻趕回來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNZjdr3mZB
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阿媽：「傻孫子，你自己看看，阿公為你急的……哎喲……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjY0lqB8so
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我也只能摸摸鼻子回房間，心情忐忑又不好的準備面對明天就要回來的阿公。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpc7V4UHarN
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就這樣，隔天週三，我照樣去學校上學。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUt1D4aRbTE
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傍晚回家，阿公果然已經等在客廳。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8OHiAohRy
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姊姊他們四個人，都陪在旁邊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1QQoiVPqp
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因為阿公和阿媽一樣疼我這個寶貝金孫，所以阿公沒有像爸爸一樣嚴肅板著臉。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9yKFR1Sk3
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阿公說的很溫和：「阿弟，先回房間放下書包，然後來告訴阿公怎麼回事？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRYVveWRhh
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於是放下書包的我，回到客廳。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FjaCA696d
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阿公立刻對我招手，讓我親密坐到大腿上。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CBRPDI8uP
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阿公對待我，真的一直都像對待幼稚園的小孩子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTTyuBq0p1
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可能對阿公來說，我不論長多大，永遠都會是當年那個可愛的小孫子吧。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdbusWZSnA
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於是我開始把整個事情從頭跟阿公說一次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaMApYGYal
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說完之後，換阿公問我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIESrnrcgBq
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先問我怎麼和那個車隊認識上，然後問我們都去哪裡？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2e3vlIHebW
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接著都是問一些我為什麼那麼喜歡摩托車之類的事情？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PKDrCja74
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我一直把自己的所有感受告訴阿公，並且求阿公讓我回去參加車隊，才能繼續快樂兜風旅行。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbeRmDE5jf
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阿公很有耐心的仔細聽我從頭說到完。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowszakRJQk
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最後，阿公問我：「你真的這麼喜歡摩托車？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡff7e7kLKnw
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我當然說：「很喜歡！因為看起來好帥，騎著兜風也很開心！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcSWRSCt0A
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阿公安靜：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1Rxl9oTtk
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我開始撒嬌：「阿公……讓我回去參加好不好啦？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2d6q8bRQiY
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阿公：「不可以。真的太危險。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j8xac2CCF
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我像個孩子拼命耍賴：「讓我回去啦！讓我回去啦！讓我回去啦！……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8KGva5NF9
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阿公一直微笑看著我，一言不發。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Eo0agBOtR
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爸爸很兇罵來：「不要這樣亂！大家是為你好！長大一點！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnejYcID7c
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以前阿公都會袒護我，不過現在阿公只是安靜微笑看我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLc33FLMDP
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我當然不敢再發亂：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswrSlzeM2B
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阿公哄我：「好了，去洗個澡，換個衣服，全家一起去餐館吃晚飯。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUKUU5V6w7
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我：「可是車隊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnvWuCB3TA
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阿公摸著我的頭：「乖。去洗澡。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsGJ4QOy9K
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我只好百般絕望，垂頭喪氣，前往浴室洗澡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fvk0titjr
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在離開客廳的時候，聽到阿公叫爸爸的小名：「阿忠？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTqre7wKjW
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爸爸回應：「爸？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaFht6qXnc
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阿公：「我們黃家的確只有他一個男孩。不管怎麼樣，今後大家一定要看好他。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ2ChLMgDH
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爸爸回答：「我們都知道要看好他。可問題是再過幾年他如果成年，到時候又要怎麼管？成年人實在是很難管了。要是真的搬出去，更是沒有辦法管。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsakm0xpNp
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然後我走遠，只聽到交談聲，聽不到他們到底在商量要怎麼看緊我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf37yVkm5hk
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當時我真的是感覺徹底無望啊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNF4PGFYFz
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車隊當然更是沒有辦法再回去。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezHL4mtvWD
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因為姊姊故意會在週六日一直跟著我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx90SxH2W1d
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我因為不希望姊姊離開黃家，所以也不敢再偷跑回去參加車隊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmDV4Yaup2
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可以說我在『姊姊』和『摩托車』這二個我都喜歡的存在，選擇了姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyiCbF50cC
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不過我還是會在路上有人騎摩托車經過的時候，感覺好羨慕。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9FLjTMKay
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一心想著：我一定要在成年之後想辦法買一輛自己的摩托車……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMl3QGjOPL2
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我對於摩托車旅行的慾望，真的只是暫時自我壓抑，並沒有消失。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalRAZ5M45Z
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一個月之後的這個週六。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNoozlj67F
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一大早，姊姊就出門，不見蹤影。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcenrIXYEM
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看不見姊姊，感覺就是奇怪。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvzMfCQ9RX
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因為姊姊應該會主動來跟著我監視才是？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43Zza3hS6O
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我吃著早餐，好奇追問媽媽：「姊姊呢？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRkzBwsaew
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媽媽：「去城裡。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQIN7pEHRf
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也就是說，姊姊去鄰近的城市。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQACiX7Xjg6
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我問：「去做什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlyb50SPYU
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媽媽隨便敷衍：「辦點事情。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ288QbBODxL
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於是吃過早餐的我，回到房間寫週末作業。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXopAqqKELP
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雖然我想過可以趁姊姊不在的這個機會偷偷跑回去參加車隊，不過還是因為害怕姊姊會離開而……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdLQ3CxyAI
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就這樣，下午大約二點。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mtOsDsf6Y
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我聽到響亮的摩托車引擎聲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs7ybdqpvx
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那樣的引擎聲，一聽就很不同凡響，絕對不是一般市區常見的摩托車引擎聲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEd237gO17
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如果要形容那樣的引擎聲，就像是馬匹的腳蹄，很有力的踩著地面，每次都快速踩三下：『噠！噠！噠！』，『噠！噠！噠！』，『噠！噠！噠！』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTK082tt4d
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聽起來規律、快速又清脆，非常悅耳。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMj1ojP5Ab
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尤其是，竟然不是從家門前的道路騎過去，而是騎進這個住家的廣大前院，在前院踏馬蹄。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfFT0y4wqB
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鄉下因為土地寬，像我們這樣的有錢人家一般都會有像這樣的大前院。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu6rUs3dO2
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摩托車就那樣停在前院，三馬蹄引擎隆隆作響。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy14NeO74p8
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寫作業的我立刻停筆，順著聲音轉頭，心中猜想：『摩托車？誰來了？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjlAQRA03C
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然後媽媽高興喊來：「阿弟你快來看！姊姊把摩托車牽回家了！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTKWDgHH7w
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我自然萬般意外：『姊姊？牽摩托車回家？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjZ57sNftP
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立刻拋下作業跑到前院看個究竟。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNEjVJw8XB
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抵達前院，阿媽和媽媽已經在前院看摩托車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFhTaeuNzG
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引擎正在隆隆作響的果然不是一般車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCcNmSr4kY
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至少一看外型就絕對不是路上常見的車款。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNQAMXojbn
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外表看起來很拉風，很像是賽車場使用的競技車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PQIZNYpON
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那麼是什麼車？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDbuammdQZ
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是哈雷重型機車，全球限量二百輛的特別款，現在有一輛在我家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOYx0fQhPw
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全車幾乎都是由技術師父純手工組合和調整，可以說是精密的手工品。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzjVH04pQJ
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必然是從美國出發，通過層層關卡和檢查之後運來台灣，才會一個月之久才來到家裡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YHuMjiTSD
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至於價錢，這一輛哈雷價值將近新台幣三百萬元，抵的上一輛賓士。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6H7js2U4xJ
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把這台限量款哈雷騎回來的騎士，正是一大早就出門的姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWYK6bqvts
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漂亮的姊姊穿著全黑緊身皮衣，身材凹凸搶眼，跨坐哈雷，看起來超級帥氣迷人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOds2G5ZjC9
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過去那支車隊的所有大哥和大姊頭，從車到人都跟姊姊完全沒得比。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPtGnppvmq
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我趕緊跑到車邊，興奮的又叫又跳：「姊姊！這輛車是怎麼回事！是怎麼回事！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSchVKoBIIl
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姊姊對我溫暖微笑：「阿公和爸爸買回來的摩托車。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclB3WYDBgJ
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我完全難以相信：「真的買回來？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4LZKmSa34
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畢竟一個月來，家人都沒有跟我說要買摩托車回來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYVgdTr4zM
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媽媽回答：「本來阿公是說要大家把你看好。後來是你的姊姊跟阿公和爸爸說，如果你這麼喜歡摩托車，不如買一輛回來。看姊姊對妳多好，處處為你想，你卻對姊姊說那些話……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIwlAnfakU
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我已經顧不得那麼多，激動興奮叫個不停：「哇！哇！哇！哇！哇！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphetyyH1yz
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姊姊：「帥氣嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5B2gKN9EQ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke67wZzLmq
我：「好帥！好帥！好帥！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfac3Z0qwxu
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姊姊微笑：「你真的很喜歡摩托車呢。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutAp3O5Iy4
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73Xluz0NxY
我：「買摩托車為什麼都不跟我說！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICLXWmveY7
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgj6Bsz5z7J
姊姊直接說：「因為如果這一個月你趁機跑回去參加飆車，我們就會在你眼前把摩托車賣掉，懲罰你。讓你知道偷偷做壞事會有報應。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDG6GTpqqtd
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到時候對我來說，會是多可怕的報應和懲罰啊？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ487N0O8pYK
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也幸好，今天我沒有趁著姊姊不在偷偷跑回去車隊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCheGIlg7B3
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGVz7S5dOQ
我忍不住又氣又笑：「好壞！你們真的好壞！都不說！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lQZijm3Fg
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姊姊伸手摸我的頭：「不過你一直很乖，沒有偷偷跑回去飆車。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dwTHSb37q
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我：「所以這輛車要給我騎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWI4oo9DMP
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我已經滿心騎著它到處兜風的幻想。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQL2KjZWLlO
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姊姊：「不是喔。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlnMnkYb33
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我：「不是？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZanjOBopfk
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姊姊：「你才幾歲，也沒有駕照，怎麼能讓你自己騎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEub9zBm2S
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我急的：「不讓我騎，那麼買回來做什麼啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAV9o2M2XQj
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媽媽告訴我：「姊姊會負責載你，讓你願意乖乖留在家裡。除非你成年考上駕照，否則這輛車都給姊姊騎，讓姊姊載你兜風。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i2jP8r4V2
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這就是阿公回來的那天，為什麼沒有說要買車回來的原因。不是沒有錢買，而是阿公和爸爸整天不在家，很難常常載我兜風，摩托車買回來也只是堆灰塵，相信我一定不會喜歡……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkai7ueym3
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不過我聽媽媽這樣說才想到，直看著姊姊：「啊！姊姊會騎車？妳有駕照？妳真的把車騎回來？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVRoP2jWaQ
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因為就我知道，姊姊應該不會騎車也不會開車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHlIToCddK
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姊姊：「這一個月，你在學校上課的時候我去考駕照。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrN2Bj89ekb
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我喜悅的：「姊姊好帥！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcwBp7KOuD
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姊姊又一次提醒：「你絕對不可以再去參加外面那些車隊，不然這輛帥氣的摩托車就會賣給別人，知不知道？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw54XYjJzh3
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我再問：「姊姊真的自己把這輛車騎回來？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjqMQDtenJ
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姊姊：「路上大家都在看，感覺有夠不好意思。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRknGdnc4U
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我：「因為看起來真的好帥啊！可是這輛車看起來好重，姊姊真的有辦法騎的動？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtigkczPov
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姊姊：「我本來也懷疑自己會騎不動。但是實際坐上去，發現重心很穩，腳架也很容易推動，女生也能輕鬆騎動。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmPzuLMc9o
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聽到這裡，我再也忍不住。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5GsqzvpWl
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直接伸手摸握把：「讓我騎一下看看就好！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHcg06hDhx
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就算只有一次也好，我也要帥氣的騎著哈雷限量款機車兜風！193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDxSsMjFtZ
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姊姊：「不行。沒聽到姊姊剛才說什麼嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSO5D8300P
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我：「只是在這個庭院而已，讓我騎騎看啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwdvOatTo6
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姊姊：「剛才姊姊已經說過，除非你二十歲考到駕照，否則絕對不可能讓你自己騎。如果你自己偷騎，也會把它賣掉喔。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbBYbtR95x
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我：「可是－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7pV5d65yl
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姊姊溫柔微笑：「姊姊不是說了，我可以隨時載你出門。你不相信姊姊嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WpcJTxpM3
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姊姊這樣說，才讓我稍微釋懷。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RKHHtr2vd
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在一旁媽媽說：「讓姊姊負責載你，這樣大家才會放心。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoSVV7QlEg
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阿媽也說：「對啦對啦，這樣最好，不然要賣掉喔。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTvZWceTwH
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姊姊：「戴上這頂安全帽，上車吧。姊姊先載你在附近騎一圈。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzrRXKA9Nv
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我不再多說，開心的直接坐上後座。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡya4scosESh
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姊姊：「抱緊我，比較安全。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lrN8oF1G1
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於是我親密摟著姊姊的細腰，貼靠在姊姊的背上。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFzf4M7zRa
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姊姊：「阿媽，媽媽，我們去外面騎一圈就回來。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJj3vXDTcF
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媽媽：「小心一點。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTdykQ7VHt
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然後姊姊調轉車頭，轉動油門，載我出發。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShG7ZciLha
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雖然時速只有安全的三四十公里，並且都是騎在附近的寬大省道。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzKqPo67un
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不過可以再一次騎車兜風，我還是覺得好開心。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHvefDzuzC
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當然，路上所有人還是都看著這輛車，聽著不同凡響的三馬蹄引擎聲，真的非常引人注意。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHOxZoVl2h
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就此騎著騎著，姊姊忽然說：「阿弟？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpdQGMIOKb
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我：「什麼事？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7koOrOAa6
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姊姊：「現在這輛車雖然是姊姊騎，不過姊姊其實對於自己騎車沒有興趣。所以你快點長大，二十歲考重機駕照，換你載姊姊，知道嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlpBcsliYk
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我：「好。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUP0N2flp6
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姊姊：「約好了喔？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA80E52Dw3y
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我當然說：「約好了！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKADaszrkjz
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然後，又是一會的安靜兜風。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gpXuu3MYn
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換我主動開口：「姊姊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKcvOfKdwp
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姊姊：「怎麼了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0gX6iUS6i
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我：「那一天，我對妳說那些話，對不起……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2MwUtqzrN
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姊姊：「姊姊能夠瞭解，沒有關係，你能夠平安長大，好好的成人，比什麼都重要。所以你不要再把這件事放在心上了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqI6h3ItXH
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不過我還是開口，很想要再說點什麼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMUi7jEU4l
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問題是，我到底還能說什麼？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAaSkjH2sN
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不論如何，我們家就這樣因為姊姊為我說話，買進一輛非常帥氣的哈雷機車。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1t2LTWlRQV
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由姊姊負責保管，定時騎去哈雷直屬的修車場檢查，所以保養的非常好。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA42ieIQoE8
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我當然沒有興趣再去參加那個飆車隊，因為我已經和姊姊組成一個二人小車隊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIII6xiyD2
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姊姊會在我的作業寫完之後穿上出遊用皮衣，帥氣的載我出門兜風。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nFkFj6eXG
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載我前往從來沒有去過的地方，騎進沒有去過的大街小巷，看看陌生的新世界。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcP7f0w7Ods
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甚至於，有計劃和安排的準備好帳篷之類野營用品，載我去遠一點的露營區過夜，週日下午才載我回家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLlRFKl14R
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整趟旅程，我們都會東聊西聊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xEKRKnqB2
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我都是說些最近遇到的事情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmai1ppPRN
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姊姊都會說些以前在越南的往事，或是她的父母和二位弟弟。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVjuekw1PG
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因此我對於姊姊的娘家算是有一定程度的瞭解。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvhc355d8d
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我問過：「姊姊，妳很想念越南的家人吧？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsSNqmAXhi
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姊姊：「當然會想啊。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTD7SiXKDNm
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我再問：「為什麼不回家看看？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FiJSiEv8h
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面對這個問題，姊姊沒有回答，只是沉默。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUxCcpAY83
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不過我大概可以猜想到姊姊的心。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYvY42rLGx
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姊姊一定是認為已經過來台灣黃家這麼久，加上一種難以說明白的望鄉情怯吧……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCgEzy1z1V
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所以雖然姊姊和我分房生活，不再於上下學接送我，但是因為摩托車旅行，我們的關係依然親密。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx3x3kTwAU
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真的讓我一再想起阿媽罵我的時候說的：『到底誰還會對你這麼好？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzF9h0qZ97
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忙碌於工作的阿公和爸爸不可能。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBS7LnDnoNO
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阿媽雖然疼我，不過已經有點年紀，加上必須處理很多家事，所以同樣不可能。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FBSO8AXBY
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媽媽十八歲和爸爸結婚，十九歲生下我，雖然現在才三十二歲，不過親密感沒有姊姊對我這麼好，加上必須管教我而無法對我百依百順。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iRylkb3Zi
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真的只有姊姊對我這麼好。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9cltXseRT
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因此，我再次認真思考：『姊姊對我來說，到底是什麼人？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIxTNoYcHs
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姊姊當然是沒有血緣關係的外人，不是真正的姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFrCiQIBWX
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真的要當成姊姊看待，我們之間有十一歲這麼大的年齡差距，很詭異。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpu4opqGrIo
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如果要說感情，又比一般的姊弟還要親密，絕對是姊弟以上的程度。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgOwds9JLH
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要說我和姊姊是情侶或是夫妻……問題是，我的確是由姊姊一手拉拔長大的孩子，完全無法產生那麼親密的戀愛感情。雖然我的確不希望失去姊姊，更別說姊姊如果真的交男朋友。我對於姊姊真的具有不能有第三者出現的獨佔心理。
反觀姊姊，雖然把我照顧的不像單純的姊姊照顧弟弟，因為真的照顧的太貼心，但是看起來也不像對我有明顯的男女之愛那樣的感覺。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJ66bMUM5Y
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所以，姊姊到底是我的什麼人？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT7DXxO8NE
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姊弟以上，戀人未滿，到底應該怎麼面對這樣的關係？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1n1ev8D4F
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一天天長大成人的我，就這樣開始越來越認真的給自己和姊姊的關係尋找新定位。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0vwCljVcH
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畢竟我已經隱隱感覺到，如果找不到答案，最後等著我的一定只有遺憾和失落……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrP55j0e9VL
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我們家這輛哈雷，是全世界限量二百輛的限定款。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZudPBlS4uY
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網路上專門觀看影片的網站，只要輸入這輛哈雷的型號，就能找到不少相關影片。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYxdrnkClm
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大部分的同款車都是在歐美。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6RMX89oVl
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台灣這裡，只有我們家這一輛。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITOOVP4bIx
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所以只要是和台灣有關的同款車影片，一定是我們家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEud7A0F0M
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不是我們拍的影片，是路上偶然遇到的識車人拍的。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfiI4XjXFx
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他們看到我們這輛罕見哈雷出現眼前，當然立刻開始錄影。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb7YSoFAAp
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影片中的姊姊都穿著黑色緊身皮衣，載著後座的我兜風，時速都是很安全的三十多公里而已。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7HCwQlqA1
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姊姊看起來真的帥氣又迷人，根本像是摩托車界的瀟灑女英雄。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjcO9ng6s4
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然後影片底下的留言，大都是一些車友或是愛車人，否則不會從型號找進來看影片。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVtqyRhchA
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他們發表像這樣的言論：193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylTf9IUdGy
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「哈雷重機引擎特殊的三節拍好棒！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBTz6cGaaT
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「這輛車多少？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHHZ5oVbf4
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「三百多萬，全球限定二百輛的特殊款，台灣應該只有這一輛。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4CEmnD16T
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「三百多萬？我要不吃不喝好幾年才買的起啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTqywZku6k
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「她幾歲？買的起？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2uEOO2IR7
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「一定是有錢人家的大小姐。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLHcae2MA6
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「是我的菜，我可以。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKXES8GXAK
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「不管可不可以，路上遇見離遠一點，別撞上了，當心要賣腎。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoM0zTFCUKe
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「如果是她撞我怎麼辦？可以要她用身體賠償？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxBWCPzaoU
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「朋友在路上親眼看見過。我聽他說還不太相信，竟然真是年輕女騎士……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zZP7aXirk
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「她撐的住這麼大的重機？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXcSK5y8tq
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「後座載的是誰？弟弟還是男朋友？年齡看不出來。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjiDWTKnzL
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「看他抱成那樣，應該是男朋友？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmIyuf96tx
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然後有人說：「他們的關係，你們點進去這個連結的影片看看……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoh368tnEj
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點進去連結之後，又是另一段錄影的影片。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pv7JNZ2xE
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我記得那段影片和那一天。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8czUP17wXH
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那一天姊姊載我跑遠一點，回程的時候在路邊的小七休息，買麵包飲料休息一會，忽然跑出一個三十歲左右的大哥哥。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZueqUsZHTf
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那位大哥哥穿著同樣用來騎車旅行的緊身皮衣，也是騎自己的重型摩托車出門旅行，遇到我們也在小七休息，於是趁機邊錄影邊跟騎士姊姊搭話。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvayyQocZZq
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當然，大哥哥的重機只是幾十萬元的那種大眾車……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUtCakafEJ
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大哥哥友善詢問姊姊許多這輛哈雷重機和我們的問題。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp3V4Vwg1V
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姊姊都是面帶微笑，落落大方面對。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmYR2ij7vj
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如果是關於哈雷騎起來的問題，姊姊都是直接回答。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6ga0RkeJS
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如果是比較家庭私事，姊姊會直接表示這個問題不能回答。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFSCm4SPVQ
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在一邊安靜陪姊姊的我，看大哥哥這樣一直和姊姊裝熟說話，不由得覺得討厭起來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH13hylfHi
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這樣的討厭心情如果真的要說清楚，其實更多的是：你不要隨便一直和我的姊姊搭話啦！193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUnMDDUfWg
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可以說是獨佔姊姊的心情，希望其他男人滾遠一點。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu1kfXDD3T
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所以我插話，跟姊姊說：「姊姊，回家了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduD1Zrc9wi
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之後就是我和姊姊都上車，我再次緊緊摟抱姊姊的細腰，貼在姊姊背上，讓姊姊載回家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjInlxZTRsH
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那位大哥哥一直拍到我們的背影和哈雷一起消失在路上為止。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgl1xmlZbzJ
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大致上，這段影片就是這樣。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdU0KfuLqxs
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至於底下的留言當然……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJJ7A1MqJI
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「姊姊？弟弟？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhviQycUVo
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「騙誰啊，臉蛋一看就不是姊弟，沒有血緣關係。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMxllxR051
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「年齡看起來也不像姊弟，差個十歲吧，差太多。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBa3JAHC5r
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「所以是個貼上有錢大小姐的年輕小白臉？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSfiTYmdOq
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「有可能，看他抱著那麼親密……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLtG3dOuM7
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大致上，都是一些像這樣的留言。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTM2vZnEKz
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後座的我被說成是倒貼姊姊的年輕小白臉，我其實沒有太多負面感覺。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQYT2JDuCn
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因為我自己也在想這樣的問題：『我到底是姊姊的誰？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexB7RiF1N3
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至少，大家就這樣看影片，的確也都認為我和姊姊不是姊弟，而是感情很好的年輕情侶……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqf9P9kWvE
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然後，大約是我國中快要畢業的這個晚上。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR619y6E1FF
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我們全家一起吃晚餐，看著電視的社會新聞。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSSA77g6T8
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新聞說到最近發生的一起老少配結婚事件。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITH3XM8SAh
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女方五十多歲，男方二十來歲，女方比男方年長近三十歲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIW1wVc3iW
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當然，因為他們的年齡差距，所以立即吸引我的目光。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOp7aGLb7d
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接下來，新聞記者跑去詢問一位男女關係專家，詢問關於這件事的想法。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBdxoQaclO
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那位男女專家說：『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3G5FpmEFez
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我沒有注意到當時的姊姊有沒有專心看這個新聞，她又是什麼樣的表情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FT4xslQDj
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我只知道自己看完這則新聞，總會不時想著：『所以沒有愛情也沒有關係嗎？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4qmjKLdhH
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然後，十五歲的我從國中畢業了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaExJjLJIaY
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媽媽主動問：「畢業典禮要我們出席？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKOLxZVOUc
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我說：「只是領畢業證書，你們不必來浪費時間。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB6pVU5Fnr
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我是真的這樣想，不想浪費大家的時間。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9qHvQ0p2R
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不過當年二十六歲的姊姊還是來學校，在校門口等我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7A6KuEIoh
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畢業典禮結束，我們一群畢業生被老師和學弟妹們歡送出校門，遠遠就能聽見熟悉的規律馬蹄三拍。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyFmf8Br0E
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幾名從國小認識到現在的同學，因為他們都認識姊姊，所以已經圍著姊姊聊天。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUWXjsdczz
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我萬分意外的跑上去：「姊姊？妳怎麼來學校？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8R8W1q4WGA
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姊姊：「過來載你。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqxT61075o
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我：「為什麼忽然要來載我？要去兜風？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGY9IK22qE
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頗感意外，因為姊姊對於騎車的事情總是興趣缺缺，只有我主動找姊姊載我出門，沒有姊姊找我出門。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPt4bRTO00
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由此可知姊姊對我多好，總是對於我的騎車兜風要求百求百應。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YBsOgeZgc
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畢竟姊姊真的可以不必這樣，就是把我丟著不管也不能怪她……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsxPGXwumw
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姊姊：「今天早上阿公已經回家。說要在餐廳慶祝你國中畢業，所以讓我來接你。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtTiOxhVbb
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我這才瞭解：「喔……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugOZ3bvjl8
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所以是想要給我驚喜的慶祝聚餐吧。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyglW6zF7f
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的確很像是疼我的阿公會做的事情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0gndclGEi
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然後我簡單跟這幾名老同學道別，讓姊姊載走。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtROL90jwK
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進入大餐廳的停車場之後，發現阿公個人專用的賓士已經停在裡面。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BsAzWDYwS
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和姊姊一起進入餐廳的大包廂，果然阿公、阿媽和爸爸媽媽都在。
我又一次意外：「爸爸？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjseH2jss54
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因為工作的關係，所以阿公和爸爸很少同時間回家休息。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfVmYzqK0Y
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會像這樣一起出現，往往都是什麼大事，像是發現我去跟飆車族。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYY7iXk9iHZ
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所以我小抱怨起來：「不過是畢業，又不是什麼重要大事，搞的好像很重要一樣……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5MXJ8kVW5
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阿公笑容滿面，告訴我和姊姊：「是要談很重要的事情。你們先坐，再來談重要的大事。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5zgytCoqv
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我第三次意外：「真的有大事？什麼事？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIbSDTXhzU
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阿公：「先坐。開始吃再說。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMuM14ZYMb
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於是我看姊姊一眼，想瞭解情況。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzbuDasz24
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姊姊也一臉茫然，不清楚情況。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnJjFSBzWB
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我只好和姊姊坐一起。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyoybOAWUS
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大家給自己倒綠茶飲料，然後拿起碗筷開動。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHFwhCSLBV
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吃過幾口，阿公先說：「阿弟，你也要十六歲了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx77ubB7WKT
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我說：「還有二個月。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oYUrUCRT6
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阿公：「今天大家來吃飯，也算是先慶祝你十六歲生日。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIW4oyZ1pY
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我說：「喔……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen3KQSsl7k
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這樣我還是不瞭解算是什麼大事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcZ0eWTDv2
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阿公：「阿公和阿媽本來還有生另外四個男孩。但是他們都命不好，還是孩子就夭折，我和阿媽只剩下你的爸爸。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCykU5AnOjh
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我邊吃邊說：「這件事我聽媽媽說過，本來還有二個大伯和二個叔叔。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWrN7f3w6u
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阿公：「然後你的爸媽生下你之後，就沒有再生……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RpIxa37Sp
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爸爸趕緊開口，明顯要為媽媽和自己辯護：「爸，我和阿素－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmeZLmNHMM
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阿公伸手制止爸爸說下去，並且表示沒有關係。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jakQI20cI
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爸爸發現阿公不是要怪他們，因此索性閉嘴。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7KAz13MG1
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阿公繼續對我說：「現在我們黃家只剩下你，你有讓黃家開枝散葉的責任。現在我們黃家缺的不是錢，缺的是興旺的人丁。知道嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wRFhjsFr1
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我專心看著阿公。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3P0NHe1qpS
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因為我知道阿公一定想說什麼，只是我還聽不出來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelJSUpMPok
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阿公：「我們黃家人一向早婚，最遲也會在二十歲結婚。早婚有早婚的好處，可以早一點把黃家傳下去，並且多生一點傳承的人丁出來。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjover8xguq
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我稍微有點知道阿公到底想說什麼，不過還是安靜看著阿公。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlMxToSBcE
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阿公：「不管政府怎麼規定，在我們黃家男孩十六歲就是成年，可以結婚了。當年我和你的阿媽就是十六歲成親，十七歲生下你的第一個大伯。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8i8TizhtQs
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我的心情沉重起來：「所以？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDEZKRBnYa
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阿公沒有回答我，看向坐我身邊的姊姊，直接喊她的名字：「林花，妳來黄家已經九年了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1MqqSdQ7z
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我身邊的姊姊，表情平靜：「對。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk8WfwU9An
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阿公直說：「這九年來，我看妳和阿弟的感情一直很好，也為我們黃家和阿弟奉獻那麼多……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbWlDsLj1b
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姊姊安靜聽著：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSY4wHzlU6U
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阿公直說：「如果阿弟是要娶其他女孩進來黄家，阿公真的會猶豫，因為需要時間觀察和瞭解對方。不過如果是妳，阿公可以放心讓妳成為黃家的媳婦。再說也只有妳才能完全管好阿弟，其他女孩就不知道會怎麼樣了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmmYNfu9s5
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姊姊依然沒有半句話。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTppo4gg3Ly
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我則是終於完全瞭解，為什麼今天阿公和爸爸都會在場。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrJQ1FUyGZ
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阿公想把我和姊姊的事情說出一個定論。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxV3gJsBxd
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因此我不只訝異，心情更是緊張起來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3wHlqzABm
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我再次開始自問：『我和姊姊又沒有男女的愛情，真的可以嗎？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlrjpRLlLf
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阿公問姊姊：「我們黃家不敢說是什麼大戶人家，不過我們黃家的財力妳一定很清楚。好的時候每個月百萬百萬的在賺，差的時候也有二三十萬，不是一般家庭比的起。所以這件事妳覺得怎麼樣？妳要不要乾脆正式嫁進黃家，給黃家生孩子？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAaZjFG5OW
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姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3KBGl9NYb
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阿公：「女人年過三十會越來越難生，真的就是那樣。妳今年已經二十七，不年輕，不能再猶豫。接不接受真的要立刻決定。如果妳不想正式嫁入黃家，也是時候快點開始新人生，才不會耽誤到妳自己。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N4Yr2xoCT
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所以阿公是想說，如果阿姐不打算正式和我結婚生子，就應該早點另外找好對象，對姊姊才是最好的選擇。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8P60dcv9w
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我擔心的：「阿公，你不要這樣逼姊姊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRqTXonw8Z
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阿公趁勢：「你看，這個孩子打心底擔心妳，保護妳。我們黃家有錢，還有像這樣護著你的阿弟。妳難道真的還會有什麼不滿？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rMcofKxPd
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姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7jHgSk1lU
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我：「阿公。不要這樣逼姊姊啦。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqwaQnTD1v
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFq1H36GrG
阿公轉移目標向我：「那你又怎麼想？十六歲成年的你，要不要正式娶這個從小辛苦照顧你長大的姊姊？剛才阿公已經說過，黃家只剩下你，所以你越早傳承下去越好。要是再拖下去，姊姊真的不年輕了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxckx1KImNC
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPze4Y9L2I7
我：「可是結婚這種事，要彼此喜歡啊。我和姊姊就像姊姊和弟弟那樣，沒有愛情，要怎麼一起生活？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86Xy84NL21
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阿公：「傻孫子。你認為人們結婚之後，過的是什麼樣的生活？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYxeic44RO
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我不太懂阿公到底想說什麼，所以安靜看著阿公。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsKuuQ0Ulx
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阿公：「你和姊姊的關係，在阿公來看，已經和一般的老夫老妻差不多。所以阿公才會直接在今天問你們這件婚事。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHnIzUANnh
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我：「可是我們連戀愛都沒有啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbqx7fs0r8
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阿公看向爸爸：「阿忠，你說，我們怎麼看這件事？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJh56CtsGs
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我這才知道，阿公和爸爸竟然已經議論過我和姊姊的事情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpseBmXrZM
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爸爸告訴我：「阿公和爸爸都覺得，你和姊姊已經跳過戀愛那個階段。所以爸爸也覺得，今天是應該讓阿公問你和姊姊的事。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRQvIIzghM
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我真是深感不解：「跳過？想要結婚怎麼可以跳過戀愛？沒有戀愛就結婚，那樣不是會有很多問題？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMgOq3WBz9
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爸爸解釋：「爸爸知道你年輕，所以無法立刻聽懂。戀愛從來不是為了保障婚姻一切順利。戀愛只是其中一條走向婚姻的道路。婚姻會不會有問題，從來都是看有沒有辦法長時間認真對待對方，願意和對方長時間在一起。而你和姊姊的相處，看起來完全沒有問題。所以你們如果正式結婚，不過是把名義上的姊弟轉變成為具有實際關係的夫妻。這樣你懂嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJc9T8gqsoF
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阿公也說：「接著阿公要說的話，是因為阿公已經把你當十六歲的大人看待才會說。一定要戀愛才能結婚那種事，是涉世未深的孩子才會說。真正出過社會的大人都是看對眼就好，沒有那麼多什麼戀不戀愛的。這樣你懂嗎？所以阿公看你和姊姊的相處絕對可以，不會有問題，才會在今天直接提出這件事。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgPxCCvn8k
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爸爸繼續補充說下去：「再說，先結婚再戀愛的例子，爸爸也算見過不少。所以你們二個怎麼想這件事？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhi5p1iz6qG
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我說不出半句話：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpU6q4yVCrj
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因為他們這樣說，讓我忽然間懂了些什麼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxu0IMPfAp
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讓我受到一定程度的震撼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwQuYc9ZkT
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並且開始瞭解，那晚看電視新聞，為什麼男女關係專家會說：『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQS7FBW0Gd
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姊姊安靜和我一樣：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrHj97mIH5
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換阿公問姊姊：「林花，比起阿弟，妳絕對是個更懂世事的大人。剛才我們告訴阿弟的這些話，妳覺得有沒有說錯？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSiSOk0rWU
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姊姊對於那些看法的回答，真的可以相當程度看出姊姊的心思。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuRPqcuTNx
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因此阿公絕對是故意問姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK38ugmrUC
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姊姊沉默：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3jP8W7PII
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阿公：「林花，妳放心的說。妳也已經跟著黃家奉獻九年。不論怎樣的答案，我們都絕對不會虧待妳。否則就是黃家無情，對不起妳。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYhEu2bPLd
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阿公一定是想說：就算姊姊不答應這場婚事，最後因為尷尬想要離開黃家，也一定會給姊姊一大筆補償的錢。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3v87prWRk
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姊姊終於說：「我覺得－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDp7VruLEm
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說到這裡，姊姊欲言又止，安靜打住。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBRQS4ePjk
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大家都安靜看著姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVI1BWtPuA
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尤其是我，心臟碰碰跳到自己都能聽見……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBePjIU0Ybu
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姊姊幾秒的沉默：「對於阿弟，我真的年紀太大。還是年紀相近的女孩才是阿弟的好對象。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfINT70n96
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大家沉默。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeOgGfELZz
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我更是如遭重擊，因為姊姊拒絕了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9POPcdR1S
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果然，我們終究只是姊姊和弟弟。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbKP6BgO4G
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所以姊姊為了避免尷尬，應該不久之後就會離開黃家，和其他男人在一起？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEr7qejWxP3
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阿公開口，語氣平淡，微帶遲疑：「是這樣啊？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOi8eI95jaT
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然後，阿公拿起自己的茶杯，喝口茶。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEU2sR3JmJ
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姊姊繼續說下去：「再說，阿弟剛才已經表示他並不喜歡我。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nPIgoNDuY
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沒有錯，我的確已經透過自己的疑問，表示自己對於姊姊沒有愛情存在。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJtEa4XdYp
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不過母子連心，媽媽一定有體會到我的心情：「阿弟，快把你的真正心意告訴大家。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ5MZ5reZ2
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我還在姊姊拒絕婚事的不知所措中：「我……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqPsVWuPos
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媽媽：「如果你喜歡姊姊，直接說出來，不然姊姊真的會離開喔。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwyhEV9aJO
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我不希望姊姊離開：「我喜歡姊姊！當然我喜歡啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jb04MRu3g
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媽媽：「你願意跟姊姊結婚？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrPw5zKrrb
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我：「我……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLRtQXX6Ys
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媽媽：「不願意？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzVF5VnGP5
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瞬間，我幾乎想問：『不可以讓姊姊繼續留在家裡？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡib48mZCy0V
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但是我又想到，這樣問不就表示我要拒絕婚事？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYZb43hEEb
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並且繼續把姊姊綁在家裡，限制她的人生和幸福？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysAkziGkaa
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這樣的我，難道不是很自私？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNpS0KJo4y
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再說，如果姊姊住在黃家，卻又另外交起男朋友，我能接受那樣的情況嗎？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50hNURiaf2
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所以我說：「我不知道……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMumQBU6Juf
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爸爸問：「你怎麼會不知道？你是想要拒絕這件事，還是你真的不知道？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruSYlxQhhm
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我：「我真的不知道。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXMZhRnuLA
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爸爸問出真正的重點：「你不需要管那些戀愛什麼的。你只需要說出來，你願不願意和姊姊結婚？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSLh5du0ac
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvaK5dfsv5
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爸爸：「不願意？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2REumae3xA
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媽媽：「如果你願意和姊姊結婚，這是唯一的好機會。因為媽媽整天看著你和姊姊的相處，知道只有你能留下姊姊。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLWs3190Mo
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我被問急，乾脆直說：「剛才姊姊說的，你們是沒有聽到嗎！讓姊姊勉強留下來，到底是有什麼意義啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTBeuf9gtl
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媽媽：「所以如果姊姊其實願意這件事，你就也願意和姊姊正式結婚？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZG3EOOwNTf
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我：「姊姊都拒絕了啊！一直問到底是有什麼意義！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHp8MUGhr5
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媽媽：「可是媽媽看你們，總覺得是誤會……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5ecAUPzbu
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我被媽媽這些話給說愣好幾秒。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncCBlZSU5w
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如果姊姊其實是願意，我願意嗎？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQCcJKJSi0
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但是，可能嗎？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr461Bxyj2B
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剛才姊姊不是已經拒絕我？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbGbqP4THp
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尤其是，阿公竟然也說：「我也覺得剛才我是問錯方向了……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpz1hmbCkY
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSP9L1bta9c
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媽媽轉而問姊姊：「我雖然是阿弟的親生母親，不過我終究只大妳八歲，這九年來我一直把妳當成妹妹，相信妳一定知道。雖然剛才聽妳那樣說，不過我覺得自己沒有聽到妳真正的內心話。妳真正的心意到底是什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ejTa82KVz
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姊姊安靜：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0cWX1AmJH
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媽媽：「大家日夜生活九年，真的就像無話不說的家人一樣。所以請妳任何話都直接說沒有關係。如果妳真的沒有那個意思，也請妳不要拐彎抹角，直接說。至少大家不會有誤會，阿弟也不會一直有遺憾和猜想。因為阿弟剛才說的那些，絕對知道感情無法勉強。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy6TRwF0Nz
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姊姊：「其實我……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix4AmzJH9s
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媽媽：「是的？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Z2HCnGD7L
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姊姊慢慢低下頭：「我剛才那樣說，因為我以為阿弟對我沒有愛情，沒有辦法接受我……如果阿弟真的沒有辦法接受我，我能夠瞭解，絕對沒有關係，有必要的話我可以離開黃家。剛才我是想說那些。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwj8rOpKmM
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媽媽：「所以的確是誤會了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDY2e4JfyW
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姊姊：「九年來，我真的已經覺得自己是黃家人，而不是我出生的林家人了……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbN9iWMAVE
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媽媽催促：「繼續把妳的心意說下去。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAWa66AVkW
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姊姊靦腆說著：「這件事情，我其實都看黃家的意思……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomrkksvkE0
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持續幾秒的安靜。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2rhAq8QXJ
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對我來說，姊姊根本是在說：『正式娶我，讓我成為真正的黃家媳婦吧。』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9n24xQ309y
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我吃驚又意外的完全不知道該說什麼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqLk7OzcFe
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媽媽喜悅打破沉默：「阿弟！媽媽就知道，果然是誤會！快點！跟姊姊說，你想要跟姊姊正式結婚啊！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXkeQoKF7u
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我難以置信的，轉頭看著身邊低頭的姊姊：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3yBZVQyzb
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媽媽：「快點跟姊姊說，你想跟姊姊結婚！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRmxYxH5sb
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我終於開口：「姊姊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWrLzJy8QC
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姊姊依然靦腆低頭：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSonOshat3
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我：「妳真的不會勉強和我結婚？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ982B7oire2
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姊姊微微向我轉頭：「你才不會勉強正式娶姊姊吧？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcKG7N03sN
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我趕緊說：「我是不會！但是！但是……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlBCA9iF1X
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媽媽趕緊代姊姊詢問：「但是？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNGq2BzboQ
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我：「我比姊姊還要小十一歲，現在也才這麼小，才要十六歲，姊姊真的不會討厭和我正式結婚？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIWchcJKzk
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姊姊終於完全轉過頭，正面看著我，靦腆微笑：「我已經習慣整天看著像個孩子需要照顧的你。所以你比起擔心姊姊，不如先擔心自己更像個孩子，都這麼大了竟然還需要姊姊一直看著照顧。你先擔心自己什麼時候才會完全長大吧。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVetnuuJDY
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我難掩喜悅和感動：「姊姊……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjYd1vl5GJ
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姊姊繼續說：「再說姊姊早就已經把我的所有青春歲月奉獻給了你，奉獻給了你們黃家……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAq55viuci
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSY3DfrtrWV
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姊姊：「所以姊姊更擔心的是，你真的願意和姊姊結婚？就算沒有和姊姊談過戀愛？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYqEKs2AMX
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爸爸在我回答之前，趕緊告訴我：「你不要想那麼多了，先把姊姊留住比較重要！真的也有不少人先結婚再戀愛，知道嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMAH5opjCh
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我當然說：「我願意！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuj4pbO0jq
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話都說到這裡，關於戀愛結婚的事情我決定先聽爸爸的話，暫時不管它了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmo8G7Zpsr4
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畢竟不論怎麼說，姊姊自己也願意和我正式在一起，然後姊姊都不會再離開我的身邊！193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjXt60mcXu
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所以我還需要懷疑什麼？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbCLjR09sy
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姊姊：「以後你還是要乖乖聽姊姊的話，有沒有聽到？不然姊姊會生氣。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMSItS79i4
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我說：「好！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqfxQrXTrp
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCmggE5KTQ
姊姊：「一定要繼續聽話喔？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7oFhEF2hX
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0YUEaSGIf
我說：「我一定會聽話！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoHjNILRvu
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阿公知道真的說成這件事，笑到合不攏嘴，用台語說：「我就知道這件事一定說的成！聽某嘴，大富貴！我們黃家準備大富大貴啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXEaAXRdU3
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阿媽雖然同樣喜悅，但還是趁機取笑阿公：「我說的話，你就有聽啊？難怪你只能賺那麼一點！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xS7RDEwap
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阿公：「阿忠！快！讓餐廳送幾瓶好酒來！今天真的大喜，一定要好好慶祝一下！哈哈哈哈－－－－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ15vyUExU
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大家都為我和姊姊開心不已。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3rzSaJbmq
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我和姊姊彼此尷尬難為情好一會，沒有交談，不過還是自然的迅速要好起來，像以前那樣親密的無話不談。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWrS5hszE7
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甚至於，感覺自己跟姊姊好像真的更加親密了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBZyeAGY7k
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所以過去幾年最困擾我的問題：『我和姊姊沒有經歷過愛情，如果真的要在一起，我應該怎麼面對姊姊？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQH44YqsJq
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現在我已經完全知道應該怎麼面對。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bgmZ4oH8A
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答案正是：『根本沒有必要去煩惱這個問題。』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfCud2kIOj
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我和姊姊的親密感情，不會改變。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpXBMhPGG1
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我們九年來的感情，的確已經是跨越戀愛的家族親情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9eZtkfvne
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阿公他們做的，真的不過是讓我們完全湊在一起。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsf97oSCuFW
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就這樣，我和姊姊終於決定正式成親了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlp7gD6iNPN
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因為七歲的時候我和姊姊已經舉行過正式婚禮，所以在我十六歲生日那天家裡簡單準備三牲五果，讓我和姊姊一起祭拜黃家祖先，告訴祖先我已經成年，現在要和姊姊真正成親。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmaqzm317Q
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阿公想要早點抱到黃家下一代大孫，加上擔心姊姊再拖下去會成為年過三十的高齡產婦，所以一直明示暗喻的希望我和姊姊快點完成好事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡai9A9siOcX
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就在我入讀高中的前一天，正好是月底發下個月零用錢的時候。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1drRX8gR2o
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掌管全家金錢的阿公回家休息，順便把我和姊姊叫到客廳。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFrxnhiEGy
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阿公先是對姊姊說：「今天開始，家裡不會給妳每個月五千元的零用錢。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVM4upUw7p
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姊姊安靜聽著，沒有一句話。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vHi4jJWvX
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我意外：「不給姊姊零用錢？為什麼？姊姊有做錯什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5b8aPru49P
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阿公從胸前口袋拿出二張名片般的塑膠卡片：「來，這個給你們夫妻。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEP0ywI1r5
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我和姊姊安靜接過，都是一樣的信用卡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXN8R5CWVKz
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rthO7AAXz
阿公：「那二張卡是同帳戶的對卡，每個月最多可以刷二萬元，也可以提領小額現金出來。你們省著點用，學會節儉才是真正的持家之本。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUy48QlABz
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我這才知道，姊姊不是做錯事，是因為我們的夫妻身份一起升級了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcC0YdiAi0
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並且阿公可以透過每個月寄來的刷卡帳單，瞭解我們的支出詳細，必要時對我們進行相關詢問。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2F5d1dJE1W
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姊姊：「謝謝阿公。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvb2heQmZ6X
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我也說：「謝謝阿公。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkoc7lu2qJ
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接著阿公拿起茶杯，順便無聲示意要我們繼續留下，所以我和姊姊只能乖乖坐著等待。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin9Lc7qTkn
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阿公喝口茶，開口詢問：「你們到底是怎麼回事？都正式拜過祖先，卻還是一直分房睡？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu71hBClCsZ
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZqwi7A5Ds
我趕緊說：「沒有啦。只是覺得暫時這樣比較好。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfyKlxNdOE
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阿公：「那一天阿公已經和你說的很清楚，姊姊已經這個歲數。另外我們黃家缺的不是錢，缺的是興旺起來的人丁。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkqHeaPlQj
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我：「我知道。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkTcDRbKbE
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阿公當著姊姊的面，直接問我：「那件事你會覺得不好意思是不是？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEssyWRWelw
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我趕緊說：「因為我才這個年紀，才要讀高中，真的覺得生孩子這件事－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCTVaOqQKD
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阿公冷冰冰的一段話頂來：「孩子是會讓你負責帶？你在學校不說又會有誰知道？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiq9tUkwHE
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畢竟是在鄰鎮，也都是些不認識的外地同學……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ELkuyTa9o
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再說，孩子必定是會由阿媽、媽媽和姊姊養育，就像小時候的我一樣。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwA3mdBmAl
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我無話可答：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8p1Rbca1V
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阿公：「明年你十七歲。阿公十七歲的時候，生下已經無緣孝順我和阿媽的大伯。你要給阿公拖到幾歲？再說，你和姊姊像這樣獨睡，男人不男人，女人不女人，陰陽怪氣的不健康，真的好嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEnHez2WEu
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfT7oMosXa
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阿公：「這件事，你到底想要怎麼回答阿公？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWAoDynGeP
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以前阿公疼我，所以都是溫溫和和。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2fa6cC3R2
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現在，我真的感覺到來自阿公的魄力和壓力。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXkAqGagOa
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我深深體會，這件事不給阿公交待，阿公絕對不會放過我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuLylwrynU
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相信爸爸和媽媽一定也有承受過這樣的壓力。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUuegBIXmF
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不過我和姊姊還是沒有進一步發展，依然維持以前的分房生活。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbV7b7SQuM
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主要是我知道自己還只是高中生，加上心情沒有整理好……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BFHhGf66k
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我和姊姊就這樣繼續一天拖過一天，過著『有名無實的夫妻生活』。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiy0POrLH4W
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阿公也『有嘴說到沒口水』，只能唉聲不斷……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFxSDNFNXY
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事情再次出現變化，是在我讀高中二年級那一年，十七歲的聖誕夜。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOhVH5xRFz
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姊姊騎車載我進行長途旅行，從南部老家前往台北市參加聖誕夜晚會。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHxWzvVS6N
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熱鬧的聖誕晚會結束之後，又前往入住的國際級大飯店，參加飯店收費舉辦的跨夜晚會。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3i3WxzSqD
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非常熱鬧，很多人都聚在一起唱歌、跳舞、吃大餐。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK9Z2fB4Tx
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甚至有熱情的情侶當場擁抱熱吻。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtHDHw9q57
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我和姊姊也在人群中和大家一起開心。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9nn5kfh7Q
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因為飯店有提供一種雞尾酒，喝起來又甜又清爽，很接近摻糖的乳酸菌飲料口感，一點都不像是酒類。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UKShNSyBz
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我和姊姊開心的一起喝多。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwT6WrFMm7
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然後就……你懂……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNGF20044z
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我和姊姊都只有一點點記憶，不記得是怎麼開始，只記得是一個充滿溫暖笑聲的愉快自然夜晚。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYO0Eqk2sH4
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大量酒精真的徹底解放我們的心。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFb906tLrL
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隔天中午，我們在姊姊的房間清醒，當時你說有多尷尬就多尷尬，完全不知道要跟對方說什麼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNwsctneBL
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一直到整理好行李退房，騎著哈雷回程南下，我照樣摟著姊姊的細腰，我們才又開始談話。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdRY4IsYOk
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迅速恢復以前的親密感。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22EtMlOnJ3
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甚至於感覺更加的親密。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYq1eJhSexk
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我們都沒有問：怎麼辦？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19WJLAR2oQ
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姊姊和我都知道，正式拜過祖先報告了，真的也不需要怎麼辦。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAenHWetu08
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就這樣自自然然的一起面對這件事吧。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqs3czbn7s
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不過回家之後，我們還是什麼都沒有跟家人說。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNkrcqDina
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畢竟覺得這樣的私事，加上是意外，不需要特意去說。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvEEX5wJmU
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我和姊姊繼續分房，恢復以往那樣的生活，像是什麼都沒有發生過。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmfCl9Cct0
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直到一個多月後的農曆除夕，全家六人一起圍爐吃團夜飯。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26p72wBmKY
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大圓桌上面各式菜色都有，非常豐盛。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXtK3PdckM
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大家開動之後，阿公拿出一瓶高級洋酒，開瓶給大家倒一杯。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46TZvj8QAK
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阿公說：「大家喝杯迎春酒。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9A47yGFTO
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姊姊忽然說：「我不能喝酒。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygI2Z7w6Xb
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媽媽一向把姊姊當妹妹對待，關心詢問：「腸胃不舒服？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPrcJmFe5q
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姊姊沉默幾秒，才尷尬說出：「我有了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYlWBzKjaM
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大家：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSYChlSypx
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我相信，大家一定都聽出來姊姊說的是什麼。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYniyCuCBs3
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我受到的震撼更是深。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nh9TWSxC9
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我一直在心中問：『聖誕夜那一晚？姊姊真的有了？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALnS2x0aHA
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畢竟我和姊姊也只有那一晚。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmuiFgmynY
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媽媽緊張的進行最後確認：「妳有了什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqhLTuCxMy
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姊姊：「孩子。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReWKzkOjJ1
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媽媽：「真的有了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8tqLXx9k4
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姊姊：「嗯……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9jtoROm8q
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阿公認真直問：「誰的？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhQChu3r5i
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我可以瞭解阿公為什麼這樣追問。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mauQ1Iqse
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因為我和姊姊跟以前的相處都一樣，沒有變化。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJGOG20osx
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如果我是阿公，一定也會半信半疑的追問確認，避免誤會……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbleRcChznN
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姊姊安靜幾秒，露出尷尬笑容：「去問你的寶貝孫子。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoUwdReLTs
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阿媽驚喜的：「唉呀－－－－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8sTQ0Jly9
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阿公等待這天一年以上，同樣喜悅的：「哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwPMpWMuWY
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爸爸直接伸手，開心萬分的在我頭上亂抓：「臭小子！看看你！真的讓爸爸我當阿公啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjusYfKfBq
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媽媽則是出於好奇，一邊喜悅一邊問：「怎麼回事？看你們平時在家裡都一樣啊？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1BDJygsPn
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爸爸笑著說：「你管他們夫妻那麼多？是妳的金孫就好啦！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbsLU902ph
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我讓二十八歲的姊姊懷孕，家裡肯定沒有人料想的到這麼快。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugkWru2Nr3
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阿公感動萬分：「這麼說，今年的團圓飯，我們黄家已經是七人同桌？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAhIfCqUiw
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阿媽心花怒放：「明年團圓飯就能見到大金孫的面。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJ4WyhXXpi
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阿公：「快！把她那杯酒拿掉，換果汁！今晚大家好好的喝一杯！黃家真的要開始人丁興旺啦！乾杯－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAENXZbRe6
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所有人都拿起自己的杯：「乾杯－－－」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpmrhsBCYa
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今年的團圓飯充滿熱鬧歡笑聲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOyXZBRNoT
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他們都萬分期待姊姊的生產。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIy7HxmPYa3
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二十八歲的姊姊頓時取代我，成為家裡最受寵的人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0McngMbuJ
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大家怕姊姊餓到，怕姊姊累到，怕姊姊生病，怕姊姊受傷，絕對不讓姊姊做事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNeM7tEU9B
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給姊姊吃的補品和山珍海味更是不必說，想吃什麼有什麼，多貴都會買回來。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHEQwboUUT
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至於我，依然和姊姊同樣分房睡，沒有因為姊姊懷孕而同房。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdozBsfthsQ
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並且一天天看著姊姊的肚子變大，心情複雜的唯有死心接受事實。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogkeNp4EoC
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就算我有意拖著，最後還是讓姊姊大肚子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWfgzNfcmw
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我真的只能說，早婚早生果然是黃家男性的命運……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTE8DIbpOql
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升上高三之後，姊姊順利給黃家生下一個健康的白胖男孩，黃家的下一代繼承人。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrt98d6WaPI
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十八歲的我成為一個嬰兒的爸爸，照阿公的意思把黃家傳承下去，我的高中同學都不知道這件事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhAOBC0Q4R
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我和姊姊真的只有聖誕夜一起意外睡過那麼一次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZXYrQRIbT
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卻讓我們一起踏上人生下一個階段，成為一個孩子的父母。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8GSGaoOK9
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醫院私人病房內，我抱著自己和姊姊的長子，真是完全不知道應該用什麼樣的心情面對。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBINymGZLj
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反觀其他人，抱著這個黃家下一代都是高興萬分。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0i7wSJrFTm
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升格當阿祖的阿公，更是抱著黃家大金孫盡力疼愛，開心到合不攏嘴。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmPBd4LIAd
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黃家最受寵的人，自然又從姊姊變成我們的孩子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKcAUFUTzy
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把孩子從醫院抱回家，黄家開始日夜可以聽到嬰兒哭聲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuhL7GjL1t
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阿媽、媽媽和姊姊輪流照顧。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoRunZqBJ4
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房間的我，半夜睡覺更是被客廳傳來的啼哭聲吵醒好幾次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ041TevFwzy
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我雖然聽的煩，還是心想：『反正不是我在帶孩子，就這樣吧……』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcP325KV3U
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姊姊就此一邊照顧我們的孩子，一邊陪伴我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjzPmVTEX8
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對姊姊來說，肯定像是有大小二個孩子需要看著……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxQmmITwIr
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隔年六月，我從高中畢業。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaCBqu48YB
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雖然我有報考大學，但是我對於是否就讀大學有疑問。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSC6b1QvpWK
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另外，也是因為我覺得自己和姊姊的關係『該是時候了』。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumv5QrwnVq
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於是我把姊姊約出門兜風，表示有事想要和姊姊好好談談。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV0ToXYvF3
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黃家的大前院，阿媽和媽媽抱著大金孫，目送我們騎哈雷出門。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQokboOA7Qs
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姊姊邊騎哈雷邊問我：「你想找姊姊說什麼？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySpSCkmRl1
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我說：「妳覺得我不去讀大學好嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRXq6CEoBy
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姊姊：「你不想讀大學？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx5XMMW845
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我：「我想跟阿公和爸爸一起出去工作。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5msKEn4PjK
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姊姊：「為什麼？你不是報考了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBbcvRLR82
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我：「首先是我對於讀大學沒有什麼興趣。而且他們都沒有強迫我讀大學，讓我想讀就去讀。再來是因為我看著姊姊妳照顧小孩，越來越覺得自己應該跟著阿公爸爸去家裡的公司工作。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYKOxN10qt
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姊姊：「和他們說了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnSlQgvgo2
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我：「還沒。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3InUgypsj
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姊姊：「你沒有勉強自己工作吧？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTa9EN38oPp
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我：「沒有。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2d1oysIVUL
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幾秒的沉默。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8B0GgV8iH
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姊姊終於說：「孩子的爸爸，加油喔。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVubvJsRUse
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我：「…………」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQs3dQaEk6
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姊姊：「怎麼了？還有什麼事想要說？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCmJeXuBU3
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我安靜的，確定路上幾乎沒有人車，開始大起膽子移動雙手。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywGlu7rNyH
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摟著姊姊細腰的雙手開始向上方移動，摸著姊姊豐滿的胸部。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRFGJkRVhU
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真的好豐滿……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MEDaYfF2T
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聖誕夜怎麼樣，我不記得了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyGNdngloB
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不過從小到大除非不小心碰到，否則我都沒有碰過姊姊的胸部。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pl8tn4H5U
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姊姊安靜幾秒：「你的手？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYkGDY9fhp
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我怕被罵，有點緊張：「姊姊，我在想，我都已經高中畢業，快要十九歲，也要去工作了……我們像以前那樣恢復同房好不好？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgm3YKJYYq8
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姊姊沉默的把哈雷騎進路邊的無人小巷，停在路邊，一定是避免被人看見我摸胸部。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBtaeQU4pC
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我緊張不安：「姊姊，妳不願意嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhHFYSFGdP
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姊姊看出我很緊張：「都生下你的孩子了，你還在擔心什麼？只是孩子還是會在半夜哭吵，我會需要常常半夜出入，到時候一定會吵到你睡覺。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cZVMDWYVm
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我：「喔……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSmTLY5Kr5
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姊姊再問：「另外，你的手……你是在跟姊姊求愛？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTC9sQg8Fh7
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我終究是個年輕男性，當然會有慾望，會對那件事充滿興趣。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aUevsacNS
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一年多以前的聖誕夜，意外和姊姊發生關係，我就開始一直想著這件事：『反正都跟姊姊發生關係了……』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXLvaPiMXZ
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簡單說：我想要再跟姊姊上床一次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmP8ZUM2yHj
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一直沒有再行動，的確因為覺得還是高中生，又害怕姊姊會反對抗拒，所以猶豫再三。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcbdN1G96J
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然後，姊姊忽然在團圓飯宣告懷孕，讓我只能完全打消念頭，不敢碰姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4nKdOQeK7
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不過現在，孩子已經出生，高中畢業，也要出社會工作了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCch4tEPktD
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所以我緊張的用這種方式告訴姊姊：「反正我們都有孩子了？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTSk7Ua9Ac
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姊姊大方的說：「姊姊已經知道，放開手，衣服被妳弄濕了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZdLMBBKSS
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我：「衣服弄濕？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaX0peAzG8s
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姊姊：「忘記姊姊一直在給你的孩子餵母乳？你這樣抓，皮衣裡面的胸衣已經濕掉，感覺到涼涼的。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWSoaJa9HE
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我趕緊放手：「啊，對不起……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SqS5v02Ur
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姊姊：「找間汽車旅館清洗吧。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPQFJ3RfQC
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聽到姊姊這樣說，我鬆口大氣。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKFuGMSDyA
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因為不可能單純去汽車旅館。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyWhMELXXX
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姊姊明確的給綠燈。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVTDc5u3Yp
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不愧是二十九歲的成年人，很大方的面對。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqI01vXTIe
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也一定有想過我像這樣正式求愛的情況，才能反應的這麼迅速自然。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGg6gUjVDX
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於是我像以前那樣重新摟著姊姊的腰。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwc58WuLabQ
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姊姊把哈雷騎回大路，載著我繼續走。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MfCp3mwWf
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又是一會的安靜。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMq5wnrqMj
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姊姊忍不住嘻笑起來：「明明都已經是一個孩子的爸爸，卻還像個害羞的男孩呢，呵呵……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd88m0TQxH0
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我只能說：「我會盡快長大啦。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga1UyCN6Wg
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哈雷就此騎進路邊遇到的第一間汽車旅館。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMJAQi33rq
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正式拜過祖先的我們，一起開房間了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRPt2OkcZH
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明明身上帶有足夠現金，姊姊卻特意用阿公給的信用卡刷卡租房間。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1IJVF85j2
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哈雷停進一樓車庫，我和姊姊一起上二樓。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFoL4cgC9z
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姊姊先去坐到電話旁邊，撥電話回家。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyMsOFhXEN
193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1PLlOrFeh
姊姊：「阿媽？我和阿弟正在一間叫做春田的汽車旅館，今天可能會晚點才回去……我知道夜路危險。如果太晚，我們明天再回去……孩子要拜託妳和媽媽照顧了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU970K9LQHV
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當時我看著姊姊電話回家，光明正大的跟阿媽報告正在汽車旅館，真的很訝異，不瞭解姊姊為什麼要通知家裡。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvcWfijJvQ
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之後我慢慢想，才想懂姊姊的用意。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSwgqJY58E
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信用卡的帳單寄回給阿公，就會從刷卡明細知道我們去汽車旅館，避免阿公又追問起生孩子的事情。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD73uUZ5Whm
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電話回家連絡阿媽和媽媽，是類似的道理。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj1OmouMZ2
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他們所有人就會明確的知道我和姊姊關係再次不同。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEobPHbfHGD
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這樣就算我和姊姊再次同房，或是比較親密的舉動，他們也不會太意外。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbinmlQksgE
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所以二十九歲的姊姊真的是個成熟女性，知道怎麼好好的處理這些家務事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHEcUpiy6j
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那麼十八歲的我呢？什麼時候才會完全長大成熟？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36akjRq84t
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不論如何，害羞的我和大大方方的姊姊、就在這間旅館度過生命中的第二次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOLLamsOun
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並且是完全清醒、沒有酒精作用的第二次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBpMKfNB4E
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在親密的笑聲中彼此試探摸索完成的第二次。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsZ3dahhVN
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我和姊姊就從這一天開始，成為真正擁有親密性生活的夫妻。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbB8GzDW6f
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我們之間，不再有任何心理障礙和隔閡了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGFxYlteVG
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我果斷放棄大學。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbu6ySrXLuy
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正式出社會跟著阿公，讓阿公教我做生意的道理和訣竅。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyOMXwJt9r
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平均四天回家休息二天，和守在家裡的姊姊團聚。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNkrCtvd0e
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男人在外工作打拼，女人守在家裡照顧孩子，如此生活的確是我們黃家的寫照。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDp2FL6UC1
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只是，就算是家裡可以關上門的房間，和姊姊親熱我還是會覺得尷尬。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ222f94KBQi
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畢竟阿媽、媽媽總是在家裡，她們多少一定會察覺。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tpbMCwbcH
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所以只要我說：「姊姊，我們騎車出門兜風？」一定會順便去汽車旅館刷信用卡報到。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczroS6gpw7
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因此有我定時播種，姊姊很快又有了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF99vwPjWD
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我二十歲那年，姊姊再次生下我們的第二個孩子，也是黃家的第二個大金孫。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM9VzOuBw0
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我成為二個男孩的爸爸。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9ms1vgeNF
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阿公真是太滿意這樣的情況。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dbZ0qzCGS
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二個寶貝大金孫左擁右抱：「黃家的未來都靠你們這對寶貝兄弟了！」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaRYiWSGk4
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甚至於，阿公特意把我和姊姊的信用卡金額上限調高，擺明要讓我們盡情去汽車旅館做人。
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我和姊姊也只能：「嗯……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5WreF8i4U
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不過我還是和姊姊一起回到房間之後：「姊姊，雖然剛才阿公那樣說……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UxjMIUWaG
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姊姊沒有反對和討厭，只有淡淡回答：「我也已經三十一歲了。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡighjR3JPQs
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我不明白姊姊的意思，所以看著姊姊。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTilVr0Vhk
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姊姊微笑：「我的確像阿公說的，沒有幾年機會了……孩子的爸爸，加油喔。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJL7QLqYQ0
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姊姊都這樣說，我還能怎麼辦：「好吧……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaFxINdeWX
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就這樣，我和姊姊不多想，能生就生。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpUNQvZvpF
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從我十七歲開始直到二十五歲的這八年，我和姊姊成為三男二女、總共五個孩子的父母。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1p44eigi1Z
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姊姊將近一半時間都在懷孕中度過。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwwyoK8IPH
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總是生產之後幾個月，肚子又開始隆起。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAJuGNeCwS
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為了一直給陸續出生的孩子餵奶，乳汁沒有中斷分泌。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgz8eqBNFx
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姊姊就這樣生到第五胎的三十六歲，踏入醫學上受孕機會低的高齡產婦年齡，肚皮才自然的不再有反應。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoJiyHSL8G
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至少給黃家增加人口這件事，阿公很滿意。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrnADHft0a
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八年的時間，我和姊姊的確完成阿公的期望了……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKkNiwrfnn
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現在，我二十八歲。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXodRjeGll
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我和姊姊的長子十歲了。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvUZD92ZQe
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算是已經長大懂事，會開始好奇的想要瞭解更多世事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAccC3MW4cV
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他終於在我回家休息的這天，拉著弟弟妹妹問我：「爸爸，你為什麼都叫媽媽為姊姊？姊姊為什麼都叫你阿弟？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TUKETaXbH
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你認為，我應該怎麼回答孩子？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshlWptQzSX
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我當然說：「因為爸爸在七歲的時候就和十八歲的媽媽結婚，讓媽媽照顧到這麼大，當然要喊媽媽為姊姊，被媽媽喊阿弟。」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMkgFMEjsM
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沒有錯，不論我幾歲，都覺得姊姊一直像對待小弟弟那樣照看我。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjkx3dxX5c
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長子很困惑：「爸爸七歲，媽媽十八歲，結婚？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA3AnMs6Vg
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我問他：「奇怪嗎？」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDye6wOuq0
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長子乖乖點頭。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlDAIP6rtV
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於是我開始把自己和姊姊的故事，說給我們的第一個長子聽。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqFiWgHhWp
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讓他知道自己的爸爸媽媽到底是怎麼沒有經過戀愛，卻還是一直在一起……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwjQk2SY7K
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那麼接下來我還能說什麼？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENxtw0jlM2
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我真的已經沒有太多可以說。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23rA9tAZJm
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七歲病弱的我，娶十八歲的姊姊沖喜，讓姊姊親手照顧長大，再於十六歲的時候和姊姊正式結成連理，十八歲生下我們的長子，後續幾年再生下二男二女總共五個孩子。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89NkY3M6aD
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十八歲為錢來到黃家的姊姊，本來想找機會逃跑，卻因為不忍心看還是個病弱孩子的我無助啼哭，開始接受我，日夜照顧我，漸漸的融入黃家的生活，最後給黃家生下五名重要的下一代。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCYMX8PPp4
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我們之間，一天天培養出來的深厚感情當然有，不過戀愛般的愛情絕對沒有……193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aiVR250tE
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你也會覺得我和姊姊的夫妻關係真的奇怪？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUCyBgoeiO
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年齡相差太多的男女，絕對不可能有未來？193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawt2zS17qI
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我不知道你會怎麼想我和姐姐的事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAyqmhZUwd
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我只知道自己和姊姊一路走來，覺得男女關係專家真的沒有說錯：193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuo0Zs1yqst
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『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4MEiMt5ZT
真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJPmbmy59d
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愛情真的像爸爸說的，只是通往婚姻的其中一條道路。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptMWyByhQg
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維持一段婚姻的從來不是愛情，永遠都是在於是否用心對待對方。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMLV0Fullw
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有心了，把對方當成自己的另一半照顧陪伴，自然能刻骨銘心，自然能長久。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXfsXcyUoa
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這才是家族親情和婚姻的真諦。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqks9d4W26M
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因此我沒有什麼可以再說。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kgBoJzHKT
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再說下去，恐怕就是那五隻兔崽子怎麼又吵又鬧又合作的興旺黃家的故事。193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8QBWbNgVh
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所以現在我唯有說：「這就是黃家屬於我和姊姊的故事了……」193Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qfSD90sH0
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