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近現代／家族／愛情親情／日常／姊弟搭配197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaghSrb4Tv5
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＝底下正文開始＝197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVQ8Br0zrH
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現在我要說的故事，真的非常平淡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOGS6yi162
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沒有太多的激情，也沒有太多的熱血，更沒有太多的戲劇性衝突。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuPZNTmYS6
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都是些再平凡不過的家庭日常生活。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnl3EmdewDk
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現在我就要開始說了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStp55uqRta
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我出生在南部小鎮的富有家庭。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmouwzagj6
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我們黃家目前連我在內總共五個人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEybvoJ5H0
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我，爸爸，媽媽，阿公和阿媽。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWkr1os65W
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阿公和爸爸都是商人，在整個東南亞經營運輸和貿易生意，到處都有據點。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgI35dQrRP
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常常早上還在泰國，下午就到菲律賓，明天又到另一個國家，所以一般都會好幾天才回家休息一次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKfAH8Qr4A
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做的生意，就是在各國之間進行貨物運輸和販賣。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8LGHQDWbL
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阿媽和媽媽雖然不必在外面奔波，不過還是要負責在家裡幫忙處理整理重要的公司文件。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu86vCjA2v0
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可以說我們黃家是個商業家族。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIy6hJ71jd
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自然是這個小鎮最有錢的家庭。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EIMQ9ry7i
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所以鎮裡如果辦什麼活動需要錢，往往都會來家裡商量，請求我們家幫忙贊助一點。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2g1SKjzbG0
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所以我們黃家對於這個以務農為主的小鎮來說，是個非常特殊的存在。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Nkaer8dU1
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現在既然說到我出生的這個小鎮，我不得不說它真的是個非常單純純樸的地方。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwipQFbbGmh
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一片又一片的農田，一隻又一隻幫忙農作的大水牛，還有到處奔跑嬉戲的活潑孩子們……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZVSvdpBcB
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但是同樣是孩子的我，只能乖乖留在家裡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQwfZ6v0jh
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因為我自從出生就體弱多病，總是大病小病不斷，不是去醫院就是乖乖留在自己的房間養病。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3bdvomsxR
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各大醫院給我看病到最後，醫師都說我的問題是：先天抵抗力低落。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMws99JUON
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怎麼治療？沒有徹底的治療辦法，只能希望我的抵抗力會有自然好轉的一天。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bwuujNCJq
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因此西藥我從來沒有少吃過，昂貴的中藥補品更是三餐，童年的我真的是個大藥桶。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQI2dYucmx
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也幸好，我們黃家很有錢，沒有這方面的問題，否則多病的我恐怕早就已經被放棄。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71X13MBldU
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不過，沒有讀過什麼書的阿媽還是為多病的我著急萬分，不時責怪我的媽媽，讓媽媽受盡委屈。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBkBmi42uz
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我就因此記得媽媽被阿媽罵到哭的一段記憶。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uaLs6yDmC
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當時我七歲，發著四十度高燒，躺在自己的床上病懨懨。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaHNqUddak
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二十六歲的媽媽坐在我的床沿，一邊聽著阿媽不停的責罵，一邊流著眼淚用濕巾為我擦涼身體。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiceK5VvFB
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阿媽責罵媽媽知道自己身子虛弱，常常感冒不適，還敢嫁來黃家生下我這個最重要的長子，把病弱的體質傳進黃家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMovgc92wyU
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阿媽責罵媽媽生下我之後就像個石女，再也生不出來，讓黃家只有我這個體弱多病的長子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjmyWdb7sJ
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甚至於，阿媽責罵出身貧寒葉家的媽媽沒有半點自知之明，不安本份的嫁入黃家，肯定是為了黃家的錢勾引爸爸。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9e6TgoMTh
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所以我相信，當時媽媽的處境一定比我還要難受。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMy6iAH0kN
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如果不是為了我這個親生孩子而隱忍，才二十六歲的媽媽恐怕已經被阿媽罵到離開黃家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWsY17ZqhD
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就這樣，這場把媽媽罵哭的大責罵結束不久，在外面跑的阿公和爸爸回來了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUfDryayjr
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因此，我的生命就要再次不同。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99g7PSiaaj
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我的阿公，就是現在這個黃家的一家之主。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfILte7se9r
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雖然阿公沒有讀過書，但是很會做生意，算是東南亞貿易圈的一號人物，所以把事業做的很大，賺錢的速度就像轉開水龍頭。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNl9ghlzPE
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阿公坐到我的床沿，疼惜摸摸我的臉，然後叫著媽媽的小名：「阿素？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQPao612ZD
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媽媽和爸爸站一起：「爸？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuclbUNEww0
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阿公：「前陣子妳被罵的事情，剛才妳的媽媽（阿媽）都跟我說了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIC44XnBGl2
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媽媽：「嗯……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZk1JmLwVhP
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阿公：「媽媽是心急孩子忽然又高燒，不是有意把妳罵成那樣，原諒媽媽吧。妳絕對是我們黃家的好媳婦。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtQmo1U0hR
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阿媽安靜站在阿公身邊，不發一言。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnokjdPZjpz
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媽媽則是低下頭，眼淚又一次滾出來：「我知道……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUerrkfIiaY
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阿公：「那麼來說正事。孩子的對像我們辦好了，是個不錯的對象。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRYfbSwKpT
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媽媽擦掉淚水：「已經辦好了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3BXWBra3n
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阿公：「去他們家看過，互相說過所有情況，把一半的聘金給他們。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolIsZwRNXm
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媽媽：「她什麼時候會來家裡？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61HH7E3VTB
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阿公：「下個月的九日她會來台灣。二天之後的十一日是師父說的吉日，正式迎娶入門。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkpY22j55N
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然後，大家安靜好一會。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hcL6KFSfr
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阿公疼惜的一直看著我這個病弱躺著的獨孫。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnfHW5YaBM
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直到媽媽打破沉默：「爸……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dnNDbCZrc
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阿公：「什麼事？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1P6WqeXC0f
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媽媽：「這樣做，真的好嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrtB3zCB2g
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阿公：「阿素，你應該知道，這是沒辦法的辦法了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcaeXgPDzi
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媽媽：「我知道……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8BZF5xiGy
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阿公：「到處跑醫院都沒有用，醫生就是沒有辦法完全治好。只能照宮廟乩童說的這樣做做看，給孩子沖喜了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGIkiOoAW5N
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媽媽：「但是孩子還這麼小，就要讓他娶妻……會不會對他的未來怎麼樣？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6MmeL5LkU
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阿公唯有語氣沉重的說：「反正只是做個樣子，不是真要讓她娶。現在我們黃家只有這個血脈，先想辦法讓孩子可以平安長大吧。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOr3Mn9v231
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就這樣，改變我的生命的那個女人就要來到身邊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPk2dCTy4L
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七歲的我，為了沖喜治病，就要娶妻了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCqxmTmd4f
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那個女人，我都叫她姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcPgENjXsA
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現在我要說的，就是以我和姊姊為中心、關於黃家的平淡日常生活故事……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbw4bX3G0E
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《我們黃家的故事》197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpImrskkmRs
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隨著下個月九日逼近，家裡為了我的婚事越來越忙碌。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5aoAHSUDg
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忙碌準備一堆婚禮相關物品。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZCUWU9fOT
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除了專心照顧我的媽媽，阿公阿媽和爸爸整天忙進忙出。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGxm65emJ8
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甚至於，我的房間家具也完全換新。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLjQu3eFVU
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但是我完全不清楚情況，同樣動不動就發高燒，只能躺平在床上養病。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfjjuT2q7D
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終於，九日那一天來到。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWmQJng3si
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即將嫁給我的姊姊，已經來到台灣。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro0w3Zb21Z
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所以傍晚的時候，媽媽把狀況好一點的我抱出門，阿公開車把所有人載往大城市的餐館。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0czdG4a2on
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我和姊姊，就是在餐館裡面的包廂第一次見面。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Bhy6rfSdK
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大家坐在大圓桌，看著彼此。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbupboaQHg
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我們一家五人，坐在圓桌的一邊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5klOhk7hKi
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對方二人都是女性，坐在圓桌對面。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAvvCfP9Wc
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一名是準備嫁來黄家的近二十歲年輕女孩，留著一頭烏黑亮麗秀髮。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT9cSGB7Gr
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另一名是看來四十歲左右的中年婦女，胖胖的，是姊姊的姑姑。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv0yLzIhVu
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她們二人都穿著越南式女性旗袍。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo1gsMbJ2R
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沒有錯，她們都是越南人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNntpv8Ct5U
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即將和我結婚的姊姊，可以說是所謂的越南新娘。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gRVkWBGhH
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接下來我要說的這些關於姊姊的事情，都是之後才慢慢知道。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbuty9ZhDk
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姊姊的名字是：『林花。』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1WSj2fUc9
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嫁來黄家的姊姊十八歲，比我年長十一歲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhjMxx8Gr6
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姊姊是她家的長女，下面還有二位年長我好幾歲的弟弟。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJQLJhXffb
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全家在越南的鄉村務農，姊姊一邊在鄰鎮的高中讀書，一邊打工幫助家計。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZY5uatDOW
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姊姊是成績一直在前十名的優等生。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeigQsPJALY
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原本計劃在高中畢業之後繼續半工半讀大學，選讀和育幼有關的科系，未來當小朋友的老師。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdd36VOjNv
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但是就在高中畢業前夕，爸爸忽然中風臥床，家計再也支持不下去。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRKLOch5gX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mZjzfgLOr
姊姊為了自己的家庭，只得拿我們黃家一大筆錢，告別父母和二名年幼弟弟，遠渡重洋嫁來我們黃家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpG5ma080f
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先是依靠英文和阿公與爸爸溝通，之後再比手劃腳的慢慢學習漢語。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurzncJTSgk
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這些就是關於姊姊的事情……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjP3trczRvI
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K6vrdqQjJ
不過當時在餐館的我才七歲，出於好奇一直看著比較年輕的姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4Ym72AhbK
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內心單純想著：『漂亮的姊姊，頭髮又黑又長……』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UzS2DAn03
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至於就要和我結婚成親的姊姊，同樣安靜看著我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiIoOZlsML
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只是面無表情，看不出喜怒哀樂。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcaxY5XeDk
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所以這時候的姊姊雖然漂亮，但是看起來冷冷冰冰，很難接近的樣子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeOtwmPHn3
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我相信，是因為姊姊對於面對這一切的不安，才會感覺很不親近人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mCh2HDapF
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而不論如何，冰冷就是我對姊姊的深刻印象。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUo1uLIGlG
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初次見面這天的餐館會面，就在如此面無表情的沉默中開始。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLnvsnaSpt
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阿公、爸爸和姊姊，都是用英文溝通。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuycJodnun
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阿媽和媽媽如果要和姊姊說話，同樣要透過阿公與爸爸進行翻譯。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbrzJ4trBi
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7NKkG4VNa
尤其是媽媽，一再向姊姊拜託：「林花小姐，我因為和先生早婚，所以不過大妳八歲而已，真的能夠體諒妳必須嫁過來的委屈。我不敢要妳做什麼，只求妳以同樣的女人心體會我這個做母親的心情。這個孩子一直是個很聽話的乖孩子，不吵不鬧，只是從小身體一直很不好。今後真的要拜託妳幫忙照顧……我真的拜託妳了……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5fR6ags6I
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeKvMMKNz1
媽媽是真的發自內心的再三拜託姊姊幫忙照顧我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFQ5tzMguW
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姊姊都是平淡回答：「好。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIVhk2xoYG
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姊姊嘴巴回答好，問題是她的內心到底又是怎麼想？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48YLSoneZA
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總之，這一晚的餐館聚餐，就這樣在姊姊面無表情的冰冷中結束了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdnvdo72jZ
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二天之後的十一吉日。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rKPRAgqFL
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姊姊穿著潔白新娘服正式嫁進我們黃家，成為台灣媳婦。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxIV8Ps862
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病懨懨的我同樣穿起兒童西裝，勉強支撐起精神，在什麼都不懂的情況下和面無表情的姊姊拜堂成親。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJ7LCJPeQl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUdOBZ8e6j
一直陪在我身邊的姊姊同樣冷冷冰冰，看起來很難接近。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VNEPaSnf3
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所以我完全不敢親近姊姊，更不敢和姊姊說句話，只能一直找媽媽。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjim2URCtAO
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就這樣，忙碌一整天的婚禮終於結束。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDEwKAm8Ln
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2SJOaRMSu
當晚的洞房花燭夜，只能由我和姊姊一起度過，否則不吉利。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSh83VPANt
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqNI9f4eks
但是我才七歲，什麼都不懂，所以發現自己和陌生的冰冷姊姊一起被留在房間，我立刻撐著不舒服的身體跑出房間找媽媽。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAOfq7Q8ve
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畢竟姊姊對我來說是個陌生人，加上姊姊從頭到尾的冰冷態度，所以還是七歲孩子的我完全不想和姊姊獨自在一起，就算姊姊再漂亮也一樣。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixaf2859F6
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已經換上睡衣的姊姊，只能一直安靜跟在我背後。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHdIugAD7u
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkj2O9Hh9wK
剛開始，媽媽一直哄我，把我帶回房間，要我乖乖的和姊姊一起睡覺，然後關門離開。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiv23MsWUoe
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU05iyZEDv
我當然又吵著追出去找媽媽。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB42eneWcL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBMMJVApx1
就這樣來回找媽媽幾次，對我很溫柔的阿公終於大罵：「你已經是個娶妻的大人了，到底一直在吵什麼！這麼晚了還不快點回房間睡覺！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbYL0vidJ7
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這真的是我第一次被阿公罵。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkkDFN5Jtg
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加上對於發生的事情和完全搞不清楚整個情況。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBN88Ejm65
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所以我怕到了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAaSFMOPgw
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背後跟著姊姊，哭著轉身乖乖回到房間，坐在新床上不安哭著。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFSIF4Viik
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一定是因為這樣，姊姊看我無助害怕的一直哭著要媽媽，就像被狗媽媽拋棄的可憐小狗。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0diRzbv7e
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIf7KlkACC
因此姊姊發現我終究只是個普通的七歲小男孩，不是什麼可怕的存在。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBcrZMmFNr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxJajs7ug1
冰冷的姊姊，終於改變對我的態度。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHL8zWo7Ak
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eohubvViS
姊姊遲疑一會，不忍心的伸出手，把我溫柔摟在懷裡，輕輕搖著我，哄著我，完全把我當成孩子安撫。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oyjHIoahj
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至於我，忽然被姊姊摟著，一開始哭叫著抗拒，努力想要逃離這個冰冷的陌生人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqWE8kDcCD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWSTV0oCNG
直到我看見姊姊溫柔哄我的溫暖笑臉。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8h4iMQS0X
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這是我第一次看見姊姊露出的友善笑容。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnqXO2z35J
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七歲的我因此知道了，姊姊其實沒有那麼冰冷可怕。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ8OCmD2qP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbat3y0cJh
姊姊其實是很溫柔的好姊姊，否則怎麼會像這樣微笑哄我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCWuA0kxgN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnUU7Xl40e
於是我慢慢收起眼淚，不再哭鬧，乖乖的依偎在姊姊溫暖的懷裡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedhkDj8LGp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8qv1TEmLj
被溫柔的姊姊摟著哄，感受著姊姊的善意，直到被姊姊輕輕搖哄到睡著。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjgiKhgWUR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXFt7VnZnC
我和年長十一歲的姊姊，就從這一晚開始共同生活了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xHFNXGOW3
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姊姊被迫為錢離家，遠嫁我們黃家，讓她冷冷冰冰的，頗有拒人千里之外的感覺，很明顯就能看出來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRb6zq8oMf
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事實上，姊姊曾經跟我說過，剛來台灣的那陣子她的確一直在想著逃跑的事情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlcpkkN852
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逃離這個用錢買自己的黃家，能逃多遠就逃多遠，躲到台灣其他地方想辦法生活。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAHzpFwvoM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0vchkqLBt
反正姊姊的聘金，她的家人已經完全拿到。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtiuoLn7t1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNo2ebIFkWf
就算姊姊逃走，也只能算是姊姊個人『離家出走』，不會給娘家帶來太大麻煩。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPotvxNctL
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但是新婚之夜，姊姊看著我的無助哭泣，就像一隻不停唉唉叫需要人照顧的可憐小動物，就此讓姊姊的冰冷心情融化。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8RsIo1Lyk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryvzv6rICi
姊姊想說，先幫忙照顧我一陣子，順便認識更多同樣來自越南的朋友，收集更多台灣其他地方的資訊，再正式逃跑。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VgHVks8Pv
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結果情況卻是，隨著一天天照顧我，姊姊的想法一天天軟化。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CaILAqL6x
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaIpOhvhk8
此外，加上大家都對姊姊很好，完全以家人的平等態度對待姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBcYsrlDXJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgaLAzJqX2
年長八歲的媽媽更是把姊姊當作親妹妹對待。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g68esQFA0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2TUC1Gbg5
大家同進同出，同吃同喝，而不是把姊姊當成越南勞工對待。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngkZlrfdsA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlVa9whzCD
甚至於，每個月會給姊姊五千元的零用錢。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mRViRf8VC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6EKPBAKNk
姊姊終於接受自己的命運。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAVOmTebpg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHI1q7CWr6W
姊姊開始把黃家當成她第二個家，和媽媽一起照顧我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX05QpFIUqS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DlEPdq63H
甚至於，姊姊很快就變成照顧我最多的人，也是付出最多心力的人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VrUtBcyEK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTY2izLFY8
畢竟媽媽晚上會回房間睡覺，只有姊姊才能整晚和我在一起，在我生病發燒的時候整夜看護。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdgulbSif4
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在我身邊時睡時醒的給我量體溫，餵我水，哄我吃藥，給我的身體擦涼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbAGRdjNb0
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所以姊姊不只是姊姊，更像是忽然跑出來的第二個媽媽。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXjCGa3xMp
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我自然很快的習慣了姊姊的存在。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1XspuoLEY
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越來越喜歡整天陪伴我的溫柔姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xmmKg5iUu
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對於姊姊的依賴越來越重。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQagMTuzGT
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把姊姊當成可以整天陪我玩的大玩伴。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ka9CQ3Y8f
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總會：「姊姊！姊姊！」的親密叫著。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6R2OaPqoc
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握著姊姊溫暖的手，讓姊姊陪著玩耍。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8BtYPjEX8
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玩玩捉迷藏。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOyRUbjE56
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玩玩跳房子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Mc9bfs0ys
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一起唱唱歌。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbrjz2xtin
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讓姊姊一口口餵飯。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSa7NqnNFOJ
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讓姊姊帶我上廁所。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeACK2w7mn
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讓姊姊幫我洗頭洗澡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yFvt07fEF
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevBflULl4j
讓姊姊哄著一起睡覺。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskjxxPxfOu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXC9OYeuXGz
讓媽媽看著我和姊姊的相處，半開玩笑的落寞說好幾次：「你這個孩子根本只要姊姊不要媽媽了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntcof9D24r
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5qw7MZsXt
由此可知，我的確已經變成整天黏著姊姊，由姊姊日夜拉拔照顧的孩子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc4lTS3Zgm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4R7dlAqvIy
十八歲的姊姊有我這麼親密陪伴，更是完全打消逃跑念頭，為了照顧我而決心留在黃家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6r6e7kjESl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Z9pYnP4Tj
姊姊就這樣找到救贖和生命的出路，沒有走上躲躲藏藏過活的悲慘道路……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxze24NMmWU
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2xHxGzXpr
另一方，關於我的身體狀況。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZUQG5HMbR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSOCoLQA1X
原本病弱的身體真的慢慢好轉，不再那麼容易生病發燒。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcuV7q63H0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTytwSFQreI
我越吃越胖，長出肉，不再像以前那樣骨瘦如材。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGgb7MFvHp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvctFvQ98m
甚至於，我會有體力拉著姊姊出門跑步玩耍，就像那些在外面到處跑的活潑小朋友。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZSOplcPsV
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWT9OU19Bw
我的身體狀況好轉，除了沖喜成功真的找不到其他解釋。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tLDvbOBIp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sXrN8svwU
阿公、阿媽、爸爸和媽媽為此喜悅萬分。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2mwFW8LBv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwZ5YYJcwq
他們紛紛高興表示，給我找來姊姊成親沖喜是對的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgowkWTDLbT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduirf7nKyI
所以一年之後，八歲的我健康的進入本鎮國民小學就讀，和其他同年齡小朋友一起接受正式教育。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkEmN4gE9K
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fx2IHd8XX
姊姊都會牽著我的手，親自把我帶往學校，一直用不流暢的漢語說：「你在學校要乖乖的喔……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQnu2MVMKa
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajjpkiVUhj
直到看我進入校園，姊姊才回家幫忙家事，或是以姊姊的英文能力幫助家族的生意文件。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvkxOMeuBR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGljFMzKolt
接著，再於下午四點放學時間前來校門口接我，關心詢問：「學校過的怎麼樣？有沒有乖乖？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1x1fjGfMdH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UiMyWdsnA
不論風吹、雨淋、烈日，溫柔的姊姊沒有一天不陪我接我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUghoygV9wP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthPpkGlBhS
回家之後，姊姊更是會親自陪我寫作業，教我數學，確定我的學習沒有任何問題。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52tWiN19Un
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgilQtgJUV
甚至於，在學校的我忽然身體很不舒服或是發燒，必須早退，趕來學校接我的也是姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCv7xaGbW0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64OxX33Js5
親密的把我當孩子一樣揹著，帶我去醫院檢查，然後再帶我回家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWi4IsObUyA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILu17u6VNB
說真的，我和姊姊要說是夫妻，其實更像是感情非常好的姊姊弟弟……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lGYQYXPeH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKdoDHlQTz
不過也因此，我被學校的小朋友找麻煩了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWr2QV5nw0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KY8h5AYNS
我和姊姊的事情，全鎮的成年人都知道。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpptVlR2CJD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxKsG70mNB
成年人知道長輩讓我娶姊姊是萬不得已的沖喜，所以成熟體諒的沒有說什麼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6DS1Aeuo0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRBS0NqkmY
但是和我同年齡的小朋友們，知道我和姊姊的事情之後，終於瞭解為什麼我的上下學總是有漂亮姊姊親密接送，出於幼稚的無知開始嘲笑：「男生愛女生！羞羞臉！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvQPfHtoqk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3poGhZOZD
像這樣的嘲笑我還可以忍受，所以不理他們。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoQdO1mERg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTv1MaAc5e
一陣子之後，他們竟然開始當我的面嘲笑姊姊，說她是：「家裡不要的女孩！為了錢來台灣的越南窮人！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ40iVHB0i
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4D0tFu3rI
他們這樣說姊姊，我當然覺得很生氣，不是吵架就是打架。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13990Y9ONm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNDST168lq
那段時間，足足一週以上，真的又吵又打的度過。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSEfbzYHJD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYm2ra0Gs9u
後來會解決，還是姊姊看我身上一直有打架的傷口，對我詢問到底之後親自出面處理。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4LdsuNi9c
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtOgESAnSA
放學時間，姊姊陪我在校門口面對那些說壞話的小朋友。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t0RcKXdUP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8lDWOG9Lb
姊姊蹲下來，溫柔微笑，和氣說著：「大家一起當好朋友，好不好？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZU7HsF0rOn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoKWV035zt
就這樣，那些原本欺負我的小朋友改變態度，不再亂說話。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yhtyWZHry
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEQyFlLIcu
甚至於，會在放學的時候陪我們一起走，開心的和姊姊說話聊天。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeknebMZBKc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyGWFULvs3
因為姊姊的漂亮，還有姊姊的溫柔，小朋友們一定會喜歡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOyetBYm4M
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6j5EyHTkoJ
喜歡和小朋友相處的姊姊，更是順理成章的成為大家的好姊姊，會在週末帶著我和大家一起玩。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEx1AVyAqam
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG2fyNW2vT
我的拳頭無法解決的事情，溫柔的姊姊輕鬆辦到。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nXa87DCRY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iWmDQ9nFj
我真的更加佩服姊姊了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Nhc1qJGXu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9u2kqaD5r
不過，我也因此開始體會到自己和姊姊的奇妙關係。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40EuB20TTp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsw57By2yo
畢竟學校的小朋友沒有人像我和姊姊一樣結婚。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWY0kjPngJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWv0cnYSfu8
只有我，像爸爸媽媽、阿公阿媽和其他大人一樣結婚。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1YHKYilkA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGubwZ7TLyG
我就是從這個時候開始思考：『我為什麼會和姊姊結婚啊？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQT2QkNkM4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVoTb3uuDm
我一個人想幾天，終於在這天放學，只有我和姊姊的時候直接問：「姊姊，我想問妳一個問題。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7sm0LijO8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOyizOOvMT
姊姊：「什麼問題？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXUFODU4C2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIFaE0xrk6
我問：「我們為什麼會結婚？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHNK9eJBIk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2I1wnv4tE9
面對我的問題，十九歲的姊姊沉默了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBzgbAvnaN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCjBUipvxU
安靜牽著我的小手，一步步帶我回家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCGPBmGuHr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5oSkQVXA5
八歲的我，完全不瞭解姊姊為什麼都不說話。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkAXJNXtKC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4rPN9C9Hl
不過只要是個成年人，一定能瞭解姊姊不語的原因。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJd9H3qmqlw
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStGQN0sRl4
十九歲，根本還只是大學生。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rh1HsYGzP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgOwrvaiaA
如果姊姊的爸爸沒有中風，現在姊姊應該正在越南的某間大學半工半讀。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSv3gvtwWK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDfPZRcORy
姊姊卻是拿錢嫁來台灣，和我結婚成為黄家媳婦，一年來一直日夜陪伴我生活。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqpbY7V1AX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOz1QXkwA9A
姊姊的寧靜，其實是有重量的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIXmOP04pv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIkctew27K
生活的重量，從來不是三言二語可以輕鬆說完。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfX3hzYkDn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGimOiU0w6N
也或許，正是因為無奈和感嘆，才讓它這麼不容易說完。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKo55aXSg6h
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNwRnw47A0
天真不懂的我追問：「姊姊？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFYXdfeka4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcJ9YUhFxB
姊姊回答：「因為我們必須結婚。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QIL2DHIk9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qLzFkdsCK
我：「為什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h3CUzuM10
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbtxdX7R2k
姊姊僅能：「姊姊不知道應該怎麼說。等到回家之後，你問媽媽吧？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskgRQrSXaF
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLVB3cIVnu
所以回家之後，我真的牽著姊姊的手，跑去問媽媽這件事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKadKsoiVwn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKGcbrwZ3g
媽媽沉默的和姊姊互看，然後回答我：「等你長大之後就知道為什麼會和姊姊結婚了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JK2a6zIsO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oZo3Ffzub
結果，當年八歲的我還是完全不知道為什麼自己會和姊姊結婚。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjU97UJyFwx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDqI8SA3qF
我也只能想著這件事幾天之後，開始把它淡忘掉，繼續開開心心的牽著姊姊的手，和姊姊一起生活……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbFcyh7PTS
．197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7m3Nibpsu2
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197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYbn1PP4Od
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmNrVir4tT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoACow3PDDI
就這樣，幾年的國小生活迅速過去。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XUP4DkzSO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR8a53T1WL
姊姊嫁來黄家的時候十八歲，現在已經二十三歲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobD2sVtm75
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXJkM0K4N8
照顧我之餘順便幫忙家事，處理家裡公司的英文翻譯工作，可說已經完全融入黃家的一切生活。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5xG3RuAoN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vN2dKuQV2
至於越南娘家，姊姊和娘家密切保持聯絡，不論是實體信件，電子信件，通訊軟體，沒有斷絕過。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpLh4tFG97
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr07kmIqGAx
中風的爸爸情況好轉。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyA5qJhOG20
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGipEZ46Es
媽媽用姊姊的聘金開一間穀物貿易店，生意做的不錯。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3FdVGFNyO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRsWqsDDQD
二位弟弟則是都在高中讀書，準備考大學。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wcC9lFHDg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1euJeyXNdS
所以原本窮困的娘家的確因為姊姊的聘金，慢慢發達起來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZR9lUox8v
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTRkTV6qxU
就這樣來看，窮人女孩為錢出嫁遠方，真的不好嗎？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFL5ba7Tf3T
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlH1SPmI196
當然，每個人心中都有想法和答案……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3Ca3Ghmp7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE8yrTOmGi
我則是十二歲，健康快樂的入讀國中一年級。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjBaTXM6hx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCAuK5kHvK
開始長高的我，心靈隨之成長。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpePIhYngte
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPQAeq6PWv
小時候的我，整天黏著姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XfkEX213G
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQJnvK9moU
但是現在的我，對於那麼黏姊姊開始覺得怪怪的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OcsdxpyRc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShV4s4hrmt
和姊姊一起手牽手走在路上，以前的我覺得很自然快樂，但是現在的我卻覺得很奇怪。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMm9FbaNcl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PtI6KnOw0
尤其是如果在路上遇見認識的同學或是朋友，我都會趕緊放開姊姊的手，和姊姊分開，不想要被他們看見我和姊姊手牽手。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKY6TwWlBwO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjnVPTRfQH
甚至於，我會對於和姊姊同房睡覺這件事感到彆扭。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpaW0XzAmG
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0czh4pulB
睡覺的時候，我都已經故意側躺背對姊姊，並且離遠點，姊姊卻還是主動靠上來，從我的背後主動摟抱我在懷裡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMeuzOKV42
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTecswP7hs
就像過去那樣，從背後抱著我一起看電視。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGdCG4anqQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRBaZZqacE
就像過去那樣，從背後抱著唸故事書給我聽。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3x7ULZAgfH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQf9A5Bhse
就像過去那樣，抱著親密搖我，唱兒歌給我聽，陪我說話。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEEeGhlix4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxErHWrzFj
就像過去那樣，一直把我當成孩子……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCcg2U2luJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBh2p2mAzWw
因此，今晚睡覺又被姊姊像這樣從背後親密摟抱，彆扭好一陣子的我終於說：「姊姊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkbLOBvsKR
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姊姊：「嗯？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6j5rBmEqzd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXLySvvo18
我說：「妳可以不要抱我嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywsjdRykw9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfH2ge6H1Kz
姊姊：「怎麼了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRqgB0qays
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAki3w2LzkI
我誠實說：「感覺好難為情。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1kO6nxdwF
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrC573x1Iy
姊姊沉默。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLJOUG74wu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGsubgTvKM
我繼續趁這個機會說出心底話：「其實……我越來越覺得我們一起睡覺很奇怪……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fNtojrn5x
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4e30CMBu1
姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWHDSpbVp1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfJNRtrBJV
我說：「我知道，好多年來我們都是一起睡覺，妳會像這樣抱著我。但是，現在我真的開始覺得好奇怪……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Azi5TgPP9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHnMF4VwzB
又是幾秒的沉默。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4u5csii3c
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLdGzelD0J
姊姊主動移動手，不再從背後摟抱我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1opRDuONb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYGqZCSNpa
我擔心姊姊不開心，回頭看去：「姊姊，我沒有討厭妳，只是真的覺得好奇怪。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nxSKl86Wp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVx9m2kApk
陰暗的燈光下，側躺面對我的姊姊溫柔微笑：「阿弟，你長大了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pd23Xi9Ea
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI5pevwcy0
不只姊姊，阿媽和媽媽也是叫我阿弟。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9RvUs0xDj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJBf2AxSgp
我只能說：「是嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKwM9qUmWs
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZem2fPzEkz
姊姊：「你也不喜歡和姊姊牽手被同學看見吧？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTPUTXIbSM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVV5hAszoy
我這才知道，原來姊姊有察覺到這件事，知道我都會在路上遇到同學的時候放開姊姊的手。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OdOnUogGR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNRWWi5bbv
唯有乖乖承認：「嗯……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkFRipi2OL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6urm1rlef
姊姊詢問：「你也會討厭姊姊陪你上下學？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfuWDKJECt
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBJHzBZxyR
我沒想到姊姊會反問這件事，所以我真的想幾秒：「上下學……我是覺得，上下學我一個人不會有問題。其實姊姊可以不必一直跟著我，感覺有點浪費妳的時間……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxBWTfjdZy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11KVbeNJPN
姊姊得到我的回答：「姊姊知道了，以後你自己上下學吧。明天你還要去學校，先睡覺。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxCR8PI4mx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEnBT4NrTQ
說完，姊姊轉身，背對我睡覺，沒有再摸我一下。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZua9auRJC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡercASnVZmW
我也只好同樣繼續背對姊姊睡覺。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhr0Whv69T
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfri92Lrfb0
我知道，姊姊依然是當年那個一心一意照顧陪伴我的姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡassbBAXwQC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sRfawogWO
但是開始長大改變的我，真的不再是當年七歲的我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEwoQTiYsd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OiUrIP9fI
雖然當時沒有感覺，不過我和姊姊的關係，的的確確就從這時候開始不同。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCsXKsO4kL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3ce3Gyz7s
隔天，姊姊果然讓我一個人上學，下午回家時間也沒有來校門口接我，讓我感覺好奇怪，就像有什麼明顯不對勁。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXIB4dPg63
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73LTFCCjL2
甚至於，回到家之後，在房間放下書包，發現房間裡面怪怪的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUX78CupO7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmrtlI5FAi
但是那時我還忽然說不出房間哪裡奇怪。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9Q60iozHD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY6YV3Zo4a
直到進入廚房從冰箱找喝的，遇見正在忙碌晚餐的媽媽和姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1IcpshaVo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCyoDUXM78
我先問候：「媽媽，姊姊。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRcwBrca76
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4z1zXPWeM
媽媽知道我一定還沒有完全搞清楚情況，所以主動跟我說：「今天開始，姊姊會去原本用來堆雜物的那個房間睡覺。下午已經把雜物間清理好，也把姊姊的東西都搬進去，以後那裡就是姊姊的臥房。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbrs1AwNrm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDapceVK5Kr
這就是剛才我為什麼覺得房間有點奇怪，因為原本屬於姊姊的東西與衣物都消失不見。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRCayXaNGI
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9LySEJprx
我小小意外到：「姊姊要睡在雜物間？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraeYcoAIUE
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAdFlFZyJy
媽媽：「你不是跟姊姊說不想和姊姊一起睡覺？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7BWkQNxKn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUl2PyRV7Z
我：「昨晚我是那樣說……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ1qHJnOrN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WcEAq6UwZ
然後，我看向姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbS2UqliSmk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHcsaRK8Uw
姊姊面無表情站在瓦斯爐前炒青菜，沒有看我一眼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7m7wjdiygM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovHhpgk0Js
我：「姊姊？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDeK4gCjQT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYd9yNhfzS
姊姊終於看我：「嗯？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr6umnfigb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxtYPK3yOd
我：「你真的要搬去雜物間？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQtFpMq9eb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcW2669QXX0
姊姊回我：「早上姊姊和媽媽談過之後，覺得這樣對你比較好。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRJLYbs2Iq
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgS1uSKZgZ
我：「可是－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Vd9g4tnSf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeL9SK7F93
『可是』到這裡，我又半句話說不出。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBOwhLCPRY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqVTYvjHS6
畢竟我究竟想要『可是』什麼？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UFX65rwHR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp50tYCsdAZ
我的確一天天覺得和姊姊同床共枕很奇怪，親口說出這件事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMJuH8Z0Q1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRl2Ycjbmy
我和姊姊分房生活本來就是很自然的發展，到底還有什麼好『可是』？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyhjkO9LUU
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEXixtX8pN
所以『可是』之後，我真的又沒有一句話可以說，只能站著。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOs5xptykO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqo5QiK0fi
因此姊姊再說：「你真的已經長大了，開始獨立自主。姊姊很高興，可以陪伴你平安長大到今天。今後也要繼續成長為一位優秀的大人，知不知道？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiF9owEUXk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1dvPMPUnq
我唯有：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgLYOttjk3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WVgAHihZi
媽媽有意思讓這件事就這樣：「好啦！你自己聞聞衣服，都是臭酸味！快去浴室洗澡，準備吃晚飯了！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4vt497hgr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR08Rl46oF
就這樣，我們沒有再談過這件事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBThiqK1OeB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKO79pZ6IFl
我跟姊姊正式分房生活……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNt1Knl05gf
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197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAsoDqvTVN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1G95ehB50t
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JWOKEnqI0
姊姊決定放手，讓我自由自在的長大，相信那樣對我的成長最好。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDPk3glXrU
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUkvSJ8QUm
我從上下學不再有姊姊陪伴，直到現在分房睡覺，真的一直有種說不出的奇怪感。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYIQgJyxQY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrD7OMDoH4w
就像自己的生活，忽然有什麼重要的人事物消失不見。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAsFshhRDg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLytV3OLF6
這樣的消失，好像明顯是錯的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOJEB4x01v
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yUWkcsGlZ
但是我又感覺到，這樣才是對的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENPzDyOvJT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwr4Y4GQ42R
我相信這就是姊姊所說的獨立自主和所謂的長大吧。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FV8wamUFi
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGsVbyuERH
卻也因為這樣，沒有姊姊常常跟隨陪伴的我，雖然獲得很高的生活自由，卻也交上壞朋友了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJyJjBSNFy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLW3ASWEp2
週六日，以前我都是跟姊姊一起出門，搭公車去鄰近城市的鬧區走走逛逛再回家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikx32r3VTy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaP7vgBS6C
不再有姊姊緊密陪伴的我，都和同學朋友一起出遊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZvacTazTN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrONilNtDsa
姊姊都會在我出門赴約的時候，微笑的說：「路上小心，早點回來。」完全把我當成大人尊重看待。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsg4P3TnNp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBZKCvkE9G
就這樣，朋友彼此之間再互相介紹，我終於和一群大人常說的『壞孩子』認識。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjU5jjJIdOl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyqz4F0Fu5
一夥近三十人，男女都有，對我來說都是些大哥哥大姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxao0xIi1Mh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6zwOKTrpl
年紀大約是國中生到二十歲，最年長的幾位等著當兵，並且他們的家庭明顯都有問題。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ584XLPsTpX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0c793npxTE
搶劫吸毒之類的嚴重事情沒有。但是檳榔喝酒，喜歡夜遊飆車，嗆聲裝大……大概就是缺少家庭關愛的鄉下8+9。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9lKx1WCyD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMVLX4ixcV
當然，認識他們之初，我也覺得和他們在一起不太好。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XMPuvneTa
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjD1GwmVRZ3
聰明的孩子絕對會知道不應該和他們繼續往來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwnJ7kUNdX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nYYNRvF6R
但是我又無法抗拒和他們繼續來往的誘惑。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkyQd2eV8T
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qQ8DW1VEa
因為他們有帥氣的摩托車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeUXiKgTIX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS28LgI7JR2
他們是個8+9飆車族，車隊名稱叫做三太子風火輪。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYB9WoJMYz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgmLOY3PhB
沒有錯，我喜歡帥氣的摩托車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7ZABpoTQ9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53gfEvR1LI
看著那樣的帥氣摩托車，我就想騎上去飆。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtH50UM5IRo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEyhBgDcSE
聽著引擎聲怒吼，我的感覺整個嗨到不必嗑任何東西。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSZdZEjKzu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NuDALg5c3
尤其是家裡沒有摩托車，只有分別由爺爺、爸爸和媽媽各自擁有的二輛汽車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iOgsgX6Ez
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJnyb06WHs
當年的我不懂汽車，只記得叫難聽的梅賽什麼的，看起來又黑又大又笨重，一點都不拉風的廉價車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgACvR2q5Z
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPSTE710CW
而大哥大姊他們不只有摩托車，還都經過特別改裝，看起來又酷又炫。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xKRVYP8Tu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZDmx8PN61
只要坐上去感覺就像世界無敵了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvN8aRP6Ng
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCd8Om09asV
當年才十三歲的我，真的好希望自己也能擁有一輛自己的帥氣摩托車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetMWdUDO2o
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglxxmAgSRi
所以我真的克制不住和他們一群人來往的慾望。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFFg1kB216
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYepsqrj2Lc
他們一定是因為全都破碎家庭出身，主觀的認為我也一樣，所以完全不問我的來歷，我到場就接受我，讓我跟隊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBTWxbVYJl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZI8IucM4x
所以我不必上學的週六日一出門，就是主動去找他們，大家一起出門全速衝鋒。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL262bgyNVi
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2zZf9DhLD
當然，我都是後座被載的那個。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NnyvTBJsK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2e3BrTsUX
大部份時間，都是在靠中央山脈的山路衝鋒兜風，大約深夜就解散回家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfOBxSisrL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9LkRWuXVA
少數時候，大家飆的比較瘋，就是順著車少的靠海道路從台灣南部衝到台北，再從基隆衝進宜蘭花蓮直到台東，再一路騎回來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9a0MRwk3U
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIkEDeaYqV
真的是完全不睡覺，從白天騎到黑夜，再從黑夜騎到白天，猛衝台灣島一圈的衝鋒。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsqHOqQFh6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRlo7IENVJ
每個月都會像這樣衝一次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwSDnMNps8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64rwPwyYzI
大家都樂此不疲，我更是好開心。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUb26Pj0Bs
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我覺得這個世界真的好遼闊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡay24u4kyot
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksoFejOCRO
我真的好想看到外面更寬大的世界。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVPMPl9OiI
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我越來越不想離開這個環島飆車團體。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvwbyOxmPW
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7j4Ylz6ZM
不過想也知道，我才一個國中生，家人一定擔心追問。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh9MjV4zlV
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiU2LLl9tF
如果半夜才回家，這種情況還好，被媽媽碎念個幾句就好。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFsNLTjyW4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7dV31Yk0I
如果是一整天的瘋狂環島……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdZLPb5lwp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mabKpRi26
終於，這個週日早上，第三次我再次環島瘋回來之後，被追問到底了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTQBHyE1v8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJuFWES5u1
不只媽媽和姊姊，就連最疼我的阿媽也在一邊看。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzu7VoNSk71
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerPjS5LQ1U
媽媽一臉擔心：「昨天週六你到底去哪裡？怎麼整晚都不回來？這樣的情況已經不是一次二次了！你才幾歲啊！大家整晚等你，怕你出什麼事，一直想去報警知不知道？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RlDdarNZ2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapl55BE81I
因為擔心會被媽媽繼續罵，所以我回答：「沒事啦。只是和幾個朋友去台北玩。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdfBG9U4s1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvuPkt16n8
這是事實，因為車隊的確會經過台北。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDGWtxPnLC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYp4cooWOK
雖然抵達台北的時候都是大部份人回家睡覺的深夜。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYs0yLnInn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjki12vMnj
換姊姊問：「阿弟，你們沒有做壞事吧？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBBAEt6Wg6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeUpVMGYJ0
如果說謊，媽媽和姊姊一定會看出來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHBY1S8df3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsh4miG26O
我覺得很煩又很無奈的直視她們，明示自己的清白：「沒有啦。真的只是一群人出去玩而已。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOLh5albpS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbYLZTB0kk
不過是騎摩托車瘋狂繞台灣，還會是什麼壞事？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yfzFKZ1kO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOLAQrVWGd
姊姊再問：「下週六你們也會像這樣出去玩到週日才回家？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQE3sn6VaY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Dbxr4jBby
我不耐煩的回：「又不是每次都這樣好不好？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVXJpDWkji
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35BZmpOFah
姊姊：「表示以後還會像這樣？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43QR8JnAod
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGIh0p3ybT
我不敢回答，因為是肯定的，所以生氣大罵：「妳們又煩又囉嗦！有完沒完！碎碎唸個不停！我要回房間睡覺了啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1qyKnH4SB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsaAfoGJXi
就此頭也不回，直往房間快步走。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Y9tBU4Yn7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RTaWolsw3
媽媽她們看我忽然這麼兇的大罵之後轉身就走，全部愣在客廳，忽然追不上來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaR7gnZzqxl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis7CBLedFz
只有姊姊，第一時間追進房間，拉著我的手：「你到底跟誰出去？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcZCGR6R0R
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBzJxleOcE
就這樣，我第一次和姊姊吵架了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pKpeb66CZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxuXzvICLR
發急的我，只能甩開姊姊的手：「問這麼多做什麼？是有那麼嚴重喔？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6R6wDiBFe
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbI7f2xjUj8
姊姊：「阿弟，媽媽剛才沒有說錯，你才十三歲，是個國中生啊！整晚不回家，大家當然擔心！加上你正在叛逆期，我們可以不擔心嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwny8kKg6h
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3CUZdHUgW
這時候，媽媽和阿媽也追上來觀戰。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvkyN5gbaz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDLj0jfrbg
不過她們暫時都沒有說話，把發言權交給姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFJc7I05BN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwesUpqzfR
我一心只想早點罵退她們，所以直接對姊姊罵：「到底關妳什麼事！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgYfgp09BM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwREKKg0C0
姊姊：「為什麼不關我的事！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FUEyv7toL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhaY1bmAqM
我：「妳到底是我的誰啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcUl9mGeWc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtFQjniJdw
姊姊：「我是妳的姊姊啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzi5NH7bXk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAYNFajO2n
我：「我只是把妳當姊姊喊！不然我什麼時候有姊姊了！妳是媽媽生的喔？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcayGpTnBS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1Q8pnsljS
姊姊的確一時難以回答。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8yudD8jhW
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvyS6Cp7dt
我繼續說：「妳又不姓黃！明明什麼都不是！妳只是個外人！就不要再對我管那麼多了啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGyJBUrcaR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMr6bZsQsu
姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51DqoYy6P9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaQmUIP0Zv
媽媽：「你這個孩子對姊姊說什麼話！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCBwRZmjy4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqwzufjuSg
阿媽也罵我：「是姊姊辛苦的一手把你帶到這麼大，知不知道？怕你冷！怕你熱！怕你餓到！怕你受傷生病！怕你書沒讀好！你還要去哪裡找這樣的姊姊！到底誰還會對你這麼好啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAPrsRUai4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbH3AeRF8Aq
媽媽：「你的阿媽沒有說錯！姊姊真的對你那麼好，結果你竟然對姊姊說這種話！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTmPLdZP3q
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dWSE4Uxb8
這樣子，我又要面對她們三人了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLN6TdXhBp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrT1DEJZyu9
整晚沒有睡的我，又煩又氣又累，拉著房門就要緊緊關上。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0vSII2QgS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbodBfG19Mk
姊姊卻是踏出一步，伸手用力頂著門，不給我關。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys6M7mo6Ka
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW585FkzYV3
甚至於，姊姊直瞪著我，毫不移開雙眼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4Cilvik3M
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHg95YYOFY1
被姊姊這樣瞪，頓時一陣膽寒。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVXyzYJV1E
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElV8KS3SnG
畢竟我是被姊姊從七歲一手帶大的孩子，對於和姊姊相處的實際記憶真的比媽媽還要多。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLxDvJdzBE
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnVkAYpZQJ
所以被姊姊這樣瞪，讓我感覺比親生媽媽這樣瞪還要可怕。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ308Ec26o1G
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rOfTgG08J
覺得自己真的麻煩大了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka6oPJO8zd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsRbHLn7g1
我又急又怕：「放手！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1vqMxDHn5
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBX9M3QIC72
姊姊：「不放！你不敢說，背後一定有問題！你好好說出是和誰出去整晚！你們到底去做什麼！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOYvjKh6xO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqmKHi99bW
我：「我已經說了，妳沒有資格問！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttLOixlPbC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bhBwo3Bzs
媽媽出頭：「那麼媽媽總有資格問吧！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpOmpD91US
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODoZQB1Y9V
我更是不敢回答媽媽，只能繼續用力推門，對姊姊喊：「反正跟妳沒有關係，放手啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64zKEPhgQ4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe19FoudusQ
姊姊只能喊：「我不是外人！我是嫁進黃家的媳婦！你這樣子，我會擔心啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhQgz9o9I0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpY1h1t5l1
我：「什麼媳婦！到底是誰的媳婦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnV3hpZ5Uf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl4PJi9pGa
姊姊：「你的啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGquiLyYeg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPZyOvlEji
當時的情況，姊姊不這樣說不行。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MqOfVuaAF
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUYB5nzaGr
因為姊姊真的會在這個黃家找不到立足之地。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMc8uA0ADp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTgFExmAJH
只會是個來自越南卻長時間住在黃家的外人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPewQUTmz72
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CTqRCDyxa
我：「才不是！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuagAW0sMWh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu27ym2evGF
姊姊：「為什麼不是？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiWLaRhKsG
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EEShujXFG
我：「我又不是願意和妳結婚！再說當時我才幾歲啊！而且大家都知道只是做做樣子，又不是真的！妳才不是我的媳婦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jlB0JrUFs
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhznvtPHYzL
接著姊姊的回答，我萬萬想不到。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbuXg14u77
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdHaOElLTv
我真的萬萬想不到。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbLPIjUSqA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhEgKPfEiM
姊姊問我：「那麼姊姊搬出去，和其他男生約會結婚也沒有關係了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa70KZOWLGm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5o8ABOXOAT
當然姊姊是故意這樣說，為了嚇嚇我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnqcj0QfW3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdIF0byLZ8
不過才十三歲的我根本還只是個不夠懂事的孩子，心臟立刻一個大跳！197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGqvXdTIn4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbl7F2IJtqG
這樣的心情，就像孩子聽到守寡的媽媽要改嫁。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2knye2hsS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI8bC1kYLe
只要是孩子，一般都會很難接受這樣的事情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF3UENjmtE
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhMPMdlydx
到時候姊姊會被其他人搶走，姊姊就不再是我的姊姊了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFmpgWD72m
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKrSLlPDuH
說起來，當時的我真的就像個要斷奶卻無法斷個徹底的孩子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9XeF8aAqt
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6iBIfpNEc
當然我緊張的對姊姊說：「妳說什麼啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxq59QuzGb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKY7OwJftu
姊姊說：「反正我又不是黃家的媳婦，你管姊姊那麼多。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0UYipJ7LO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlxI9BNxJ9
我：「這是不同的事情啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQGwWli8PZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o2euGZzyN
姊姊：「隨便你吧。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG31591pqte
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KG6SP6mXw
說完，姊姊還真的直接放手，不再想把我的房間門頂開，並且轉身就走。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkuEHux9Is
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQWl1dGtiy
媽媽配合姊姊：「你這個孩子實在是啊……看看你剛才對姊姊說什麼話！姊姊真的不想管你了，還不快去跟姊姊說對不起！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEaKecjPu5
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNteOWTtOQm
我猶豫堅持僵持著。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTKtqRJ3FX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkS7KVUbIU0
畢竟如果說出事實，我知道她們一定不會再讓我去參加車隊兜風。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7deaXdKWRH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kzxYDyOG8
如果不說，姊姊又會變成別人的姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEWXPplKWf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkt57gpuIy
我的心情真的是有夠天人交戰。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xCWLeTL6P
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ytS9Ctazi
根本是逼我二選一。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqlVYhzI5T
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArhgyqS8RQ
媽媽：「姊姊真的不必勉強自己一直留在我們家！現在你真的要看姊姊離開？還不快去跟姊姊道歉！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlRxUnGvu9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsYXM9FBGt
終於，我還是害怕的：「嘖！」一聲，離開房間，快步跑去找姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbl7YGarsU
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypJ3EVu8Md
姊姊坐在客廳沙發看電視，冰冷的完全不看我一眼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6XaBbvwsb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW65opXMAAf
我：「姊姊。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ee8mnEZ5X
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP45Bvu9imd
姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAttfcGUZKd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjyp9VrFHJ
我：「姊姊，妳不要這樣。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9Ujdo5P1Y
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrnFwIZeOd
姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SZ2sAwNfK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMwIqgyUwb
我：「對不起。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGcYD8War4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEbxwzHDpx
姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11LlRwR6lL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ywx6CYd4j
我：「妳不要走啦。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntMvSfVaUb
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姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVAr1y4f3Dp
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我：「剛才我真的不是故意那樣說……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVrUuSoqUC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LjTluNugB
姊姊終於看我：「姊姊想聽到的不是這些。是你整晚到底去哪裡？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykUkbey5zg
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我又是一番掙扎：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwN37NyYgK
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姊姊終於看我：「你從小到大，今天真的是第一次有事情瞞著姊姊。讓姊姊好難過。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct7z0OG8qp
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我：「如果我說了，你們一定不會再讓我出去……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv97cjqcYax
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姊姊：「反正你先說，到底整晚去哪裡做什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkqntej6qA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CA6Pu55LH
我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDAmHvdrdI
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姊姊：「還是不願意說嗎？反正對你來說，姊姊只是這個黃家的外人吧。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2r9fIQeSi
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我：「不是那樣啦。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WVxVjXTgB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4MW2hy7M4
姊姊：「那就告訴姊姊。不然姊姊真的要搬走了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEzIsou1N8
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我只能心一橫：「昨天我是去參加車隊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAg1wBgfzxs
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaLE7Ey1ry
姊姊：「車隊？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwP2fBUlSh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj6nkJM1sm
我：「整天跟大家坐摩托車兜風，只有那樣而已。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJm0JLKUnY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXEYNDKpq8
阿媽擔心的問：「你跟人家去飆車？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADvsTuHLxc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sQJmfX15f
我拼命想著讓自己可以無罪開脫的回答說詞，可是就速度來說，又覺得很難辯駁：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmq3wUxFas
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblTZuWPDj5
媽媽看我的沉默，直接有罪判定，滿臉的難以相信：「你竟然去跟人家飆車……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogpOW706ND
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQAd14LEQz
我：「不是飆車啦！只是外面騎一圈而已！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9HWq6KW3y
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvoL3oUatr
姊姊冰冷的說：「騎去哪裡？為什麼整晚才回來？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOh95gsYGV
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg0voEzTI6
我：「沒有去哪裡啦……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaTcCSsR28
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWvimDN8DS
姊姊：「到底跟人家騎去哪裡？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzfNrjZdbb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsohHy8ZxU
我：「就是……台灣繞一圈而已……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHG3r1OOjUI
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1S0pZ7y5R
姊姊略顯訝異：「台灣繞一圈？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Hye7TWMzN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyKU5G9Z9k
我看姊姊的反應，知道不妙了：「真的只有那樣！不是什麼危險的飆車啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbipdHGS2XZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6l77yR4m8
姊姊：「一天騎台灣一圈？所以整晚都在騎車？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhYRaZbgME
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGtm25Qey3
阿媽再次：「哎喲！這樣不就整天在飆車！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoeFchIoaM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CcAYXu8mp
媽媽同樣受驚不小，音量非常大：「你這個孩子實在是！竟然去跟飆車族整天在一起飆車！那樣有多危險知不知道！如果出事怎麼辦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOpLZ3mT6X
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBxvfbMNjU
換阿媽哀叫：「哎喲……你這樣如果讓疼你的阿公知道，他一定會驚的血壓飆高喔……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerOwpok0wF
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7Sjg494vf
我：「真的沒有想的那麼危險啦！再說我已經參加過三次，不是都沒有出事！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUS4lO2ftFk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKg5qvBzwu
媽媽直接大聲：「以後不准再去參加，聽到沒有！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOG3TleW0St
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKvfYJcIUv
阿媽：「黃家現在只有你這個獨孫！黃家還要靠你傳下去！你要是有個萬一要怎麼辦啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9ToFynpI9
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果然，變成我最討厭的情況。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GJ6oNF7DL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Urpx7StWo
我只能做著沒有意義的抗議：「就是因為會這樣，我才不敢跟妳們說啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILDqESAgLZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM5awsVrUW
姊姊接口：「你不敢說，因為你自己也知道本來就不應該去參加。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvE6F52u43
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJQWMvUx3Q
我：「但是真的沒有想像的危險！你們看我不是一直都平安回來？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSPKaDXRPk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPnRkIZDVp
姊姊：「不論你說多安全，我們都不會相信。飆車本來就是很危險的事情，更不必說你才十三歲。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmF1xj5eAm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YBMdBpDpZ
我：「所以等我十八歲就可以了，是不是？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DPE8gdkVM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uTzHpvb4y
姊姊卻是直瞪著我，直接一句：「姊姊對你很失望。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVdnY4LXTV
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMa8WEaPEF3
我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjB8bnWy45
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwXO11g6JC
姊姊：「我一直以為你會開始懂事，會自己想……結果你竟然做出這麼危險的事情，去參加整天飆車的飆車族。姊姊真的對你非常失望。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHi0IcYvXm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP75AACB18U
我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlKHhvj3pK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSo0M6KANp
姊姊：「你根本還是個不懂事的孩子，完全不知道事情輕重。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuL8XtZWih
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5634arokM
阿媽也在旁邊整個憂心：「會變壞……這樣一定會變壞……哎喲……怎麼辦啦……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFEF6oFKRZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4A7uEvNjv
我做著最後掙扎：「事情真的不是那樣……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4TBBEhnuy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYe2PDgl4q
姊姊：「反正你不准再去參加，否則姊姊就搬出去，再也不管你了，有沒有聽到？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ciQ91jbT1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMArXmfsW47
我還能怎麼回答？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c9soFzwMF
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzUqwrvhMm
只能垂頭喪氣：「知道了……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDkXFDuDkZ
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當時的我，真的覺得好難過，覺得好不甘願。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FSGoMXQaK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNXVxaVKuF
因為我真的很喜歡騎著摩托車兜風的感覺。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYSBVDA8OE
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1LOULURnr
現在這一切，因為我不希望姊姊離開，所以都要被強迫終止。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXurLmbResk
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讓我怎麼接受？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47BWaND6Yg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDwMebph69
我自然悶悶不樂起來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm14sNOCTHd
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週日的這場爭吵，就這樣結束。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuI6AE1CHy
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然後，週二這一天，在外面跑生意的爸爸回家休息幾天了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgobvvDatMb
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所以這一天放學回家，我立刻被爸爸叫到客廳。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPnqg1upJr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2efuvmx89L
爸爸一臉嚴肅，姊姊她們三人都在旁邊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BSuscw62g
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprFgAuqaJG
雖然爸爸因為和阿公一樣整天在東南亞跑，都把我的事情交給阿媽媽媽和姊姊，幾乎沒有插手過我的教育，不過還是會在必要的時候管教我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVE3gQSal5t
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所以我其實還頂怕爸爸的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkPmEyt9io
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmRMBazZzw
爸爸開口就是嚴肅的問：「聽媽媽說，你去參加飆車族，已經好幾次和他們環島？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSoPcUTvAq
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokCXtU5Dhs
我覺得說再多也沒有意義，所以簡單的：「嗯。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtq0fmusey
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojeZn3LTVZ
爸爸嚴厲罵來：「亂來！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmaFWcEE8I
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wHgx9Dcs2
我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC469BU8iHC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJS63CeprUj
爸爸：「你以為飆車好玩啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUYQUJLrV6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRDagOUjWC
不服氣又不甘心的我，雖然會怕爸爸，不過還是什麼都不管了，直接說：「很好玩。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8KbFGkQNJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmtiUu14uI
聽著腳下的引擎怒吼，看著二旁道路快速向後衝去的速度感，進入前方從來沒有見過的新世界，真的很好玩。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDGJlOT8Z6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4LCTGUxuN
我真的喜歡騎摩托車旅行的感覺。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IfhduBvYt
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE48VKE5y7Q
越是參加那個車隊，我越是著迷於那樣的感覺，難以自拔。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPh9hfXTh1s
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjs9LKc9dw
不過，在場四人都為我這句話：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrewleMZ35
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真的，他們都被我一句話頂到安靜。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSfthHlM4C
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好幾秒，半句話沒有。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgAK92jDJT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBkEDulYkN
爸爸反應回來，更兇的說：「飆車是在拿自己的生命安危開玩笑，你到底知不知道！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5A4IXcagQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGIK2XyxEK
我：「反正你們不會懂啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjo64ZPDer
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqCovu8BhW
爸爸：「是你完全不懂！真的跟個孩子一樣！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxLM6DeIDb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyC9H2m3Yty
我正想要給爸爸頂嘴……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBxch9isRA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuslP5Rllph
一直安靜在旁邊的姊姊：「那麼你說，我們不懂什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYuoIpP0c2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJ5HkFPKI0
我：「反正你們不會再讓我去了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZR2OjmNQx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nUeCfjbxv
姊姊：「我們的確不會再讓你去參加飆車族。可是如果你說出來，至少我們還可以懂你為什麼會去參加。是因為姊姊開始不陪你，所以你覺得一個人很寂寞嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJTqwpFvK2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTu8U4B5i5
我：「不是那樣啦。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1rBkDAUV7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRQjOEN93W
姊姊：「那是怎麼樣？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkz1YLFDTPO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3ZAQ2PpPM
我：「我喜歡騎摩托車。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcBazBjU9d
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcM2S8dT0w
姊姊：「你喜歡騎摩托車？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQ5LZYtTc9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5ZEqV4Wk8
我：「我知道你們一定會覺得那些騎摩托車的人都是壞孩子，當然不會讓我去參加。可是他們其實沒有你們想像的那麼壞。我只是和他們一起騎車，一起兜風，又沒有怎麼樣……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdozwQR8AN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx44TU0BcSV
姊姊卻是說：「我們先把他們的事情放在一邊。你為什麼會喜歡摩托車？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5G6nevvEKD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKReyTWVP7
我：「你們一定不喜歡摩托車吧？是不是覺得會騎摩托車的人都是窮人？都不是什麼好人？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1Y4NHTnuj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlIWALhyOI
姊姊：「你為什麼這樣問？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGb4slNECg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKtYUoemof
我：「因為一定是這樣啊！否則我們家為什麼連一輛摩托車都沒有！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9Aop9NcYo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOI4zLPmLe
爸爸出面回答：「因為汽車載人載物比較方便，也比較安全！再說平時如果大家需要出門，媽媽會開車，不是都會開爸爸的車載你們出門？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyxrb7DQrC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRW4Z9y8uA
我：「不一樣啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQn9HvYc3Sv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufWhjMX3OH
姊姊：「哪裡不一樣？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6sUcswejH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡia2zbFIBw4
我：「摩托車帥氣拉風又自由，騎起來的感覺就是好棒！我們家的車又笨重又醜，名字也難聽又難記，叫梅塞什麼的……要怎麼跟帥氣的摩托車比！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDtTdeuxKl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkgDy7OE90
爸爸沉默二秒，口氣好許多：「梅賽德斯？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GdV9H30Uw
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我：「對！梅賽德斯！聽都沒有聽過！看起來也真的有夠醜！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eYiO6Tfug
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爸爸：「梅賽德斯是主名，大家常知的通名是賓士。我們家二輛車都是賓士高級車款，你知道一輛多少錢嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1al7c94cRG
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當然我絕對聽過，知道是很貴的車，忍不住確認：「賓士？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxzShWNcXl
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爸爸：「都是賓士。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIH9JaFGtk
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下一秒，我有一種極為失望的感覺，因為總覺得賓士那樣的名貴轎車應該看起來更加不同凡響才對。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRKzR6nAPu
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所以我發自內心回答爸爸：「好醜……真的……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwaFpww3ON
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡednfLMthYJ
首先，美醜是很主觀的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0zU0vb93g
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再來，我真的打心底覺得，賓士有名又貴到讓我很無法理解。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4OPqnVPqz
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真的，就算我已經長大成人，還是不喜歡賓士的外型，就算是賓士的跑車款也一樣……絕對是青菜蘿蔔每人各有喜好。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiDiASHsW4
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所以這時候的我萬分的難掩失望之情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBodjcNTgG
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爸爸：「賓士也有跑車款，看起來很好看。我們家二輛都是家用房車，所以看起來像一般常見車輛，不過的確都是很貴的頂級賓士。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyr64ydbBt
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我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNxpq7FSyA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPnJf6NvxP
姊姊再問：「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxTRNvMZRd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxsBsqJVds
我：「摩托車很棒啊！車隊的大哥大姊都把自己的車改的好酷好炫！那是因為你們沒有看過，不然你們一定也會喜歡！坐在上面騎，感覺就很舒服！真的可以騎一整天也不會膩！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3A1U8vorGe
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他們四人，幾秒的安靜。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvqVEPqwwv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRplPPfg2H
爸爸終於說：「十來歲的年輕人，真的都會比較喜歡摩托車吧？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4oJEBLICS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtRb3MS03R
我：「所以讓我再去參加車隊啦！他們真的只是單純的在路上騎車，沒有想的那麼危險！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7zEdaK2uy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKAmyEEj7t
媽媽直接大聲：「不可能！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5YwrTPu46
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHzIrFNVkh
爸爸也說：「你給我乖乖留在家裡，有沒有聽到？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mqVBqmeeV
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阿媽更是：「傻孫啊，摩托車騎那麼快多危險啊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEUMyU4mpL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtRxt3SIgO
我還能怎辦：「我就知道！一定會變成這樣！跟你們根本白說！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iF3OYx52u
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznbbY1AKJG
姊姊：「你真的那麼喜歡摩托車？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAmRwKFswf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6pbBvXCM8
我開始發洩自己被強迫阻止的怒氣：「我就是喜歡！比家裡那二輛什麼醜賓士帥氣多了！就算你們現在禁止我！但是等到我滿十八歲是個大人了，一定要回去車隊給你們看！到時候看你們怎麼阻止我！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsF4Csn6L4V
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媽媽：「你這個孩子！說這什麼話！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKJfPg9JRS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MOO7yaJ4p
我：「我一定會回去車隊給你們看！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVktAhksZo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEiZTJcgcA
媽媽本來想再罵我，但是看爸爸一直安靜：「你也對孩子說句話啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla0jvOQgU9
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爸爸卻是思考：「嗯……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9X6YOdpPY2
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媽媽：「喂！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZANFM9uug
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爸爸回答媽媽：「看他這樣，不如我先通知爸爸？不管怎樣，這件事都要讓爸爸知道，再看要怎麼處理。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ369Xt5Vq6p
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ1SuCz0Xp
當然，爸爸口中的爸爸就是阿公。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC65D7TH86f
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媽媽：「要告訴爸爸？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcEw9U76aC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qG39IVPmb
阿媽：「讓你的阿公知道你出去飆車一整天，還要出去繼續飆，一定要為你急的高血壓啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yZQ82T8y5
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然後，爸爸播起電話，開始和電話另一頭的阿公說我的事情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ArZahuLHe
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參加8+9飆車族。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY65ezxt4mE
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一整天的飆車，環台一圈好幾次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7sTo3rkPO
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還放話，長大成人之後要回去繼續飆……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1Mfd9N9XX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77E0TYuInL
然後爸爸掛電話，告訴我們：「爸爸說他會把工作的事排開，搭明天的班機趕回來。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWRSZAIohj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylcOA07Ij6
阿公一定吃驚訝異又發急，否則不會放下工作立刻趕回來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVG9k5UJUq5
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wf2Tcz8oH
阿媽：「傻孫子，你自己看看，阿公為你急的……哎喲……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzEZOHNpaM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IvziwdrE9
我也只能摸摸鼻子回房間，心情忐忑又不好的準備面對明天就要回來的阿公。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqTNyKt2PA
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就這樣，隔天週三，我照樣去學校上學。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZvEUX4Z9a
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傍晚回家，阿公果然已經等在客廳。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1q6veouFo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LRBj5FsgB
姊姊他們四個人，都陪在旁邊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPx9byi1om
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因為阿公和阿媽一樣疼我這個寶貝金孫，所以阿公沒有像爸爸一樣嚴肅板著臉。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3p86csiN7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYHPWb8hSB
阿公說的很溫和：「阿弟，先回房間放下書包，然後來告訴阿公怎麼回事？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvkALAcViB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuJMzOt6il
於是放下書包的我，回到客廳。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUDzRPxCFo
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阿公立刻對我招手，讓我親密坐到大腿上。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwWk3ivAll
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阿公對待我，真的一直都像對待幼稚園的小孩子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvDQO6BSoN
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可能對阿公來說，我不論長多大，永遠都會是當年那個可愛的小孫子吧。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEfdclWjJ0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MK00vsZhh
於是我開始把整個事情從頭跟阿公說一次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcJOCx3qBq
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說完之後，換阿公問我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlny7ln5Ck
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先問我怎麼和那個車隊認識上，然後問我們都去哪裡？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTgqyTBk4H
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYoAAYenV0
接著都是問一些我為什麼那麼喜歡摩托車之類的事情？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzRGDjuclK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WCR6XsNKj
我一直把自己的所有感受告訴阿公，並且求阿公讓我回去參加車隊，才能繼續快樂兜風旅行。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTyy7z8Sie
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阿公很有耐心的仔細聽我從頭說到完。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfsRDVWn1S
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最後，阿公問我：「你真的這麼喜歡摩托車？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPGu33a6Zv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbNyAES5QX
我當然說：「很喜歡！因為看起來好帥，騎著兜風也很開心！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oIciz7azf
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阿公安靜：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsX77F4CTwB
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我開始撒嬌：「阿公……讓我回去參加好不好啦？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3SQITadcI
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阿公：「不可以。真的太危險。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxOl22aqOO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDsEdcMPny
我像個孩子拼命耍賴：「讓我回去啦！讓我回去啦！讓我回去啦！……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEkLPOwnGQ
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阿公一直微笑看著我，一言不發。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4CpEER60w
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爸爸很兇罵來：「不要這樣亂！大家是為你好！長大一點！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzmkHwblX5
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以前阿公都會袒護我，不過現在阿公只是安靜微笑看我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcqGXcxctL
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我當然不敢再發亂：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXInLTIJr6w
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阿公哄我：「好了，去洗個澡，換個衣服，全家一起去餐館吃晚飯。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTcJHoZci5
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我：「可是車隊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFdHkKH1h2
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阿公摸著我的頭：「乖。去洗澡。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHuY7bZ5Hu
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我只好百般絕望，垂頭喪氣，前往浴室洗澡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB13mzqylh2
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在離開客廳的時候，聽到阿公叫爸爸的小名：「阿忠？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzkoh37C93
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爸爸回應：「爸？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZ421hezWI
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阿公：「我們黃家的確只有他一個男孩。不管怎麼樣，今後大家一定要看好他。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcqoe7KTUh
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爸爸回答：「我們都知道要看好他。可問題是再過幾年他如果成年，到時候又要怎麼管？成年人實在是很難管了。要是真的搬出去，更是沒有辦法管。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEETvUsXTY
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然後我走遠，只聽到交談聲，聽不到他們到底在商量要怎麼看緊我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHUSzYCMyQ
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當時我真的是感覺徹底無望啊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkbylGE1sT
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車隊當然更是沒有辦法再回去。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbmYcmCw2i
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因為姊姊故意會在週六日一直跟著我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJJTaKGmMR
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我因為不希望姊姊離開黃家，所以也不敢再偷跑回去參加車隊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRjy60s3CX
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可以說我在『姊姊』和『摩托車』這二個我都喜歡的存在，選擇了姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibbOIrU0gQ
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不過我還是會在路上有人騎摩托車經過的時候，感覺好羨慕。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqABPwi7dc
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一心想著：我一定要在成年之後想辦法買一輛自己的摩托車……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGycIUejdJx
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我對於摩托車旅行的慾望，真的只是暫時自我壓抑，並沒有消失。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHC2vqueEoQ
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一個月之後的這個週六。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKPRANRDI0
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一大早，姊姊就出門，不見蹤影。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDugodFTF48
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看不見姊姊，感覺就是奇怪。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasnSXRLejv
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因為姊姊應該會主動來跟著我監視才是？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OWrwnIg7j
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我吃著早餐，好奇追問媽媽：「姊姊呢？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLidjU6pr6S
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媽媽：「去城裡。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmwipW1nrs
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也就是說，姊姊去鄰近的城市。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSRfVA9TCI
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我問：「去做什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLui6Cl637
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媽媽隨便敷衍：「辦點事情。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRylMUp5ea
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於是吃過早餐的我，回到房間寫週末作業。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkyUCF43e3
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雖然我想過可以趁姊姊不在的這個機會偷偷跑回去參加車隊，不過還是因為害怕姊姊會離開而……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiiP86t0dH
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就這樣，下午大約二點。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHjG0arg4J
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我聽到響亮的摩托車引擎聲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuw7ZrXYR0i
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dZ00Ag5Nc
那樣的引擎聲，一聽就很不同凡響，絕對不是一般市區常見的摩托車引擎聲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1minCKi52
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkXYspXOP6
如果要形容那樣的引擎聲，就像是馬匹的腳蹄，很有力的踩著地面，每次都快速踩三下：『噠！噠！噠！』，『噠！噠！噠！』，『噠！噠！噠！』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTomVnpnF2
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聽起來規律、快速又清脆，非常悅耳。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeM6Dnds2I4
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尤其是，竟然不是從家門前的道路騎過去，而是騎進這個住家的廣大前院，在前院踏馬蹄。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM15p9hIaUP
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鄉下因為土地寬，像我們這樣的有錢人家一般都會有像這樣的大前院。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrJYFxG82N
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywC8XTJVHU
摩托車就那樣停在前院，三馬蹄引擎隆隆作響。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2q5Ys1CzQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnLxJozGvG
寫作業的我立刻停筆，順著聲音轉頭，心中猜想：『摩托車？誰來了？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB5i2N0gFH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICRxnhx8tI
然後媽媽高興喊來：「阿弟你快來看！姊姊把摩托車牽回家了！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSG6nhUtW2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19PHIRt651
我自然萬般意外：『姊姊？牽摩托車回家？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IYLQMTBDO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46iNNV4J4v
立刻拋下作業跑到前院看個究竟。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrurYEvY9nh
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抵達前院，阿媽和媽媽已經在前院看摩托車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzUhSQNaoj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneMwiItd74
引擎正在隆隆作響的果然不是一般車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdM5WKtzvz
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至少一看外型就絕對不是路上常見的車款。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3x6jCB57mU
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外表看起來很拉風，很像是賽車場使用的競技車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoZoTFKSID
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那麼是什麼車？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCLWqN96Gp
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是哈雷重型機車，全球限量二百輛的特別款，現在有一輛在我家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SNVPTXqIc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9mpGbKwKQ
全車幾乎都是由技術師父純手工組合和調整，可以說是精密的手工品。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTwpTKPhky
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必然是從美國出發，通過層層關卡和檢查之後運來台灣，才會一個月之久才來到家裡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylw7jySdMy
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至於價錢，這一輛哈雷價值將近新台幣三百萬元，抵的上一輛賓士。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1wLy0OK7N
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把這台限量款哈雷騎回來的騎士，正是一大早就出門的姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGFQKvAilr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ABVqi9dZf
漂亮的姊姊穿著全黑緊身皮衣，身材凹凸搶眼，跨坐哈雷，看起來超級帥氣迷人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBZ0SC5xF2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4s1m8Xcmo
過去那支車隊的所有大哥和大姊頭，從車到人都跟姊姊完全沒得比。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLf5visJXB7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWDCHuKNUu
我趕緊跑到車邊，興奮的又叫又跳：「姊姊！這輛車是怎麼回事！是怎麼回事！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr9qrhVRvp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlQdVfZDCf
姊姊對我溫暖微笑：「阿公和爸爸買回來的摩托車。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7cLb80Zb6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAJthWuzij
我完全難以相信：「真的買回來？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OfHP1PcXn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMbQAklAjp
畢竟一個月來，家人都沒有跟我說要買摩托車回來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHAvIEOcMh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNFsMtn6wP
媽媽回答：「本來阿公是說要大家把你看好。後來是你的姊姊跟阿公和爸爸說，如果你這麼喜歡摩托車，不如買一輛回來。看姊姊對妳多好，處處為你想，你卻對姊姊說那些話……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMwJQuIWQc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetcfDUGJAL
我已經顧不得那麼多，激動興奮叫個不停：「哇！哇！哇！哇！哇！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7A2x4EDDe
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCE1pqDY1G
姊姊：「帥氣嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0xyYEYNRB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTreJZ2Si7
我：「好帥！好帥！好帥！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYqvQSWEvL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1oO6jwX9M
姊姊微笑：「你真的很喜歡摩托車呢。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUEYPQACwf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkAWxdNxpu
我：「買摩托車為什麼都不跟我說！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjOooPoGel
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbLvSEKeMZ
姊姊直接說：「因為如果這一個月你趁機跑回去參加飆車，我們就會在你眼前把摩托車賣掉，懲罰你。讓你知道偷偷做壞事會有報應。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFWtQlO48R
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFkmus5BTs
到時候對我來說，會是多可怕的報應和懲罰啊？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAG88XCXC1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeqxmvfn49
也幸好，今天我沒有趁著姊姊不在偷偷跑回去車隊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBBeBd9yqj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBJVUUNd27
我忍不住又氣又笑：「好壞！你們真的好壞！都不說！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAl7pNgHMA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsoQMMBob6
姊姊伸手摸我的頭：「不過你一直很乖，沒有偷偷跑回去飆車。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoYG8nYEJ2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzB8WBacTPF
我：「所以這輛車要給我騎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaajzbRG0r3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23BQUFivVv
我已經滿心騎著它到處兜風的幻想。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUoq4DtMTQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwEWY9Eblq
姊姊：「不是喔。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKSoBEfa7M
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我：「不是？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8V6WQSEfSi
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RwXaXByje
姊姊：「你才幾歲，也沒有駕照，怎麼能讓你自己騎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCGSbkiJB8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79zOQkco4j
我急的：「不讓我騎，那麼買回來做什麼啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIotWQp1cHB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1fBOxPNmP
媽媽告訴我：「姊姊會負責載你，讓你願意乖乖留在家裡。除非你成年考上駕照，否則這輛車都給姊姊騎，讓姊姊載你兜風。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq56tihVVh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MfRdRLUHH
這就是阿公回來的那天，為什麼沒有說要買車回來的原因。不是沒有錢買，而是阿公和爸爸整天不在家，很難常常載我兜風，摩托車買回來也只是堆灰塵，相信我一定不會喜歡……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZin2BLPPu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2ziF8EWXC
不過我聽媽媽這樣說才想到，直看著姊姊：「啊！姊姊會騎車？妳有駕照？妳真的把車騎回來？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibuo3Mm4av
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因為就我知道，姊姊應該不會騎車也不會開車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0vSSzOurW
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZKrcWwgjG
姊姊：「這一個月，你在學校上課的時候我去考駕照。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnjv5dTh3b
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2S23cL7WF
我喜悅的：「姊姊好帥！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob0opvvFKP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrw1w0XJCS
姊姊又一次提醒：「你絕對不可以再去參加外面那些車隊，不然這輛帥氣的摩托車就會賣給別人，知不知道？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmRtd7mf5K
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC47OayJ1jA
我再問：「姊姊真的自己把這輛車騎回來？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fAp4pAywp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvQBOU0l6x
姊姊：「路上大家都在看，感覺有夠不好意思。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPKqX1zpbg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ292GvdTvqD
我：「因為看起來真的好帥啊！可是這輛車看起來好重，姊姊真的有辦法騎的動？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5JrEVjMQG
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0J2PScuUd
姊姊：「我本來也懷疑自己會騎不動。但是實際坐上去，發現重心很穩，腳架也很容易推動，女生也能輕鬆騎動。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOQhTzQLRq
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iii9D9wKx
聽到這裡，我再也忍不住。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08EghImsd3
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直接伸手摸握把：「讓我騎一下看看就好！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1O5770lLfW
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97aOrhO1Q3
就算只有一次也好，我也要帥氣的騎著哈雷限量款機車兜風！197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoojgkkQGl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMQkGR3b5R
姊姊：「不行。沒聽到姊姊剛才說什麼嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnNQNpJgsI
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggzYW1ZsPx
我：「只是在這個庭院而已，讓我騎騎看啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7BINmzesv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLpW7EqsJt
姊姊：「剛才姊姊已經說過，除非你二十歲考到駕照，否則絕對不可能讓你自己騎。如果你自己偷騎，也會把它賣掉喔。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIchMZumJ9z
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡae7aY1rVw5
我：「可是－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf53uEaDYli
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD5eN2WRSj
姊姊溫柔微笑：「姊姊不是說了，我可以隨時載你出門。你不相信姊姊嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28Xc78e8oH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBeHUOoW6w
姊姊這樣說，才讓我稍微釋懷。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMILOqOAVNf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAKpAycxYA
在一旁媽媽說：「讓姊姊負責載你，這樣大家才會放心。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAsiee3x53
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPmrk4hW3u
阿媽也說：「對啦對啦，這樣最好，不然要賣掉喔。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqcVn83LJl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡek70k4qdxp
姊姊：「戴上這頂安全帽，上車吧。姊姊先載你在附近騎一圈。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFizP8Tu3C
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdftysTyRZD
我不再多說，開心的直接坐上後座。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk9yAfWTLn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuoHTIPg13
姊姊：「抱緊我，比較安全。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA3A2SJQ8g
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqw9a1CcpSR
於是我親密摟著姊姊的細腰，貼靠在姊姊的背上。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZVK09xLPD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvH1fL5evBt
姊姊：「阿媽，媽媽，我們去外面騎一圈就回來。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98GVP91iqy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtedMZQfnD
媽媽：「小心一點。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6ZZ929E9C
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOe5Hpv7Bw
然後姊姊調轉車頭，轉動油門，載我出發。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtCnyELmnR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVhUTIb0QV
雖然時速只有安全的三四十公里，並且都是騎在附近的寬大省道。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTdyKXum0I
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWo6Qk2p4J
不過可以再一次騎車兜風，我還是覺得好開心。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3aX5dkshS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7EkUYturF
當然，路上所有人還是都看著這輛車，聽著不同凡響的三馬蹄引擎聲，真的非常引人注意。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzIv3xC2jf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CQMZTELyT
就此騎著騎著，姊姊忽然說：「阿弟？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNVo8RIwfy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeRe8Wv9cG
我：「什麼事？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOERg1PkaR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCIDLKnxto
姊姊：「現在這輛車雖然是姊姊騎，不過姊姊其實對於自己騎車沒有興趣。所以你快點長大，二十歲考重機駕照，換你載姊姊，知道嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAepn39i4G
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvZHDAWI4v
我：「好。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWHRIURm1l
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gLWYrRh5T
姊姊：「約好了喔？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGQgRk7m8R
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJQAkXUtqK
我當然說：「約好了！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fFWaspd47
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcvWNpDv56
然後，又是一會的安靜兜風。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJkhQHUjGT
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換我主動開口：「姊姊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnnaOXJ3Kc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2dC06JDof
姊姊：「怎麼了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnosrTzuPT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAW4UR6x9J
我：「那一天，我對妳說那些話，對不起……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVC7gpxYvI
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXD9a2tYCpB
姊姊：「姊姊能夠瞭解，沒有關係，你能夠平安長大，好好的成人，比什麼都重要。所以你不要再把這件事放在心上了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAOF5lIGAl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpOTIALcvK
不過我還是開口，很想要再說點什麼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehuEJipn4N
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaNdcu5oyz
問題是，我到底還能說什麼？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84ZwUxfG9V
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKFpIeI5Jv
不論如何，我們家就這樣因為姊姊為我說話，買進一輛非常帥氣的哈雷機車。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfxpDduD98
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL963o1NGKV
由姊姊負責保管，定時騎去哈雷直屬的修車場檢查，所以保養的非常好。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JpnsRVhOP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuTqRW4JUX
我當然沒有興趣再去參加那個飆車隊，因為我已經和姊姊組成一個二人小車隊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclFvhZMJ3G
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6jW4SeRi4
姊姊會在我的作業寫完之後穿上出遊用皮衣，帥氣的載我出門兜風。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5znwUWHKE
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYd17LsqRO
載我前往從來沒有去過的地方，騎進沒有去過的大街小巷，看看陌生的新世界。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGidq8GDyy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCz1Io6scB
甚至於，有計劃和安排的準備好帳篷之類野營用品，載我去遠一點的露營區過夜，週日下午才載我回家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0ZQ9wHaXY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstWEwFTdkw
整趟旅程，我們都會東聊西聊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNw1FnKb4M
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8WUtQESqZ
我都是說些最近遇到的事情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrSt4Z5W1X
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAorAilQ9jg
姊姊都會說些以前在越南的往事，或是她的父母和二位弟弟。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZR6nvIC8nG
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRghi9oSkX
因此我對於姊姊的娘家算是有一定程度的瞭解。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUSqVhHEZT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5myyhdoyAb
我問過：「姊姊，妳很想念越南的家人吧？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrS272EVCu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqbnHT8tXd
姊姊：「當然會想啊。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZh5K9vJHP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaeGB6D1YF
我再問：「為什麼不回家看看？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UIN2rwyOj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LcUlDyLsA
面對這個問題，姊姊沒有回答，只是沉默。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrbLIsZ0bx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnLknrXZSC
不過我大概可以猜想到姊姊的心。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0FWkMWx53
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wAa0FiMns
姊姊一定是認為已經過來台灣黃家這麼久，加上一種難以說明白的望鄉情怯吧……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqQ7nzprlY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUmLgncLfI
所以雖然姊姊和我分房生活，不再於上下學接送我，但是因為摩托車旅行，我們的關係依然親密。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06BJUR8pfS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh05RrICefO
真的讓我一再想起阿媽罵我的時候說的：『到底誰還會對你這麼好？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDefFh47Faz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBexDNGA1a9
忙碌於工作的阿公和爸爸不可能。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkULQVcWNm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQlWYF9J80
阿媽雖然疼我，不過已經有點年紀，加上必須處理很多家事，所以同樣不可能。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzY39bebb1P
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWatgE8lLy
媽媽十八歲和爸爸結婚，十九歲生下我，雖然現在才三十二歲，不過親密感沒有姊姊對我這麼好，加上必須管教我而無法對我百依百順。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGyfz7E5Am
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdb4sPnhQZ
真的只有姊姊對我這麼好。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJ5uWPkG9z
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKF1yrQSyZz
因此，我再次認真思考：『姊姊對我來說，到底是什麼人？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mRyqVp7aR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXSrXRhINw
姊姊當然是沒有血緣關係的外人，不是真正的姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinadJCUjbl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOz1JoUGbpD
真的要當成姊姊看待，我們之間有十一歲這麼大的年齡差距，很詭異。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHTOiyU0Jy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeP0cAetoae
如果要說感情，又比一般的姊弟還要親密，絕對是姊弟以上的程度。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70FAYyrQTo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoxxxZVLDR
要說我和姊姊是情侶或是夫妻……問題是，我的確是由姊姊一手拉拔長大的孩子，完全無法產生那麼親密的戀愛感情。雖然我的確不希望失去姊姊，更別說姊姊如果真的交男朋友。我對於姊姊真的具有不能有第三者出現的獨佔心理。
反觀姊姊，雖然把我照顧的不像單純的姊姊照顧弟弟，因為真的照顧的太貼心，但是看起來也不像對我有明顯的男女之愛那樣的感覺。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEZrcJQKK3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0ifcLlF1r
所以，姊姊到底是我的什麼人？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNNX5XIzdP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztNpsDge7B
姊弟以上，戀人未滿，到底應該怎麼面對這樣的關係？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYSsNpxuv3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7FkKDpFlZ
一天天長大成人的我，就這樣開始越來越認真的給自己和姊姊的關係尋找新定位。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81V86wwl2x
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioVBerf4Hy
畢竟我已經隱隱感覺到，如果找不到答案，最後等著我的一定只有遺憾和失落……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSh0XsxUVpj
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197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2CRZ4YYti
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSORRFzlp2e
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT96mPSY9Y
我們家這輛哈雷，是全世界限量二百輛的限定款。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbw1HEXeMy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpQvQpsF9A
網路上專門觀看影片的網站，只要輸入這輛哈雷的型號，就能找到不少相關影片。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdXbVe7lN5
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdblaf0GsC6
大部分的同款車都是在歐美。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8B3WBi2St
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZj03wDfmmS
台灣這裡，只有我們家這一輛。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV3FeZw6kQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOCBcPybN0
所以只要是和台灣有關的同款車影片，一定是我們家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjwbyrEaGo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMErO9gXuB
不是我們拍的影片，是路上偶然遇到的識車人拍的。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNHU3v1sfC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlFejKmgFo
他們看到我們這輛罕見哈雷出現眼前，當然立刻開始錄影。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmrUH7fIgR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfl4M36wFJ
影片中的姊姊都穿著黑色緊身皮衣，載著後座的我兜風，時速都是很安全的三十多公里而已。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTIBgRUI80
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPiac5dQ0w
姊姊看起來真的帥氣又迷人，根本像是摩托車界的瀟灑女英雄。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7JsI8mdXT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAtAikG1z5
然後影片底下的留言，大都是一些車友或是愛車人，否則不會從型號找進來看影片。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G3WCCDk26
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NLu6H7uWx
他們發表像這樣的言論：197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJwiCpxsyj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdguSIQJipI
「哈雷重機引擎特殊的三節拍好棒！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT01SeQv6T7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpQBwegZZT
「這輛車多少？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FD2iTLaPT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnDbAFS6JN
「三百多萬，全球限定二百輛的特殊款，台灣應該只有這一輛。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAAKANElFz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRD5bRXrP3h
「三百多萬？我要不吃不喝好幾年才買的起啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmgGWpgNe7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmaHYgXPWA
「她幾歲？買的起？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2QOBu79mE
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1qTgSZn1m
「一定是有錢人家的大小姐。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBUEjG3Cuf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcYjPzQU8X
「是我的菜，我可以。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uQXaQ5T5U
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumAGfFaadn
「不管可不可以，路上遇見離遠一點，別撞上了，當心要賣腎。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ubQbJJvvm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OfogZRY8t
「如果是她撞我怎麼辦？可以要她用身體賠償？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPpmhmbOwQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3L8atdpzr
「朋友在路上親眼看見過。我聽他說還不太相信，竟然真是年輕女騎士……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFzWDvzTGK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeaX2nsUAW
「她撐的住這麼大的重機？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW00XwqbO7K
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRga1nukdoE
「後座載的是誰？弟弟還是男朋友？年齡看不出來。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzniqAOFxc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs3J95v9oZ
「看他抱成那樣，應該是男朋友？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrAnmQkBaO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLG9y7dLbej
然後有人說：「他們的關係，你們點進去這個連結的影片看看……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLQ8HSeMvx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMm3LPV8YE
點進去連結之後，又是另一段錄影的影片。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJovZ9HDAVg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPVSCyKWjP
我記得那段影片和那一天。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHxsZ2eGm5
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vtfzOIvGb
那一天姊姊載我跑遠一點，回程的時候在路邊的小七休息，買麵包飲料休息一會，忽然跑出一個三十歲左右的大哥哥。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPTA3yi2Qu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7YfuCYQ4p
那位大哥哥穿著同樣用來騎車旅行的緊身皮衣，也是騎自己的重型摩托車出門旅行，遇到我們也在小七休息，於是趁機邊錄影邊跟騎士姊姊搭話。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9I1X6L5rO1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYrYJveJin
當然，大哥哥的重機只是幾十萬元的那種大眾車……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31XT0iVGyJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvI7WH9dT34
大哥哥友善詢問姊姊許多這輛哈雷重機和我們的問題。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANBP9Fjw4A
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHVcbkDpkF
姊姊都是面帶微笑，落落大方面對。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNg4wO7xpk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRkXwpZLu4
如果是關於哈雷騎起來的問題，姊姊都是直接回答。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq41gWOHZ0Z
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZV4pIcDdC
如果是比較家庭私事，姊姊會直接表示這個問題不能回答。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Rsxv22x7t
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S1R3Cfgte
在一邊安靜陪姊姊的我，看大哥哥這樣一直和姊姊裝熟說話，不由得覺得討厭起來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP22OIPrVna
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmsn4F05dN
這樣的討厭心情如果真的要說清楚，其實更多的是：你不要隨便一直和我的姊姊搭話啦！197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgczmjlh79
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIp16zFMtA
可以說是獨佔姊姊的心情，希望其他男人滾遠一點。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUWwcg5WPz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzdFKSBE4E
所以我插話，跟姊姊說：「姊姊，回家了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnzG9NBs2K
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ2zBt46oH
之後就是我和姊姊都上車，我再次緊緊摟抱姊姊的細腰，貼在姊姊背上，讓姊姊載回家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEXKZX9ATd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLd1mNye67
那位大哥哥一直拍到我們的背影和哈雷一起消失在路上為止。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfzHQbJlm6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSytgcYzQZ2
大致上，這段影片就是這樣。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07WzXsKOAs
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLksStqM31I
至於底下的留言當然……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcoZMiDxtL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjQUMb7XvV
「姊姊？弟弟？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPtcUkPmbd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUD21GBBPo7
「騙誰啊，臉蛋一看就不是姊弟，沒有血緣關係。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iE1Un0KFN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlkBcE0HxM
「年齡看起來也不像姊弟，差個十歲吧，差太多。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5eXL6CIXS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYJtdDGmfx
「所以是個貼上有錢大小姐的年輕小白臉？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqsF2ptYa6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcYS6f2DHn
「有可能，看他抱著那麼親密……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EseRQULlb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBGWinS5ef
大致上，都是一些像這樣的留言。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC0HJZyf4u
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwmqjY1Hzr
後座的我被說成是倒貼姊姊的年輕小白臉，我其實沒有太多負面感覺。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZtHCTSmPa
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMkNy7NQPh
因為我自己也在想這樣的問題：『我到底是姊姊的誰？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcHGpgnEPs
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWd1dP61oC
至少，大家就這樣看影片，的確也都認為我和姊姊不是姊弟，而是感情很好的年輕情侶……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7MEwGwOBS
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然後，大約是我國中快要畢業的這個晚上。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDBc2FF0sV
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我們全家一起吃晚餐，看著電視的社會新聞。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWs53H69bn
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新聞說到最近發生的一起老少配結婚事件。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bJO01U05f
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女方五十多歲，男方二十來歲，女方比男方年長近三十歲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIqMQUP4Lw
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當然，因為他們的年齡差距，所以立即吸引我的目光。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EJnqlZGuK
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbwMRTJKyv
接下來，新聞記者跑去詢問一位男女關係專家，詢問關於這件事的想法。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixwTuCbo4M
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaKjb1G603
那位男女專家說：『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFk5lV4cIn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡux0iTU9jEF
我沒有注意到當時的姊姊有沒有專心看這個新聞，她又是什麼樣的表情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8cwIsW0Uk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMC3dT0d1xE
我只知道自己看完這則新聞，總會不時想著：『所以沒有愛情也沒有關係嗎？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm38OmMPLJo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjMoI5YVYF
然後，十五歲的我從國中畢業了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuX7ncZKhQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvE2JZrcTHO
媽媽主動問：「畢業典禮要我們出席？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1AnNytj1N
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WJaOypg5M
我說：「只是領畢業證書，你們不必來浪費時間。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoM0ytxtBU
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIymqknIZBa
我是真的這樣想，不想浪費大家的時間。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH59B8wgbaG
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNrgnUXjQJ
不過當年二十六歲的姊姊還是來學校，在校門口等我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZl27jNXn2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpobAfAJLRF
畢業典禮結束，我們一群畢業生被老師和學弟妹們歡送出校門，遠遠就能聽見熟悉的規律馬蹄三拍。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHKyNEK4gP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOUA03tKPx
幾名從國小認識到現在的同學，因為他們都認識姊姊，所以已經圍著姊姊聊天。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlo3DBfrk1V
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2LygkP84H
我萬分意外的跑上去：「姊姊？妳怎麼來學校？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9k0XM3ltIa
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOngjP0dfH
姊姊：「過來載你。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEAhVkdOaqH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn4auYTkoO
我：「為什麼忽然要來載我？要去兜風？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmYA4MFM5k
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrxJNOmTnF
頗感意外，因為姊姊對於騎車的事情總是興趣缺缺，只有我主動找姊姊載我出門，沒有姊姊找我出門。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmeAdde0f9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFLVHFfJ94
由此可知姊姊對我多好，總是對於我的騎車兜風要求百求百應。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4L3AtHXIQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6p44kmmw7
畢竟姊姊真的可以不必這樣，就是把我丟著不管也不能怪她……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadLGXXuHbJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthFSVlMs2E
姊姊：「今天早上阿公已經回家。說要在餐廳慶祝你國中畢業，所以讓我來接你。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFc2fjorJj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHMcjtZhld
我這才瞭解：「喔……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4A2ws4aVX
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所以是想要給我驚喜的慶祝聚餐吧。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrXL6PE8Qh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yLbsmQ0Wr
的確很像是疼我的阿公會做的事情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFKqHGK2Sw
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91k0xFrYqr
然後我簡單跟這幾名老同學道別，讓姊姊載走。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RYCsCH5vc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKUeXe8W1q
進入大餐廳的停車場之後，發現阿公個人專用的賓士已經停在裡面。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRic2uUgsR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMVY4FVJ8c
和姊姊一起進入餐廳的大包廂，果然阿公、阿媽和爸爸媽媽都在。
我又一次意外：「爸爸？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HLk6r5J73
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRsMWdjwRV
因為工作的關係，所以阿公和爸爸很少同時間回家休息。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7S1f07iZy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTajpEED0T
會像這樣一起出現，往往都是什麼大事，像是發現我去跟飆車族。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmfzhXLE5C
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqNIxlQi9c
所以我小抱怨起來：「不過是畢業，又不是什麼重要大事，搞的好像很重要一樣……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaYWdHXFuC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DTRaRAmeN
阿公笑容滿面，告訴我和姊姊：「是要談很重要的事情。你們先坐，再來談重要的大事。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NbVSk43a2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHtYhcohNY
我第三次意外：「真的有大事？什麼事？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywfjTGnhGL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRdFpA7Pha
阿公：「先坐。開始吃再說。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsxGqZRqqh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBG5U1TKoPU
於是我看姊姊一眼，想瞭解情況。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtpWyyM6m4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobp8HN8XCm
姊姊也一臉茫然，不清楚情況。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVVNq8fmgl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBmHakWqAY
我只好和姊姊坐一起。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3h3rWU4cjr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGHF8ACAFS
大家給自己倒綠茶飲料，然後拿起碗筷開動。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jtUoDl5nN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZ51qWVgPQ
吃過幾口，阿公先說：「阿弟，你也要十六歲了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDSZ8V6791
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOxkc9xQqs
我說：「還有二個月。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTB8fxWHl8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlSRjKwsDe
阿公：「今天大家來吃飯，也算是先慶祝你十六歲生日。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwVRnkwHlo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxo0SPB7mH
我說：「喔……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPkEGxpyez
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxPkzmBOKS
這樣我還是不瞭解算是什麼大事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjgpJX1P7h
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaViZPSi8zn
阿公：「阿公和阿媽本來還有生另外四個男孩。但是他們都命不好，還是孩子就夭折，我和阿媽只剩下你的爸爸。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtnKtiaHFa
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmd7GSvgmF
我邊吃邊說：「這件事我聽媽媽說過，本來還有二個大伯和二個叔叔。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Wzw8uKc9n
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zC5IWiGU1
阿公：「然後你的爸媽生下你之後，就沒有再生……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqU17gFK0n
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2XZyBD4am
爸爸趕緊開口，明顯要為媽媽和自己辯護：「爸，我和阿素－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2JpCWwjh8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU3OELk0TW
阿公伸手制止爸爸說下去，並且表示沒有關係。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDo1TtIrJk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrMvPwIJHn
爸爸發現阿公不是要怪他們，因此索性閉嘴。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5Wk4h6aJi
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CF0iJMHdX
阿公繼續對我說：「現在我們黃家只剩下你，你有讓黃家開枝散葉的責任。現在我們黃家缺的不是錢，缺的是興旺的人丁。知道嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNILAwp70zp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFQIHHavSG
我專心看著阿公。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnQIXHGKas
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因為我知道阿公一定想說什麼，只是我還聽不出來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAARRWHx1n
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAa3GBKUi7
阿公：「我們黃家人一向早婚，最遲也會在二十歲結婚。早婚有早婚的好處，可以早一點把黃家傳下去，並且多生一點傳承的人丁出來。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQh9LzwSOV
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5py979UarN
我稍微有點知道阿公到底想說什麼，不過還是安靜看著阿公。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMkE8CYN8f
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZucrzizB8
阿公：「不管政府怎麼規定，在我們黃家男孩十六歲就是成年，可以結婚了。當年我和你的阿媽就是十六歲成親，十七歲生下你的第一個大伯。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXw2ScUQRe3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPO1jurWBCR
我的心情沉重起來：「所以？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTMIi6Pjww
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynYYWYtkul
阿公沒有回答我，看向坐我身邊的姊姊，直接喊她的名字：「林花，妳來黄家已經九年了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYKZzUZU2F
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSC9lRfhDX
我身邊的姊姊，表情平靜：「對。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWu3YyNev8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4GuQE277L
阿公直說：「這九年來，我看妳和阿弟的感情一直很好，也為我們黃家和阿弟奉獻那麼多……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPznHYRZDmj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXZAEvJuGV
姊姊安靜聽著：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlsOHjiE63
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuwqqNofxk
阿公直說：「如果阿弟是要娶其他女孩進來黄家，阿公真的會猶豫，因為需要時間觀察和瞭解對方。不過如果是妳，阿公可以放心讓妳成為黃家的媳婦。再說也只有妳才能完全管好阿弟，其他女孩就不知道會怎麼樣了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ixkEXScme
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94md25jqxJ
姊姊依然沒有半句話。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGj9pNbwmd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8a90hNbt4
我則是終於完全瞭解，為什麼今天阿公和爸爸都會在場。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZo2HzrQLAL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlL9U1qfKDp
阿公想把我和姊姊的事情說出一個定論。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzQtKdhkPQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz720dOwQOF
因此我不只訝異，心情更是緊張起來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVBJAtLmtX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6e6jASqfpm
我再次開始自問：『我和姊姊又沒有男女的愛情，真的可以嗎？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIFNL4Vuat
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QGN1tawXV
阿公問姊姊：「我們黃家不敢說是什麼大戶人家，不過我們黃家的財力妳一定很清楚。好的時候每個月百萬百萬的在賺，差的時候也有二三十萬，不是一般家庭比的起。所以這件事妳覺得怎麼樣？妳要不要乾脆正式嫁進黃家，給黃家生孩子？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIP6E2OAZy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaxoZKDGic
姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7P7V0SOPBr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWs4G9aO2V
阿公：「女人年過三十會越來越難生，真的就是那樣。妳今年已經二十七，不年輕，不能再猶豫。接不接受真的要立刻決定。如果妳不想正式嫁入黃家，也是時候快點開始新人生，才不會耽誤到妳自己。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJL3E68ep9M
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRQJEGOf7r
所以阿公是想說，如果阿姐不打算正式和我結婚生子，就應該早點另外找好對象，對姊姊才是最好的選擇。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFQneDnuB0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3lpmAxEyA
我擔心的：「阿公，你不要這樣逼姊姊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLQERJCsIi
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaagiDV82L
阿公趁勢：「你看，這個孩子打心底擔心妳，保護妳。我們黃家有錢，還有像這樣護著你的阿弟。妳難道真的還會有什麼不滿？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRkGsu1MWz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIHQFxcCY3
姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRG6Xm9icD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67T4ZyM4Yf
我：「阿公。不要這樣逼姊姊啦。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEMw5HtsJb
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7haSsVCRsu
阿公轉移目標向我：「那你又怎麼想？十六歲成年的你，要不要正式娶這個從小辛苦照顧你長大的姊姊？剛才阿公已經說過，黃家只剩下你，所以你越早傳承下去越好。要是再拖下去，姊姊真的不年輕了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtwhXCrSvT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOJXJYx2bH
我：「可是結婚這種事，要彼此喜歡啊。我和姊姊就像姊姊和弟弟那樣，沒有愛情，要怎麼一起生活？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3wrGAbD86
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BBnGg6ft7
阿公：「傻孫子。你認為人們結婚之後，過的是什麼樣的生活？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThkLPOKUYN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AdpkhrmPq
我不太懂阿公到底想說什麼，所以安靜看著阿公。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0BZwT4QJ4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VXYhnkO7F
阿公：「你和姊姊的關係，在阿公來看，已經和一般的老夫老妻差不多。所以阿公才會直接在今天問你們這件婚事。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS4FBOhHG3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRTEAJjwlA
我：「可是我們連戀愛都沒有啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTI8gqLHyGS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonNlGoOHla
阿公看向爸爸：「阿忠，你說，我們怎麼看這件事？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUppSBTZbi7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsCfRY3dhW
我這才知道，阿公和爸爸竟然已經議論過我和姊姊的事情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8PLb3Ex0M
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6EgObFAg4
爸爸告訴我：「阿公和爸爸都覺得，你和姊姊已經跳過戀愛那個階段。所以爸爸也覺得，今天是應該讓阿公問你和姊姊的事。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtjorGUBb7
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlwAMftIWJ
我真是深感不解：「跳過？想要結婚怎麼可以跳過戀愛？沒有戀愛就結婚，那樣不是會有很多問題？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRieOmmF9qM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWCUdbswcg
爸爸解釋：「爸爸知道你年輕，所以無法立刻聽懂。戀愛從來不是為了保障婚姻一切順利。戀愛只是其中一條走向婚姻的道路。婚姻會不會有問題，從來都是看有沒有辦法長時間認真對待對方，願意和對方長時間在一起。而你和姊姊的相處，看起來完全沒有問題。所以你們如果正式結婚，不過是把名義上的姊弟轉變成為具有實際關係的夫妻。這樣你懂嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMg6OG3nhsl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurWQKU1q0I
阿公也說：「接著阿公要說的話，是因為阿公已經把你當十六歲的大人看待才會說。一定要戀愛才能結婚那種事，是涉世未深的孩子才會說。真正出過社會的大人都是看對眼就好，沒有那麼多什麼戀不戀愛的。這樣你懂嗎？所以阿公看你和姊姊的相處絕對可以，不會有問題，才會在今天直接提出這件事。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4Ct0Jeleq
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwubsUF0HdZ
爸爸繼續補充說下去：「再說，先結婚再戀愛的例子，爸爸也算見過不少。所以你們二個怎麼想這件事？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UDuy16DzD
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRbVI7hVCT
我說不出半句話：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7F4QYNEbpT
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因為他們這樣說，讓我忽然間懂了些什麼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQ33vYOSJ8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubtHl76Q5c
讓我受到一定程度的震撼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftLJdTkWRM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BUbooNDC7
並且開始瞭解，那晚看電視新聞，為什麼男女關係專家會說：『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUveBv3Vgjr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmp4uR0yHG8
姊姊安靜和我一樣：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSkDFZ5e0k
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rUkSr36AR
換阿公問姊姊：「林花，比起阿弟，妳絕對是個更懂世事的大人。剛才我們告訴阿弟的這些話，妳覺得有沒有說錯？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu9NadH4Hu
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQURHjsHSQa
姊姊對於那些看法的回答，真的可以相當程度看出姊姊的心思。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEDFi8efBx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DLWSeCmvp
因此阿公絕對是故意問姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpBuefQIiL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7dWqinDu9
姊姊沉默：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8dVtFzrhn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA50PYyc4xm
阿公：「林花，妳放心的說。妳也已經跟著黃家奉獻九年。不論怎樣的答案，我們都絕對不會虧待妳。否則就是黃家無情，對不起妳。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmummVJ85Ar
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YDnXy8Yyf
阿公一定是想說：就算姊姊不答應這場婚事，最後因為尷尬想要離開黃家，也一定會給姊姊一大筆補償的錢。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ISiwsSodQ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsiwZOymen
姊姊終於說：「我覺得－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRvAzw9zJR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu88rKurQ6w
說到這裡，姊姊欲言又止，安靜打住。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HJmwp4WiO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡed7WnSVvJd
大家都安靜看著姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGp2vxShZug
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIxQN6jOHH
尤其是我，心臟碰碰跳到自己都能聽見……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Y2iCYe3E1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡundlljFHoX
姊姊幾秒的沉默：「對於阿弟，我真的年紀太大。還是年紀相近的女孩才是阿弟的好對象。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCjWZ9at4O
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VSoM5RrXX
大家沉默。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2rmV66YfB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrduFzI1U5
我更是如遭重擊，因為姊姊拒絕了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqs6nffAiFv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwhh2QpJv0
果然，我們終究只是姊姊和弟弟。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF05AJLvEKP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡStCn5zQVep
所以姊姊為了避免尷尬，應該不久之後就會離開黃家，和其他男人在一起？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVP03pzkT0
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbeHHKRGpE
阿公開口，語氣平淡，微帶遲疑：「是這樣啊？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOBQobiqUO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwO3Hni0s2
然後，阿公拿起自己的茶杯，喝口茶。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ62XNNRQms
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5fxbZ92YR
姊姊繼續說下去：「再說，阿弟剛才已經表示他並不喜歡我。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJwQEWBb76
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlP6P1uRQZ
沒有錯，我的確已經透過自己的疑問，表示自己對於姊姊沒有愛情存在。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnK6xKrecCn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqpdZP3pkG
不過母子連心，媽媽一定有體會到我的心情：「阿弟，快把你的真正心意告訴大家。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLl5mEx8ac6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFyIikc1YM
我還在姊姊拒絕婚事的不知所措中：「我……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3u2uoN0yk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyBIWLTD3l
媽媽：「如果你喜歡姊姊，直接說出來，不然姊姊真的會離開喔。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtA3mugZhg4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUZHO0taOR
我不希望姊姊離開：「我喜歡姊姊！當然我喜歡啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoWynTHUb1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VtWBmJ9tw
媽媽：「你願意跟姊姊結婚？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwtsjYs3yY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1djnh9Qak
我：「我……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUg1Wk9hVO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIf4fOxF7k
媽媽：「不願意？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84zIz9HYgN
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVxnVJ9LH8
瞬間，我幾乎想問：『不可以讓姊姊繼續留在家裡？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Vx5DY1csU
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAY4mvpokw
但是我又想到，這樣問不就表示我要拒絕婚事？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAgwOUlEL8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbiFsreHvI
並且繼續把姊姊綁在家裡，限制她的人生和幸福？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRjcxylkt3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDc8In6o3Nc
這樣的我，難道不是很自私？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjqR4d11So
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQ08fm4mcO
再說，如果姊姊住在黃家，卻又另外交起男朋友，我能接受那樣的情況嗎？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqSi3W60Nr
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwPDEICRyz
所以我說：「我不知道……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapwVNRkrY8
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnIGQNE31L
爸爸問：「你怎麼會不知道？你是想要拒絕這件事，還是你真的不知道？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4ClRJt7LR
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoTIXd49Ec
我：「我真的不知道。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEt8mORzEg
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBM1tdaHGB3
爸爸問出真正的重點：「你不需要管那些戀愛什麼的。你只需要說出來，你願不願意和姊姊結婚？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9EKKCOgCB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmdTeJLTpq
我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWusfwySab
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAYoPy8Exj
爸爸：「不願意？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yvvqvILjx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThxU0UelYC
媽媽：「如果你願意和姊姊結婚，這是唯一的好機會。因為媽媽整天看著你和姊姊的相處，知道只有你能留下姊姊。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzTl1JOYvv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMUzTh4Lic
我被問急，乾脆直說：「剛才姊姊說的，你們是沒有聽到嗎！讓姊姊勉強留下來，到底是有什麼意義啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiP89yffrn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQEhbeWVvW
媽媽：「所以如果姊姊其實願意這件事，你就也願意和姊姊正式結婚？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PWFQVx4CJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwVRtnP4ph
我：「姊姊都拒絕了啊！一直問到底是有什麼意義！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpr4xu6T9k
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpx2bHqDRz2
媽媽：「可是媽媽看你們，總覺得是誤會……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rL3r1721j
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRnUwiBOlX
我被媽媽這些話給說愣好幾秒。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPuKOWrWhd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bJIMJKyrJ
如果姊姊其實是願意，我願意嗎？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDWN5nWgOP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetFAEqqBrA
但是，可能嗎？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBbQGJrKdm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8y1fjEiLn
剛才姊姊不是已經拒絕我？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuH8z8CLTtE
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dG1wdrIGH
尤其是，阿公竟然也說：「我也覺得剛才我是問錯方向了……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9KO5mH30y
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrkQkp8CZy
我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWosiMC1sfX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSvTt3xJmI
媽媽轉而問姊姊：「我雖然是阿弟的親生母親，不過我終究只大妳八歲，這九年來我一直把妳當成妹妹，相信妳一定知道。雖然剛才聽妳那樣說，不過我覺得自己沒有聽到妳真正的內心話。妳真正的心意到底是什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IHc61WKNz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxoifhOp92
姊姊安靜：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNWpX9Giam
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLYIAAeubv
媽媽：「大家日夜生活九年，真的就像無話不說的家人一樣。所以請妳任何話都直接說沒有關係。如果妳真的沒有那個意思，也請妳不要拐彎抹角，直接說。至少大家不會有誤會，阿弟也不會一直有遺憾和猜想。因為阿弟剛才說的那些，絕對知道感情無法勉強。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBAY345vKm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfL2dLKgZc
姊姊：「其實我……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7rr1lvJOh
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi3lidsuCL
媽媽：「是的？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZHr9fQ5ij
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE7W93tYr7
姊姊慢慢低下頭：「我剛才那樣說，因為我以為阿弟對我沒有愛情，沒有辦法接受我……如果阿弟真的沒有辦法接受我，我能夠瞭解，絕對沒有關係，有必要的話我可以離開黃家。剛才我是想說那些。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPfnC2CFcC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpEkesAy8w
媽媽：「所以的確是誤會了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1yLdCGXfw
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4P8Z0XLvG
姊姊：「九年來，我真的已經覺得自己是黃家人，而不是我出生的林家人了……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XymPdKtXe
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aH0RXG0oH
媽媽催促：「繼續把妳的心意說下去。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEobE9sfY62
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1Rt8DZ3H1
姊姊靦腆說著：「這件事情，我其實都看黃家的意思……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdqvKq7C16
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRBZ6sRgX5m
持續幾秒的安靜。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjqUSDlC9K
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFOrxrRlbD
對我來說，姊姊根本是在說：『正式娶我，讓我成為真正的黃家媳婦吧。』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphWURvV7dZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspNjcceUQO
我吃驚又意外的完全不知道該說什麼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs27q8i4QFv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNEAlCnJfC
媽媽喜悅打破沉默：「阿弟！媽媽就知道，果然是誤會！快點！跟姊姊說，你想要跟姊姊正式結婚啊！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCAX8UmCzo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOm9H3HKHY
我難以置信的，轉頭看著身邊低頭的姊姊：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhO6eMy0Dt5
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ir6nMbHE1
媽媽：「快點跟姊姊說，你想跟姊姊結婚！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLWZzUu2nX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDXfLPM2rM
我終於開口：「姊姊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AToj6XMD6
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmseYsO0uem
姊姊依然靦腆低頭：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy68zyQpyLv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTJS3V6TGP
我：「妳真的不會勉強和我結婚？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ474x1bfRUz
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS05Vp32K5
姊姊微微向我轉頭：「你才不會勉強正式娶姊姊吧？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaG7hzt18y
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcPTz9IHNJ
我趕緊說：「我是不會！但是！但是……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeYKaFogIA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lDl5TE62L
媽媽趕緊代姊姊詢問：「但是？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRBDZH8kf3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYDXA9OHqw
我：「我比姊姊還要小十一歲，現在也才這麼小，才要十六歲，姊姊真的不會討厭和我正式結婚？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekOHmV6Vmk
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrXgrw4ks3
姊姊終於完全轉過頭，正面看著我，靦腆微笑：「我已經習慣整天看著像個孩子需要照顧的你。所以你比起擔心姊姊，不如先擔心自己更像個孩子，都這麼大了竟然還需要姊姊一直看著照顧。你先擔心自己什麼時候才會完全長大吧。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AMQybWhr4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHPyWSQ2Ke
我難掩喜悅和感動：「姊姊……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYaD4FLW7R
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姊姊繼續說：「再說姊姊早就已經把我的所有青春歲月奉獻給了你，奉獻給了你們黃家……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJigeI9UeH
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我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNVV9oGABa
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姊姊：「所以姊姊更擔心的是，你真的願意和姊姊結婚？就算沒有和姊姊談過戀愛？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwfAolbGFD
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爸爸在我回答之前，趕緊告訴我：「你不要想那麼多了，先把姊姊留住比較重要！真的也有不少人先結婚再戀愛，知道嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApuG3r54C9
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我當然說：「我願意！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnFiggojyf
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話都說到這裡，關於戀愛結婚的事情我決定先聽爸爸的話，暫時不管它了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDzlRHMvRK
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畢竟不論怎麼說，姊姊自己也願意和我正式在一起，然後姊姊都不會再離開我的身邊！197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSej4RnWEPB
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所以我還需要懷疑什麼？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwx9RBVXHnZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTHwK6ZEpY
姊姊：「以後你還是要乖乖聽姊姊的話，有沒有聽到？不然姊姊會生氣。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrFKT0Zynd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbi6xnlOiII
我說：「好！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYtNXQ3RJV
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqtI9WU3Jw
姊姊：「一定要繼續聽話喔？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOQNeswy4J
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEFP9k4urO
我說：「我一定會聽話！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTihxyEUcw1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIiHGFQJCS
阿公知道真的說成這件事，笑到合不攏嘴，用台語說：「我就知道這件事一定說的成！聽某嘴，大富貴！我們黃家準備大富大貴啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46b3yh5LCL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQE3HMjPPf4
阿媽雖然同樣喜悅，但還是趁機取笑阿公：「我說的話，你就有聽啊？難怪你只能賺那麼一點！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNElsB8BfDJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8m8th5yKd
阿公：「阿忠！快！讓餐廳送幾瓶好酒來！今天真的大喜，一定要好好慶祝一下！哈哈哈哈－－－－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjcMqn08Jl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSClSK3JPz8
大家都為我和姊姊開心不已。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiOJe57XVd
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxcm8lzcYD
我和姊姊彼此尷尬難為情好一會，沒有交談，不過還是自然的迅速要好起來，像以前那樣親密的無話不談。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFhHR3n5Dp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmyNFbVSBv
甚至於，感覺自己跟姊姊好像真的更加親密了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6MXnyuZxn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhyh6DXuIc
所以過去幾年最困擾我的問題：『我和姊姊沒有經歷過愛情，如果真的要在一起，我應該怎麼面對姊姊？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZbW3cSkpI
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLWMzPpJd7
現在我已經完全知道應該怎麼面對。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxo8kf4e0F
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObk1FhDd3R
答案正是：『根本沒有必要去煩惱這個問題。』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoml0o0yGFo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6S4Q6gMikN
我和姊姊的親密感情，不會改變。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD9dG5COAH
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMyX99eSWH
我們九年來的感情，的確已經是跨越戀愛的家族親情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2QfVvXQB9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTk4erIUHt
阿公他們做的，真的不過是讓我們完全湊在一起。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsIyNatTkW
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX7ZFQYV45
就這樣，我和姊姊終於決定正式成親了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeN2jS64wy
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因為七歲的時候我和姊姊已經舉行過正式婚禮，所以在我十六歲生日那天家裡簡單準備三牲五果，讓我和姊姊一起祭拜黃家祖先，告訴祖先我已經成年，現在要和姊姊真正成親。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch4ysI0EGJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFp4C5R3hSu
阿公想要早點抱到黃家下一代大孫，加上擔心姊姊再拖下去會成為年過三十的高齡產婦，所以一直明示暗喻的希望我和姊姊快點完成好事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8pmDcNBlf
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKXxDvO14n
就在我入讀高中的前一天，正好是月底發下個月零用錢的時候。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkngcQB3iWL
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6g9WEy594t
掌管全家金錢的阿公回家休息，順便把我和姊姊叫到客廳。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8LRANYN26
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9ik6fqQLt
阿公先是對姊姊說：「今天開始，家裡不會給妳每個月五千元的零用錢。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGILPIN5lS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gjE2eZy9g
姊姊安靜聽著，沒有一句話。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzWrEvSVpO
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCvkF9z3PP
我意外：「不給姊姊零用錢？為什麼？姊姊有做錯什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5IyEHG8BT
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XSgCB8H2E
阿公從胸前口袋拿出二張名片般的塑膠卡片：「來，這個給你們夫妻。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdkG6q3P6j
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64GTQOHJRv
我和姊姊安靜接過，都是一樣的信用卡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx3LpZGTrI
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpamSHKwLwL
阿公：「那二張卡是同帳戶的對卡，每個月最多可以刷二萬元，也可以提領小額現金出來。你們省著點用，學會節儉才是真正的持家之本。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRKjSZRIFY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZ0A0K4Eqi
我這才知道，姊姊不是做錯事，是因為我們的夫妻身份一起升級了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6d2aQUo7g
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3qqiRW0Gw
並且阿公可以透過每個月寄來的刷卡帳單，瞭解我們的支出詳細，必要時對我們進行相關詢問。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooJM0Fiuf9
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3nfIcewJ9
姊姊：「謝謝阿公。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl20JhN3bvv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TyqZI35p0
我也說：「謝謝阿公。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLMWfTyVRY
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgszszETyTV
接著阿公拿起茶杯，順便無聲示意要我們繼續留下，所以我和姊姊只能乖乖坐著等待。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9F3biNTht
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkwNqht5zx
阿公喝口茶，開口詢問：「你們到底是怎麼回事？都正式拜過祖先，卻還是一直分房睡？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYdchyLUNs
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7anhtPDVCl
我趕緊說：「沒有啦。只是覺得暫時這樣比較好。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4y0kJHyaxm
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZ2wR1KIxN
阿公：「那一天阿公已經和你說的很清楚，姊姊已經這個歲數。另外我們黃家缺的不是錢，缺的是興旺起來的人丁。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCDen98DB3
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我：「我知道。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsrQyYBxec
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlehMGCUeES
阿公當著姊姊的面，直接問我：「那件事你會覺得不好意思是不是？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7d9gozr3Z
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHyQd4XIDH
我趕緊說：「因為我才這個年紀，才要讀高中，真的覺得生孩子這件事－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssZARhTSYl
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmLWMeJBrn
阿公冷冰冰的一段話頂來：「孩子是會讓你負責帶？你在學校不說又會有誰知道？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4geEmUR0vA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQAFQ9XQ7s
畢竟是在鄰鎮，也都是些不認識的外地同學……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvc4YhfQL9y
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDQUh8RotZ
再說，孩子必定是會由阿媽、媽媽和姊姊養育，就像小時候的我一樣。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaINKVJrWtP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrvaEsQ09K
我無話可答：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvynW7O4Xc
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阿公：「明年你十七歲。阿公十七歲的時候，生下已經無緣孝順我和阿媽的大伯。你要給阿公拖到幾歲？再說，你和姊姊像這樣獨睡，男人不男人，女人不女人，陰陽怪氣的不健康，真的好嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAtxb2DEJ4
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1ibghhUjV
我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmLpHKiplR
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阿公：「這件事，你到底想要怎麼回答阿公？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMXo5im4Q3
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PNnbBRruw
以前阿公疼我，所以都是溫溫和和。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLX8E0zzrs1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EktrvKwJD
現在，我真的感覺到來自阿公的魄力和壓力。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYNFsbxDcZ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYk7N4LCGN2
我深深體會，這件事不給阿公交待，阿公絕對不會放過我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbSuf7a7UW
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiDdhknqBP
相信爸爸和媽媽一定也有承受過這樣的壓力。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSekEEEPjOA
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr5aGWmZ5c
不過我和姊姊還是沒有進一步發展，依然維持以前的分房生活。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXgUWNldxs
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主要是我知道自己還只是高中生，加上心情沒有整理好……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCbDPB25z1
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUGAaHkad6
我和姊姊就這樣繼續一天拖過一天，過著『有名無實的夫妻生活』。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3VZz1VMLG
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYLgPu806y
阿公也『有嘴說到沒口水』，只能唉聲不斷……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFlZFYwjSu
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事情再次出現變化，是在我讀高中二年級那一年，十七歲的聖誕夜。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IkYxb6dBB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqeGkNIwwG
姊姊騎車載我進行長途旅行，從南部老家前往台北市參加聖誕夜晚會。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WZrqEOyiX
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熱鬧的聖誕晚會結束之後，又前往入住的國際級大飯店，參加飯店收費舉辦的跨夜晚會。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuTg3NKNRz
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非常熱鬧，很多人都聚在一起唱歌、跳舞、吃大餐。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMLShXLc2U
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甚至有熱情的情侶當場擁抱熱吻。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVk8Bm4tUKK
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我和姊姊也在人群中和大家一起開心。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TFg7A1glv
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSJSlbKxe7
因為飯店有提供一種雞尾酒，喝起來又甜又清爽，很接近摻糖的乳酸菌飲料口感，一點都不像是酒類。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IcE2ASEML
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我和姊姊開心的一起喝多。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5PzJlJm5g
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然後就……你懂……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDxANJrUsX
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我和姊姊都只有一點點記憶，不記得是怎麼開始，只記得是一個充滿溫暖笑聲的愉快自然夜晚。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvALcUBPS9L
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大量酒精真的徹底解放我們的心。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtVL1kB8W2
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKYYt2Uxqb
隔天中午，我們在姊姊的房間清醒，當時你說有多尷尬就多尷尬，完全不知道要跟對方說什麼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYeambgEbP
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSzMaFvfKA
一直到整理好行李退房，騎著哈雷回程南下，我照樣摟著姊姊的細腰，我們才又開始談話。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qlkTbK3Ao
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迅速恢復以前的親密感。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaj46DXdnEs
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甚至於感覺更加的親密。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2j8bRXmT5y
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我們都沒有問：怎麼辦？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjr3OTQwAz
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姊姊和我都知道，正式拜過祖先報告了，真的也不需要怎麼辦。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1H9Of5xW2
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就這樣自自然然的一起面對這件事吧。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8bSkW9FBR
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不過回家之後，我們還是什麼都沒有跟家人說。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSN2RSc6fsK
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畢竟覺得這樣的私事，加上是意外，不需要特意去說。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpKDyxfrI2
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我和姊姊繼續分房，恢復以往那樣的生活，像是什麼都沒有發生過。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqERiXeJQEK
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直到一個多月後的農曆除夕，全家六人一起圍爐吃團夜飯。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2oLvbxhmI
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大圓桌上面各式菜色都有，非常豐盛。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwCTFQCxdx
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大家開動之後，阿公拿出一瓶高級洋酒，開瓶給大家倒一杯。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0byB6zeyd
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阿公說：「大家喝杯迎春酒。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyThTuvZM7K
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姊姊忽然說：「我不能喝酒。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKuAYlb5jb
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媽媽一向把姊姊當妹妹對待，關心詢問：「腸胃不舒服？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpyfmlzvU6
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姊姊沉默幾秒，才尷尬說出：「我有了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXYIP7EbPN
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大家：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvmdyk9y0H
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我相信，大家一定都聽出來姊姊說的是什麼。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51SlUPAkLd
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我受到的震撼更是深。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfVWEjZx7F
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我一直在心中問：『聖誕夜那一晚？姊姊真的有了？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYDvCwHtgo
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGrLJUCwm1
畢竟我和姊姊也只有那一晚。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGm7u0zwkaG
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媽媽緊張的進行最後確認：「妳有了什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHe7c2mMaD
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姊姊：「孩子。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7CF3jVIf7
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媽媽：「真的有了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCOYyiikY9
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姊姊：「嗯……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiRgSKyqlv
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阿公認真直問：「誰的？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0fRhTLYeq
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我可以瞭解阿公為什麼這樣追問。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ipPHXPsnU
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因為我和姊姊跟以前的相處都一樣，沒有變化。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsyzbtShLq
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZzxrxhPR4
如果我是阿公，一定也會半信半疑的追問確認，避免誤會……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mlENiVny2
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姊姊安靜幾秒，露出尷尬笑容：「去問你的寶貝孫子。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCWkaGqXUF
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阿媽驚喜的：「唉呀－－－－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5Wuf52qvd
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阿公等待這天一年以上，同樣喜悅的：「哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAv3uImKo4S
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爸爸直接伸手，開心萬分的在我頭上亂抓：「臭小子！看看你！真的讓爸爸我當阿公啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmbmBfE8dc
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媽媽則是出於好奇，一邊喜悅一邊問：「怎麼回事？看你們平時在家裡都一樣啊？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3tUCxazsu
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爸爸笑著說：「你管他們夫妻那麼多？是妳的金孫就好啦！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDaueBaYcb
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我讓二十八歲的姊姊懷孕，家裡肯定沒有人料想的到這麼快。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMc45iSWm9l
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阿公感動萬分：「這麼說，今年的團圓飯，我們黄家已經是七人同桌？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wsrjEZ7IT
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阿媽心花怒放：「明年團圓飯就能見到大金孫的面。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1hH9olArx
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJd7PTfpPOK
阿公：「快！把她那杯酒拿掉，換果汁！今晚大家好好的喝一杯！黃家真的要開始人丁興旺啦！乾杯－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI3sGX6ZPV
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所有人都拿起自己的杯：「乾杯－－－」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvGzyEpo2H
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今年的團圓飯充滿熱鬧歡笑聲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDP4ug1oxr
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他們都萬分期待姊姊的生產。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ESysfm8bn
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二十八歲的姊姊頓時取代我，成為家裡最受寵的人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovyBqMmtID
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大家怕姊姊餓到，怕姊姊累到，怕姊姊生病，怕姊姊受傷，絕對不讓姊姊做事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblJ8TndaFw
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給姊姊吃的補品和山珍海味更是不必說，想吃什麼有什麼，多貴都會買回來。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwvk6XZsur
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至於我，依然和姊姊同樣分房睡，沒有因為姊姊懷孕而同房。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vsbaYqWRj
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並且一天天看著姊姊的肚子變大，心情複雜的唯有死心接受事實。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtFnYaeXks
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就算我有意拖著，最後還是讓姊姊大肚子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnniJ323AK6
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我真的只能說，早婚早生果然是黃家男性的命運……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdfv1gy3cn
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升上高三之後，姊姊順利給黃家生下一個健康的白胖男孩，黃家的下一代繼承人。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Aqg8nIx9M
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十八歲的我成為一個嬰兒的爸爸，照阿公的意思把黃家傳承下去，我的高中同學都不知道這件事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjH7AYGkAw
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我和姊姊真的只有聖誕夜一起意外睡過那麼一次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcnJnpqAa6
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卻讓我們一起踏上人生下一個階段，成為一個孩子的父母。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxouTRaJLwy
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醫院私人病房內，我抱著自己和姊姊的長子，真是完全不知道應該用什麼樣的心情面對。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMrA9QFyOV
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反觀其他人，抱著這個黃家下一代都是高興萬分。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNneuIe3hR6
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升格當阿祖的阿公，更是抱著黃家大金孫盡力疼愛，開心到合不攏嘴。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCBhdTHPQX
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黃家最受寵的人，自然又從姊姊變成我們的孩子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SGJaOTaoC
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把孩子從醫院抱回家，黄家開始日夜可以聽到嬰兒哭聲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AgHBbzQfM
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阿媽、媽媽和姊姊輪流照顧。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZqf83WaOg
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房間的我，半夜睡覺更是被客廳傳來的啼哭聲吵醒好幾次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcP4ehA9ID
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我雖然聽的煩，還是心想：『反正不是我在帶孩子，就這樣吧……』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTUmrn8HCQ
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姊姊就此一邊照顧我們的孩子，一邊陪伴我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCX860fRqnr
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對姊姊來說，肯定像是有大小二個孩子需要看著……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfSPsOektg
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隔年六月，我從高中畢業。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzrinDFp8U
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雖然我有報考大學，但是我對於是否就讀大學有疑問。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvE38pIMMJ
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另外，也是因為我覺得自己和姊姊的關係『該是時候了』。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIIJjAtrBc
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於是我把姊姊約出門兜風，表示有事想要和姊姊好好談談。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU5QRSvdih
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黃家的大前院，阿媽和媽媽抱著大金孫，目送我們騎哈雷出門。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmRzqYOrqj
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姊姊邊騎哈雷邊問我：「你想找姊姊說什麼？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXa95Jpxia
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我說：「妳覺得我不去讀大學好嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4kU58TM46
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姊姊：「你不想讀大學？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡME7mdjLEhy
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我：「我想跟阿公和爸爸一起出去工作。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNhRTpkSh0
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姊姊：「為什麼？你不是報考了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jPKm5TTWp
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5mKsShaZt
我：「首先是我對於讀大學沒有什麼興趣。而且他們都沒有強迫我讀大學，讓我想讀就去讀。再來是因為我看著姊姊妳照顧小孩，越來越覺得自己應該跟著阿公爸爸去家裡的公司工作。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaQ7w1Wxb8
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姊姊：「和他們說了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PTYIeDvlD
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我：「還沒。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszBoOOqCn8
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姊姊：「你沒有勉強自己工作吧？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxLCjiTiE2
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我：「沒有。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE71U957wT
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幾秒的沉默。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAT2LoEzHA
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姊姊終於說：「孩子的爸爸，加油喔。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdxKy0nPRj
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我：「…………」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiqIVC5QJG
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姊姊：「怎麼了？還有什麼事想要說？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CMJE156VS
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFIhEA2S6O
我安靜的，確定路上幾乎沒有人車，開始大起膽子移動雙手。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnFgOKUF4L
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaxmQGU3Vh
摟著姊姊細腰的雙手開始向上方移動，摸著姊姊豐滿的胸部。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdQFSLGUTj
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真的好豐滿……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7jfOzfjXO
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聖誕夜怎麼樣，我不記得了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wq0dEiTdW
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不過從小到大除非不小心碰到，否則我都沒有碰過姊姊的胸部。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvqwVwMPEq
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姊姊安靜幾秒：「你的手？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKCEuchVLy
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我怕被罵，有點緊張：「姊姊，我在想，我都已經高中畢業，快要十九歲，也要去工作了……我們像以前那樣恢復同房好不好？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNssjVdg0q
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姊姊沉默的把哈雷騎進路邊的無人小巷，停在路邊，一定是避免被人看見我摸胸部。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqETjhRzQw
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我緊張不安：「姊姊，妳不願意嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDN8WQ7WCvJ
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl10tMC6ibC
姊姊看出我很緊張：「都生下你的孩子了，你還在擔心什麼？只是孩子還是會在半夜哭吵，我會需要常常半夜出入，到時候一定會吵到你睡覺。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YG0MdQ0UB
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我：「喔……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TyYNBIUID
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姊姊再問：「另外，你的手……你是在跟姊姊求愛？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡre4VVoF9Tn
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我終究是個年輕男性，當然會有慾望，會對那件事充滿興趣。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8q7aRBD5y
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一年多以前的聖誕夜，意外和姊姊發生關係，我就開始一直想著這件事：『反正都跟姊姊發生關係了……』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyExD6N8aDC
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCfsf4QjZj
簡單說：我想要再跟姊姊上床一次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BHFTumrjB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yAXCX6bkn
一直沒有再行動，的確因為覺得還是高中生，又害怕姊姊會反對抗拒，所以猶豫再三。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixw8KI1Ufs
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然後，姊姊忽然在團圓飯宣告懷孕，讓我只能完全打消念頭，不敢碰姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4zdZHe4DY
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不過現在，孩子已經出生，高中畢業，也要出社會工作了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVK6rs7LgqX
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所以我緊張的用這種方式告訴姊姊：「反正我們都有孩子了？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7m05qPtYl
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姊姊大方的說：「姊姊已經知道，放開手，衣服被妳弄濕了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbPrIR7A1i
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我：「衣服弄濕？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxazF8bHdb
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姊姊：「忘記姊姊一直在給你的孩子餵母乳？你這樣抓，皮衣裡面的胸衣已經濕掉，感覺到涼涼的。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPdMHlS3gh
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我趕緊放手：「啊，對不起……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstkhvk0ACh
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姊姊：「找間汽車旅館清洗吧。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9B2Mrokkw
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聽到姊姊這樣說，我鬆口大氣。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIbbpUJXsJ
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因為不可能單純去汽車旅館。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGba9V2nEg
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姊姊明確的給綠燈。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr81zf54b9q
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不愧是二十九歲的成年人，很大方的面對。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGIuqodtKo
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也一定有想過我像這樣正式求愛的情況，才能反應的這麼迅速自然。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUjs2UwGG8
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於是我像以前那樣重新摟著姊姊的腰。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoByozAmbTQ
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姊姊把哈雷騎回大路，載著我繼續走。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhIKaBlKQA
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又是一會的安靜。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQPcr7aRCO
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姊姊忍不住嘻笑起來：「明明都已經是一個孩子的爸爸，卻還像個害羞的男孩呢，呵呵……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XXHA7hrXD
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我只能說：「我會盡快長大啦。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5OhJIl2Yn
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哈雷就此騎進路邊遇到的第一間汽車旅館。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfylyfPgaqq
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正式拜過祖先的我們，一起開房間了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtya7nuqmnC
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明明身上帶有足夠現金，姊姊卻特意用阿公給的信用卡刷卡租房間。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYfGBc2ZXZ
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哈雷停進一樓車庫，我和姊姊一起上二樓。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZVplUPjmw
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姊姊先去坐到電話旁邊，撥電話回家。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHB1DLMUOB
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXI7TxUhEuM
姊姊：「阿媽？我和阿弟正在一間叫做春田的汽車旅館，今天可能會晚點才回去……我知道夜路危險。如果太晚，我們明天再回去……孩子要拜託妳和媽媽照顧了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZauF5SutO
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當時我看著姊姊電話回家，光明正大的跟阿媽報告正在汽車旅館，真的很訝異，不瞭解姊姊為什麼要通知家裡。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpIwyufmII
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之後我慢慢想，才想懂姊姊的用意。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iuMieI1gy
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqK3gc4MgC
信用卡的帳單寄回給阿公，就會從刷卡明細知道我們去汽車旅館，避免阿公又追問起生孩子的事情。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMiTwv6Fb3
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電話回家連絡阿媽和媽媽，是類似的道理。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8frbIuMAM
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他們所有人就會明確的知道我和姊姊關係再次不同。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRmqOfDCVD
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這樣就算我和姊姊再次同房，或是比較親密的舉動，他們也不會太意外。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeHH9zTGaj
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOTOFdpXe5
所以二十九歲的姊姊真的是個成熟女性，知道怎麼好好的處理這些家務事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzrPKqgrSS
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那麼十八歲的我呢？什麼時候才會完全長大成熟？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZkLV2qejr
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不論如何，害羞的我和大大方方的姊姊、就在這間旅館度過生命中的第二次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MyjmdFp2s
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並且是完全清醒、沒有酒精作用的第二次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak4RQWM8BK
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在親密的笑聲中彼此試探摸索完成的第二次。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGInzSa3fu
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我和姊姊就從這一天開始，成為真正擁有親密性生活的夫妻。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Lazm8QcCj
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我們之間，不再有任何心理障礙和隔閡了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡambFYZHjzX
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我果斷放棄大學。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcfwsoC9OV
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正式出社會跟著阿公，讓阿公教我做生意的道理和訣竅。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKct6zvTsh
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平均四天回家休息二天，和守在家裡的姊姊團聚。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjstp5YBhn
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3Lfmo1y1M
男人在外工作打拼，女人守在家裡照顧孩子，如此生活的確是我們黃家的寫照。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSDcRlANGt
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只是，就算是家裡可以關上門的房間，和姊姊親熱我還是會覺得尷尬。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1XCikidxa
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畢竟阿媽、媽媽總是在家裡，她們多少一定會察覺。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAulyzxIjgY
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所以只要我說：「姊姊，我們騎車出門兜風？」一定會順便去汽車旅館刷信用卡報到。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFOAXwGQsr
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因此有我定時播種，姊姊很快又有了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTBPc3oLDX
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvaoBz8wI9
我二十歲那年，姊姊再次生下我們的第二個孩子，也是黃家的第二個大金孫。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8PicfTF7D
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我成為二個男孩的爸爸。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviRLDZ5jjJ
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阿公真是太滿意這樣的情況。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVxx5QU0Pe
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X8utDSLjb
二個寶貝大金孫左擁右抱：「黃家的未來都靠你們這對寶貝兄弟了！」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCd8w9uijlj
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甚至於，阿公特意把我和姊姊的信用卡金額上限調高，擺明要讓我們盡情去汽車旅館做人。
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我和姊姊也只能：「嗯……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK2MsewGBc
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cTEnQDHuo
不過我還是和姊姊一起回到房間之後：「姊姊，雖然剛才阿公那樣說……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGT0FzVNnt
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc01ihj67Fq
姊姊沒有反對和討厭，只有淡淡回答：「我也已經三十一歲了。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RquOENBFo
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我不明白姊姊的意思，所以看著姊姊。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBxab4pxCM
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1ReZQx00k
姊姊微笑：「我的確像阿公說的，沒有幾年機會了……孩子的爸爸，加油喔。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85hv6d3YVU
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姊姊都這樣說，我還能怎麼辦：「好吧……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGG4TKq3U0x
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就這樣，我和姊姊不多想，能生就生。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSs8Ni0Sokv
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從我十七歲開始直到二十五歲的這八年，我和姊姊成為三男二女、總共五個孩子的父母。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GpJcfykLA
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姊姊將近一半時間都在懷孕中度過。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfpUErmlCf
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總是生產之後幾個月，肚子又開始隆起。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQDZOdmCJY
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為了一直給陸續出生的孩子餵奶，乳汁沒有中斷分泌。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx950Cb0ynB
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姊姊就這樣生到第五胎的三十六歲，踏入醫學上受孕機會低的高齡產婦年齡，肚皮才自然的不再有反應。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfK61Wx8H3P
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至少給黃家增加人口這件事，阿公很滿意。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeXom6P0HF
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八年的時間，我和姊姊的確完成阿公的期望了……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76gR2Aa9fL
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現在，我二十八歲。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIaYWdQ6JV
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我和姊姊的長子十歲了。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycIG6hqnpH
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算是已經長大懂事，會開始好奇的想要瞭解更多世事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iqen2sT7G
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVX9n98hvL
他終於在我回家休息的這天，拉著弟弟妹妹問我：「爸爸，你為什麼都叫媽媽為姊姊？姊姊為什麼都叫你阿弟？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPhp8BNFGm
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你認為，我應該怎麼回答孩子？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qdBgUuZFz
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我當然說：「因為爸爸在七歲的時候就和十八歲的媽媽結婚，讓媽媽照顧到這麼大，當然要喊媽媽為姊姊，被媽媽喊阿弟。」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXh2MJXl152
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沒有錯，不論我幾歲，都覺得姊姊一直像對待小弟弟那樣照看我。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcY2ApDL8k
197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExr8WtNE3I
長子很困惑：「爸爸七歲，媽媽十八歲，結婚？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynFXWUAppW
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我問他：「奇怪嗎？」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk321LItvuz
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長子乖乖點頭。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ23oVw0t0
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於是我開始把自己和姊姊的故事，說給我們的第一個長子聽。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYUJW08WHw
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讓他知道自己的爸爸媽媽到底是怎麼沒有經過戀愛，卻還是一直在一起……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9vxQI0C8C
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那麼接下來我還能說什麼？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt3zWBCq4n
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我真的已經沒有太多可以說。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkR865zxwY
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七歲病弱的我，娶十八歲的姊姊沖喜，讓姊姊親手照顧長大，再於十六歲的時候和姊姊正式結成連理，十八歲生下我們的長子，後續幾年再生下二男二女總共五個孩子。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwOcArH6tm
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十八歲為錢來到黃家的姊姊，本來想找機會逃跑，卻因為不忍心看還是個病弱孩子的我無助啼哭，開始接受我，日夜照顧我，漸漸的融入黃家的生活，最後給黃家生下五名重要的下一代。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUZNnBc26K
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我們之間，一天天培養出來的深厚感情當然有，不過戀愛般的愛情絕對沒有……197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWDOFDf18u
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你也會覺得我和姊姊的夫妻關係真的奇怪？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsbMxoI0Qh
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年齡相差太多的男女，絕對不可能有未來？197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pxf5jZmVV
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我不知道你會怎麼想我和姐姐的事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZ3pbSRoeB
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我只知道自己和姊姊一路走來，覺得男女關係專家真的沒有說錯：197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8IUWmoFqy
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『年齡和身份地位從來不是男女在一起的真正問題。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsgd5ecTmz
真正的問題在於有沒有用心對待另一半？』197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHXbuGfy0z
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愛情真的像爸爸說的，只是通往婚姻的其中一條道路。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMe07rIuee
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維持一段婚姻的從來不是愛情，永遠都是在於是否用心對待對方。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0HuG813Ac
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有心了，把對方當成自己的另一半照顧陪伴，自然能刻骨銘心，自然能長久。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5BC5Qto33
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這才是家族親情和婚姻的真諦。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU54Oq2Qh3d
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因此我沒有什麼可以再說。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN0UfFcKEh
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再說下去，恐怕就是那五隻兔崽子怎麼又吵又鬧又合作的興旺黃家的故事。197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRIZoeSQEf
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所以現在我唯有說：「這就是黃家屬於我和姊姊的故事了……」197Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjXYSvTswj
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