Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTv8yKYWZmV
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsJIJJwHfo
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymh0yBJOb5
It's been four months since that day.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLnFhbImRW
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPte3Pe0EH
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZwpvXy9SG
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOtO2rUGJl
Only loneliness.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJAePPMAd4
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi3s5CTLPN
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8Zd3FRpsI
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1Y0Mu8K2X
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5k6h3nzSZc
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHKU2xFJ2j
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoPTLqMqMI
They remind me of home. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsamsD2SIqJ
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkqKsdM124
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLDxKppyGL
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHymswdeZav
I don't want to be here. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1G2gLtmPq
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorKNFaxs1d
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLr3DBUJnE
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tMtQA09Wa
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0458rJ7XE
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVSTwwraEv
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgdGC5pXOE
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrRQDL6qnx
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzrrWMTOWt
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEIWVto49g
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAMhZDkoiC
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJPsrTIUeO
I want it to make sense.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jayuFGY57
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lPFnmnGJD
The PaperGarden.669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6XJ890qGe
To be Continued...669Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDYmpZUT2F
