Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiPlZOQNB6
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtH9INd0F4g
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsL06OubnR
It's been four months since that day.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0CwTXbRzP
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqqIbk6aSg
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4eMXw8YcM
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdSkwHKEYJ
Only loneliness.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7k24bl6H6i
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaQzGvzmc4
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsUm0itagx
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo00ITKrHX1
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTfMqi2tcx
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35CaKGpwA0
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1gWIbwP7Z
They remind me of home. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4qQc2hNmc
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFy05TJ8Lz
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG7OvpAxRG
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88r0LO8HjG
I don't want to be here. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyndZJuVamr
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2pwVBK3vs
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvejxlart9w
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGJXXx2nZB
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg1PolgrrO
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6m65uKYYn
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5afqfHQO9H
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUXTPtXuEq
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡex1Gma3ebV
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpMZwtIWaC
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGynJknbno7
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0r4LkBV6F
I want it to make sense.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWmwjkm2mz
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJ2udUW49j
The PaperGarden.673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGynpaz3Gh
To be Continued...673Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAN635Bw8x
