第一回傳送門545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVB6MvYlNR
他在床上徐徐張眼。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBmpuLJaEX
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDiZ67Kda1
床褥太軟，腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcZZRmugCb
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuPqCv7IsB
暈眩冉退，目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者，他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKhlsPZ9gJ
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvkNKLYtDw
嗯。醫院。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAAvEcqKds
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKaDDaRl8G
接受醫生的檢查，證實無恙後，獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄，已通知兒子和媳婦，只待他們前來接送。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98irCBKTEs
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRsBuaSk8o
醫生離開後，護士也去忙別的。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwCt9Y3H9J
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKM7quYuWiI
他呆坐床上，默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回，感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀，總得要到醫院走幾趟，實屬平常不過的事情，對吧？545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2wQl62h7p
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWiMrHExYq
如他所料，兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaxnWQyFWD
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnGge9BcpE
「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱，熱昏了。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MlZEcoM6n
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCybbWqoX5
「那就多待在家裡避暑，不要外出四處走動。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpJN3ISc5h
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oJVhqH2P7
「知道。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJAIxSyY5G
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKipU7NVcqr
兒子攙扶他走出醫院，在街邊截下的士，直驅住所。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbk0SgbTxFT
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBecDavQJS
車廂裡，二人不發一言，各自對著窗外景物發愣。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC45W43Wkp
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fbkB80CIy
沒有怨氣或鬱結，只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56Vv5ezljB
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGz4PfGjm2j
黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡，無窮。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONV4COSzTu
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBerXP7sYUm
兒子倏忽開口，神色惘然。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKvmQzKZx7
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHpYtw6t5g
「我有末期肝癌，剩半年壽命。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdCKODdZlh
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9AUNx1JoX
「她知道了沒？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1wsGRGDI6
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHhYO3sQvP
「不打算告訴她。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Kw9fuu07X
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0bo14Lzbd
「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxEn5khGuz
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnNSgmq7P8
兒子笑而不語。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGVbDIxazh
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oeRlf8reN
他愣住片刻，良久才道：「明白。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsGTfPyrYP
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC2QMl0eqk
兒子輕拍他的肩膊，以示感謝。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uX8nb1MJH
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6YDGmnCkv
抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲，逕自到浴室洗澡去。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR82dcBtrnu
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sXFuUsGhz
蒸氣瀰漫，看得見，抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始，也抓不著終結。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Vm400jK91
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwKddqcKN7
沒選擇的情況下被生產下來，沒能選擇長大與否，沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛，沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死，全是沒能選擇的。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnW4AmiSrI
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE4j1xBC1t
翌日，兒子和媳婦如常上班，孫兒如常上學，家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGZ3kEco40
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0B5KwBQ7K
他決定到公園走走。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaxCiAPLs2
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvvA6V9XAP
樹影婆娑，鳥叫蟲鳴。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZYtkwgBlW
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdgBZmNtON
此樹是否去年那樹？此鳥是否去年那鳥？此蟲是否去年那蟲？要緊，不要緊。在意，沒能在意。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtMSTWjDMt
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhr01u4I9jS
幽幽踏步，皆因內心焦躁。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Jz7fO1dlB
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxOMKIvMM0
來到涼亭，棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他，感到難過。他認為無論難過與否，該死的時候總得要死。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEQ5JiiTLj
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQg9x3IT5q
全場一片默然。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3d4BGkl9MA
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnjKW9Nt6A
聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10CLwyHVyh
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9awfDxsZP4
不要問為何。不要問感受。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUJUTUWLqx
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBgLCdcahG
有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqKjd7MPFH
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8jPxSCKr5
正午，他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午，孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦，他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間，一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上，被匆匆推送入急症室深處。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHqVqGeyEy
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDMGv1gpGF
那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHkPstaT6J
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZpirRkpG9
數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站，然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久，醫生步出急症室，宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C3NOz5AJg
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdl9ZU744XC
他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUhF0LMNgV
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrYVqgZTZR
心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然，皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrYAHJzd03
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uVwrV39AZ
「爺爺，很熱啊！」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBgsZgWIVU
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcq2XtaXdB
「嗯。」對於眼前一切，他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLhXv9MxPD
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvXqX8KxTt
晚餐後，兒子在露台抽菸，媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子，五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟，此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5bjiMAv9p
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsjrEHHbrE
跳跳跳，有節奏地跳個不停，像心臟。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPX3W4QLem
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdYPGhQ2ya
心臟停止跳動當刻，棋友有何感受？掛念未完的棋局？掛念急症室外的男女親友？545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUZ5j7OzlP
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡql1cw0zGnv
他的目光不期然落瞄向露台，看著兒子呼出個個煙圈，圈圈復圈圈，冉升消散不復見。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7jGtG7bUW
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkMT6Cahfz
不復見。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lZfw62Pbr
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhyWL3Lh1l
他莫名的被深深憾動。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsndXfGKmTw
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvIljO4cv4
走到兒子身邊，告知棋友的死訊。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWCZ6Cz56Q
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNu7D8RBPZ0
毋須明言，兒子已猜測到他的用意。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8hPXXAGX9
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6066SRlDKf
「我不怕死。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlclflnB9I
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oJgqe2j6Q
「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕，只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9DBjh22Ur
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi81I5q7yfG
「你有沒有想要完成的事？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOKIdLz0cn
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOToRxpq1HE
「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdmBbYF4dM
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMzJGkFp47
「她的叮囑？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFdmz3oTym
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpQiP1DMoq
「不。她離開得太突然，我沒機會問她，只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ905msu3p0m
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8G5cEtknB
「別傻！她不願看見你耿耿於懷！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgUX7QbSk6
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6bwgOLl86
「她沒這麼說。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbEVMHd9rs
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIv67CuiC8
兒子苦笑，笑他彆扭。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2ntQYNCsG
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYanZgAzqpM
再次不了了之？他以為是，直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuRN4Q5tcL
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xHAPv4rkR
無論大家怎樣勸說，兒子依然不願接受治療，堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaw9OAQAFH
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIZUQ38xOa
半年後，兒子沒死去。一年後，兒子仍活著。三年半後，兒子依然沒斷氣。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbYknRN88B
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcrpFlv7Xb
問何解。醫生說原因不明，但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGymk4kKgbd
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB5NMdGVnj
離開醫院、歸家路上，兒子和他拐到公園散步去。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5R3hts0S45
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyx5iZEKH5U
樹影婆娑，鳥叫蟲鳴。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHK3gxwBYP
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdYODTIaMn
「你多活了三年半。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlmQsMujf2
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2BmCIUl7R
「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgr7eBT7NTt
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBh36K7I1Y
「想繼續吃？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbm3hyvQov
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAcGyHNCiZ
「是。期待下一個夏天。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYyfvmw5ii
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJikf7c9kHr
兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒，希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子，在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後，才重回職場繼續拼搏。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiex9PBESy
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu4ism5YpT
他為兒子衷心高興著，亦感謝上蒼的好生之德，沒有帶走……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZNriU6N7o
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtCndQ9bZO
兒子呢？545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRm5A5mVCTy
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlR1vPbf15
悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk55vrCsngI
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hRLuQTvGv
啊！記起來了。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUNett2lja
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9VKcdMpcq
兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外，下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊，沒能重回職場，沒能享受期待已久的夏日。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlvD8NMQUk
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGyrT8cFn6
果然。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpXk6JArgp
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4vRdcwzsh
不努力走下去，就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4fDSwIfS0
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIiPcCJass
婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中，他繼續走。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSdEb9KleH
545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsV3Qb6BBMO
幽幽踏步慢慢走。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Rvl6eoCq5
