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Some of my colleagues 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nDEBV7QqE
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4t2LSF93S
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCjyf5LF8a
suggestion or hypnosis.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0qjtC95qY
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW4zjXkYBv
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlb2KSD3yb
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzE1fuGsGd
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJA16PY46E
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquRu5VfuGP
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfS6Qe5JPp
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92stW2aBQS
capabilities.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYKBFfkXnz
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAlTutIkH6
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David awakened. Not 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fAQSxEjMK
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8cTxUHRTE
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UG131ipvt
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ukdOc9KxW
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnnT54HZDe
undamaged.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0S0Dp3HNkJ
"Only your physical body541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0N1qME4n1
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuwHarfavI
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeguaz0HLLt
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UhJdiA9qO
A shadowy form appeared.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwTOhcHNrp
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMl6iLKoGO
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMdDTPHBSk
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLvkAp3O6u
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgspXjvNs7p
"Am I in the...ether 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAMCuOz9hg
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ45dfnKiAA
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJCqR7eZYX
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4R4EcOKTG
David was tired, too 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZS9kdnfWH
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TSnzopu6D
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYQ3zjPwJP
The shadowy hood cocked 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5MSe2WJNT
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmAXB78BIK
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJQBOdo9Pa
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmnFW4XWiQ
more grateful."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZRV3fFkfj
"I..."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92AEvi77Ru
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMEVjYdbZs
David groaned in 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApODQ6NClk
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoJ7OcAmow
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3U21AuabuJ
falling point, that'd be fly."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmESUSbu7G
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClnNS8uAIs
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgSnuMAC20
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXClsf3QOWv
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM22bDiy09N
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLPdTgco1s
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY48pe4kWJq
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKMbp4bs80
David shouted and 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHuarWPqvp
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lq6E8yzA4
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxt9H5cvUr
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8nvdpoJJC
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2HevuRSGh
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZClIMU0sSr
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcwWKcJqDK
mist.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlePnijjnfj
Jester's voice came from541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwXEoGkql7
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Xh7SBpgiS
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cU32TVWoH
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWq3k1vWDTW
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgHTpilZtA
creating a circle around Jester and David.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMCwOooG05
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOI85QkDMl
"Shut up!" David 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgmQVYWfyt
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPoWDfUtLE
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcE1kb8kNx
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO924gN6hOD
Jester gave another 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKAnxp9iPW
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSduIkHFTat
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMnxkPQS16
afraid of the truth?" 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bQBYYkPUn
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJxbaqGgQT
"You're what? A 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOvlrQ5XwC
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxwLXxMIxs
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MoZ9z2GkO
you've done not matter." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH331qMZOmO
The shadows completely 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vVnrbE9wj
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaamIDLRpGd
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5QGlFhw1I
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIoTK7qQYX
eye and shadows swallowed him.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd91AaQuU9D
Shadows parting, David 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzKg2h8lAX
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynYuFqo9aR
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyV106pofi0
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGVQ5kJnRR
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrFOsoOKkt
mother541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo1FfXLuHG
"This is my memory." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4CX076p4Y
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdOL4Q8eqj
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoFnUIfZsD
David didn't reply to 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7BbtE0OJB
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtHrrurTK5
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcMybMfqKT
Unaware of what was 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUf8IEYht4x
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mzqg5YSqi
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7E92i6ilx
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWGzPRCKu4
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOa2bv91jot
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JNAgIH2TL
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9HKVaMIHh
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHykZU5PSKh
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0rsvNDrLN
Finally the screams of 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtahW1PuzjM
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XHlQYLpWE
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqlylPVnS9
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQPnW1nKde
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66LnkvgUzu
the baby's throat and squeezed.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CHqh8RESI
David could feel his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeimhEN3ubA
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA05QySQMHx
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6Ou7L8OMA
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjh7vfPpww
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfshCIOpqXQ
stopped.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O0eUZG1vx
"Oh, nonononono." The 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUTsa5slVf
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP79ESWam1
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXM1IjMuOwx
"You who were supposed 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDoND41U8n
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpxu7Zzqya
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlboJfcdYM
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0yBNcM8Jc
Coughing David stood up 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjXV8jdqR4
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKhBOF4EOv
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPKiHL9LPp
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPc8USPWrS
"No, it was a small 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI17Qmry8KL
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nmBZ59au0
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONXPtKlX8c
He was staring at the 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKhZVKqcqD
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sozN5A9C8
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1Pr8R7qvF
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX51pAavK9t
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVj4FL3bOzl
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcCzfkEyFq
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7pb5xvAJd
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDGiJNvvnK
"I will!" Came a squeaky541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtYUeSZ7OW
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Bm6GzrGh0
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcxxfKRbYM
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzYOmfeIth
was an adult.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXhjyclp9p
A knock came from a door541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOX3uCdrvqB
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xQEMrf6hw
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYGmD6OttO
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR510ZE3VaY
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdCk3chBsg
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PhDOUcEie
being a bad boy.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9Fzndir81
That's why he didn't 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWtyZe8vK1
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoxezEVeY5
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERz5ql1tMy
"D..david" the answer 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzLBXcYZXP
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLVm7CWSGH
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiEHfnRn4J
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSdiuWHJhk
The man put his hands on541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxD9T2SZkf5
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zncpYKhFA
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOCGhzylIKw
David meekly shook his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PrV99CoVg
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvddBsfj112
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ50NRAwRP2
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGzKMPCrCS
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjryh1ktysn
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheV513GOBa
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WTIA19Zdh
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHioaXRqV4T
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1OFssZaLM
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxlZJ3UCjm
Davids body.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmk8ZBHcTuq
Please don't. Came adult David's voice541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoRhwqdkmL
Young David was scared; 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEGtTXl76N
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrVsF4s3nM
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoR1LnPixdG
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jMG60fUb1
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsRBQkA7X2
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksmYTicmzp
"Mummy, mummy!" David 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3EfrQSW7j
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5HPa5RM1Q
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bNoREf8yg
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjDmgyAhh6
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAjRCUX7bk
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc50OoGokg
David didn't even know 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3hIOPrAnQ
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8rsiqdd1q
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGpOzcxIGG
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQF02JuNpz
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpOYzSnKXB
David could barely hear 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEZlDu32Xq
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbGcNkHZiH
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxpmlt2UTt
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpF9OgW1qy
anger. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnPYwQeSTD
"There are more 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSlsPdqvGr
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8T5zaqMq8
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx7rcFUTaY
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTdcc9meBP
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyg7LEnbq86
"What else is there to 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYgYSbF0ZZ
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyU2Kl4oGW4
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HVIp8gMRr
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMGcRzUEMI
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8Ky904mhf
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaCTGZoVsh
floor. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAv3hI8QpK
Even the pain didn't 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkZ0lfQVrW
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTGUmCQ9WC
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21PT0GraJp
everything would be gone.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBK7HfbmKw
~Just like that, give up541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTCcJtBW7I
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQUxh67Y1R
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3haegTxKv
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpEw9BFcCz
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cMp2pDz4h
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHk79KSWi9
than this."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBUNRazizP
~STOP! ~ David dropped 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMHSZ5xLKL
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE5wysNGUl
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyy7RMpCK7k
survive. Survive and live.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHGYMLFdPH
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDOfmiI5dD
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCcLb54DH2
"Indeed." Jester 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPNetvI5TX
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcDk83RkBN
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4slgq5ceEO
like his own did.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSze7TNoJIp
"Why did you try 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFFmeDjmtk
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1jShCnvGc
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPR71lwrwv
process the influx of memories.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBTBaWx07e
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeSzAL5ESM
"You expect me to believe that?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFEkfZGwrQ
"Believe what you want."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEKBAQ6zqh
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWRuDp7lxU
Jester chuckled. "All of541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIqAgThY1W
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9VW9l9IGe
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZiSYZk646
"That just 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTB3SUgHdTg
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMro7uLb1Tm
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡge2ljWiHnK
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcDKx3ebCl
David nodded. "Do it."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENBWY0SQ6t
Everything shifted. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v7Mcs7uk1
David was cleaning his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCQfHnRLyM
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdM3m1IZpH
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SvFzpl1A4
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMHsrNn7pr
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYKG1hGVEG
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M78nmILEX
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNUN2kgHN3
His last one was just 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjE88RRNG1
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wFTzrOPdD
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6dp3SCbOE
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6cnJin1MU
Undamaged goods she loved to say.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSEQPEscyi
Right on cue, David 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEvPWtFsin
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb2ugJkkQW
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOh95pvQqR
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6rE77LGsQ
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGX7iHEGQdw
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7eWIG4yL2
Why was this his life? 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AYhz29N9x
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNcz5PThso
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxfh62alXS
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpquafUpFw4
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhY8PfYG7j
vein trying to get his eyes. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ITgDvAqcD
~Enough David.~ A voice 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UrWncFPPI
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZxwbNXYAb
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNOslm7iMR
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT1oCL7Vcj
and met resistance.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7E0HeAhe8
The scratching and 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2O1t3dsSd
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxS4JIB3ct
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmriBngfdL
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MUGcyNfkj
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYv9QCslTt
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMa2KGfkXCp
Oh god what did he do? 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5F8qMGOHuC
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHMr7sqARG
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITdRWjKWEF
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRM3OUcfdOF
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFsl3PobHm
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFg09aRBxO
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcbB0rFfV6
blood.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHEyqHidao
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z434IfH4f
There was a pause and everything quieted down.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sLG0CZ8kq
A boy named David just 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeVfpwJXu9
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk91XjHJ0b
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEkfav4oRG
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam57xGtKrG
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPpg3Jq5b7
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0VFYrSqEt
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB6eCxQfNH
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cczdivSbV
silly of him.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRmj8Eq6PN
Remembering his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9x0SJuVjw
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tUDBpp2Mz
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSW9cEMdEGh
table preparing a meal. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcca03aRlz
"There you are David!" 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuq87gVvICq
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJF2icRdFQ
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCWDS2ZFsz
This isn't the truth.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaL0Of3HgMM
David obligingly sat 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDivHrMUb0G
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rM3TXZadi
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkofGUPCRrC
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboAoxVmbNj
A dream, nothing else.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYNVpTQKAW
They all thanked the 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhIBlX3SoZ
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWfJ5HgMVM
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRiutNY3Yg
this lie.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNLBAG0IH9
A lie that has to end.541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLHta9zNUj
David was standing at 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzO7ovOyEW
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLw95Br6Atg
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdzOUbOFxT
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4h8MEcHdd7
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyMJ5Hqubb
Either way David hated 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmsEPsY2Vs
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOX2Wfw1cO
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNfMS3yjHR
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuPvUGFeKO
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO65fSb32RI
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo8LnuwdoQ
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyArEeUr6a
life this happy blissful life?541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXSMJefaNb
The answer was so simple541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0yVbdbtJ3
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6Eu7aROR4
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbQVpjxfNZ
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34TtJwFq44
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFnXRdkyAQ
David decided to start 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1daVpL0qGJ
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xjG4DSZmr
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdmWGcaPzU
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTRveCtgAn
mother. "No more mercy."541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68JujLFUvj
With the last stab 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznvg7EIkh7
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsrylGO2mn
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast541Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbescSzpLV
emptiness.
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