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Some of my colleagues 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMP1Iu8kCb
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzQQfkGO4T
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxoyMLJ0VB
suggestion or hypnosis.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcfCRPg9Xj
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MwYZLSzr1
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXgZUvpm26
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtcy8SXc7w
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYEMqQQmBG
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGZwT8oMk0
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Hks7kyUEt
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8N7qAwJFuw
capabilities.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DGzwxi3ip
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfPI4neknE
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David awakened. Not 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk1YzI5X9p
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNrmk43DTa
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrpt5HkUUy
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Bb5QUHmut
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGv5CTLwD3
undamaged.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GWB5XS9Sv
"Only your physical body545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJzX8WHuMS
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWFG6ljYEH
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn30noMHmib
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnafWRMQrV
A shadowy form appeared.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8hHKJ42O8
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqR8pkOV3T
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzrjpNnuog
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSR73HlAyc
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxH1vD6GC8
"Am I in the...ether 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVmkSt0pqt
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklMd93gXJS
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDKWU0mQ83
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndIHKR9cul
David was tired, too 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcVCm2cuko
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxR4JmSOpBy
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjsi2lbpv6
The shadowy hood cocked 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUv0mCE70we
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSrejQKJ26
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sAQpTRUv4
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUw1kclfip
more grateful."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdNtsaEo3K
"I..."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0nvEQQ74F
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFX93E9GEw
David groaned in 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0A3EZmBJS1
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYuSpjC1ZR
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPpwDHMt84
falling point, that'd be fly."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Em4Tzum4q
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1vsFIObU7
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIqCiVxEmx
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboKgGPeaG5
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2l2xhHRls2
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6GpIrSui2
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4mFzmJu4g
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehswejXjPa
David shouted and 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9mQzugE9Y
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cbrUByc20
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtw1EeFjoNJ
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AlLTIjjTU
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBQuVBtzEz
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGZjRZNuOW
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBlHOo8vHy
mist.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIrAgurDR6
Jester's voice came from545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XsD5Qj3F4
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRRKM32zBN
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWvJqOFmAp
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAdHgtvuYL
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMirmL9Xst
creating a circle around Jester and David.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkk1XMj6xS
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3tR9tHHdC
"Shut up!" David 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMgT7dIx3U
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvdAjPRSix
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVEHgPFdH8
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRqkgi4rzc
Jester gave another 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OpYInRe1C
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsjkUN3jV1
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8G01BOXe2
afraid of the truth?" 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIsrT3CsGO
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6OZXZxACD
"You're what? A 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4LY4C5vcz
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUhRm1H7YD
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJluV2alznD
you've done not matter." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5PlrGUpJB
The shadows completely 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmk1RTIPdC
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ649rUAVMzP
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ747npcr13F
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8XU7KPUyM
eye and shadows swallowed him.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbT0S1py1h8
Shadows parting, David 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL0qERLv53
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOZtxcSlno
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7OoEyOiDh
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxruhc68OLo
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBYV1MmWRg
mother545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC1IjlMHw1
"This is my memory." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeonlg8zR8
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUcsABGyQV
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8X2iNJqvch
David didn't reply to 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2msdyhnfx
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtlA24MsFu
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCnmA4z2XL
Unaware of what was 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡig9sVRRT5z
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6E2gRNGXi
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaxI2jFJnD
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA45RJITmGR
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4lBXeyq61
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQ7LrMzyx6
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡka3vR7W9Mf
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxutHndSgIO
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpNEE3k2IH
Finally the screams of 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJKv7HSzoi
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4zXP9TTdy
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRcqIiSQky
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UxAvcLEM4
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRpfb9MXEg
the baby's throat and squeezed.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMTLrW9FhO
David could feel his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSs2kkKgyz
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADCPR1hPoM
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfjxfnyMQj
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQcNf4hhdL
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYDPvld5LL
stopped.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt63hPuaN25
"Oh, nonononono." The 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJTPLhFmn4
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHz3fpvNNX
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWb9Xl8OlR
"You who were supposed 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBryecGE6iH
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhYSdpLEEX
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6l5pNM4maP
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaK2SGNWrD
Coughing David stood up 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwAP1en9QK
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQLbNHXZu1
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAut6PqzLX7
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKB1j8ezKj0
"No, it was a small 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99ci2LXlA8
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ929aBEPvIH
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuu7OFnPJ2W
He was staring at the 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUuV2KdxoQ
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvqIrfyegy
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0gIeOulJt
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTtFnwbEun
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLgIKPB79v
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8R4rx8h6Vv
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZNOxnUCtC
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVNM1J9U36
"I will!" Came a squeaky545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdaTCPqoyh
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiZhe8pwi8
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxGNwmuzWO
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOrJGUdQAr
was an adult.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbh7ekevGxl
A knock came from a door545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFzsl1z0pC
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupWOJPQ5WJ
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTEfHaKgWP
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8hYm4x6v6
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5dXJaSiJGO
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7OzVuKNNN
being a bad boy.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvLSnkFosJ
That's why he didn't 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNokAtgIyU
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKvBdFuUkS
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uoHZuiu5Y
"D..david" the answer 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNVbigD2HK
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVEUOfyWH2
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZcBr3FTI0
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhjdZUgBFE
The man put his hands on545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgNU6JAeXG
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMahhzvHU9p
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAl1TT0GrK5
David meekly shook his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nh3GYD1D8
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIva8SS2yE
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOswHDal5lZ
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLIYwKil8k
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfWnrDVVco
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskZEKhoUuv
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNS8ft6baXy
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12aYKxBXPi
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkw4VCFQph
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNoItyxKiy
Davids body.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EuclbrGZA
Please don't. Came adult David's voice545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9KZD52Rt7
Young David was scared; 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpB71hOSFYN
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOjf3sog8j
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yKLEjvJN8
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIOsFuPb0c
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxrG7kqo69
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IyqMD2sNx
"Mummy, mummy!" David 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5I3TXbSNz
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIrESwJFwn
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXrnArtTlO
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPKhr7co90
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvphKN5OLBf
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tZCwourxH
David didn't even know 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7h6DIJlac
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWo2OPgzcud
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4gzsVbqoa
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH12q1i2ZXO
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPr2KGWC4K
David could barely hear 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFfahhQjFb
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPn05cBaTVi
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtAddbxTiS
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZMufeFuiG
anger. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBn0XhQoLVd
"There are more 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEM4mp3hZg
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTg9Wif5L3s
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSbamFEkaY
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcC4ujpo6EW
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtL5lJSodD
"What else is there to 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDIKEfXuNC
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxv1xDNA1P
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcBtacoKcc
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxIzNHyDhy
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDd8XYtaU2
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGnB2gc7GW
floor. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLT2ppITc1O
Even the pain didn't 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqMUNHTfnb
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fO64qRhPf
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiox7Dol3P
everything would be gone.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3FnVV4LB1
~Just like that, give up545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xckcGNuq1
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDer1x8aOp
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9CsCousui
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOzezYFw4Z
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJCxKIPfNb
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx1UE4PYEY
than this."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6LEwGBajW
~STOP! ~ David dropped 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA70jCKnT47
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5UH1jGrxa
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cjKT9PDhr
survive. Survive and live.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVGaDrTZnJ
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiM8PjSN3v
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjsxCBTFjI
"Indeed." Jester 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Y0a5hWzQK
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyWohrXaFF
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3ekunZTjf
like his own did.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64o20Ir7ne
"Why did you try 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytX1hMWKVv
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsDOjMOSas
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhNGUZt0gr
process the influx of memories.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObGM7DDLKy
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSK7l5vgIpy
"You expect me to believe that?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSNjCYUT76
"Believe what you want."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxIyXpriMA
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXW96QelnR
Jester chuckled. "All of545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4vIojhdU3
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlNtDwilzS
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS54l5fKyb0
"That just 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK72Tw72ybD
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7G6Qp6vrq
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgENaRKSk4J
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqHu0TAONu
David nodded. "Do it."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuNyor4tQ6
Everything shifted. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREttHzUWnV
David was cleaning his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpVnZoB7EE
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxZNcW6zT6
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC20hSYBM8h
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44mjpUXCbV
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5Bk5yOfd6
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCxGJPqhEX
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0DIwASEFN
His last one was just 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ILLVoTsJ4
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYbBA5G6cI
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoMpv9Ib4T
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKklyqq7Qcx
Undamaged goods she loved to say.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdrJRopmJd
Right on cue, David 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0PzH2GAQE
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8shxxqGzR
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEG7UZD8KiD
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY3ZcvV9oE
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz54mAWxLB3
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZ7KYR84w8
Why was this his life? 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOf5DOkeDvz
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHOF4ARiVM
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡul1uNv34Pn
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1L4qnRY4y
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxQ9RMcZ1A
vein trying to get his eyes. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCbMnFbjXl
~Enough David.~ A voice 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cA5h1lXRq
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxyWxzUPuV
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozV9dO4SX4
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP34oeWeJ1V
and met resistance.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmgsIb80wF
The scratching and 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1bINyP6gH
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzb6w8Yic17
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDt2fTCKzwX
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcJOomX3rV
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKsLzLXRfF
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1UcmT3qrV
Oh god what did he do? 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWp0yGy8yvm
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQaokj7Is0
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnVx5D2Otc
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaXO9v0qQf
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKkDCgZpMU
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwsgGKzbw5
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05BugMYwPL
blood.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb2pnKKel1
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxAcm0PFTh
There was a pause and everything quieted down.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPliZ5j7XJ
A boy named David just 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0oNd6GeIL
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeWRPhwh2H
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OvuK2Uyqa
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2FHVmMLEt
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwY9lYooHDA
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVVlTG2Xra
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNd79ku8i1
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0Osxxo8BC
silly of him.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNBFtzSq6j
Remembering his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNOxOliMA3
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgl3fOSei6k
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrFWHaaEc0
table preparing a meal. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3zCXOuaXY
"There you are David!" 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡED6z85PglA
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGqCHx6Rn7
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoOxRfyCDi
This isn't the truth.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJI7Z0HBf6
David obligingly sat 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbj3isbtxp
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFcQfPQlAZ
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOOuhxvnot
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq16qmCpNTc
A dream, nothing else.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XX9Lakncz
They all thanked the 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6abM3LZoH
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTmJiwG0Gg
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fmyhLqSI2
this lie.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZg2ZJNjw37
A lie that has to end.545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4JCsjhnDi
David was standing at 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvOQNB2MvF
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfSg9bzvgb
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXtaFRX8L2
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhurynA5HX6
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJlmsF68lI
Either way David hated 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBkAfPcSij
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZBMlshEDQ
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWn4Y9K5Ro
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsG5QF0nIz
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFqqQgRCFb
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaTUsyFweB
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVknltoQgL
life this happy blissful life?545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlTWg77fbE
The answer was so simple545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ097YnDKPao
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPcZXWaseO
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jnn4Edc4J
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNs62MadM1F
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilg3cviCPL
David decided to start 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp3lUAH3xA
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcuKwWGD3O
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsy9zhL2eaQ
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKWOtaGsRa
mother. "No more mercy."545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMS4cGKUAa
With the last stab 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiC6edwYFmn
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7RmsPmq4x
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DBfyuyrKl
emptiness.
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