司洛利不曉得這段日子自己是怎麼過的。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9nPKh0hbh
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所剩無幾的時間內，即使告誡自己必須專注於當下，不要去思索關於未來的事，可腦子就是不受控制，無法抑制地思考要是視為生命意義的對象不在了，自己該何去何從？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUHrx5O43E
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他很想微笑以對，可是時日越近他就越笑不出來，直到阿爾法真的跟人訂下婚約後，他更覺得嘴角像是僵住了、再也無法保持上揚的弧度。沒有哭，可是也無法笑，就這樣木然地度過每一天。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgL2BIEsIYZ
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而阿爾法就算與人許下婚約，也從未沒看過那人和新娘同進同出。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfFVZWYWza
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即使知道自己離死不遠，那位王子依舊維持一貫的嘻皮笑臉，讓人懷疑他真的明白事情的嚴重性嗎？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8xK0yZ9Jl
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要永遠分開了。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5proG1wyq
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再也見不到了。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZM11mb3RU
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為什麼……殿下還能笑得出來？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMe4tmFpY9
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「啊？」被問到這個問題的阿爾法想也沒想地迅速回應：「如果等到我死掉，最後你只記得我哀怨的表情，那不是很糟糕嗎？」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLxP5g8a6r
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只是因為這種原因……要是為了他的話，根本不必……司洛利默然，隨後阿爾法又喚了他一聲：844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5VIqx5wBq
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「司洛利，」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8A2Yj6bdt1
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金瞳凝著紅眸，等待後者未完的話語，夢寐以求的言詞、實際聽見卻只是難受大過喜悅。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIX9VLfIIxS
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「我愛你喔。」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIXXWxdt0a
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好比要彌補這二十年來的遺憾，這些日子以來、一次又一次的拋出那三個字。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZguFGYFxub
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明明很難過吧？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUcLHknVIv
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明明很痛苦吧？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFodV8Clxg
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為什麼您不哭呢？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyDmUeL9GW
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──要是您哭泣的話，在下也能盡情流淚了啊。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbptqBPmz7
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最後的最後，甚至連參加主子的喪禮時，藍髮青年都沒有掉一滴淚。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGPfZyjira
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看起來就像睡著一樣，司洛利如此忖道。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFMHxS8l08
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只是睡了而已……於是他這麼說服自己，拒絕去想有關於阿爾法的任何事，在宮內閒來無事就去幫忙其他僕役，生活過得和從前沒有兩樣。反正、殿下翹家的時候也都不會在宮內，他不過是又逃了，不是嗎？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYehMtiepg
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幾次的自殺未遂後，藍髮青年只得維持表面的平穩，行屍走肉般地、一天度過一天，直至數個月過去，仍在位的王后艾拉坦召見他。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99iQhW6vgL
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對於這名女子，司洛利既不嫌惡也不反感，他不是不明事理的人，懂得對方非要留下繼承人的理由、甚至想著這人說不定也有不下於他的無奈與苦澀。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2TAIfEZZq
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而王后一見到藍髮青年，第一句就是使他有些錯愕的提問：「阿爾法命令你不准死，對吧？」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12fBsg1UEK
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「……是的。」聽見久違的名，司洛利怔了下，但很快又回過神來。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGakrZo3eCQ
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「不過，你並不想從命吧？」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkCC9CREAa
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「沒錯，陛下願意幫助在下？」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhO70tOpVz
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司洛利問，但艾拉坦先是輕輕搖頭、隨後又點頭，令人摸不著頭緒，接著王后嘆息似地說道：「幫我把那孩子撫養長大。」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jMvNJyI8p
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聞言，司洛利則是呆了呆、沒有做出任何回應，艾拉坦才繼續解釋：「我的孫女，我必須確保我不在了以後，有人能夠扶持我的孫女安然繼位。你把她帶大，我會實現你的願望。」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutlpklecmP
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下人依舊沉默，王后右手指著牆面的方向，說道：「剛出生而已，現在一個人在隔壁房間，你去看吧。那孩子就交給你了。」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QyKmccLhy
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司洛利點頭，遵照上位者的指示前行。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKKxOEPrNO
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「那孩子就交給你了」──當初阿爾法帶他回宮時，王后也這麼說過。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8u8bREIXMM
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離開王后召喚他的房間，進到公主所在的地方，看見擺在中央的嬰兒床時猶豫了下要不要接近，最後還是湊了過去。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvvjFtOs8R
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而在初生的嬰兒進入視線範圍後，一股酸澀感自喉嚨深處湧上，他遲來的眼淚這才落了下來。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tK9qVt9i3
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這是阿爾法唯一留下的東西。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Nyn1CbjH0
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那人就是為此而死。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofyCG68Awf
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「……殿下……」844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4NVxemI8C
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他唯一的、也最愛的主人。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmd0FnOgpxL
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真的、真的已經不在了。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoS8C7CZSBI
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此時此刻才強烈地意識到這個事實，淚水一滑落就似潰堤一般、停也停不下來，司洛利不記得自己到底哭了多久，只感覺像是要宣洩這些日子以來無處發洩的鬱悶一般，將剩餘的力氣都用在這件事上頭。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyVWd9ml73
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十二月二十五日，前王子的生日，司洛利一如往年般地在這天進到王室專屬的墓園。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUaBMo3hrN
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待藍髮青年離開那幢墨黑建築後，朝陽早已升起，高掛於比擬他髮絲的湛藍蒼穹，藍天白雲、一點兒也看不出先前正下著大雨。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszUywF6KA9
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司洛利抬頭仰望，刺眼的陽光扎得他雙眼微瞇，很快又低下頭來，快步前行，而即便是強光也溫暖不了他的身心。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhQA6JRBwY
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明明過了這麼久，還是無法解脫。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNOo7HOh8E
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他的人生有太多太多、全都被阿爾法．羅坦赫拉勒這個人佔據，那人的一切之於自己，早已是靈魂的一部份，無法切割亦無法分離，而司洛利所剩的人生則被龐大的思念蠶食，反反覆覆地、沉浸於過去，用那種方式來延續生命。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcArT2Z3p2
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司洛利這輩子再也沒有辦法愛上別人，亦沒有移情別戀的打算。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSnJ6IJ8AL
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只是等待著、自己的生命結束的一天。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsLyFPWUau
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他不信有天堂或地獄，可現在的他想要相信，要是有死後世界的話，那麼、他是不是還有再見到心上人的機會呢？844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJNjWTh2Jo
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──想要再見一面，哪怕是地獄，一面也足矣。844Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnKVSauJTI
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