"Hey, wake up. We gotta go."
Griffin is shaking you and you slowly open your eyes.
"What?"
"It's almost time to go. You gotta get ready."
You rub your eyes and sit up and Griffin kisses you. You wanna shove him off and call him out on his shit but you keep it to yourself. You stand up and stretch. You realize you're still in your black dress from yesterday.
"Shit. Can you run me home so I can change?"
"But you look great."
"I wore this yesterday to a fancy restaurant. Where are we going today?"
"Not somewhere for that dress, you're right. You ready?"
"Yeah."
You pick your purse up and follow him downstairs. You put your boots on and walk out to his car. He starts to walk for your door and you roll your eyes.
"I got it."
You open it and get in and he gets in the drivers side.
"Everything ok?"
"Should something not be?"
"No. You just seem upset."
"No."
"Ok."
The rest of the drive is quiet and tense. He pulls in front of your house and you get out and go inside to change. You don't want to take long, you want to get this night over with. You throw on a tank top and skinny jeans and put your hair up. Your eyeliner is still on and still looks alright so you just throw your boots back on and grab a jacket before going back out.
"You look good."
Better than who you're going to see tonight?
"Thanks."
He starts driving to the restaurant and you feel your phone vibrate in your purse. You ignore it and Griffin holds your hand. You want to keep squeezing his hand until it breaks. He pulls in and you get out and go inside without waiting for anyone. You need a drink. You walk up to the first employee you see and hand them a twenty.
"I want the strongest drink you have immediately."
He nods and walks away and you wait. Griffin and Zev and Zev's date walks in and the waiter comes back with your drink. He tries to give your change to you and you shake your head.
"Keep it. I'll need more."
You chug the whole glass and hand it back to him. Griffin grabs your arm and pulls you aside.
"What is going on with you?"
"Nothing. I want to drink. Get off of me."
You pull your arm out and stand next to Zev and his date. She has her arm in his and you want to hit her. You smile and offer your hand to her.
"Hi. I'm Lana. I'm Jewish. You're blonde and your eyes are ocean blue, Hitler would've adored you."
Her eyes open wide in shock and Zev coughs.
"You start the party early there Lana?"
"Please, call me Tzameret."
You roll your eyes and turn to the waiter.
"Could we get a table?"
"O-of course. Right this way."
You all follow him and the others sit down at the booth. You sit on the end and grab the waiters arm. You give him another twenty and he looks amused.
"Keep the drinks coming. Same as the last one."
"Of course Ma'am."
You turn towards the others and they're all staring at you.
"What? I ordered my drink. Who's next?"
Griffin clears his throat.
"Beer please."
Zev looks at his date and you look down.
"I'll have what she ordered."
You look at her and laugh.
"Buckle up bitch."
"I'll have beer. Thanks, my man."
Zev smiles at the waiter then looks at you. He gives you a questioning look and you look away. His date puts her hand in Zev's and lays her head on his shoulder and you have to actually keep yourself from doing something. Zev smiles at her and she kisses him then looks straight at you. Is she smiling? She's doing this on purpose. She kisses his cheek without looking away from you and you literally growl at her. Is this bitch serious? Griffin puts his arm around you and pulls you close to whisper to you.
"What's wrong with you tonight?"
You shove him off and sit away from him.
"Nothing. What could possibly be wrong with me Griffin?"
Griffin looks at Zev and shakes his head.
"We should probably go man. I'm sorry."
"Oh, now you're sorry?"
Griffin sighs and starts nudging you until you stand up and walk out. You stand by his car and he comes out.
"What the hell is wrong with you right now?"
"Nothing. Take me home."
"Not until you tell me."
"Take me home Griffin!"
"Fine! Get in!"
You get in the car and slam the door and he gets in. The drive to your house is very tense and angry but quiet. When he pulls in front of your house almost thirty minutes later, you get out and slam the door again. You go inside and slam your door closed. Griffin comes in behind you and he isn't happy. That makes two of you.
"What's your problem?!"
"You're my fucking problem! Who the fuck is Shelly?!"
His face falls for a second and then fills with fury.
"You looked in my phone?!"
"No!"
"Then how'd you know?!"
"She texted you when you went in the shower this morning! I saw the text when it popped up on your fucking screen! How could you do this Griffin?! Yeah we were fighting, but I loved you!"
"You have been so distant lately! You never want to come over, you barely want to talk!"
"Because all we do when we talk and when were together is fight! No, you always beat down on me and I sit there and suffer in silence and take it! I'm not your fucking stress ball Griffin! You can't beat me up when you're angry and love me when you're not, it doesn't work that way!"
"I wanted you to switch religions and you won't even discuss it!"
"I'm fucking Jewish! I've always been Jewish and I love being Jewish!"
"Well I don't! I'm German, you think I like explaining to people that I'm in a relationship with a Jew?"
"Fuck you!"
Griffin snaps and hit you hard. You fall back and hit the wall but don't fall. You look at him in shock, tears forming in your eyes. Instant regret is all over his face and he reaches out to you.
"Fuck, no.. baby.. I'm so sorry!"
You grab your purse where you dropped it by the door and run to your car. You can hear Griffin yelling your name but you don't care. You're done, he went too far. You get in and lock your doors before jamming your keys in and peeling off down the road. You don't know where to go or what to do. You remember that Zev said if you ever need something to go to Nelly's. You're about a block away so you turn onto the right road and park out front of the bar. You shut your car off and jog inside. You walk up to the bartender and he smiles.
"What can I get you?"
"I'm a friend of Zev's and he said if I ever needed something to come here. Do you know his address?"
"Yeah but I'm not just giving it to you. Let me call him and make sure it's ok."
He walks away and you lay your head on the bar. You idiot. You could've called him yourself. The bartender comes back a minute later with a piece of paper.
"Here you go."
"Thanks."
You run to your car and speed towards Zev's house. When you pull up, you almost turn around and leave. His house is beautiful. It looks like one of those really nice rich people houses. Lots of windows and very well built. You sigh and try to keep from crying as you walk up to his door but your cheek is throbbing and the reason why makes the tears pour. You wipe them away the best you can and knock. You hear Zev walking to the door and he opens it.
"Why did you go to the bar for my address? All you had to do was call me."
He smiles until you look up and he sees that you're crying. His smile fades and gets replaced with worry.
"Get in here."
He pulls you inside and you're wrapped in his arms before he even closes his door. You sob hard and he holds you.
"What happened?"
"He's cheating on me!"
"What?!"
He pulls away to look at your face and he focuses on your cheek. You must have a bruise there already. His eyes fill with rage and he lightly holds your cheek in his hand and looks in your eyes. His hands are shaking now.
"Did he fucking hit you?"
You start sobbing again and he leads you to his living room.
"I'm sorry. I don't know why I came here, I didn't know where else to go."
"No, I'm so glad you're here. I was going to stop by your house soon and see if you were there. I need you to stay here ok?"
"Why? Where are you going?"
"Where the fuck do you think?"
He stands up and you panic.
"No! Don't go!"
"He is not getting away with this Lana! He hit you, I'm going to fucking kill him!"
"Please, I need you! Stay with me, don't leave me here alone!"
"I'll be right back. I promise."
He starts walking towards his door and you scream the only thing you can think that will stop him.
"Kiss me!"
He stops dead in his tracks and turns around. He bites his lip and looks like he's thinking. He growls and runs to you. He holds your face tight in his hands and crushes his lips to yours. Sparks begin erupting from your body and the only thing that can put them out is his touch. You both moan and he picks you up and presses you against his wall. He breaks off the kiss to bite down your jaw and kiss your neck and your eyes roll into the back of your head. You've never needed anything like you need him right now. You put your hand on his face and bring his lips back to yours. He kisses you deeply, his tongue dancing with yours. You moan and his grip on you tightens. He sighs and pulls away and you're both breathing heavy.
"This isn't right. You aren't mine."
"Right now, I am."
"What happens later?"
"Does it matter? Zev, you cant tell me that you don't feel this. I've felt it since I ran into you at Nelly's. Whenever we get close to each other, there's no denying the tension between us. It's strong and it's only getting stronger. I just want to cave. I wanna give in and stop fighting it. It's torture. Who cares what happens later, can't we just worry about right now?"
"If I do this, there's no going back. I won't let you go. I can't, I'm not strong enough."
He's shaking and his heart is pounding.
"Are you going back to him?"
You don't know what to say. You don't want to but you can't just never speak to Griffin again. You'll have to talk to him about this sooner or later.
"Your silence is deafening Lana."
"I don't know."
He sighs and looks down. He rubs his hands over his face and turns around.
"Until you do, I can't do this."
You feel broken. You need this. You need him.
"Don't do this to me."
"I cant Lana. I can't have you in my bed, in my arms tonight and then see you in his tomorrow."
He's serious. He's really not going to do this. Your hope dies and you want to leave.
"I'm sorry. This was obviously a mistake.."
You turn around and head for his door. You turn the knob and open it and he slams it shut and pins you to his door.
"I can't watch you walk away from me. Please don't leave."
"Don't leave? Why should I stay? You just said you're not going to do this and I really shouldn't have come in the first place."
"Griffin doesn't love you! He hit you! He would never be capable of that if he really loved you. Leave him Lana. If not for you then for me."
"For you?"
"If you go back to him and he holds you and kisses you and pretends he didn't punch you in the face, I will fucking murder him and I'm not joking in the least. I will go to jail with a smile on my face for killing him."
A tear slides down his face and his eyes are filled with pain and fear.
"I'm falling in love with you."
You look at him with wide eyes.
"What?"
"I don't know why. I tried not to, I tried to get you out of my head but I can't. No matter who I'm with or what I'm doing, the only thing I can think about is when I'm going to see you again. I don't do this. I don't let myself get close to anyone. It doesn't matter who it is, I don't do it but with you, I have no control over my feelings. Since the moment you came out of that bar, the only thing I cared about was you. Laying in your bed with you asleep on my chest is the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. I'm doomed Lana. All there is for me now is you and it fucking terrifies me. I shouldn't want you and I shouldn't try to convince you to leave Griffin but I can't stop myself."
He presses his forehead to yours with his hands on your face and his eyes burn into yours.
"I fell for you so fucking hard and I'll never be the same. I love you Lana."
You kiss him and he moans and picks you up and carries you upstairs to his bedroom. It's beautiful. You pull away and look around and he sets you back down.
"Is something wrong?"
You don't answer, you're too distracted by his room. It's huge with a big black and white carpet in the middle of the floor. Zev's bed is a king mattress with matching black and white pillows and a comforter. The drapes on his windows match the rest of the room and he has a lot of framed paintings on his walls. You walk over to the big one in front of you.
"Who painted these?"
"I did."
You look at him and laugh.
"No, really."
"Really."
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah. They aren't that good."
You slap his arm without looking away from the paintings.
"No, these are beautiful. I've never seen anything so beautiful."
"I have."
You finally meet his eyes and he's looking at you like he's seeing for the first time. He pulls you to him and kisses you slowly and passionately. His phone rings and he takes it out of his pocket and throws it at the wall, shattering it. He picks you up and carries you to his bed. Your eyes are locked on each other but you don't talk. There's no need to talk, you're completely in sync with each other. He pulls your shirt off, then his own and lays down on top of you. He kisses your neck and you close your eyes to focus on how good this feels. He kisses down your body and you start to shake. He stops and holds your face in his hands gently.
"Are you ok?"
"Yes. Don't stop."
"You're shaking."
"From excitement. I've never felt like this before."
He smiles and kisses you.
"Me either. It feels so good."
"Incredible."
He starts kissing down your body again and you bite your lip and moan quietly. He gently bites your hip bone and kisses along the top of your pants. You have no control over yourself or this situation and you've never felt so good, so.. alive.
"Make me yours. I need it."
He looks up at you and smiles in a way that makes you melt. He unbuttons your pants and slowly slides them down, taking his time and kissing every inch of you. He slides them off and you're burning up. You can't wait any longer.
"God, I'm on fire. Just fuck me already."
He laughs and shakes his head. He kisses up your left leg and traces his fingertips along the top of your panties. He starts to slide them off and your head is spinning. What is he doing to you? Why does this feel so good and so different than any time you were ever with Griffin? He pulls your panties off and doesn't hesitate to press his tongue between your legs. You gasp and your hands instinctively tangle in his hair. He moans and presses harder against you, making your center throb intensely and you're in heaven. You moan and arch your back and he grips your hips to keep you where you are. He presses even harder yet and you start to shake again. You're so close to the edge and you never want him to stop.
"Zev.. I'm.."
He moans and slides his fingers inside of you and you can't stop yourself from slipping over the edge into pure ecstasy. You moan loud and he kisses his way back up your body to your lips. He kisses you as he takes his pants and boxers off and looks into your eyes as he slides himself into you. You both moan and start moving together, your bodies becoming one. He thrusts harder and you bite his shoulder.
"Fuck, this has never felt so fucking good."
He bites your neck and you moan.
"Zev.. God, don't stop. Never stop."
He looks in your eyes lovingly and you know this is right.
"I love you Lana."
"I..I.."
The word gets caught in your throat. You know love him but you can't say it.
"You don't have to say anything baby girl. I know you love me, I can feel it."
He thrusts harder and your eyes are locked together. The pleasure keeps building and building and you're shaking again. Both of your bodies are so tense and you just can't get close enough. He holds your face and kisses you again, tracing his tongue on yours and you're so close. He pulls away to look into your eyes.
"Let it go baby. I need to feel it."
His words send you flying over the edge and you your eyes roll shut.
"Open your eyes baby. Look at me."
You look at up him as you both drown in pleasure, moaning and holding each other tightly. You're both breathing heavily and still locked together. He caresses your face and gazes into your eyes.
"This is the best night of my life."
"You're exaggerating. I don't even really know what I'm doing."
"No I'm not and you are perfect. I knew you would feel good but I never imagined it would feel like this."
"Imagined? You've thought about this?"
"Haven't you?"
"Of course I have. I just thought you were being nice to me because you felt bad for me."
"Well, I did feel bad for you but that's not why I've thought about it. You know the reason why."
"Because you love me?"
"More than I've loved and ever will love anyone."
He kisses you gently and lays beside you. He pulls you to his chest and you sigh happily. You look up and see a painting on the wall right above his bed. The girl looks familiar.
"Is that me?"
"Yeah. It doesn't do you justice though."
"Are you kidding, it's so beautiful."
"Not even half as beautiful as you."
He kisses you again and you hear a distant ringing. Zev turns his head towards his bedroom door.
"Is that your phone?"
Someone starts pounding on his door and your heart hammers against your chest.103Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlVPIEB9OC
