“Jason please stop!” My voice breaks and I grab hold of his arm.
Again. I made him mad, I didn’t mean to, I just can’t do right, he smashes a family photo of us and our girls, tears stream down my cheeks, I try to pull him back but he is far too strong, he spins and backhands me, I drop to the floor and my lip wobbles, I look up at him, he steps to me and kneels. I sniffle and lower my head.
“Sophie,” He said softly lifting my head.
I look up to his brown eyes which hold no emotion, he sighs and shook his head as he cupped my cheek.
“This...This mess if your fault, you will just have to explain to the girls that this...Were you” He nods. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0kCfTdIAg
“Okay?” He raises his brow.
I nod my head, my body is trembling, how a man looks like such an angel and be so nasty, cold and horrible. His lips pressed against my forehead then he rests his forehead on mine.
“I love you, Sophie” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gtIV3mT6v
“I love you Jason” I whisper as he brushes my tears away.
I look up, his tousled brown hair, his age is slowly starting to show, his eyes look into mine but they send a chill over my body for there is no warmth in them but I love this man, I just wish he didn’t get like this, get mad, I’ve always tried hard for him. Been me and him for eighteen years now, he makes me feel special like I’m lucky to be with him..And I am. He gave me two beautiful girls, he’s taking me on vacation, he’s spoiled me, I can take all his flaws for all of that.
He helps me up and I hug him hiding my face in him, he wraps his arms around me tight kissing my head.
“You’re shaking” He whispers. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGCQ1NRLAp
“I hate seeing you like that is all” I close my eyes tight. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAazOK1r2en
“Just stop messing up baby okay?” He nods.
I glance up, I nod my head, he smiles cupping my cheeks, he brushes our noses together.
“My everything” He presses his lips against mine.
We slowly pull back and the front door opens, I walk out of the living room and Maya looks to me, I smile, she shuts the door then shakes her head walking upstairs.
“Maya” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYY423FWd1j
“Got homework mom”
Hands go on my shoulders. “Clean your mess up darling and I’ll speak to her then pick up little Ellie”
I nod. “Okay”
I watch Jason go up the stairs, he glances back to me, I step into the living room and brush my tears away, I start to clean up, I catch my reflection in the mirror, I stop. My once soft shiny mousey brown hair is now straggly is now a mess, I have bags under my honey brown eyes which have lost that shine now dead and full like my heart. My cheek is bright from the slap. I take a few small steps closer and tears come to my eyes. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQPpCq50p6
‘Nothing a bit of makeup won’t fix’ I whisper to myself.
I sort my hair out and force a smile on my face, my smile slowly fades, my lip quivers, I lower my head and spin away from the mirror, I slowly kneel and pick up the family picture that’s broken.
“Sophie” Jason snaps his finger.
I flick my eyes to him, he raises his brow. “I’m going now” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5nVji4VeFt
“Love you”
He then walks out without saying another word. I softly sigh and Maya peeks her head in.
“Mom”
I smile at her, she snorts. “Mom, who the hell you trying to kid?” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Np7ykbWlc
“I’m sorry?” I look at her confused.
She walks in and kneels by me. “Mom I’m not an idiot, I know when you and dad argue, he like slaps you or something, you smile acting as nothing has happened, stop trying to play happy families”
I look at her in slight shock, I take her hand. “Maya sweetie, not like that” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfhvwdHTbQ
“Oh, mom come on! Are you truly telling me, dad makes you happy” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAy3auEpmF
“Yes okay yes he does, he’s sweet, funny, caring, he takes care of me”
She stares. “No, he doesn’t-” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5J5NyUbNh
“Yes, he does Maya, enough of this okay” I point. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3FjBeTiPm
“Why you getting mad at me! I’m only looking out for you!” She snaps and storms out. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QRpGibNB2
“Maya-”470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi53jzCZSQ
“Save it, I’m going to my mates” She storms out the front door.
I sit on the floor and burst into tears, I hold the picture to my chest, I drop my head. “He loves me...He loves me” My voice goes weak, I feel a pain in my chest and I feel so torn.
I don’t want to let anyone down but Jason isn’t a bad person, he just has funny ways of doing things, I look around at the mess and get back cleaning. I go into the kitchen and start to make Ellie a snack for when she comes home from school, the door opens.
“Mommy I’m home!”
I turn my head and Ellie runs to me, I open my arms smiling, she clings to me. Jason has stopped in the doorway watching us, his arms crossover and his head tilts. I crouch low and take Ellie’s hands smiling.
“And how was school?” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsaf0Z5a4v
“Boring” She pouts.
I pout making her giggle, we peck lips. I stand up and smile to Jason, he puts a smile on his lips but it’s held with utter bitterness, I can see it in his eyes, I slowly walk to him and smile.
“Are you hungry?”
Jason doesn’t speak. I kiss his cheek then get back to making Ellie’s snack...Hours have passed and I’m getting ready for bed, I spit my toothpaste in the sink and stand up, I jump seeing Jason standing behind me, he leans forward resting his hands on the sink, he keeps his gaze on me.
“Jason,” I say warily.470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2PHAd0tBK
His gaze lowers, his hands go to my waist, he pulls me gently against him, his lips press against my shoulder.
“Come to bed” His lip brush gently on my shoulder. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4A3HhbCOq
“Just cleaning my teeth, I’ll be in bed a second” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkBvQrAfYO
“I can wait” He looks up.
I nod and carry on, I put my toothbrush back then spin, he takes my hand and leads me into the bedroom, he pulls the cover back, I climb in, he pulls the cover back over me, he walks around the bed and climbs in.
“Baby come closer” He opens his arms.
I shuffle to him, he wraps his arms around me, he gently kisses the bruise on my cheek from the slap.
“Sweet dreams baby” He whispers.
I close my eyes but can’t sleep, I roll over and slowly open my eyes seeing the photo of me and Jason of when we first met back when life was pure and fun, I yawn and Jason holds me tighter, I look down then back to him, I nibble my bottom lip and slowly opens his arms, he rolls over with his back to me.
I shake my head and carefully climb out of bed, I walk and he yawns, I look back, he lifts his head up.
“Baby?” He murmurs and sits up.470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKvBtNDCJZ
“I needed a wee” I whisper.
He stands up walking to me, he forces his eyes open, we go into the bathroom, he shuts the door. I look at him.
“Baby, I can pee without you” I softly chuckle.
He cracks a small smile. “Been together how long?” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81LUR7t9J7
“Yeah I know” I yawn and sit down, he leans on the counter and rubs his face. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkFGXNDt54
“Baby you’re exhausted” I whisper.
He looks to me. “If you hurried we can go back to bed and cuddle” 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku1KPDUCbl
“Turn...I need to wipe” I peek to him.
He stares at me making no effort to turn around, I slowly nod and wipe, he watches my every movement, I flush then wash my hands, he shifts his body and leans his head back clearly showing he’s getting pissed off, I quickly dry my hands.
“About time” He mutters under his breath.
He lifts me up and I hold him tight hiding in him, he climbs into bed, I lift my head up and stay as still as I can in his arms that tighten around me, I lower my gaze down him, this is no different to any other night. I hold him tighter taking a deep breath closing my eyes...
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