As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SfVApzr88
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1eMLGE7iS
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV395Q7uYlW
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfxKh1LaKI
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsfpAllNeV
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0AyFq93oX
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFLX4qoPnf
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MiyGhNX1P
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxh7F0Y7XsU
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjha055Z0B
Knives929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbxlY1qhAx
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiwSr2q6kG
'Uselessness'929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEiQmwuEKQ
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJRzYhEpQU
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzukDZOKC1
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Fm7EhzpaP
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEChBWGAuq
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cyct0b8HS
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUswk7Y0UP
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hRzctY2p3
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMZEF9XW3D
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXR5VTuFzzQ
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKFkuKJOHC
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrCfNvXB8E
And with that, I ran. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44w8XcNioo
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DMVITBx0V
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CCQTofx4F
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDVBq28oi0
See you next time!929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJgZhn6PIe
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