As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXF4NNdB0f
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32mDChjc4Z
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OXNj1KQbr
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdF9ITIFOT
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkerb3jkIjO
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzchaMA9o6
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8GjlFcm4R
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q0BgU3WuS
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNjr5zwpJQ
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLgzdC2vXj
Knives932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazl79QgAmW
Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3h4YoKBdF0
'Uselessness'932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgTmRYcPGl
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM4Rrk28Rw
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBm8nwc65c
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vUTlWf0Yh
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznLTKgRJqG
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8iLswHvMC
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M9jP5J4Po
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFuPDGVkWV
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mwg1lQx9e
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUnvOE8ztz
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMp0OyPwEq1
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rLjD0FSg5
And with that, I ran. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1KqM1EAsh
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhzcm7Zeig
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqf2JxFYjC
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMgzurYkyT
See you next time!932Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK75kGyJdEw
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