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打打鬧鬧、互相鬥嘴,即使阿龍看起來很生氣,卻也是開玩笑般的生氣。267Please respect copyright.PENANAR1ALmFgXCv
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本來一開始擔心他們會打起來,但現在也跟殷和傑哥一樣無所謂了。267Please respect copyright.PENANAHAlpF8NdfC
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捷運行駛到士林站,門一開,我們便出了車。267Please respect copyright.PENANAkvMfP18N1C
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在離開士林捷運站後,往士林夜市開始前進。267Please respect copyright.PENANAMbjFDSjvM6
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「你怎麼不過去和瑀峰一起走?」殷小小聲的靠在我耳邊說。267Please respect copyright.PENANATwkthZa3La
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我搖頭,然後聳肩,這動作讓殷更不理解。267Please respect copyright.PENANATBk6OcfHqb
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我不否認我還在生氣。267Please respect copyright.PENANASNn9X0mPF6
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也許殷他們會覺得沒什麼,但對我來說並不是「沒什麼」。267Please respect copyright.PENANA8viWYqx52x
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「你們這樣好奇怪喔!難道吵架了嗎?要我幫妳跟瑀峰談一下嗎?」殷又繼續問。267Please respect copyright.PENANAiU9PFyBVeT
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「不用啦!反正跟他談也沒用、跟他講什麼也沒用,他不就是這麼冷漠的人嗎?所以,就算了。」我小聲的回答殷。267Please respect copyright.PENANAWgN9M3IYIw
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走在我們後面的是阿龍跟小迪、瑀跟傑哥走在最後面,所以他們沒有聽到我和殷的對話。267Please respect copyright.PENANAnfO8NDvCf9
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我忍住想回頭看瑀的衝動,回頭看他就代表我認輸了,我不能認輸,就是要讓他知道我在生氣。267Please respect copyright.PENANAHApfSiiHxX
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抱著小孩子賭氣的想法,繼續和殷走在一起。267Please respect copyright.PENANANgrwY6Tdhf
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不曉得走了多久,在我回過神時,已經到了士林夜市。267Please respect copyright.PENANA2TtZYkkM1R
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這是我第一次來,這裡也是一樣很熱鬧,不習慣人群的我緊緊靠著殷,殷則是挽住我的手繼續向前。267Please respect copyright.PENANAK3Dpb9yybG
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「殷殷!我們去買那個好不好!」小迪跑過來,拉著殷另一隻右手並指著左方賣烤魷魚的攤販。267Please respect copyright.PENANA9AK4EDRzEo
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殷點頭說好,而我並不想吃,放開了殷挽住我的那隻手,小迪馬上就把殷拉走了。267Please respect copyright.PENANAlOyQssdMi1
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「阿龍,我們也去買吧。」在後面的傑哥看了我一眼後,對阿龍說。267Please respect copyright.PENANAUJIvasXsZS
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阿龍看了我、又看了瑀,沒說半句就和傑哥往小迪那邊走去。267Please respect copyright.PENANAocQjM48Aqg
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……我該說這個傑哥心機很重嗎?就是故意要留下我跟瑀嘛!267Please respect copyright.PENANAjCam0OuBVY
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平靜心情、穩定情緒,這點心機打垮不了我葉星橋的。267Please respect copyright.PENANACcYV9MckZc
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「到底有什麼好生氣的?」站在旁邊的瑀,難得主動開了口。267Please respect copyright.PENANAiMLkGHSjKW
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終於知道我在生氣了?但是他知道我氣的是什麼嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAmnaoRpF1tx
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「你自己都不會有點自知之明嗎?」我反問。267Please respect copyright.PENANAsAtM8VQQNm
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「我不認為我該道歉、也沒有必要道歉。」他講的一副理所當然。267Please respect copyright.PENANA8tNAtvX6Cb
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沒必要道歉?放你個屁!267Please respect copyright.PENANAEdtu3igOUk
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一直忍住沒爆發的火氣已到極限,我轉過頭瞪著他。267Please respect copyright.PENANAWybNUmpWUs
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「對,你就覺得你沒有錯,對,你永遠都沒有錯,錯的是我,可以嗎?」267Please respect copyright.PENANA6W0aQCXNUk
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他依舊用那張冷漠的表情看著我,這讓我覺得他是在看小孩子鬧脾氣。267Please respect copyright.PENANAy0cbYoiCt5
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真是夠了。267Please respect copyright.PENANAqXIX88HfQr
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「你有沒有想過你把我推給別人的時候我的感受?我只是想跟一般情侶一樣被你在乎被你關心,這些你都做不到嗎?做不到沒關係,我們也是這樣走過來的,但是今天、今天我真的受不了,我是女的、我也會想要跟自己心愛的人走看看情人橋,結果呢?你把我推給阿龍?也不出聲反駁一下就放任我和阿龍去走情人橋?你到底是不是人啊!」我推了他一把,他無動於衷。267Please respect copyright.PENANAZTUYbyk5NM
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「妳可以開口拒絕,但妳沒有,那妳想過我的感受嗎?」面對我的怒火,他依舊是那種冷態度。267Please respect copyright.PENANA6FcQrnmrCq
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「我要怎麼想?你從來沒讓我了解過你,關於你所有的一切我都不知道!你的朋友們一定都比我還清楚,而我呢?我卻連你為什麼一個人住、為什麼這麼冷漠、為什麼不去理解我的想法都不知道!」我盡量壓低了聲音,不讓在遠處買東西的他們聽到。267Please respect copyright.PENANAlsslNqVspk
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所有的心聲全部一次說了出來,但是他會懂嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANA2BJQgee6mz
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如果像小人妖說的那樣,他不懂得表達但至少他會想,那他或許會懂吧會理解我現在的憤怒還有──267Please respect copyright.PENANAUJY4BTYb0T
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「妳不覺得妳很無理取鬧嗎?」267Please respect copyright.PENANAUI9UystuvE
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期待?267Please respect copyright.PENANAoNSB2JsG92
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好像有什麼東西碎掉了、破裂了。267Please respect copyright.PENANAj4FKwcuPv0
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我瞪大眼睛的看著他,不曉得是不是看錯我發現他臉上閃過一絲驚訝,但是我想那是錯覺吧。267Please respect copyright.PENANAw2VtaOJhsb
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無理取鬧……267Please respect copyright.PENANAxcRx8sBXGD
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從以前到現在都是我在無理取鬧嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAC5sHAZ15Xm
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「嗯,我無理取鬧。」我撇過頭,離開了他身邊。267Please respect copyright.PENANAFdiqD9mTs2
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好痛、好難受,這種想哭又不能哭出來的感覺──267Please respect copyright.PENANABmWhcqjIrH
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令我窒息。267Please respect copyright.PENANAfPL9gUErzi
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二零一三年,七月。267Please respect copyright.PENANATkkvZzxGtc
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在那之後呢?我努力回想,只記得後來以那種失神的狀態陪他們逛、走,最後回基隆。267Please respect copyright.PENANAZl6Mrt8Do4
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也沒有再跟瑀講過話。267Please respect copyright.PENANAqOtZ8Fvo7Y
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如果我知道我們會演變成這種結果,那我還會對他說出自己的心聲和不滿嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAKUmAlSQLdu
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有些事情,無論在怎麼去想也得不到答案,事過已久,已經找不到任何解答了。267Please respect copyright.PENANA2w4YI23VK9
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後悔已來不及。267Please respect copyright.PENANAMD0Dd0Wmgs
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阿龍抽完了菸,回到了他的座位,開始和小迪催促著我趕快點菜。267Please respect copyright.PENANAxeo9ICNXDC
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我笑笑的看了菜單,隨便點了一個簡餐和冰紅茶,讓服務生把菜單收走。267Please respect copyright.PENANADC7ARTcBwl
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「阿楊能來就好了,突然覺得好無趣。」小迪手撐著下巴,看著阿龍。267Please respect copyright.PENANA5eJjV4VTsM
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「整天就是玩,你還會幹麻?」阿龍說。267Please respect copyright.PENANAee0FP6sI1J
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「無趣的人生就不是人生啦!對吧?」小迪笑著看我。267Please respect copyright.PENANAbWWCcFWSs8
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我點頭,但是我的人生好像也沒什麼有趣,所以我的人生還是人生嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAL5dc26M25W
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有點在繞口令。267Please respect copyright.PENANAKxxA3eMy0c
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「咦?橋橋妳還戴著啊?那條項鍊。」眼尖的小迪馬上發現我頸上的這條項鍊。267Please respect copyright.PENANAE2tHcFxGvE
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他的心、他替我戴上並贈予我的對鍊。267Please respect copyright.PENANAZs9iYay3lj
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「嗯,戴著也好,不用怕它不見。」我說。267Please respect copyright.PENANAcXGidRPyoO
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「看來妳還是很在意阿楊。」阿龍說。267Please respect copyright.PENANAXXlFsixfaL
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我想在回答些什麼,服務生卻送來了餐點,終止了這話題。267Please respect copyright.PENANA5TXBSm7cIO
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我邊吃邊聽小迪說他們這段日子發生的事,雖然多半都是他跟阿龍在家的鬧劇,但多少還是有提到殷和傑哥。267Please respect copyright.PENANAKqOnGfLy0V
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殷有了男朋友、工作也穩定,但沒有因為工作和男朋友就放棄她最愛的跳舞。267Please respect copyright.PENANAbVgptt0IaM
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而傑哥,依舊是以女朋友為中心,可是他不像以前只要女朋友叫他就會馬上到,總而言之就是傑哥開始重視朋友了。267Please respect copyright.PENANAqKpUT8epEp
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他呢?267Please respect copyright.PENANAaaJnPO5uaq
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小迪沒有提到任何關於他的事,而我也沒有問,我們自己心裡都清楚,所以迴避了這個話題。267Please respect copyright.PENANAf1a3Z6RstU
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「我說阿,橋橋妳現在這樣子很漂亮耶!如果是看黑髮的妳就還好,染成棕色就很漂亮。」小迪讚嘆般的說。267Please respect copyright.PENANAkltJdjvJ0c
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「我本來是染紅棕色的,結果紅色幾乎都被洗掉,變成棕色了。」我喝了一口紅茶後才說。267Please respect copyright.PENANA6rj5Qp3gQX
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「妳本來就很可愛,現在又染頭髮、頭髮又長長,阿楊看到一定會很驚訝。」小迪說。267Please respect copyright.PENANAeS2kZHGoYm
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會嗎?他看到現在這個模樣的我,會有反應嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAzucFAR1LyX
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……一定還是那張臉吧。267Please respect copyright.PENANAsgmnLLau0H
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我記憶中的他,至今為止都從未改變過──那冷漠的表情、那讓人看不出喜怒哀樂的臉。267Please respect copyright.PENANAsvXqUZ5GXP
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還有迷人的笑容。267Please respect copyright.PENANA9vNmftxG2S
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即使那笑容在我記憶中出現不多次,卻印象深刻。267Please respect copyright.PENANA43dALyuwiB
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「等等吃完我們去看看阿楊吧?」267Please respect copyright.PENANAxHULsYFg2H
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這句話終止了我的回憶,我看著阿龍,想開口拒絕卻怎麼也說不出來。267Please respect copyright.PENANAVhT55HoDwZ
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也許淺意識裡,我是想見到他的,但顧及過去,不知道到底該不該見這一面。267Please respect copyright.PENANAliMrslXsKi
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「對啊對啊!橋橋,妳等等就跟我們去嘛!阿楊一定也很想看看妳。」小迪在一旁附和阿龍。267Please respect copyright.PENANAyqi9Wyii72
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「我騎車來的,要我跟在你們車子後面嗎?而且……他不會想見我的吧。」我低下頭,再度吸了一口紅茶。267Please respect copyright.PENANARv93atYd2e
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「妳等等就坐我的車,等要回來我在開到這裡放妳下車。」阿龍毫不在乎的回答。267Please respect copyright.PENANA2y7rZqD296
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講的還真是輕鬆。267Please respect copyright.PENANAMbImveEi8I
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「阿楊怎麼可能不想看到妳!他每分每秒都想的啦!妳可是他最在乎的人耶!」小迪說。267Please respect copyright.PENANA6EPqF1vA4u
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最在乎的人……267Please respect copyright.PENANAN5NgADHnwy
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我淺淺一笑,小迪露出疑惑的表情。267Please respect copyright.PENANAYPw6dNsU5a
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「在乎又怎樣呢?我們分手的時候,我對他說了很傷人的話,雖然他還是以那種態度回應我,但是某種程度上已經傷到他的心了吧?我講了那麼過分的話……」267Please respect copyright.PENANADwV4zhgI9B
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當時分手的情景,我還記得,怎麼可能會忘記?267Please respect copyright.PENANA2rmKIqT8we
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那麼幼稚又愛無理取鬧的我,對他說了那麼重的話,他當時到底是怎麼想的?表面平靜,那內心呢?267Please respect copyright.PENANAsocPmbzqod
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很痛、很痛吧?267Please respect copyright.PENANArAncb5OsYs
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那麼殘忍的我,他還愛嗎?還會在乎嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAZjgKo7uzF5
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「無論妳說了什麼,那都不重要,妳只要記得阿楊只有愛過妳一個人,而且從最初到最後都是很愛很愛的,所以妳不要顧慮那麼多,等等和我們一起去找他吧。」阿龍很認真的看著我。267Please respect copyright.PENANADHj3oJQuaZ
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深吸一口氣,用手擋住了臉,此時此刻的我真的很不想讓人看到我那脆弱的眼淚。267Please respect copyright.PENANAR6TdoNTj6R
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瑀從最初到最後愛過的人,是我,這我怎麼可能不知道。267Please respect copyright.PENANAYNOiswdnQK
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但是我要怎麼面對?我能為當時說的那些話後悔嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAP1KH8WEYto
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可是如果他真的像阿龍說的那樣沒有放在心上呢?是不是我就可以從這段日子以來的罪惡感裡解放出來?267Please respect copyright.PENANAalnVAUONij
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既然無可避免、既然是注定要我今天和他見上一面,那我還要逃避嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANAR0pVdMALxS
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擦去了眼淚,我把手放下,小迪對我露出擔憂的表情,而阿龍一就是用認真的眼神看著我。267Please respect copyright.PENANA8J8XNFOtdt
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「嗯,等等就跟你們去吧。」267Please respect copyright.PENANAWU2Xk9cR6z
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如果一開始就知道愛到最後會是一場空,你……還會選擇繼續愛下去嗎?267Please respect copyright.PENANASomVBg8saz
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