This is a set of two poems :3 57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd06mLPW8Xl
(First on love, second on heartbreak.)
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her tears taste like honeydew with a57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhuQTO2UDT
hint of extraterrestrial redshifting.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1g8mxJCvy0
she walks with the grace of moonlight57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdY1OsZgeJl
and has eyes like protostars.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo1yUNqtyS
she’s not quite up to societal standards,57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzp5eyUsir
and she lives in the future, not the past.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe49wPc6EFd
i still chase after her anyways,57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFtkpHqFyl
tail wagging, tongue lolling like the dog i am.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBfirxKZdA
CW: SH, body dysmorphia/body image57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFOvwHEFaG
who taught you to hate?
“who taught you to hate your hair?”57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1URjHsi08t
she did, with her idle remarks57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2ht1S3ABr
about how it would look better curled.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXj9AYWVUW
(i curled it into long ringlets.)57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcvxWupCOH
then she said it would be better short57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkggD8eLsd
(i chopped it all off with a swiss army knife.)57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0L9IYJRvQ4
it’s been bleached, stained, and cut57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHNjZ4kLJF
in all manners of ways.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHkYnKodlK
(still it was never enough.)
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“who taught you to hate your freckles?”57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRy7Z69hqG
she did, tracing constellations on my cheeks57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqroEc7mhHX
with a permanent red sharpie until it looked like57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxr5jfZ7al
i had wept thousands of scarlet tears.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUi3T1WYDh
(i spent all night scrubbing it to no avail.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uBwCT7exq
she offered no help, only a faint smile at my struggles.)
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“who taught you to hate your skin?”57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvBXsbo2yZ
she did, with her languid tongue and57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkx75f4hqY5
knife-sharp jabs. too pale, not tan enough,57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76njHSHqtk
she said, running fingers down my arm,57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYidHg0bf47
like a vampire, coming to suck blood.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswLXmd4nZw
(i dug my nails into what made up my outsides57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmg5AqAG1M
and tried to pry it off my very bones.)57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1ov5xAD3D
i’m was left with only scars.
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“who taught you to hate your bones?”57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgCnetfhJ4
she did in late nights spent curled together57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkLNwZCewi
in the back of my pick up truck, poking57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfsDE04M8u
and prodding at my body, saying that57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorrO0QG3sx
i must be pretty big-boned to weigh so heavy.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcppVW3thm
(i dug my fingernails into my thigh, peeling back flesh57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GQ8TuEFhq
until i could claw away at the bone hidden beneath.)57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfysHrcJh1
the hospital tutted and bandaged me up,57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvXdbE1cnR
and stuck me into a small box with a self-proclaimed57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQAK57SAEK
therapist whose only job was to make me feel worse.
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“who taught you to hate yourself?”57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLu1kgXJec
she did with her loaded gun questions57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SdxbKeOwk
and sketchy answers. late night calls57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7rHheh1t9
of ‘i love you’s’ and tired apologies57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjnjtGcJiD
when it was never truly my fault.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Sun5KkqKv
she taught me to hate myself.57Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJGbnPVmTu
(what is love if not another form of hate?)
