I’m tired.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpqS4GXRgv
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoHoIgOuQL
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBfVQWagx4
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCDZwrCEm3
to pick them up and set them back down.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfOE1AKrDs
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6npu1B6Mw
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitNBDEHYlD
like a normal person, thank you.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJu8j3okn6
I try.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBxW8VhqQd
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBctRFjbfWw
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBg5Fw653w
just barely making it from one place to another663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4URUOWfjN
without damage.
I’m tired.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EYQr5QYpD
Just this Wednesday I was driving home663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzB7B0v8BDk
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHf62C1avX
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5exVRChAF
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFYoRxM7jZ
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHc60Eyjf6Q
for those I’m not sure how to help663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDfYOJouCo
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJeuBvX5SB
And while I was driving down the highway663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuDsNeXZLQ
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDsruNoZY5
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUw7nM4waUQ
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4UGvBtDbu
collide with the wall, break through and destroy663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSn1iP5l2K
the other side.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBVNzXa0rR
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7u9TLEmCBV
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTVMgelbwB
harm anyone else in the process. But I663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvl7KK1svZ
didn’t do either, even though I663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKm4mgWHaj
got so scared for a minute663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq196GjXZay
that I would.
I’m tired.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBwgJvIFfj
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0z1V8XNrq
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bTxNymAvP
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCTclAV9KQ
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡks3hjkxyIZ
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZUGVsWejk
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLidPnjqFr
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfo4hUpPjJ
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoJzYey9C7
draw blood, but it was the first time663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcb28ElZWM
I had allowed myself to663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkKzEqM2t1
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2Mc0czipT
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQvIn39vAr
actually reach out and go through with it663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZtcBIW0uV
I think because I’m afraid of not existing663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxVl30epKY
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzDA9kcwAR
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ12kvptY6G
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZFpq5BIeI
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmJMLjp0w8
and give up. I have thought about dying every day663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjtcNYeSoH
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtB1WSOoSQP
go through with it.
I’m tired.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBRhFm2LWT
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87lwhD482x
for people to care about me when they should663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtwyQZWo7U
care about me on their own. I often think that663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OvBuAdAV8
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFs90pYr5Oe
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmmr9HAjtf
She often hurts me more than she improves my life663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZjcBgAzv4
but I’m too afraid to say anything because663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4iDUeNhQb
I need her. I need her to exist663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsJarWQdt9
in my existence, and I need her to663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5X9hCjWsMk
be by my side.663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aXQXBQSLD
But I’m tired.
I’m tired663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGbrrdGTJE
of being tired663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhL8eTczSz
in this tiring life.
