I’m tired.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeviRpdSZVX
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeCpfBuOa6
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpp8QMUkFy
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPPvnKQPC7
to pick them up and set them back down.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxISuRkxyG
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8G0PN3V6ha
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAJYEJH0dL
like a normal person, thank you.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjcDB5ZdFI
I try.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKEzMOw9w5
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEL8RdlEm9Q
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPjYOUOogD
just barely making it from one place to another664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNj75xLqAF
without damage.
I’m tired.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXUKpcwWAk
Just this Wednesday I was driving home664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqG8naERdhs
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzh4ayvEtv
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjrA71IGWL
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZRKvLnCre
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkJqRXOlUN
for those I’m not sure how to help664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjJFOI7Ob0
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0VSftD1FJ
And while I was driving down the highway664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8VYVZDtwc
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN9XGSmTpO
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkiYvTcRZA
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm7BWpmmfv
collide with the wall, break through and destroy664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xw72Mv4lR
the other side.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJX7PmnygM
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡei4Vs1NZ3L
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxya4OzrOUt
harm anyone else in the process. But I664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCopPXEzZdE
didn’t do either, even though I664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbJZlCSRRx
got so scared for a minute664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpbNl9RUoZ
that I would.
I’m tired.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaMErQXneK
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wG2jaw5aA
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gQ4c8moBy
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡze8weP5eBt
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNivqogzvZP
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp5Ka7rn4n
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHSXoNUdei
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9DV8VXun2
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtR9ErQbmQ
draw blood, but it was the first time664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwQEsv2HzM
I had allowed myself to664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuerWL838db
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1rEqjSCdA
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kLTVzUsyB
actually reach out and go through with it664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdTp341c9c
I think because I’m afraid of not existing664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cruRX2nAS
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe7MWeVckM
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFym87Mndd
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnfy5iwb0w
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dAwvwVcCt
and give up. I have thought about dying every day664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRBZyEyTkZ
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpGhX4Osjv
go through with it.
I’m tired.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkv0BkWYww5
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMq9QZ3rVBu
for people to care about me when they should664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSl7mdbH0h
care about me on their own. I often think that664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXd5wozDFRp
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPv3quUpEAi
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMTsMsmwVd
She often hurts me more than she improves my life664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDdXV3zh2L
but I’m too afraid to say anything because664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4D8sqKV4t
I need her. I need her to exist664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVibCklHkd
in my existence, and I need her to664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUacF05QZk
be by my side.664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl34LUh8fbh
But I’m tired.
I’m tired664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7ljp8boBa
of being tired664Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ftyeu4uto
in this tiring life.
