青年躺在剛收拾出來的火炕上,咳嗽地要死,嬴洛給他燒了水,生了爐子,叮囑他蓋好被子後,自己頂著寒風,帶著一條狼狗出門巡視。
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薄暮時分,她裹著秦嶺的風雪回來,叫了幾聲沒人應,進屋點燈一看,氣得差點背過去。
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青年沒蓋被子,昏昏沉沉地躺著,不停地發抖,手邊還放了本皮面的筆記,燒的水一口沒喝。
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一摸額頭,燒得嚇人。47Please respect copyright.PENANATT5liq1zAx
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她動作俐落地抖開那條破破爛爛的棉被,扔在他身上,去翻他的行李,想看看他有沒有隨身攜帶什麽西藥,結果行李裏面除了書還是書,外加一隻手錶一隻鋼筆一瓶墨水——總之一點能用的都沒有。47Please respect copyright.PENANA2Z95Ae6UxL
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提著煤油燈,她跑到自己冷得像冰窖一樣的臥室,翻箱倒櫃地去找本地新印發的赤腳醫生手冊,蒼白的紙上寫著蠅頭小字,她快要看瞎了,才看明白上面講的退燒法子。
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一般多用浸在冰水或涼水裏的紗布(或毛巾)擰乾外敷,也可用冰袋,每五分鐘更換一次,每次約半小時,冷敷後需揩乾皮膚。
冷敷的目的在退熱時,其部位可用於頸部,腋下及腹股溝等處。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEoqsUinIVS
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她去院子裡的水缸中鑿了幾塊冰,扔到麻布袋口袋裏,又取涼水給青年擦了擦額頭和脖頸,隨後閉上眼睛,摸索著解開他的襯衣扣子,小心翼翼幫他擦臂彎和腋下,腹股溝……看到這三個字,她心跳慢了一拍。47Please respect copyright.PENANAyUzNV6jGNH
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擦過一次,她又按照書上說的,跑出去換了冰袋。
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青年察覺到她的動作,咳嗽兩聲,睜開燒得紅通通的眼睛,看著她。47Please respect copyright.PENANA2MLpYhdMvL
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“喝水。”她重新燒了水,用碗盛了,向青年下達命令。47Please respect copyright.PENANA6h424cnXAw
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青年顯然聽見了,但並不吱聲,也不動彈,只是看她,喘氣像撕布條。47Please respect copyright.PENANAQc3BoqBaXH
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“成同志,你有什麼個人情緒,也得等病好了再說,總不能一死了之吧?”嬴洛似乎感覺到青年在和什麽東西隱隱較勁兒:”路走到這一步,也是自己選的,怎麽也得走下去呀。”
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“這不是我選的……咳咳……”
青年剛開口,聲音就被咳嗽堵住了。他只能閉上眼睛,歪過頭,流下兩行眼淚。47Please respect copyright.PENANAGIClV8q7B9
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“成同志,要是人人都有選,我也想去上海看看,可我也沒得選。”嬴洛看他可憐,勸慰道。
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僵持了半晌,青年似乎聼進去了,撐著炕支起上半身,接過了水碗。47Please respect copyright.PENANAWxZhE1jlum
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“這才是好同志嘛。”嬴洛笑了,困得哈欠連天:”一定要喝完,多喝熱水才能退燒。”47Please respect copyright.PENANAxNNV2e10nN
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青年聽話地喝完了,過程中難免因為咳嗽嗆了幾口水。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIGn4sYnvXr
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她仔細觀察青年修長秀氣的手指,又看了看自己滿是老繭,指結粗大的雙手,將它們藏在了背後。47Please respect copyright.PENANApr5H87rFX3
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青年沒頭沒腦地說:”我母親,52年,從香港去美國了,父親帶我回上海,三年前自殺了。”47Please respect copyright.PENANA4ntwGBOGAi
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“?⋯⋯”47Please respect copyright.PENANAEWbP1Vf1i3
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巨大的沈默橫亙在二人中間。嬴洛長久地住在林場,但對於城裡的風波也並非沒有耳聞。47Please respect copyright.PENANAwOtnaHb9iD
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知識分子總是不容易教育的,城裡運動了幾次,卻總是改不掉他們身上那愛好針砭時弊的積習。47Please respect copyright.PENANAX7aVlW06ku
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於是偉大的主席做出英明的決策,無數知識青年便自願上山下鄉,接受勞動群眾的改造。47Please respect copyright.PENANAm39pqpyYhs
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今天,是她第一次見到所謂的罪大惡極的”臭老九”、”牛鬼蛇神”,一個真正的大學生。47Please respect copyright.PENANANRda67dwvm
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“你受委屈了。”她看著青年狼狽的樣子,下意識地說:”這裡條件太艱苦了,和上海、香港沒法比。”47Please respect copyright.PENANA0zyNXlXjeb
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嬴洛也不知道上海在哪兒,但她猜想上海、香港肯定比縣裏還好些,縣裡又比這裡好太多。47Please respect copyright.PENANAMk95aBNpNK
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青年依舊睜著通紅的眼睛,深深地看著她。47Please respect copyright.PENANABOvocQ6Qqr
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直到下一輪咳嗽襲來,他蜷縮著發抖,緩過來後,又昏昏沈沈地躺著,嘴裏不知道念叨什麼。47Please respect copyright.PENANAiR19nNYwh7
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她又準備去換冰袋,青年一把拽住她,氣聲很重:”我⋯⋯想解手。”47Please respect copyright.PENANAzr51WKhSzs
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解手?在哪裡?好像也只能在這裡。47Please respect copyright.PENANArftgAAaVUg
她臉一下紅了,伸腿把瓦罐從牆角踢出來:”你自己來吧,這個尿壺是小魏的,她沒拿走。”47Please respect copyright.PENANA5tGDuhoM4i
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青年點點頭,扶著炕沿坐起來,晃晃悠悠地翻身下炕。47Please respect copyright.PENANA5tiBGx7x2U
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她看他站穩了,連忙躲出去換冰袋,不讓自己聽到男人解手時奇怪的動靜。47Please respect copyright.PENANAt3QcZ5VzUE
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“叮噹”,金屬腰帶解開的聲音順著煤油燈的光鑽進耳朵。47Please respect copyright.PENANAARwdRkxJ4d
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“咚——嘟——”47Please respect copyright.PENANA9c24ZwJtjK
她終於沒能逃過這怪聲,於是更用力地敲冰,想把這聲音敲碎。
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“撲通!”
一聲悶響傳來。47Please respect copyright.PENANAK9UKYQSrvo
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“你怎麼了?”她顧不得別的,一把推開破木門。47Please respect copyright.PENANACAJZRlfJA4
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青年倒在地上,腰帶還沒扣回去,那條棉褲也落到小腿下,頭髮散了,樣子很狼狽。47Please respect copyright.PENANAQrnZykJrh6
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“你能起來嗎?”她問:”要不要我扶你?”47Please respect copyright.PENANAVRelEj6nlP
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青年沒說話,深吸一口氣,兩隻手臂向上抓住炕沿,先抬肩膀,雙腿慢慢回蜷,硬把自己反撐著扔回炕上。47Please respect copyright.PENANAxUOZG0szJ1
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嬴洛嘆口氣,自己收拾了一番,捲著鋪蓋到青年的房間裡,兩條大狼狗也陪著她。
整個夜晚,她沒斷了忙活,幾次叫青年起來喝水,幾次給他降溫,一直忙到天邊破曉,青年的燒總算退了,人也睡過去。47Please respect copyright.PENANACfC1rxNxay
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她自己爬上炕尾,縮在角落裡,將火炕的大半部分讓給病人。47Please respect copyright.PENANAWUGHDvzVKl
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喘了幾口氣,暖熱了身體後,她終於懷著好奇,拿起青年手邊的筆記本,時而齊整時而淩亂的舊體字,夾雜著她看不懂的蝌蚪符號,一下子跳進她的眼睛。
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她撿著能看懂的讀,找到了“復旦大學”、“鬥鬼風”、“罰跪”、“潑冰水”、“遊街”、“肺病”、“高燒”、“有辱斯文”、“不自由,毋寧死”,斷斷續續的,破碎的文字。
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這段她看不懂:
ἐν παντὶ ἄρα τῷ βίῳ ζῶσι φίλοι μὲν οὐδέποτε οὐδενί, ἀεὶ δέ του δεσπόζοντες ἢ δουλεύοντες ἄλλῳ, ἐλευθερίας δὲ καὶ φιλίας ἀληθοῦς τυραννικὴ φύσις ἀεὶ ἄγευστος.
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慣於長夜過春時,挈婦將雛鬢有絲。
夢裡依稀慈母淚,城頭變幻大王旗。
忍看朋輩成新鬼,怒向刀叢覓小詩。
吟罷低眉無寫處,月光如水照緇衣。
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這是魯迅的詩,她讀過,但此刻,她覺得這些字如此陌生。
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筆記本中調出來一張照片,她撿起來,是一張被一分爲二的雙人合照。照片裏的青年拖著一條蓬鬆柔軟的大辮子,笑得很靦腆。
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照片的背後,用舊體字寫了一行小字:
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復旦大學,1965年外語系畢業留念——Amicitiae nostrae memoriam spero sempiternam fore.
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那一半是誰?是他的女朋友嗎?嬴洛看著那張相片,不知道怎麽睡著了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAMETqrk85VN
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