148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeEV0s9wz1
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIcg9EZxFo
和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKTmadv5HN
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RTvYDEysh
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzl4qlKKSuC
「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBrmw4P7yU
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSLCkA50Mp
「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaz01OEiG24
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6HpsMWfdz
這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkRDcOLlTO
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自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfyMTydz3S
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJ5StNO93X
我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjejguCPuM
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsG9PuSaqyz
我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy07yzwWJSs
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjKAYBM6W7
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡas6X2S61cK
人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXXjppAO2B
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeLBmXtQGt
想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxX6k7cmq2Z
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh3aKASZeP
爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTT6uxdZszq
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JFb6KuXfU
「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55Fx5UIFUZ
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHstNOv4fQZ
「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OKgJ71SRy
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdCh215BiE
Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxGg8rJQkn
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLi0FZJfayq
「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEdR357z0K
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JwoWAgO91
「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplDAo8INrk
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFSktj7R3H
我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ayZwWeHvf
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnL3NfWTxtI
腦中是各式各樣的幻想。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwQC8U591w
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfgFkuWVZi
如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeZSjm3FVO
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Cqs1awSl3
如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqqEswrTxV
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkdTGDlCGv
「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0U186Lmqf
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnCQhNePTb
「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzaB6S90dk
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdMmSS5cCR
「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGlFw74J61
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4UXCkLgMA
「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUtC0tmEMX
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEsuX4mdH1
「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3r4qZTe5X
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6WqLN5IQN
「點解咁講？」我問。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDEJZVkeHD
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CYAeCAxUB
「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ885d1NakDG
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeXdDM2eQD
「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LTWRZCJYs
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTQR0R3g6x
「唔會，我唔會接受。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rfRzF5Yoy
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJr6Jy4sG9
「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadVP7TR2el
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlF834xLEj
「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIh48RTaEtX
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBS4kAggoCQ
我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pqRAcbOtn
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPCVgYMynj
想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVNVQ9eNuL
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwDwUPag6G
「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfnBvyy3Gp
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRiSXcGdvJ
「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbe4Wgl2wa8
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsepB1NS0ZV
「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDdFSAjVXD
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHoNmyASQ2
Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwFt2ykDEu
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCR0GDqBWok
他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdVdvSEBFJ
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE180gLqQRj
我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPsE6d9YIP
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVumvGgvMo1
我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36Wf4Bya5a
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHIhgQVotH
婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqV2l6pHLr
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjcRFLJkcC
「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCgpT1yqPm
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfTukxdapf
「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmEG5uA1Pc
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIf3ErT1mN9
「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfAEhY4bKt
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI2Nzqiw2K
我為未發生的事情擔憂。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VFkEVElin
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbVlsmSwf6
面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMakj97aos
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiwN54iGNp
「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46MogqwoSm
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqANjuYxX8W
「無呀。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjL8sjHRudk
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpm02tqIY8O
「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkLC0pEXVs
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIB5xagsLU
「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2dQHFCg0d
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCu1OZsIQR
人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqiUoSg6JQ
148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7R113tFOK
難過。148Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJzFv7or0F
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